11.26.2021

 Felt so guilty right now...  Hoping one of our projects was completed earlier...  So the beneficiary could have witnessed the turn over of the project, as he really pushed and wished to do.... It saddened me... 

11.16.21

 Felt a bit stupid today...  But happy too for being appreciated. 

Err

 I rarely talk to people... That's why I hate it when I'm being ignored while expressing myself.. just saying.. someone just made me feel that way today...

But maybe he's going through something else too.. 

26oct2021

 Today's meeting was something wont let me sleep tonight because I was not able to express and explain myself.... 

I'll be okay

 I wish I have other talent so I can give up now... Coz I'm tired .. I'm too tired..

I can't give up.  i'm not giving up.  i'm just tired

Pikon for a day

 Medyo napipikon na ako sa mga tao..  Diko alam kung magpapasensya pa ba ako or mananampal na..  Joke,  haha.  Diko naman kaya manampal...  Pero gustong gusto ko manigaw,  magalit..  Pero diko magawa..  Ni hindi ko makausap..  Kase diko alam pano kumausap ng matiwasay.  

I don't feel respected sometimes,  masyado siguro ako mabait...  Or siguro mas tamang term eh tanga?  Ang harsh ko.  Ahaha..  Pero di naman kase kabaitan yung itotolerate mo yung kawalang respeto sayo...  Hmmm.  Sanay mabigyan ako ng lakas para isagawa ang nararapat..  At maisip ang tamang aksyon... 

Someday

 Someday,  I won't wait for the weekends to arrive just to feel okay

Someday,  everyday is a wonderful day,  I wont even hate Mondays

Someday,  I can do something new,  not being occupied with my job alone

Someday,  my job won't be a problem,  it might still be challenging,  but that day I know better what to do

Someday, my family would be proud of me as much as I'm proud of myself

Someday,  I'll be driving on a road trip feeling that beautiful moment alone..  Not disturbed with a job I'm so unsure of

Someday,  I'll realized why I had to be on these shoes,  that I'm perfectly deserving of this position

Someday, I wont fear the unknown. I'll grow,  productive,  contented,  grateful and happy.. 

Someday,  I'll read back this post telling myself,  "See?  i told you,  everything will be okay".

....and that Someday is about to come, INSHAALLAH.