29June17

1:50pm
again, on the saddest part...i'm here again at airport for a flight to Manila..

praying for a safe flight.

10:30pm
Alhamdullillah for the safe flight, I still have more unknown days to go through..

20June15

5:45am ( edited.. bakit ba laging PM nilalagay ko dito? eh AM dapat yan)

Feeling bad. errrr. But I must not. Still have to go to work today before I'll head to my 7:15pm flight to Manila...  Everything will be alright. :)

6:27pm

At Davao Airport,  waiting for a boarding.. Lets pray for my safe flight... Not much of turbulence please.

19June17

5:45am (edited...! I typed that yesterday PM instead of AM)

My alarm was set to 6am, but I've been awake about an hour ago... so it's Monday, and haven't felt the "Early Monday Morning Sickness" for a quiet long, but it attacks me just now..... Maybe because I need to go back to that place where this Monday Morning Sickness used to be a routine.... that't how I dreaded going back to Manila.. but I have to.

And ofcourse, I still can't win over that flight phobia, I don't know why I can't get used to it, as if 50% chance is something bad will happen when I'm on a plane... I don't know! I think I need a psychiatrist on that.. haha

Everything will be okay.

17june17

tadan!!

I got a new journal, a map and a lot of pens! More about it tomorrow, kinda sleepy. Good night!

Bad News Part 2

The bad news is confirmed, I'll be really heading to Manila next week...  anyway, I made a little editing on my previous post, I was so sleepy and feeling upset, kaya mali mali yung pinagtatype ko.. haha

Anyway, as I said.. i feel bad for being back to Manila for work... diko alam.. ayaw na ayaw ko na talaga dun.. ang traffic, the "other" people there... not that I hate them, pero diko alam, bat ayaw ko na silang muling makita pa.. baka dahil introvert talaga ako. haha.. pero syempre hindi naman lahat, I miss "some" other people as well...at yun na lang ang sa tingin kong kahit papaano ay mamomotivate ako pumunta..

at tsaka yung eroplano!!!! wahhh...

sigh! in moments like this.. it makes me realize that I don't regret my decision in resigning last year.. i'm a way way much happy here now.. happy??? hmmm... hindi ata yun ang mas appropriate term, iibahin ko na lang, im a way way much not so sad now... haha! kahit wala akong friends dito, just merely friendly officemates, ayos lang... on the other hand, i don't regret working almost 6 years in Manila,  I don't wanna entertain the thought of wasted time... wasted for waiting the right opportunity, or even waited for someone to see and talk to me even for a day, but that didn't happen... haha.. scratch that someone...  masyado na akong napapalayo sa topic ko. haha.. sorry... it may sound bitter but I'm not... I still believe that everything happens for a reason, gasgas na yan but I do believe in that.

at ang post na to ay hindi para itolerate ko yung pagiging nega ko!!.. aja. kaya ko to... kaya natin to.. sabihin mo namang kaya ko 'to oh...  haha... hmp! kahit dimo sabihin.. kaya ko'to..  i mean.. haharapin ko ng taos puso at may lakas ng loob (charot) ang pagsubok na 'to...pagsubok na agad?  oo! I'm gonna get out there and let the world know I exist... ang o.a ko ba? matagal na. haha....

Good night!

(So help me, yah Allah).

Bad News!

bad news.... yeah for me, being back to Manila for "work" is a big bad news to me.. I don't wanna go back there anymore! there's nothing that motivates me to stay cool when I am there... ( ofcourse, except if it's a stop over for some leisure tours only).

I am invited for a meeting for something and this time I can't find an excuse, since May, this is the 3rd time that I was requested to go there, but I kept in making excuses why I can't go....  I still have reason this time but I don't think they'd understand.

Good night!

What's going on with the World?

Yeah, what's going on in the world nowadays? Bad news are everywhere, the on going war in Marawi...  the resorts world incident, the London Incident, and so on and so forth...it's disheartening... oh, and Qatar too, my friend Lee is in there... okay lang kaya sya dun?? kahit nakakabadtrip yun minsan, este madalas pala, I'm still worried for him.. he's such a nice bad friend! haha.. You know what I mean?
... si Allen din pala, andun pa ba sa Qatar yun?

Anyway, what will I eat later? bread will do.. makakasurvive din naman ako.. I'm soo not in the mood to cook..

Episode 14 na ako sa Goblin, 14 ba to? or 15?? ewan.. But I have to turn off the TV. I must sleep...

And my upper left leg... masakit pa rin.. get well na please.

Good night!

June 4 ba ngayon?

Tadan!!

haha.. wala lang . just to annoy you!

I still manage to take a selfie despite my right leg aches, dahil muntik na akong maslide...

and him... errr... there's something about him...

good night