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9:17am

Waiting for our boarding time. . Once again and what I am always praying for, a safe flight for us... hope not much of turbulence up there.. it's my nth time of flying in a plane but instead of getting used to it, I think I'm developing a flight phobia...  aside from the news of a plane crash here and there... my last flight from kuala lumpur was I think my worst experience... anyway, if its time then it's time!.. you know what I mean... coz this shouldn't hinder my passion in travelling.. chosera! Hehe.. see you home in a while.. inshaallah..

12:45pm

Landed safely.. though we're 35minutes delayed due to traffic at runway in NAIA...

Let me tell you a story  about me and my seatmate on the plane a while ago... I'm not that someone who initiate a conversation with a stranger, I was just answering his questions with simplified answers or I will just smile at him when it seems that he wants me to laugh with his stories... he speaks a lot about himself, even about his lovelife ... I just listened... I just let him say whatever he wants but I was discreet about myself,  and I lied  about my exact address. He asked my name and he heard and pronounced it wrongly, and I just agreed on how he heard it... and I lied too that my boyfriend works abroad when he asked me why am I not traveling with him (I guess that was just his way to know if I have a boyfriend.. or assuming lang ako).... then he shut up for a moment, I was thankful, haha!.. I think I'm rude. .. I know there's nothing wrong with having a conversation with a stranger, it's just that something is wrong with me... then maybe he noticed that I'm being terrified every time the plane moves roughly , he keeps on asking me if I'm okay... and I keep on answering him, yes I am..

2:00pm

Went at my cousins house for her graduation celebration.

10:35pm
Picture tripping with my sister is actually like a tradition everytime I go home.

Good night!

Haggard Day

Today: Dinner

And picture tripping... Actually, I don't wanna take a photo of myself today, I feel so ugly and haggard.

Goodnight!

Today's Words Left Unspoken

I miss doing this.. so here's my five unspoken lines to 5 different people.

1. I wont say sorry to you... though I feel a little sorry from deep inside. I'm a bit guilty.. but I should not.. it's the right thing I thought would be best for us. I hope I'm not misjudging you... and you wont curse me for that...

2. I hope it's really making you happy... The changes will make me feel sad, but it would be a relief if its truly making you happy.. don't mind me..

3. What we're you thinking?? You confused me, am I giving you a bad impression? It's okay.. I don't want you to see me a picture perfect one.. coz I'm not...

4. When will you ever get my point? There are things that are better unsaid.. yes its better that way! I know you want me to say everything I feel about everything, about how I feel with anyone...  I understand, sometimes, I do agree.. but people change too, it's either they don't wanna anything from you... or you'll change them when you say the words you're not suppose to say. It's unclear, it maybe not the right thing... thank you but let it be that way.

5. I saw something today that reminds me of you.. then I miss you.. and I hate the feeling... coz I couldn't do anything about it.


That's it! To this 5 people.. Good night!

Today, I'm crazy

Hey! I'm already feeling really sleepy.. but it seems like I have a lot to say kahit pa wala naman tong masyadong halaga...

Syempre, Monday ngayon, magsisimula talaga lagi yan sa Monday Morning Sickness.. yung tipong tamad na tamad kang pumasok... alam mo naman ako, nag iinarte pag Monday. Haha

I was evaluated too today... I was given a chance to contest my ratings... kilala mo ako, di masyado ako demanding... pero yung evaluation ko e yung parang so underrated! Yung parang sinadyang kelangan talagang icontest mo... parang, whatttt??? Do I really deserve that?? Hehe... or yung tipong sasabihin mo na, " are you testing me to fight for what I deserve?? ... and I did fight for what I deserve...

At the end part  of the evaluation, I was asked about that moment na umabsent ako dahil pinapaattend ako ng meeting sa head office.. I posted about that, naalala mo ba? Diko alam pano magrereact?? Pero natatawa ako.. I was asked if "not feeling well" was only my excuse, so I could not attend the meeting.. I was caught off guard, lam mo namang obvious pag nagsisinungaling ako, haha... I answered.. "I was really feeling not better that time but I can endure it, partly I really didn't want to attend, kase pang PM lang naman yun, pano pag ang tanong e opinion ng mga PM, e d para naman akong outcast dun, tsaka ayaw ko rin na baka masagot sagot ko pa si sir na ayaw ko umattend".. basta ganon yung point ng sagot ko pero sana sinabi ko na lang masama loob ko kaya sumama pakiramdam ko.. haha.. pero baka rude naman.

