LOL... yeah, starting this post by laughing out loud ... but not so loud coz I'm still in the office having my lunch break. It seems impossible at the moment to dream about European travel, but I'm badly feeling like I need it ASAP. You know, traveling is somewhat my happy pill, and I'm already done visiting my bucket list of countries in Asia... now I want to move to Europe, I mean, travel there... I'm so desperate, it's just that my budget for my travel goals this time isn't enough yet.. ahahahaha.. All my previous travel, I ensured that I had sufficient fund for that, not sacrificing my few savings... but this time, I don't know why I can't wait, even though I haven't save enough for this yet.
Why do I want it so bad, as in ASAP, early next year?
1. Because I feel too old, maybe if I delay it, I won't be able to go.. I'm already feeling so many sickness nowadays, just like now, I'm feeling a little dizzy Lol.. Observing my hypertension as well... Though I'm praying really hard to keep myself healthy
2. In 2023, I remembered telling my stories to my father, stories about my Pakistan trip. I was sitting at his deathbed, but he was so sick I couldn't finish sharing my travel experiences. A month after that, he passed away. Now, I want to travel in Europe while my mother is still with us to listen to my travel stories... (though she's against at me traveling alone.. hehe) but I know she's happy too in my every successful trip.
3. Because I need a break from work... well, I always need a break.. lol. My job and my position is somewhat consuming my energy everyday, busy or not busy. I'm not totally happy here, or should I say, I'm still having Monday morning sickness. I don't like the management, and my chief, hope he wont find this.. coz I'm happy everytime he's absent (yung ganon) hehe... good thing he's literally always absent... This is not the right post to detail my job position right now, but I may be anxious reporting to work daily, but I'm grateful I'm able to help the farmers/Fisherfolk... and I'm receiving my salary.... My salary, which is my sole source of income... hahaha... (syemepre di ako umaasa sa mga contractors namin.. hahaha,,, sa kaso ng Pilipinas now, you know what I mean).
4. And of course I'm desperate to visit Europe, coz who's not??? Switzerland is my favorite.
5. My life is too lonely and dull hahaha.. I'm only excited and happy when I travel.
Now why I'm hesitating?
1. Coz I don't have enough funds yet...I need to save more. Lol
2. I'm torn between performing Umra or Pilgrimage to Mecca first. But if I do the pilgrimage, it will take time too for me to save more than what I need for Europe, and I'm waiting for my sister for this.. Maybe in three years from now, Inshaallah. For the Umra (lesser cost), yes, if only my Mom would go this year. Coz, if not only for her, I'll do and wait for the pilgrimage na lang..
3. There could be more important things that I should spend my money on.
Hmmmm.. so what now??? What should I do? I hope the Almighty will guide me on this. Praying that He will allow me to travel more and witness His beautiful creation... Inshaallah
