Would you believe me if I say I’m surviving the holidays not totally consumed by this world weariness? Was I joking on that? Hehe

I’m actually really bored, I’m thinking of something I should have done--- a tour somewhere outside the country, but I went so idle I haven’t planned that earlier, I was just thinking but never done something concrete. I never booked a flight, accommodation, not even listed possible itineraries and stuffs like that.

Or maybe I should have gone home… I should be chatting with my family by now, eating the foods I love and missed, meeting my old friends, play around with my little cousins, road tripping with my sister, giving my brothers some food tripping somewhere downtown and so on..

But I’m totally not! I’m just here in my room, just movie and food tripping, I should have gone out but I don’t know where to go, I supposed to meet a friend and might had some strolling, but unfortunately it was cancelled. What a dull life I’m having right? Hehe.. I’m not complaining, do I?

I love holidays but I hate it when I couldn’t stop myself from thinking of so my mindless thoughts.  But I won’t let it beat me… no way! hehehe 

5 things I want say to 1 person

These are the five Reasons Why I should hate you

1.      You fool around with me and I don’t deserve that!

2.      You used me to cover up your own heartaches, and you’ve change so suddenly leaving me wondering why.

3.      I saw the way you care for someone and you didn’t do a single thing of that to me… and you just let me watch it without considering my feelings.

4.      You broke a promise, it wasn’t really a promise, but what you’ve said is something I believed…. But instead you’ve done that with someone else.

5.      I hate that I couldn’t hate you that much… I shouldn’t be despising you, but I shouldn’t be disturbed with some thoughts of you either. Now you’re making me hate myself for doing this… and that’s why I hated you!