02 Feb 2019
I've been so desperately wanting to see Japan. The Sakura / Cherry Blossom in particular, so I am making this Japan project possible.
15 Feb 2019
I got my visa. I had a roundtrip ticket too which is considered expensive, but I told you I'm desperate about this. I'm both excited and tense because I'll be doing it solo. My friend whom I supposed to travel with got so busy she can't make it anymore. I also asked my college friends in Singapore if they want to join me, they'd love to but due to some circumstances, they cant... that saddened me, but I'm going to do it.
19Feb19
Excited and fretting.
1March19
I'm teary eyed! maybe I really cried... haha.. I'm watching something emotional right now though I'm not sure if thats what really made me a crybaby right now.. haha... or maybe it's about my upcoming trip... A month now and I'm bound to see Japan, InshaAllah. Travelling solo is something I really wanna get through with but it scares me too... Not that I'm not used to be alone ( I'm always alone.. haha) but it's a foreign country, a first world country( tama diba?), and I'm from the third world.. Actually, I'm not really scared of getting lost, I trust myself I'll find my way no matter what, but what terrifies me is getting sick there... I'm not really a sickly person (mukha lang hehe), I'm just paranoid... but I don't know anyone from there.. I'm too anxious I'll get too nervous it would make me sick..
Anyway, why am I doing this, Despite me being so worried still pursue this? Because I really want to see the Sakura Trees!... I wanna be strong coz I wont have anyone there to cling on... I wanna know myself better, what I can do and what I cannot. I wanna be independent... I want to know how it can be liberating to travel solo. I wanna be proud of myelf.. I want to justify that I can be happy even if I'm alone... I want to prove that Introverts could do this too... and I wanna smile to strangers.. I want to take their photo so they could take mine (hahaha).... who would take my photo if I wont??.. I want to tell those people who didn't believe in me that they were wrong...
there's so much in life that could break our walls and put us down.. I'm fragile at times.. I need to level up.
So this Japan project.. Inshaallah will come true.
12March2019
I've been having dreams recently about my upcoming trip to Japan, it wasn't really a positive dream because it's all about forgetting things. My first dream was - I forgot to pick up my passes in Kansai Airport, weird though, coz how did get to the city without the passes? haha, Last night, I dreamt that I left my luggage at home that I need to go back and I might be late... Then I had a dream too of doubting if I took the right train... hahahaha.. why am I dreaming of these? excited? terrified? Hope it wont happen, I'll try to avoid that to happen.
Anyway, one thing I fear about travelling is the plane rides, yap I have this flight anxiety that keeps on ruining my excitement everytime I travel...errr… On my planning of Indonesia trip last year, the Lion Air crashed a month before our trip. And now it's happening again, an Ethiopian plane crashed too last Sunday. This is really a sad news and all we can do is to pray for their souls and the courage for their bereaved family.
27March2019
Now finally, one week more. Still frightened a bit but I'm getting confident now. I've learned about Japan. I've read a lot and watched so much of Vlogs. I think I'm going to survive now.. haha.. It's like I'm taking a Board Exam... and stepping my feet in Japan for real is the actual exam.. that if I come back safe and sound, then I passed! haha
1April2019
Woke up so early and couldn't sleep back. . Its the jitters maybe. Haha. I hope and pray that I'll get through this, not much of air turbulence on my flights, no immigrations issues, no sickness, no earthquake (know it's common in Japan...
3April2019
7:23am so this is it, waiting for my boarding.. I'm praying for a successful and safe flight.
April 18, 2019
Sorry for the very late update, anyway my travel was so successful I'm going to write about it on my next post.
