29th of December

6:36PM
At, NAIA Terminal 4, waiting for my 8:00pm departure to Davao City.. it's my first time in this Terminal and it's not so good here, Terminal 3 is a way much nicer.. I'm hungry and I don't know what or where to eat... unlike at T3 where there are variety of food chains...

7:10pm
I ended up with these sweets.. mocca javacula and carrot cake.. but I'm craving for something salty.. but I got no choice.

Anyway, I'm taking the Air Asia plane, I hope it will be a safe flight... this was my second time to fly with Air Asia... the first time was my flight from Singapore to Penang... and that was one of my worst flight... I hope, it would be different now..

8:10pm
On board. God, keep us safe.

10:15pm
Davao airport! Took this shot while looking for my sundo.

26th of December 2015

8:37am

Sitting on my bed right now thinking what if I'm on an overseas travel right now.. Thailand? Hongkong? Macau? Korea? Japan? Or Indonesia?? it could have been sweeter.. I felt like I wasted the holidays.. it could have been a great time to escape on the real world for a while, I must be strolling around somewhere, eating new foods, seeing new places, meeting different races..... now I'm imagining things.. somebody slap my face.. haha! My fault, I should have stole some of my hectic schedules to book and plan a trip somewhere.. 

On the good side of it.. yes, I had learned to look at the good side of every situation I am encountering.. maybe my holidays weren't wasted at all.. last Thursday, though I spent my time sleeping and watched movies all day, I can say I needed that.. Yesterday, I got myself exhausted by shopping.. literally! I went there and there.. bought something for myself and for my family (would serve as my pasalubong in participation of my brother), since I will be going home this coming week.

Today.. Later, will be Mac's wedding day.. I'm kinda hesitant to attend because Marj and Margaux have their other appointments, Mela is uncertain because she's a bit unwell and me? I have no reason not to go... I filed a leave today with a reason that I will be attending a wedding... And long time ago, Mac told me to save a Leave for his wedding so I can go, and I said yes.. And I should keep that... isn't this was one of my consideration too why I wasn't able to book a flight somewhere??  so now, I must go there... Not because my  close friends cant come, not because I'm an introvert (lol)... then I would break what I have said too.. lousy excuses! I must go.  :)

11:20pm
I feel tired but I must finish this blog.. I didn't know what to wear.. so I had this.. don't mind the mirror selfie..haha

We arrived at hotel at past 3pm

The couple

I didn't regret that I attended Mac's wedding, when he smiled seeing  us around is more than enough to conclude that our presence matters to him.. I feel so happy for him... May their love to each other lasts forever.. because they both deserve it.

We left the at the reception almost 7pm.. We headed to a bakery recommended by someone.. and while waiting for our orders, we had a quick stroll at this part of Angeles, Pampanga.

1:03am (27 na!)
I may not know when "someday" is or how late that day is... but  I still wish "someday" before I'll perish, I'll be able to do the things I'd love to do, go to the places I always dream of... and be with the people I wish I could be with.. Good night!

24th of December 2015

6:05pm
I once said, that I don't wanna stare at the moon again... but what can I do when it's just right there in front of my window?

7:11pm
What am I suppose to do with this one whole chicken all by myself?! Haha... I was thinking of buying just a half of it.. but unfortunately, they are selling only a whole of it.. not even chopping it, maybe because it's christmas tomorrow... I just hope my brother would help me eat this.. haha

8:27pm

I'm actually enjoying watching The Good Dinosaur! 

10:39pm

Just got a call from Lee all the way from Qatar.. and I had a good laugh talking to him..... and these messages, though I'm not celebrating Christmas..

10:59pm

I made this.. who want some?

12:45am

So, it's 25th now!.. I must be sleeping.. Sorry but a selfie is necessary before I sleep.. haha.. Good night!

23rd of Dec

Annoying!!! ... oo naiinis din ako sa mga di kaaya ayang tanawin.. kasalanan ko rin naman.. kaya ayos na! Di na ako annoyed..  hehe.. makakalimutan ko rin.

Anyway, I should be happy because tomorrow is holiday.. yey! Pero mas masaya sana if I had an itinerary somewhere.. next week pa yung flight home ko...  sayang naman yung holidays...  kasalanan ko ulit.. :(

This morning while on the way to the office, I decided not to take a taxi.. ayos lang magpa-late.. While on the bus, I was thinking of crossing the busy streets of Villamor, sana may makasabay ako.. at that state of thinking.. the bus stopped.. and there goes Mela! Tuwang tuwa ako nung makita sya.. parang ang liit lang ng mundo at ang konte lang ng FTI buses para makasabay ko sya...  wala lang, maikwento lang.. ang babaw lang kase ng kaligayaan ko.. kahit ang lalim lalim ng iniisip ko..  :)

Sa office, almost everyone naghalf day.. pero Mela, Glenda and I stayed a bit longer.. in the afternoon, we ate at the nearby Shakeys.. tapos uwian na..

