4.10.2020

In this time of crisis where mostly everyone is observing the lockdown in their respective homes, social media is very much active.  I can see variety of posts--some are just purely for Good vibes,  Challenges,  mind games,  random throwback photos,  and ofcourse some rants and complaints-- to their neighborhood,  to other people not their "class", to the government.. This Covid19 crisis really brings out the best and worst of people. I could hardly agree and disagree to some statements.  Maybe because indeed it's true we have different status in life so we see things differently.  

My heart goes to the poor who have nothing to eat at the moment (well I don't even know , or  shall I say I don't even care which Class I am) .. I couldn't even do anything about them,  I'm not super rich or something to give them  a lending hand. It annoys me too seeing sea of people on the streets during this community quarantine,  but who am I to question that?  I don't know their reasons,  surely they have, why would they risk their life for nothing? ..  O well,  except for those who were purely just hard headed. 

On the other hand,  I see the rants of these middle class people who boast so much of their paid taxes..  Some are even feeling jealous of the "poorest of the poor" because the government prioritized them.. Sigh.  I know the Poor shouldn't blame you if there are still food stored in your refrigerators!!  Are they blaming you??  I agree maybe they had flaws in life not to work HARD on days before this pandemic occured..  Maybe there were reasons too..  Well, except to those who are born naturally lazy and incompetent.  :(  

I'm paying my taxes too but it doesn't matter if it goes to the poor at this trying time,  if that's the only way I can help,  why not? I just hope the LGU are implementing their righteous function at the moment. That,  I can only hope. In some areas,  they're doing a good job. 

O people of the Philippines ,   we all need to understand one another and not throw hates to those in a state of stability. Not only this Virus will kill us,  our attitude,  envy/ jealousy will do. And if you are on that situation where everything is going well except you are pestered with the poor people,  just shut up and be grateful you're not on their position. 

I have so much of MAYBE's here coz I'm not all knowing, I have no idea what everyone is going through... (maybe I should shut up too haha). 

Meanwhile,   my only contribution is to stay home,  well,  I am,  alone in my boarding house room-- contented with my instant meals.  :)  On my regular days,  I'm supposed to be at real Home and playing with my nieces and nephews where no room for boredom..  But I'm not, and I'm totally fine (I must be) .. I'm having my best ME-Time ever..   Haha..  Lets make use of it,  this might not happen again on this generation.  Haha

Anyway I had a long introduction..  I never thought I could write that bit lengthy... Hehe..   What I actually just intend to do is to post this picture I captured a while ago.  I was hanging some clothes outside, an alibi to atleast feel the sunshine.  I don't know anyone in other rooms (coz I'm soo unfriendly haha)..  I don't want to look like crazy standing on the open doing nothing. 

This is beautiful..  Appreciating small things right?  But I dont think this is "small" because the sky is too wide.  Alhamdulillah.  I have not much at the moment, missing home terribly too..  But when I saw this,  I found it enough reason to be grateful. 

Beautiful friday everyone!  I'm just in the mood to be positive today.  Lets pray,  this Pandemic be over soon... InshaAllah. 

Reading back Old Blogs

I was kinda bored so I read back my old posts here in blogger and I'm feeling awkward with some articles I wrote. How in the world I came up with such thoughts? Did I really feel that then?  haha..  For a brief moment, I wanted to delete them coz I couldn't believe myself, I could "ew" myself for writing such.. hahaha... But maybe I shouldn't, I should keep them... I must not regret about it, coz for sure  that's really how I need to cope up or express my feelings right at that moment...

Though some thoughts still means to me, I still feel the same way, I just learned how to deal with it..

There are some post that could still make me smile. 

This is my diary anyway, I still want to write but I'm kinda losing my senses .. What?

Haha..

Unproductive Working due to Corona Virus

Our office here in Davao is still operating though it isn't that productive because our Head Office in Manila is on "Work Shut Down"  due to the enhanced community quarantine.. yesterday I couldn't do anything fruitful, I got bored a composed an email to my friend:

My email:

Dear  Teh,

It's kinda boring here now in the office, you know how much "used" I am in over working. I'm feeling guilty if I'm not doing anything important , I should be guilty by now, but how can I? haha I should be sending corporate emails of reports and important matters by now, but instead I'm composing an email to a friend, well, that's you.

 I have something to do naman but not that critical, like I can do it later, or I may not all.. I remember my early days in my present company where hours seems to run like forever coz I'm not doing anything (di pa kase full blast nun)... like 7am palang nun, I want it to be 4pm na.

Anyway, why I'm not doing anything essential or productive right now? Well, our Head office is on "Work Shut Down" now due to the extreme enhanced community quarantine in Luzon (ofcourse, it's all because of the COVID-19). Our operation is also affected here in Davao, I can't submit & follow up payments to our Treasury, I can't create & follow up Purchase Requisitions to our Procurement, I can't generate and request reports with our Accounting... No one is sending or requesting me to send this and that..  in short, we're also a bit paralyzed here in Mindanao . 

Well, possibly, anytime soon we'll declare shut down too here in Davao (but I pray the situation won't get worst). Most of the establishments already stopped operating. Of course who wouldn't love breaks from work?? I'd love to but honestly, I don't wanna stay either in our Boarding House for a long period of time, couple of days will do pero pag matagal sasakit lang ulo ko.. hays... I've no problem being quarantined, even if it's  Month long... as long as I'm HOME --- I'll never get tired and bored playing with my nieces and nephews... But I can't go home either. Another problem if I have to be "Boarding House quarantined" is I might starve to death.. haha.. my rice cooker is already misbehaving, I have an electronic stove but I don't cook rice there.. (laki ng problema ko).. haha

Anyway, it's almost 3pm, maybe I need to do some filing works... I must clean my area coz I couldn't do it on a regular day... this is the perfect time, walang mga storbo from Manila People.

