QUEEN SEON DEOK ADDICTION

I WISH I HAVE A GREAT MIND AS THAT OF QUEEN SEON DEOK'S STORY WRITER... A STORY VERY EXCEPTIONAL, INIMITABLE AND FULL OF SENSE... TWIST AND SQUEEZE YOUR MIND FIRST BEFORE YOU'LL GUESS WHAT WILL HAPPEN NEXT... I LOVE IT .. AND I LOVE BIDAM'S CHARACTER THE MOST...

june30 2010

10:40 am..

watching inauguration of Noy Noy Aquino..

10:26pm

watching DIVA.... thinking about my 3 interviews tomorrow, one at 8am, two at 1 pm-- yes that's conflict, but maybe I'll attend the other one and other one the next day...

I hope something productive would happen tomorrow, not like what had happened last monday-- of course, how could something fruitful would happen last monday when I had 2 interviews I didn't show up (kasi malayo), one interview na hanggang pinto lang ako, pano, I judged the book by it's cover, dahil sa pangit ang pinto, di ako pumasok, and this recruitment office, they referred me into 2 callcenter companies (bakit nman kc callcenter?), I didn't go.

Then yesterday, I had an interview in a company, e praning ata mga yun, why they invited me to attend an interview for Executive assistant????

whatever.. Queen Seon DEok na...

 

;)

1:14 AM.... STILL WONDERING....

A-C-E

... nag-iinarte ba ako???

there was this guy, college schoolmate  (Ace) ng high school classmate (Belle) ko, ang katext ko kanina lang.. we started texting just last tuesday ata.... Belle gave him my number kasi magmemeet daw kaming tatlo as soon as ace arrives here in Manila, mag-aabroad kasi sya..

Eh, si Ace gusto nya sunduin ko sya sa airport at samahan ko sya maghanap ng matutuluyan this sunday... I told him that I would go out with him only when Belle is with us... parang d ata nagustuhan ang sinabi ko at hanggang ngayon, di pa sya nagrereply...

Now?? mali ba ako??? O.A ba yun?.. I dont know him yet... I dont even know his full name!!!! I dont question the possible friendship between as.. but we are not that close pa...

Hmmmm... I'm doing the right thing.. what now?? Diko pa naman sya lubos na kilala right??.. I'ts not that I dont want to help, pero he's still stranger to me..

kaya ace... sorry..

6/25/2010

I'm feeling idle and low today.. let's recapitulate the happenings today to find out what's making me feel dull and weary at this moment.

10am

on my way to SM Megamall to participate in 12th Metro Job Fair, while on the  Jeepney passing and inhaling the pesky and unwanted smell of the Pasig river (I cas say, it's dirtier than Rio Grande, it's just like a big wastewater canal), I had a thought whether something fruitful would gonna happen to me on that Jobfair... then MRT station to Megamall.

People in queue welcomed me, so this crowd is looking for a job, will there be one left for me???

As expected, Call Center Companies are flooding in the area.. When I stepped on to the very place, a girl invited me to apply in their company .... so being confident as I thought, I tried, submitted my resume, and had a very simple interview, just a short introduction of yourself, read a short paragraph and create a story out of a picture.... gosh, I will laugh at myself if I am the interviewer.. I had created a very stupid story!!!!---- So what do I expect???? I fail!!! Shame.. i thought I'm doing right.... I lost all my confidence after that, I want to get out of that place right away.. but I did not... I submitted my resume to the other companies, preliminary interviews and so on.... and now I'm waiting (in vain again??).

12:30pm

I had my lunch at Mc Do...  actually I dont want to eat then, i want to punish myself for such stupidity..  but I realized that eating is another act of stupidity... I'm trying another career path now because I'm not being successful with my profession... but again, flopped!!

1:00pm

While rambling around the mall, I ended up scanning books at the Power Books.. I had a quick reading of Katrina Herrera's (if I remember it right) Dubai.. It';s actually  a sort of her diary when she had her venture in Dubai, searching job.. At first, I was so glad reading her work, she's giving some advices about surviving and living in dubai..you know how much eager i am to be in Dubai as well... but after reading the book, I was a a bit frustrated, she's actually did not find the kind of job she's looking for, she was one of those disillusioned... but she tried working in Afghanistan... well I make it there too??

3:00pm
I left the mall...

8:30 pm
I'm writing this..

LIFE IS NOT A FAIRPLAY, IT ONLY DEPENDS ON HOW YOU DO YOUR FIGHT, AFTERALL, WIN OR LOSE, YOU'LL ALWAYS END UP TO THE FINISH LINE

when waiting is vain

It's unusual finding myself awake at this early, I'm jobless for more than a month now, the thought of it is like my heart being crumpled. Time is swallowing me so fast but I can't do anything about it, whose to blame? my fate?

Or maybe, I did a wrong move and I am being cursed for that.. maybe choosing what would make you happy is not that easy for me.

Do you remember that 3 week deal?? I even extended that, I'm still hoping for an engineering job. I need more experience!! ... but I'm dying! I can't wait anymore!! How will I know that I'm waiting for nothing anyway...?

Or maybe I am being punished for regretting my profession, who will not when you have this kind of fate??? there I go again.. I'm sorry..

So, tomorrow.. whether I like it or not, whether the other side of my heart tells me to be more patient, I must try my luck for a call center job... for survival sake!!!

So that's it.. no one's telling me now what to do... ofcourse, that would be my responsibility.. wish me luck!! oh, I forgot, luck is what I'm lacking... hahahaha.... whatever