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This moved me much.. This scene took my breath away. :)

Japan, will I ever get there?

I don't usually write about the place I'm planning to go, afraid that I might not make it, I would feel frustrated.

So, that's it I'm really desperate to go to Japan.. maybe watching a lot of anime movies recently just triggered it... I want to witness the cherry blossoms, failed to see it in China and Taiwan. The most most recent Japan Anime I'm watching now are 5cm per second and A Silent Voice (The Shape of Voice?--not sure about the title).. and the Sakura tress are highlightened there... (I'm so desperate to see one).

I'd love to experience it solo, but I'm not that confident either... I've invited a childhood friend but I'm not really positive she's gonna make it, but I hope she can.  My mother would be hysterical if she'll find out Im going solo as if I'm 15.. Duh? Im 33!! yah, darn it, Im 33!! and I'll be turning 34 next month! it hurts! hahaha...  I'm a late bloomer, not so friendly I look terrible, an introvert, boring and pathetic.... imagine that? I rather stay home or yet out of the country rather than socializing, I'm sorry if that's a crime.  I'm guilty for not answering that call from an old friend the other day, that she might invite me for a dinner, I don't feel like talking about how are you? hows your life? why aren't you settling down? you're supposed to be this and that... I'm tired of hearing it.. I'm sorry... how could I refrain myself from meeting friends when I had so little of them? I don't know.

So, I'm having a dream of going to Japan. Can I do it? or will it be forever a dream.

What's stopping me? I know I shouldn't be considering that. Well, first, it's expensive! I'm saving for it but I'm being pressured by my family to finish my house. I don't know, I'm fine with our ancestral home, (do they want to expel me? lol) I'm single anyway, but.. maybe my Mom just want a new environment. At this point of time, I wish I had work abroad , so I could build my own house in an instant--- no!, I'm fine here.

2nd. The visa application.

3rd. I might do it alone. I know there's a lot of courage I need to pack, it would be my first time. Don't get confused with- me  wanting to be alone sometimes (and used to be most of the time).. but travelling overseas is kinda different story.

7.19.18

What in the world did I post this for 8 years ago? Am I inlove back then? wahahah

7.15.18

2pm
Hey. I think I'm forcing myself now to write.. it feels so kakatamad doing it pero pano na? Sabi ko, I wont give up on writing.. kahit pa gaano eto kasenseless.. pero bakit ang hirap hirap na.. haha... when I'm out or somewhere else, words keep on playing in my mind, sabi ko later, I'll write them.. pero pag-uwi .. nawala na sila. haha.. nakakalungkot.. eto yung sa isa mga bagay na gusto kong gawin, kahit di ako magaling, basta gusto.ko lang sya pero bakit nakakatamad na. I lost my number 1 fan. myself? haha..

So what are you doing lately?  syempre sobrang busy sa work.. it's easier, pero sobrang madami.. Ayoko ring nag oovertime kase mag isa lang ako. so?

Finally I have watched spirited away. nakakamiss ang Taiwan, gusto ko bumalik. I have also watched other works na katulad nung Spirited Away ni Miyazaki (tama ba), like Howls Moving Castle, The Secret World of Adrietty(sounds ganon), Laputa's Castle at madami pa. Nice kase.

7pm

I'm here now at Mcdo.. having my new favorite spicy chicken, fries and a flurry... Fast food chains once  in a week is satisfying to me... When I was in Manila.. halos araw arawin ko.. kaya dito medyo namimiss ko.. once a week na lang.. Anyway, this branch of Mcdo in Davao , near Victoria Plaza is my favorite.. I loved their choice of music here.. recently The Scientist was aired... dont know whos version is that.. pero ang ganda pa rin...  I love also the ambiance here...

11:30pm
Good night!

7.3.18

12.39pm

Maybe I have  to start this blog by just saying.. I want to write, I want to travel, I'm so envious of my friend I want to go Europe, in Rome, France, Spain, Ireland there and there, will I ever get there? O well, because I'm jealous of those who went there, I'm skipping my target to visit South Korea and Japan, next year? later this year? (inshaAllah).. but I'm getting there.. Help me! lol

I sounded desperate here, I was trying to force myself write an article since last weekend because I don't wanna lose my writing passion, (which I'm becoming so lame, recently...), I'm not good at it but I just love doing it.

I wanna go home too and see my nieces and nephew...

Anyway, I'll try tracking back things and write more on the the next days... it's 12.44pm, just having lunch break here.

Thanks...