Tapos.. tapos na.. inaantok nako.

GOOD NIGHT!

20th of Dec

This wonderful song before I sleep...

Meet you in my dreams.. my guardian angel.. (chos lang!)..

18th of December

5:50pm

It's their xmas party here in PP3 project... I joined the exchanged gift and even that awkward  game! And now they are currently still partying and drinking... while I am all alone in the staffhouse.. killjoy right? Haha..  I'm  much enjoying being alone here..

That's why I am so unlovable!.. I'm not enjoying mingling with other people na diko kaclose, introvert nga kase ako! Haha... although my other friends are still there, majority are strangers to me pa rin.. It will take too long before I'll get comfortable with them.. and I know exactly na hindi masyado maganda yung ganon.. kaya lang ganon ako e.. kaya kahit ikaw, surely you wouldn't like me.. kung pwede lang ipa ban yung negativity ko sa blogger eh baka wala na rin ako dito.. hahaha..  thank you for being so patient about me.. haha.... tnx tnx! Kahit pa parang sarili ko lang kausap ko dito...  but I'm not crazy...

9:54pm

Good night!

16th of Dec

I miss my bed!! Two straight nights in our staffhouse... kaya namiss ko dito...  I haven't had a good night sleep last night... parang oras oras akong nagigising, namamahay ako pero okay na rin yun... ang hirap daw bumyahe kagabi!

Anyway, Mela and I met madam at Glorietta after work.. namiss ko rin dun.. lahat na lang namimiss ko... hehe..

Makwento lang to: I was sitting on a bench waiting for Marj and Mela kanina when a guy passed by telling me "wag ng malungkot"... what???? Ako ba kausap non? Haha. Late reaction na ko.. siguro bugnutin at wala sa mood yung pagmumukha ko kanina...Naalala ko nung college, a stranger told me the same thing... I don't exactly remember his words.. parang "smile naman jan".. I was walking on a covered walk nung nasalubong ko sya... nasabi ko rin nun, ako ba kausap non??? Haha.. now, I'm wondering... how do I really looked like kapag mga ganon moments.. haha

Anyway, I missed saying my unspoken messages to some people... so here we go again ..

1.  I'm still not comfortable being with you, pero kelangan talaga kitang pakisamahan..  hindi man ako maging kasing vocal, kasing ingay mo but  I wont let you make me feel down.. 

2. Sensya na! I really can't be like that... kaya dimo siguro gusto yung presence ko... sensya na talaga.. sana dimo maisip na unprofessional ako.. ganto lang talaga ako.. in time... (if may time).. you'll realize that I deserve (what I should deserve).

3. Ako pa rin to. Pagod lang minsan...

4. I miss you to the moon back! Chos lang.. pero totoo.. sana alam mo.. pero syempre dimo malalaman, walang parang para malaman mo.. at dimo na kailangang malaman dahil di mo rin gugustuhing malaman.. gulo ko noh? 

5.  E di wow.. hehe

6. Thanks for always being there.. kahit you are so annoying sometimes... thanks for not changing kahit soon magbabago na buhay mo... you're one of those few good friends I will always treasure...  naaappreciate ko yung concern mo saken.. kahit minsan nakakairita.. naappreciate ko yung alam mong di ako okay kahit wala akong sinasabi... to your new life's turning point.. I wish you happiness! HBD! 

Yun lang.. haha.. Good night!

15 today! alam ko.

Hey... I missed blogging.. I had missed to say too many things... just got busy.. ..  I'm at the staffhouse now... yah, kinda stranded.. although I already have my space here.. I started sleeping here last night... uuwi sana ako tonight kaya lang hassle.. kaya ganon.. yun lang muna.. namimiss na kita.. namimiss ko ng gawin ang kaartehan kong to.. hehe..

sige good night!

Define Haggard!

THIS!

