Someday

 Someday,  I won't wait for the weekends to arrive just to feel okay

Someday,  everyday is a wonderful day,  I wont even hate Mondays

Someday,  I can do something new,  not being occupied with my job alone

Someday,  my job won't be a problem,  it might still be challenging,  but that day I know better what to do

Someday, my family would be proud of me as much as I'm proud of myself

Someday,  I'll be driving on a road trip feeling that beautiful moment alone..  Not disturbed with a job I'm so unsure of

Someday,  I'll realized why I had to be on these shoes,  that I'm perfectly deserving of this position

Someday, I wont fear the unknown. I'll grow,  productive,  contented,  grateful and happy.. 

Someday,  I'll read back this post telling myself,  "See?  i told you,  everything will be okay".

....and that Someday is about to come, INSHAALLAH. 

Tired

 I'm tired but I'm fine..  Sometimes I just need to write it away. 

I'm at the situation where I prayed for,  but I never thought it would be this hard.  I want to be the best version of my self..  i want to be valued .. But there were times I questioned if I meant to be here..  I felt like I dont deserved to be where I am..  I'm feeling useless.  i know I shouldn't feel that way.  i want to be good with what I'm doing...  But I can't..  Coz I'm not really that good for that.

My 9th of August2021

 Bukas na lang.   Haha

Someone saves the Day

 Hi. How was your day?

Mine was a bit tiring and rough but I'm fine now. I'm about to sleep. But before I do, I'm going to make some writing here. 

There's a point in my life today I wished I wasn't there, I felt stupid and useless. I could only dream that I'm good at some "things"...but I can't think of anything I am good at.. 

I'll be okay. 

I've recovered now :).  Coz I got a tight hug from my niece. 

Anyway,  Someone saved me too today, either he purposely saved me or that's just part of his job, it doesn't matter, thanks though. :)

I don't need to be saved by anyone anyway, I know my day will end the way it ends right now. But sometimes it feels good when someone saves the day even if your not asking for it. :)

Good night!

Monday Blues 7.26.2021

 ..and Monday blues still hits me.  That feeling of wanting to quit,  forget and just do nothing...  but I just can't.  

I'm not that strong,  not that confident...  Doubting myself wont help but I know I'll be okay..  

InshaAllah,  everything will be just fine. 

No matter how tough things are, still, ALHAMDULILLAH

 Alhamdulillah (thanks to Allah)...  For this very moment...  I'm lying on my bed which I truly missed. I've been sleeping in other house for a month to spend the Ramadhan there,  that's why I missed this room so bad.  I missed my nieces suddenly coming in and out of this room, they're my stress reliever. 

I'm still scared of what lies ahead,  but I must trust the Almighty.  

Right now,  I'm embracing this moment. I want to have more of this but I know it's temporary...  Alhamdulillah still. 

Monday

 Monday is so hard to face now since I've been absent from work the whole week last week.  But I'm praying,  things will get better...  And I may have all the strength and courage I needed for this life. I really want. To get over and get used to my work issues so I can face other life's crisis.. Inshallah..  Everything will be just fine...  

Rabbi Irhamhuma Kamarabayannee Saguira..