12March17

I have lots of thoughts to write kanina.. pero ngayon.. inaantok na ako..  so just this will do.

8:50am

11:30Pm

yes, I'm staying this late because I just love Kisses of PBB..  Good night!

Mean but not so mean

I've got to post this... me being so mean.. But not really mean.. just quiet mean...

1. When I was a little girl, I was diagnosed with some kinda of Heart Disease but later on it was cleared and I got well. (I hope so)..  My parents were advised by my doctor that I shouldn't get into a situation where I would feel mad and depressed.. So it became an excuse for my brothers not to bully me, they must be so envious then! haha.. di kase nila ako pwede awayin... and I was even exempted in heavy task in our school, hindi ako kasama sa "cleaners of the day"... so my classmates might be envious as well..

In short, I was pampered when I was young... maybe I grew up that way.. yung walang mang aaway saken, walang pwedeng manakit ng damdamin ko!  hahaha.. pero syempre, as the years passed by, narealized ko I am not exempted in the world's cruelness.

Anyway, that isn't really my point here... maybe that just contributed a little why I am so mean sometimes.. but I'm naturally mabait naman..

I could remember telling my father that I'm torn between these two persons inside me, the bad girl and the good girl in me----- which ofcourse I know the difference... and he always tells me to choose the good side... and I'm trying.

Mahaba yung intro ko pero I've got two incidents last night where in I have to win over the bad side of me.

I was on a jeepney, with my earphone on, yung katabi ko ang likot likot! kung anu ano hinahanap sa bag nya or sa bulsa nya... I wasn't looking at this annoying boy... pero napipikon na ako sa panay galaw nya.. then I finally looked at what's keeping him busy, then I realized he's looking for his money, pamasahe nya, suddently, I felt so guilty... lalo na't  it took him ages to stop searching as if so worried that he couldn't pay.. Puno yung jeepney, kaya di na mahahalatang di sya magbabayad but he seemed not to consider that idea... I took off my earphone and about to start offering my help... pero the girl at the other side did it first, he paid for this boy while I felt so ashamed of my childish irritable act. My guilt pushed me to do something to pay off, so I asked him "hindi kana ba ulit sasakay? pagbaba mo sa inyo na?" I'm worried that he still have to take another mode of transportation and yet he didn't have any penny... but he shyly answered me that he's house is just where he would alighted.

Another incident is that, my auntie slept over at my boarding house because she will have a job interview here in DC for an overseas job opening (no problem about that), but she had two other women who came over too.... She just met them and yet she offered my room???!! I was hesitant at first. Knowing me, I don't like people invading my privacy especially people who are not related or closed to me...  I'm not selfish, (or maybe I am) but I admit-- I'm not good at accommodating people.. There are some who maybe disliked me because I didn't like the idea of having visitors.. (Yeah, I know its not really nice, but I got my price, I have lesser friends)... and my place is a mess too! haha..  I'm working on it. So yun nga, when my aunt told me that, I've came up to random thoughts. What if they can't be trusted? What if they'll do something while we were asleep? Can you blame me? is it bad too be extra cautious? Pero nangyari na ang nangyari, they arrived, and they looked so okay naman, pero wala daw silang enough na pera para maghotel or something. In the end, none of my thoughts happened... sorry for being judgemental, it feels good to help.

So to sum it, I'm that kind of person who hates people too (mean right?)... I hate it when they look annoying ( even they are not doing anything to me), I hate it when they are so loud, it hate it when they are BAD! ofcourse.... but my heart easily melts when it comes to people na.... basta kawawa.

18Feb17

Dear teh,

It's been a long time since I refrained from blogging, siguro naubusan na ako ng walang kwentang topic.. haha...and since you are my consistent at nag iisang fan at dahil din birthday mo ngayon.. magbablog ako para sayo!!  This is your story.. kaya lets have it started!

This is a story about a girl name Lucky... este Tiffy! haha.. see? wala na akong originality, namimick up lines na lang.