Thanks for reading my email.

Yours Truly,

Ash :)

My CrashLandingOnYou Point of View

This K-drama really got me that I need to pour down here my thoughts. I just finished it last night and replayed some clips this morning and I can't believe I could still cry.. I have my eyes swollen now haha.  It wasn't totally tragic, but the process before they reached the happy ending is so heartbreaking.


Here are my favorite scenes or thoughts about Crash Landing On You.

1. Those flashback scenes that Ri Jeong hyuk and Se-ri actually met in Switzerland about 7 years ago..  The scene at the bridge where Seri is attempting to commit suicide but Ri interupted by asking her to take a photo of him with his fiance Dan. Also, that scene where Se ri was cruising with her loney heart but she heard the music unknowing played by Ri in his Piano, it saved her. They are like soulmates.
he view of Switzerland. It's so breaktaking. I'm praying and hoping I could get there InshaAllah.

2. Ofcourse, that scene where everything started, at the crash landing area. That moment when Seri found out that she accidentally landed in NorthKorea and she tried to run away from Ri. There I knew this Kdrama is going to be interesting. I think that's of a cute scene. haha

3. Ri was playing the Online Game and Seri found out. The excuses and some explaining of Ri is just adorable.

4. When Seri was so terribly missing Ri that she couldn't sleep. She got up, went out, while asking which is Love -- (1)when you wish someone is missing you as much as you miss him or (2) when you wish someone is being happy on their own moving on w/o you (even forgets you) ???.  That isn't the exact line but that's how I interpret and remembered it. With that thoughts, Se Ri continued walking into the nightstreet of Seoul, she saw Ri as if she's dreaming.

5. The dying moment of  Gu Seung joon. It's too painful but a beaufiful way to end seung joon. Don't get me wrong, I'd love it if he lived but that's not the case. When Dan was running towards him crying, he told himself that he was wrong expecting to face a death where no one cares and cries for him, but unexpectedly there is Dan.

6. The beautiful, sophisticated Dan. And her relationship with her Mom. Her story is a little tragic. How could the writer do this to her? haha She never had Ri's heart but when when she finally found the love of her life, he died too soon!! They had confessions on their last moments, o why do confession happens when you're about to lose the other one. haha but sad.

7. The messages from Ri for Seri. Is there really such thing as that in Korea? its where you can write messages in advance. you just set the date and time you want it to be sent. I love how Seri kept going  with those text messages from Ri that lasted only for a year. Sweet though.

8. Seri and he stepMom. As soon as seri gained her conciousness from that infection, her stepmom told her that Ri and his troop will be leaving in a while to North Korea. Seri said that she didn't need to say goodbye because they've done that several times, and that he didn't want to see her suffer. But her mom told her that no matter how many times she'd bid farewell, she will have to miss him the same way. That Ri was at her side all those time she's unconscious. I  broke my heart that moment Ri hid when Seri woke up looking at the glass window of the hospital maybe looking for his presence.

9. Tha goodbye scene at the North/South Korea demarcation line.. (is that how it called?).. so many goodbyes scene in this kdrama but i think that's the most tearjerking one. That look in Ri's face when he tried to stop Seri from running coz she's not fully recovered yet, that melts my heart chos! haha.. When Seri sobbing telling him what she'll do when she misses him? Will they not see each other again forever?? Then Ri's reply was a bit comforting, he told her to just wait and pray desperately.

10. The happy ending. It was a beautiful ending despite the hardship and uncertainties they been through. In Switzerland, Seri once again landed at Ri's arms.

So am I still affected when the ending is beautiful? haha.. maybe because it's too good to be true to happen in real life? or Because Dan's love story and too tragic? I don't know.

Not a Post Valentine Blog

The following quotes I just read on my FB feeds recently which could relate with my current mood. 

I posted this on my story last night before I slept wondering if someone would message me telling me my birthdate but none did!  Poor me... Dissapointed..   Haha..  Anyway I deleted the post in the morning because I realized I am too pathetic..  Haha.. 

This?  I'm just wondering if someone somewhere loves me just not telling me..  Ahaha...  Ofcourse my family not counted,  coz surely they do (they just dont tell me,  I do the same way too..  We're not verbally expressive). For the second sentence,  if someone tells me he/she loves but actually doesn't..  ? Uhhm..  There are few and I know they mean't it..  And maybe there's this one person that I'm doubtful if he/she mean't it ahaha. 

That long message,  I just found it beautifully said. 

I'm praying for this too..  Ang saya siguro. 

I'm too sleepy to get this blog done.  It's kinda late too..  I'll edit this tomorrow InshaAllah. 

02.02.2020

The date is just so beautiful kaya feeling ko dapat magsulat. Pero wala naman akong sasabihin kase today is just like my sunday routine.. But I'm happy today.. kelangan maging thankful sa bawat araw.. Alhamdullillah.

This coming week, I think would be masakit sa bangs pero kakanin natin yan.

19Jan20

I had a haircut but it seems that nothing has changed.. Haha

Me,  last week

Me today.

Dont mind my funny face.  I wanted it short,  but the haircutter said shoulder length wont suit me and will "fly away".. Choserang bakla yun.  Haha

Good night!