inis

medyo naiinis ako... actually naiinis talaga.. nakakainis naman kase pero hindi ako dapat mainis.. sayo nga naiinis rin ako eh.. haha.. kase wala kang magawa.. pero narealized ko, di ako sayo dapat mainis.. sumbungan nga kita eh. thanks ah...

okay na.. di na ako naiinis.

Remember me Every 9th of August

Remember me Every 9th Of August

I guess you're not learning

It's already 10th of August now

Haven't heard anything from you yesterday

I stayed almost midnight before 9th ends

I waited for you, And yet you didn't show up

It's 10th of August now, still no sign of you

How many times should you break my heart?

I wasn't asking for forever, only fools believe in that

But I'm asking you to meet me every 9th of August

But where were you? Did I cause you so much heartaches too not to see me on the 9th of August?

I'm asking for just one out of the three hundred sixty five days

Aren't you too selfish?

I think I'm not asking for too much...

Maybe you we're asking for more than I can give

That's why you might hate me so much, aren't you?

Or am I stealing one minute of your life because I'm asking you to call me on the 9th of August?

If only I could cast a spell that would make you feel how  sad it can be to forget me on the 9th of August

But I won't, you must be happy.

 --to be continued

my 9th of August 2018

Woke up today realizing it's my birthday.. at first, I felt like just wanting to stay in my room the whole day. But I need to work.

I arrived at office with my boss and our stock clerk waiting for me at the entrance handing me this flower.. It made me feel important.

My table. Sitting there made feel like those balloons would fly me away.. haha.. corny.. lakas maka "Up"

I dont want them to exert much effort, medyo nahihiya ako.. haha... but my officemates made me feel especial today.

I thank everyone who greeted me, my officemates , Waldo, Glenda, Krysta, Gayle, Joma, Paulo, Cedie, John, Aingel, Bayoy, Lionel, Ate Jen & LP, FBB, maam Anna, Maam Karen, Jonna, Rose, my old good friends, Mac, Lee Jeny, Mela, Marj, Teh, Belle , Amelia, Sajs, ate Bems, jegs,  my sister. ..at sa LAHAT NG NAKAALALA.

Getting old and an expiring professional license w/o CPD points yet may not be a happy thing.... but making me feel valued today is something I'll forever treasure.

Sa walang pakialam kung birthday ko man ngayon at piniling kalimutan ako AYOS LANG. :)

I set my B-Day private to my FB page then I realized,  no one really remembers me pag di sila niremind ni FB hehe  ..  Pero sabi ko nga ayos Lang.  :) 

I thank God for this gift of Life. :)

and this post just now.. made me smile... 

8.7.18

Remember that Journal I bought in NBS? That instant happy journal? I must have 1 out of 10 score for it, skipping a lot of pages..

 so today, , I decided to write something on it.

Good night!

Aug 5, 2018

That was a sad Japanese (anime) movie I just finished watching..  I forgot the title, but its all about the struggle of a brother and his younger sister's struggle during the World war II... It made me question why Wars should happened. what's the triumph in wasting million lives.. ?I hope no more world war to exist in the future.. That could be so lonely and ofcourse terrifying.

As far as I know, Japanese had attacked our Country but in their own country, they had suffered much too... kaya bakit nag eexist yung mga ganon, kakalungkot. buti di ako nabuhay sa mga panahong yun.

Your Name

This moved me much.. This scene took my breath away. :)

Japan, will I ever get there?

I don't usually write about the place I'm planning to go, afraid that I might not make it, I would feel frustrated.

So, that's it I'm really desperate to go to Japan.. maybe watching a lot of anime movies recently just triggered it... I want to witness the cherry blossoms, failed to see it in China and Taiwan. The most most recent Japan Anime I'm watching now are 5cm per second and A Silent Voice (The Shape of Voice?--not sure about the title).. and the Sakura tress are highlightened there... (I'm so desperate to see one).

I'd love to experience it solo, but I'm not that confident either... I've invited a childhood friend but I'm not really positive she's gonna make it, but I hope she can.  My mother would be hysterical if she'll find out Im going solo as if I'm 15.. Duh? Im 33!! yah, darn it, Im 33!! and I'll be turning 34 next month! it hurts! hahaha...  I'm a late bloomer, not so friendly I look terrible, an introvert, boring and pathetic.... imagine that? I rather stay home or yet out of the country rather than socializing, I'm sorry if that's a crime.  I'm guilty for not answering that call from an old friend the other day, that she might invite me for a dinner, I don't feel like talking about how are you? hows your life? why aren't you settling down? you're supposed to be this and that... I'm tired of hearing it.. I'm sorry... how could I refrain myself from meeting friends when I had so little of them? I don't know.

So, I'm having a dream of going to Japan. Can I do it? or will it be forever a dream.

What's stopping me? I know I shouldn't be considering that. Well, first, it's expensive! I'm saving for it but I'm being pressured by my family to finish my house. I don't know, I'm fine with our ancestral home, (do they want to expel me? lol) I'm single anyway, but.. maybe my Mom just want a new environment. At this point of time, I wish I had work abroad , so I could build my own house in an instant--- no!, I'm fine here.

2nd. The visa application.

3rd. I might do it alone. I know there's a lot of courage I need to pack, it would be my first time. Don't get confused with- me  wanting to be alone sometimes (and used to be most of the time).. but travelling overseas is kinda different story.