9.12.25

 I want to write something... but i don't know why it's too hard doing that nowadays... 

my 4th of June Thoughts

Sometimes I miss writing, but I'm too lazy to write... If only my thoughts can be transcribed directly in this page, then I will. 

I wanted to write about my trip to Dubai and Abu Dhabi as I missed my travel blogs. It's been a month since I visited the UAE, and the obstacles I've been through before it came true and the experience itself is worth writing, but as I've said, I'm lazy... lol

I wanted to write how pressured I am in my current job, torn between being good but martyr, and "just do what I can with the given time and resources, no pressures.".... I wanted the latter , but sometimes I'm exceeding to that, lol.

missing Aya, always

 missing Ayah, our dear father, so much.. it's been a year since he left, but the pain will never heal... remembering him always makes me cry... seeing his old laptop on the glass shelve, breaks my heart. I remembered him so patiently working there, despite me being so impatient that his laptop is too slow, but he was so patient.. Seeing his phone that my little nephew is now playing with.... i clearly remember him using it.... by just writing this... its making me cry... Yah Allah, please position him in your paradise... I miss him so much