26March17

Today, I have done so much.... So much that I couldn't even write.. lol,
I guess I just have to leave this...

Yeah sitting on the floor, looking so serious watching that Korean Romantic Comedy-- Love in the Moonlight.

Mark this date! I'm not even sure what's the date. 22?

Scary? lol! Anyway these photos taken about 15 hours apart... Just when I woke up from a bad dream this morning and just now that I'm about to take a dive on my bed after a long tiring day, a day I controlled my temper and annoyance over someone.. And I survived! So, which looks terrifying, my morning or my evening look?

Good night!

But wait, I'm about to sleep... but I just can't because I found a new crush. ahaha

Maybe, I watch the whole series on the weekend. 

Good night again!

16March17

Watching Beauty & The Beast (all by myself), and the thought I'll be home tomorrow and see my niece & nephew (Insha Allah) is a bliss... Yeah, simple things like that is happiness to me.

I had a ticket to this movie I acquired from an officemate, it's a bit expensive from the usual price because it's a ticket for a cause.... a sort of an organization who feeds less fortunate children.

And I waited for that movie anyway...

No twists on the story, it's exactly what you read in fairy tales or some old version of this movies but I amazingly loving it. I'm just annoyed on how this people reacts.. haha.. I'm sorry, if only I could watch that movie in silence, all by myself, I'd loved to!! haha.. selfish me! " Nasisira kase ang pag eemote ko!" lol... I hate it when they loudly giggles and laugh and saddened, when I had said that there's no twist on that movie, there's no fairy tale that ended not happily ever after! so they shouldn't act surprised or something as they didn't know the whole story... (killjoy me) hahaha

But I just adored that movie.

Good night!

Which hurts the most?

Which hurts the most? To hurt the person you love? To be hurt by someone you love? or to be hurt by someone you thought loves you?

12March17

I have lots of thoughts to write kanina.. pero ngayon.. inaantok na ako..  so just this will do.

8:50am

11:30Pm

yes, I'm staying this late because I just love Kisses of PBB..  Good night!

Mean but not so mean

I've got to post this... me being so mean.. But not really mean.. just quiet mean...

1. When I was a little girl, I was diagnosed with some kinda of Heart Disease but later on it was cleared and I got well. (I hope so)..  My parents were advised by my doctor that I shouldn't get into a situation where I would feel mad and depressed.. So it became an excuse for my brothers not to bully me, they must be so envious then! haha.. di kase nila ako pwede awayin... and I was even exempted in heavy task in our school, hindi ako kasama sa "cleaners of the day"... so my classmates might be envious as well..

In short, I was pampered when I was young... maybe I grew up that way.. yung walang mang aaway saken, walang pwedeng manakit ng damdamin ko!  hahaha.. pero syempre, as the years passed by, narealized ko I am not exempted in the world's cruelness.

Anyway, that isn't really my point here... maybe that just contributed a little why I am so mean sometimes.. but I'm naturally mabait naman..

I could remember telling my father that I'm torn between these two persons inside me, the bad girl and the good girl in me----- which ofcourse I know the difference... and he always tells me to choose the good side... and I'm trying.

Mahaba yung intro ko pero I've got two incidents last night where in I have to win over the bad side of me.

I was on a jeepney, with my earphone on, yung katabi ko ang likot likot! kung anu ano hinahanap sa bag nya or sa bulsa nya... I wasn't looking at this annoying boy... pero napipikon na ako sa panay galaw nya.. then I finally looked at what's keeping him busy, then I realized he's looking for his money, pamasahe nya, suddently, I felt so guilty... lalo na't  it took him ages to stop searching as if so worried that he couldn't pay.. Puno yung jeepney, kaya di na mahahalatang di sya magbabayad but he seemed not to consider that idea... I took off my earphone and about to start offering my help... pero the girl at the other side did it first, he paid for this boy while I felt so ashamed of my childish irritable act. My guilt pushed me to do something to pay off, so I asked him "hindi kana ba ulit sasakay? pagbaba mo sa inyo na?" I'm worried that he still have to take another mode of transportation and yet he didn't have any penny... but he shyly answered me that he's house is just where he would alighted.

Another incident is that, my auntie slept over at my boarding house because she will have a job interview here in DC for an overseas job opening (no problem about that), but she had two other women who came over too.... She just met them and yet she offered my room???!! I was hesitant at first. Knowing me, I don't like people invading my privacy especially people who are not related or closed to me...  I'm not selfish, (or maybe I am) but I admit-- I'm not good at accommodating people.. There are some who maybe disliked me because I didn't like the idea of having visitors.. (Yeah, I know its not really nice, but I got my price, I have lesser friends)... and my place is a mess too! haha..  I'm working on it. So yun nga, when my aunt told me that, I've came up to random thoughts. What if they can't be trusted? What if they'll do something while we were asleep? Can you blame me? is it bad too be extra cautious? Pero nangyari na ang nangyari, they arrived, and they looked so okay naman, pero wala daw silang enough na pera para maghotel or something. In the end, none of my thoughts happened... sorry for being judgemental, it feels good to help.

So to sum it, I'm that kind of person who hates people too (mean right?)... I hate it when they look annoying ( even they are not doing anything to me), I hate it when they are so loud, it hate it when they are BAD! ofcourse.... but my heart easily melts when it comes to people na.... basta kawawa.