24th of January 2021

 Tonight,  I'll be sleeping alone as I convinced my 4year old niece to sleep back to their room. She didn't skip sleeping with me since the first time she's been with me no matter how her parents (and me)  asked her to sleep back to their room.  Suprisingly,  today was so easy,  I told her that I'm not really well,  that I'm having a cough (which I really had)  I don't want her to get infected. She cooperated,  but I'm a little sad coz I'm so used to having her by my side. 

A while ago, just before this,  she hugged me and gave me a kiss (diko na napigilan eh,  di naman malala yung sakit ko haha),  she took her stuff toys, pillow,  blanket and told me "I love you Tati"... (so sweet,  I'm so touched hehe)..  But she left me these stuff para may kasama daw ako 

Ayun lang..  Namimiss ko na sya agad and not that I am scared..  My sister asked me kase,  am I afraid to sleep alone tonight??!!.  . Haha,  Nah,  I used to sleep alone before I'm finally home again. 

Good night..  

13th of January 2021

 "Good morning my beautiful nightmare

I guess,  I found our rendezvous, in my slumber

Do I have to write everytime you appear in my dream? 

It's the only world I can feel you

I wonder how are you,  do you meet me in your dreams somehow? 

Or would you even want to see me?

You're my painful  sweetest thing

Maybe i've loved you for so long I wanted to hate you

Or maybe I hate you coz I can't hate you

Believing I'll forget you if I'll hate you

Maybe i'm saying so much things that isn't right

You won't know anyway,  would you? 

One of the dumbest thing is to wait for something deep inside you,  you know wont be coming

I even waited for you to say goodbye, and you didn't,  so how could I still be waiting? 

Or maybe there's no really goodbyes for us

Coz we never really had something to end

Or some things just don't have ending, just like that." 

Run Free, my Garfield

Gonna miss this buddy,  our Garfield.  He was hit by a car yesterday kase nangapit bahay nanaman..   

It was heartbreaking.  Hinihigpitan na namin wag makalabas ng gate pero masyado syang maparaan...  

I'm gonna miss you my Garfield..  Rest well