19Jan20

I had a haircut but it seems that nothing has changed.. Haha

Me,  last week

Me today.

Dont mind my funny face.  I wanted it short,  but the haircutter said shoulder length wont suit me and will "fly away".. Choserang bakla yun.  Haha

Good night!

1/15/2020

8:33am
I dont know why I feel uneasy today like something's gonna happen..  i was expecting some calls and results..  Which I'm confused how to react towards it..  i'm on a stage of a decision making but the factors i need to consider are still hazy..  lets see what's gonna happen today.  good morning though!

10:15pm
I got a call. I got a bad news, yet to be confirmed. I had a headache, but I'm fine. Good night.

My Search for a New Job in BARMM

The status says 681 personnel were already hired..  surely those were the ones who previously work in ARMM.

Update: 1/19/2020
They have corrected the variance:
This is the current status now.

So where do you I think I will be on April 1, 2020? Will I get a position on this new governance? I know I might get a slot where my salary expectation can be lower than my current job. But I'll be accepting that because I really want to work at home. I want to enrich my spiritual living and appreciate my purpose.  Ofcourse I wanna be home.  I'm expecting it to be more costly there because I'd love to buy food and share bill payments with my family.  But that would be totally fine with me. On holidays I wont get confused where to go, Surely I could travel. Unlike when I'm far away,  I'm torn between travelling or going home. 

Anyway,  the timing is actually confusing.  Our current project in my present company will slow down or worst will be stopped for a year maybe, which means we need to go back to Manila (which I cant)..  i need to resign again if that's the case..  And I'm too paranoid that our area manager will call me anytime to tell me that.. Err,   i don't want to, but then again I'm going to disappoint him coz I really cant. 

But there's this hospital project that soon to rise here in Davao,  they said it will be awarded to us..  Confirmation will be at the end of this month.  I'm not sure if I should be happy for myself (but happy to davao hired staff) or it only adds to my confusement..  Haha

Its our evaluation period,  anytime soon my Functional Head will call me for One on One assessment...  And she'll surely ask me where to go next if the the workstoppage of our current project will  takes place..  Err,  shall I tell her I'm going to resign for the second time?? (since the Hospital Project is not sure yet.) Shall I tell her that I am applying a job in my hometown? ( what if I wont get that job??)..  Errr,  this is really stressing me recently.  Haha.. 

02.02.2020

I got emails from BARMM confirming the receipt of my email.. I just hope and pray that there will be no conflict on my schedules pag interview na.

2.10.2020

I have these notifications.  One of that informed me that I'm not qualified. I actually expected that since it wasn't really inline my profession..  I just gave it a try since I have a little background about the task... Well,  maybe it wasn't meant for me. 

2/12/2020

Yesterday, I had 2 emails from Barm.. for the position of Engineer  informing me to wait for an schedule of qualifying exam.. I'm just wondering about the status of my application for the position of Engr 3-5, will I be entitled/qualified or they have picked the lowest position I got myself into. 

2/22/2020

I had a text from MAFAR that I have a qualifying exam tomorrow, my head is quiet spinning now I don't know if I should take it.  It wasn't the ministry that I want to be part of but if I had no chance from the the other Ministry then this would be okay.  No second thoughts that I would take the exam if only the result will not be used to other Ministry. I'm not that confident yet to take the exam..  I wanna get a high score so I can prove that I deserve a position...  But I don't have any idea what will be the type of exam,  maybe  general knowledge... Shall I go home in a while and take the qualifying exam?  i pray that whatever my decision I make,  I wont regret it InshaAllah. 

2/24/2020

I went home and took the exam..  And I'm glad that I did.  The type of exam is actually to test our ability to "think fast"..  It's not even about stock knowledge, it wont make any difference if you review (civil service type of exam) or not. So I didn't regret it in the sense that I might conclude I'm not ready...  Coz as i've said,  ready or not,  you'll get a score depending on just how you think and see figures fast. 

Anyway,  in addition to that, I'm glad I took the pre assessment exam coz I just received an email now that I'm not qualified to a same Plantilla position to other ministry (the one I like actually).  And I want to appeal why I'm not qualified for the the position..  Shall I email why?? 

April 1, 202

I asked last January where will I be this April 1.. Whether I'll be on a new job or what.  Well I'm in my room due to the Community Quarantine,  even my resignation was postponed..  Job seeking related activities in BARMM was also froze. 

June 21, 2020

I'm currently home, I took the MTS exam in MPW last friday. I'm just so grateful I made it home due to travel limitations caused by the Covid Pandemic. The exam was a bit tough that you must have read about Managerial skills on Business type! I don't know why it has to be like that, I am applying for a government position but some questions is a little irrelevant, but I hope I had nice guessing to be qualified on the next phase Inshallah.