9th of Dec

6:20am

Got to blog this, my first time to arrive at commercial department today as the earliest bird... and you know why?? Because I was kinda tired of doing the transportation routine I've been enduring  everyday.. I had a slight headache this morning so I decided to take a taxi!.. imagine that, if I didn't take the taxi... surely I wouldn't be here by now, I must be late already... probably I'll arrive here at 7:20am.. hmmm, pag nagtaxi naman ako araw araw eh baka maghirap ako.. haha

Anyway, before I'll forget this, I have to tell you the heart melting story of the taxi driver this morning.. He was really old, the taxi looked too old too.. maybe that's what his company offered him.. He was 72... He said, he was once a gardener and trained by his boss to drive... later on he became the family driver...  He had a girlfriend and they eloped... after that,   he became a taxi driver.. They had one child, a daughter.. (fast forward).. Their daughter met a business man.. and offered them an apartment and everything they need, in short, a good life... According to him, that was his first time he tasted a sort of wealthy living... He had 3 grandchildren and one on the way.  But maybe it's true that good things come to its end.. The business man died... and they found out that he was married to someone else... everything was confiscated from them... The daughter who was pregnant at that time for the fourth child got ill... After she bore the child, she was brought to the mental hospital because of her mental illness, depression maybe... Now Mr. Driver and his wife are raising the kids... He went back to driving ... --- the end---

He told me all of that for just around 15 minutes! And I may sound gullible... or his story may not be true... but I think a 72 year old man should be resting at his home now... my heart breaks.

Di ko nanaman alam anong date ngayon

When you seem to be the most deep and yet so shallow person too, tingin ko ganon ako... Mababaw lang kaligayahan ko, kasing babaw din ng mga bagay na nagpapalungkot saken.... chos!

When it seems that I have all the answers and the questions to everything.. magulo ba?? Ako rin yun, magulo...

I was one of the most tired person in the world yesterday... I went to Antipolo after work, first time ko makapunta dun, it's where my friends new apartment... Yung sakayan sa Cubao, ang haba pala ng pila dun for van.. I was upset, gusto ko wag na tumuloy, pagod na kase talaga ako.. then I saw this vendor walking around holding a box of bottled water... then I told myself, arte ko naman, malamang mas pagod pa sya... baka gutom na rin.. kaya nagtyaga na lang ako..

After a while on our way to Antipolo, we came into a higher spot where the entire Metro Manila is overlooking, ang ganda! The bright lights seem to ease away my exhaustion...

Then, at my friend's place.. had a delicious dinner... ang sarap ng toasted fried chicken.. nagugutom tuloy ako ngayon.. she cooked beef steak too, delicious too...

I slept there and I woke up with weird dreams.. as in bakit ko napapanaginipan yun???? In real life, napapagod ako, pati ba naman sa panaginip?.. haha..

Anyway I booked a flight to davao too, I told my mom na sunduin na lang nila ako dun, hassle magcommute... 4 to 6hours din kaya yung Davao City from home... para maiba naman yung airport ko.. hehe... The tickets I got (MLA-DVO and CBO-MLA) are kinda expensive din, di na ako nakaavail ng promo kase malapit na yung flight, di ko sana balak umuwi, kase I'm planning to go somewhere.. eh nabusy ako.. di ko masyado naasikaso.. tsk tsk.. napamahal tuloy ako sa ticket pauwi.. Never mind, pera lang yun... we can always earn it pero yung moments mahirap ma earn yun.. chos!

Naku dapat matulog na ako.. need to wake up early.. I've been late for work for consecutive days now.. I'm trying the other route tomorrow going to PP3.. I asked Jay r to wait for me at MRT Taft.. kaya matutulog na ako..

GOOD NIGHT! I hope no more nightmares..

4dec15

Reminder to Self:

I should remind myself not to care too much about what people think about me.. I should stop trying on reading their minds. It shouldn't be an issue, so no point of stressing ourselves..  coz in everything we do, no matter  how hard we try, there will always be people who will only see the bad side of us... people who will only focus on the things we're not able to do... we shouldn't care! Because if people dislike us, no matter how we explain, they wont understand.

3rd Day of December

If I would write a typical diary today, it would be this:

Woke up with a message from someone, just sharing her sentiments about  a petty fight with our common friend... I told her they will be okay... and I asked the other friend what went wrong as if I'm a referee..  hehe.. just tried my part as a friend in how to resolve the issue though  I'm not good at fixing things like that.

Headed to PP3... and I was two minute late because I had a hard time in taking the bus at Guadalupe EDSA ( I think mabilisan talaga mga bagay bagay dun... tapos lalampa lampa pa ako.. haha)

Today, we submitted the compilation of close out documents of our D.Primea Project, dugot pawis ko rin inalay ko dun matapos lang ah!