So, we met as officemates (charot), and if I remembered it right, sabi mo nung una, naiirita ka saken, because they are addressing me princess, and yet I don't look and I don't act one (wow ha!)... at maingay ako??!!... at maarte ako? anong klaseng impression yun? hate you. haha

and then we became friends, unfortunately! haha...
but seriously, I'm glad we did.. kase in this world full of pretentious people, picky people, no one would choose someone so boring, introvert, quiet, shy type, less confident.... maldita ( pag di kilala), masungit, nag iinarte at killjoy na katulad ko.. ahaha.. lahat na lang ng di kanais nais na personality nasabi ko na... buti na lang maganda!!! (hahaha,, oh, wag kana komontra, yan na lang ang meron ako. ahahahah).. joke lang, ... and sayo ko lang naman naaassume na maganda ako.. hahaha..(kahit kontra ka ng kontra) because I'm really not, I'm such a zombie dork..  I know!

Now, tell me? how come you still stick with me with all these negative attributes?,  add to that eh I'am being so mean to you sometime.. (madalas pala). haha alam ko naman yun, maybe because I can't be mean to anyone else, sayo na lang... sorrey!! sincere yan.. muka lang hindi...

Yun nga,  thank God, that He sent me someone like you, kase mga 7 lang kayo sa mundo na maiintindihan yung weird personality ko. haha...

Aren't you tired of reading my blah blah blah...? Actually I was hesitant whether to write all these since you've heard all of it many times, or just remain silent, kase ramdam mo naman diba? ahahah.. tingin ko hindi mo ramdam, kelangan talagang iparamdam, coming from someone who's not so expressive.. tsaka ayoko na ng drama this time. but I'm doing it anyway. charot!

Anyway, eto na nga.

Lets just reminisce why we became friends thru these photos... glad I kept them... at paulit ulit mo na rin nakita to.

We started as workmates...

Until you decided to quit. These were your last moments in our workplace.

So we still keep in touched... you never missed to join us in showcasing my amazing talent! singing! ahaha..

I don't usually sleep over at anyone's place, but I do when you're around..

Food tripping.. I'm still sorry for throwing you that piece of mango when I got so pikon because you were counting my pimples. ahaha.. I never thought I could be that barbaric..... eh, kase nag e eat all you can tayo eh nagbibilang ka ng pimples.. ahaha...

My travel buddy.. pasensya na if bigla bigla na lang ako nag aaya kung saan saan.. .. Lam mo naman kelangan natin magtravel while we still can.. and syempre who would take a photo of me pag wala ka? haha..

And we have more places to go pa... unless pag nag asawa kana.. kaya tatantanan lang kita unless you're married.

Our last picture for this post!! ... I've tried to put the horn on me kase  sa ating dalawa, ako yung devilish.. pero mas bagay pala saken yung angel.. haha... so pinagpalit ko na. haha

happy birthday teh... Love yah!! This is not your story pala, this is our story pala, pero ako ang bida! nyahaha

-Ash

14th of Feb 2017

Yeah.. it's 14th of Feb... and who care's if its Valentines Day... to some?! lol

but i've got rose here too.. Thanks to an officemate!

And that movie that has been  intriguing so long time ago.. Pursuit of HappYness... finally watched it. Amazing story!..

Good night+

Bye Sir J!

Today is the first day we won't be working anymore with our Project Manager because he resigned already.. and I feel sad, I'm so used to his presence, on how he handles things responsibly. He's a fun person we'll surely missed. Good luck Sir J!

5 Feb 17

I'm supposed to blog today... I'm supposed to write about our Samal Island Escapade last week end.. And also about the movies I watched...  or how I felt about my on going job... and how I food tripped today... but I hadn't write anything yet.. because it's late.. maybe next time...

But I've got a selfie here.. haha.. because I put some make up on my face though I'm not going anywhere.. Am I doing it right? haha

Did I ruin your night? lol

Good night!

2 Feb 17

hey!!!! missed me? missed you too... haha

been a bit inactive, not because I've been busy... coz I'm not....  I just didn't have the drive to write these past few days.. uninspired maybe? or should I say, just static! nothing to blah blah... or meron naman, wala lang sa mood..


so magbablog ako kase medyo feeling awkward ako kanina sa mga pinagsasabi ko during our dinner.. ang daldal ko na kase, masyadong kampante.... which I must not... ayan tuloy, haha... sorry! I hope they didn't take it seriously yung sinabi ko... haha.. wala lang naman yun.. I just don't wanna sound bragging... (i have nothing to brag about).

Sige good night!