Oct 9, 2020

I just had Behavioral Event Interview today in MENRE which I think I didn't do it well..  There are technical questions that I forgot coz the last time I had thoughts about it was during college days... 

December 17, 2020

I'am being invited for an interview this coming Tuesday, December 22, 2020 and at first, I am glad that I am shortlisted, but at some corner of my mind, maybe they will just use me as a flower base. The position is some sort of a high position, and knowing the government? They have already cooked someone for that. I don't want to be negative, but maybe if I was invited for a lower position, that would be at least realistic. Ofcourse I believe in my self, I'm just doubtful of the credible process. But that still needs to be proven.

December 22, 2020

It's 2pm and im still waiting for the panel to interview me..  Its supposed to be 1:30pm.. But i don't know where are they..  Maybe they're not really interested in me..  This is just formality..  Anyway,  i'll just take this as an experience of being interviewed. 

December 23, 2020

Yesterday's interview almost ate my self esteem..  The questions were technical but basic and I was not able to answer them.. I've forgotten so many things and my experiences were too inapplicable to them.  i think I don't want to be Engineer anymore haha.  Come what may.  InshaAllah what will be mine will be mine.  i'm really praying to get a job that i deserve... And where I will be good at.

January 13, 2021

Finally the result of my previous interview went out, and as expected, somebody got the position. Honestly, it hurt a bit even I expected it coz it means  I'm not good enough. But then I remember my prayer that I wanted a job I deserve and I would loved, I don't really like that position, so even if I had it, I wont be happy. I just hope and pray that people who will get the position in BARMM will truly deserve it. Anyway, I'll have another interview this Friday in the same Ministry. I don't know how to face the Panel once again, I just pray that I will do better so I can regain my confidence.

January 15, 2021

Had another interview and I'll leave everything to the Almighty Allah, my QADR.

February 9, 2021

Had an interview in MAFAR, so far this is the best (or at least okay) interview I had.

Feb 19, 2021

I got a meeting with Mafar's Minister last feb 17, and i was informed that I am formally appointed. Alhamdulillah. 

Right now i'm at their office to ask about my credentials..  I'm nervous though.  This will be a different world from my previous jobs.  But i'll be just fine InshaAllah  because I prayed for this. 

1st Post for the 2020

I'm always heart broken every first day of the year because it means the holidays are over and I need to travel back to my workplace.  This is my longest straight vacation time from work ever..  Dec 22 2019 to Jan 1 2020.. that's why leaving home seems so hard to do. For the past 10 days, I never been anywhere but home,  just baby sit my nieces and nephews which I enjoyed so much despite that body pains I got in lifting and carrying them especially the chubby one...  We had initially thought of going on a Family Outing, but ended up nowhere but home.. we had food tripping, watched kiddie shows in Youtube ( I even missed to watch the Teleserye's I'm watching if I'm In Davao), brought my niece to the Hardware and bought some construction materials for the house I'am constructing (which restricting me now to go on travels, haha, tipid mode). These are just so simple and really boring to some, but for me it's one of the best days of my life.

I'm having my work application here,  if I'll be accepted,  then I don't have to be disheartened every 1st of January..

Anyway,  another year again,  I'll be a year older, I'm passed over midlife I think,  but that kind of life crisis is still hitting me so hard sometimes..  i'll be fine though.

2019 was really a roller-coaster ride..  Both happiness and loneliness strike me simultaneously. But despite me saying this,  life taught me so many realizations this year.

My father got sick on the last quarter of 2019.. it was one of the depressing and loneliest experience of my life. But it made me cling on my faith more,  it made me reflect on so many things,  it made me realize to see and appreciate even the small things I have and stopped complaining on what I'm lacking.. I became grateful and learned to be contented and stopped questioning my life's insufficiency. Afterall, life is not forever,  I'm not being morbid coz that's an ultimate truth, we can live to the fullest but be a better person for this temporary world and hereafter. We must be good and considerate to other people as everyone is undergoing life difficulties too.

So after being on the hospital for days,     Alhamdullillah,  we survived that stage..  My father got well. And ofcourse I'm not stopping praying for my parents good health.

I've been to 3 countries in 2019 which I am so happy about, no question on that, you know how much travelling curve smiles on my face. I had my first solo trip to Japan last April which I am really proud of, seeing the cherry blossoms for the first time still makes me feel blissful. My aunt and friends had our cruising in Halong Bay Vietnam last August, it was a nice experience too. Then lastly, had set my feet in South Korea last November, met up with my old friends and made us fell in in love on the Autumn foliage.

So while writing this, I'm supposed to pack my things. I'm just hoping that 2020 will be life changing the positive way. I'm not getting any younger, I want to be home, I want to travel more though hehe, at the same time I wanna grow mentally, emotionally, socially and spiritually.... shall I say physically too? haha

So that's it, I need to fix my things now.