I don't know what I really feel, pero natatawa ako.. I was surprised with her questioning me that.. because the day after my absence.. i was treated by them normally, extra nice pa nga e! Kaya akala ko, grabe naman, di man lang nila nafeel na nagrebelde ako.. haha.. but this day, I was like asking myself, nadissappoint ko ba talaga sila?? Nathretened? Di ba nila inexpect na kaya kong gawin yun?? That was few weeks ago, pero bakit pinaabot pa sa evaluation yung pagquestion non... but its not making me regret my action....  I would still do the same thing.

And we talked about my QS again.. I told her everything.. yung mga reklamo ko... but after that, medyo naguilty ako kase medyo behave yung QS ko today... kahit papano naman minsan may mabuti rin syang ginawa.. mga 15% haha..  shall I feel really guilty?? Sabi ko nga, magtitiis na akong magtrain ulit ng Q.S kesa naststress akong nakikita syang halos masuka sa ginagawa! Di na nga productive.. Exaggerated pero madalas talaga akong mastress dahil sa kanya... dapat ba akong maguilty???? Yung patience ko abot ozone layer na pero baka yung impact ng actions nung QS ko e hanggang Jupiter kaya diko kinaya... haha.. sabihin mo na! Maguguilty ba ako??

Anyway.. 3:30  pm , lee called me he'll meet me... that he will be out around 5pm.. so I said yes, kaso 5:30 na, andun pa sya sa site nila... I was kinda naiinip and tired... so with my typical excuse, sabi ko uuwi na ako, maglalaba pa akong uniform... I think I sounded impatient... kaya ihanda ko na rin sarili ko pag di na nagpakita sa akin si lee... hehe.. tuluyan na akong mawawalan na friends... yes, because I am too bad, i'm driving people away.. hmppp.. okay lang, sanay naman ako.... ako pa????? Hehe.. kung ayaw nila sa ugali ko, di wag... ang sama ko talaga noh?? Tingin ko may sumpong ako ng pagiging abnormal today.... Hehe

And one thing.. mabalik tayo sa evaluation.. my recommendation was... " be sociable ......", see??? Haha

Sige na.. itigil na ang kabaliwang ito.

Good night!

22March15

Last night was my first time to sleep over somewhere at Malolos Bulacan.. we visted a friend who gave birth to a cute baby girl...  had also a bonding moment with her super kulit son... 

Before going back to Manila this morning, we passed by at this church that I used to see and read only in books and  to the old ten peso bill... ofcourse I didn't get inside since I'm not a catholic.

We reached  Trinoma Mall before noon  and decided to watch Cinderella.. it was nice but don't expect any twist from what you have read on fairy tales books when you we're young,.. And videoke time right after.. hehe.. and food tripping too... or should I say chocolate/mocca frapuccino too...  

I want to say much sana kaso I'm sleepy na. GOOD NIGHT!

The Unexpected Shoes!

Buying this shoes is a bit impulsive.. its not part of my plan or least not today.. my friend asked me to use my credit card in purchasing him a new pair of shoes so he can pay it in 3 months installment... to get that.deal, we must purchase worth of 5 thousand, kaya just like what we did last year with this same person, I bought a new pair of shoes as well so we could reach the minimum allowable amount... , kaya kahit di naman ako maka "Nike shoes" girl kase feeling ko naman di bagay saken yung mga ganong shoes.. hehe..  napabili na rin....

yun lang. Good night!

15March15

My day starts with this, 

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maybe I don't have to rewrite it, my first thing in the morning says it all... minsan I write a lot, hindi na nakakatuwa, nakakairita para sa iba.. haha.. 

Gusto ko sana sa bahay lang, watch a movie, do some household chores, matulog,  but it seems that I have an obligation to a relative of mine na ipasyal sya sa kamaynilaan... chos! Hehe so I met her and show her around Manila... kahit pa diko alam san sya dadalhin... what so nice about Manila ba???

So not minding the excruciating heat of the sun, I got this pictures of myself... hindi ulit nakakatuwa...haha!  Pero wala ulit basagan ng trip, sabi nila. Haha

The Poste Girl!!

Anyway, sorry for the annoying pictures above, babawi na lang ako sa mga sunset photos na to I took earlier this afternoon.. its beautiful! Di ba? Gusto kong maging makata! Haha.. ai, masisira nanaman yung moment.. lam mo yun?? The sun sets here and will shine at the other part of the world at the same time... di ba? Amazing??? Haha.. ang arte ko, may ganon ganon pa... 

I had a long and tiring day.. but it wasn't enough.. I don't wanna sleep yet, but I have to. GOOD NIGHT!