Then.... Worked.. worked... worked... nasa PP3 nga ako kanina but all my accomplishments for today were for Primea... the piled subcon billings and charges... the pumpcrete rental charges na sobrang tagal na pala non.. because some of it was signed by people na nagresign na... diko na maverify pa kung served and unpaid ba talaga mga yun... pero I processed it pa rin.. as per Mac okay na yun.. endorsed ko na! Speaking of Mac.. it was his turn to treat me for the merienda time, so at around 4pm, we went out to 7-11 nearby..  yes, okay lang labas pasok dun sa kanila..

At 5:30pm... I told jay r that I will go out with them... so jardine, Paulo and Jay r are my kasabay pauwi.. they're making fun of me because I told them my hardship this morning just to take the bus... that around 3 or 4 FTI buses passed me by before I got too lucky to lift at one.. sabi ko sa kanila, "bat ganon, ayaw huminto nung bus sa harap ko? Ang hirap sumakay!, late tuloy ako".... they said while laughing "hindi yan katulad sa kaharian  ng Mindanao, di hihinto yun.. hahabulin mo".... what???? Hahahah...  sorry naman, lampa lang!.. I will work it out.. ahaha.. They were suggesting another route which I believe na complicated din,  I was also talking a lot of complains regarding the distance of our project site at sa walang katapusang lakaran sa place na yun marating lang... masasanay din daw ako... .. hmmmp... + sigh... sana nga... ;)..  I will be okay!

Then we took the MRT... then I alighted at Guadalupe station... dinner at Mac do.. bought Choco mousse cake at Goldilocks.. chat my friends.. watched t.v.. ate the cake.. and that's all.

Signing off!  Good night!

1st of December

We've watched A Second Chance... and I can say it's a beautiful movie as everyone surrounds me cried...  but not me!! Congratulate me... sabi ko kase, ano naman nakakaiyak jan?? Eh happy ending naman yan.. yung iniiyakan ko lang eh yung mga sad ang ending.. haha!.. di naman kase ako nakakarelate, yung mga ganong kwento eh sa movies lang or for the few chosen people.. mas nakakarelate pa nga ako sa mid finale nung Walking Dead kanina.. yung tanaw lang ni Glenn si Maggie from afar, he couldn't helped her because there were zombies all around... ganon yung kwento ko, maraming zombies sa paligid.. corny na!

Back to " A Second Chance" I was convinced to watch it because it's intriguing... I even watched the first part yesterday.... kase I couldn't even remember kung napanuod ko ba yun... parang yung start and ending lang yata napanuod ko noon.. haha.. nasan ba ako non? everyone's talking about it kase.. naintriga lang.. pero infairness naman eh maganda naman.. naiiyak sila... ako? Hindi talaga eh.. iyakin din naman ako sa mga movies, it's just that... I don't want anyone see...  I don't want anyone  knows na mababaw din luha ko..  hehe

Anyway, ilang araw ko ng gustong magkwento na kung ano lang.. kaya lang... uninspired ako.. chos lang! As if naman inspiring mga pinagsusulat ko when in fact I'm only downgrading myself by writing everything about me... lam mo na... I'm just being honest with myself, with you.. kahit pa nagiging worst din ako sa paningin mo.. kaya lang.. di ka naman makapagreklamo kase isa ka lang dakilang nobela.. thanks na rin ha! At anjan ka para damayan ako sa pagkilala sa worst side of me...and the worst side of me remains here.. hehe.. teka lang.. I just need to get down from my bed and cover the window.. nadidistract ako sa buwan. It looks creepy.. ayoko na sya nakikita.. may masamang nangyayari kapag tumitingin ako sa buwan ng matagal.. hahaha... sorry.. nagiging horror nanaman ako.

Ayan.. nga pala.. gusto ko rin ikwento na I think I lost one of my favorite jeans... I picked up my laundry last last night... and just checked it this morning  and realized one of my jeans was gone.... actually matagal na akong nawawalan ng shirts but I didn't really care, napapansin ko lang kase kapag  hinahanap ko na.. but this time... ayoko palampasin na walang gawin.. so I texted the laundry shop.. kahit pa alam kong I cannot have it back... i will move on kaya lang they should be informed din na being careless is not okay... I should have transferred to another shop nung naglipat bahay kami kase medyo malayo na sya.. kaya  lang, may loyalty issue ako, di ko alam bat ganon ako... parang ang hirap ng pagbabago saken...  haha..

Ang dami ko pang sinasabi..late na pala.

Good night!