QSD

last night episode of Queen SEon Deok is truly enthralling.. I fell inlove again with Bidam.. I even sympathized with the villain Lady Mishil who happened to be Bidam's mother, naintidihan ko na rin kung bakit ganon sya ka-eager maging Reyna ng Sillah, she had sacrificed a lot for Sillah. She even abandoned Bidam for her ambition.

And even Seon Deok realized that, she saw in Mishil's visage the ability of a Queen or Babaeng Hari. Thats despite everything, Seon Deok wants her kahit nagtraydor ito. But Mishil answered her "Ang minamahal, hindi maaaring hatiin at ipamigay sa iba" (she referred to Sillah).

Ngayon, si Bidam ang kawawa.. he's torn between two significant people in his life... ang minamahal nyang si Prinsesa Deok Man at ang inang kinamumuhian, si Lady Mishil. Pero last night, I saw in Bidam's eyes the sympathy to his own mother....

11:24pm, July 9, 2010

Tonight’s episode of QSD is somewhat a turning point of the story. It could end that way, at sana ganon na lang, pero hindi pa ito ang wakas.

I can say that tonight is also the painful and very interesting episode.. so far.. It is so agonizing naiyak ako.

The King—deok man’s father, and lady Mishil died tonight.

 Lady Mishil ended her life by poisoning herself. Before she did it, she looked back at the song they used to sing when they are battling. “Kung kaya mo pang lumaban, lumaban ka ng taos puso. Kung di mo na kayang lumaban, magtanggol ka. Kung di mo kayang magtanggol, umatras ka. Kung di mo kayang umatras, sumuko ka. Kung di mo kayang sumuko, iyon na ang takdang panahon, ang panahon ng iyong kamatayan”.

Bidam was the last person Mishil talked with. And that was a very sad encounter. From Mishil last minute, she was still very concern of Silla, and she didn’t show any affection or emotion to her son. Bidam cried, and seeing him in that state breaks my heart too. He was so distressed seeing his own mother in that condition, kahit pa kinamumuhian nya ito. “Ano, sa huling pagkakataon, tatawagain na ba kitang ina?, he cried. According to Mishil, mahal nya ang buong Silla, higit pa sa pagmamahal sa kanyang anak, dahil wala syang alam don. She even told Bidam na wag na syang kilalaning ina, at wag na rin syang patawarin.

She told Bidam that they’re different. Bidam wants Silla because of a person, and that’s Seon deok, and loving a person is useless and dangerous,  while Mishil, took care her allies and the” maharlika” because that’s her way to get Silla.  And Bidam answered her na magmamahal nga sya, he wants Silla dahil yun ang gusto ng mahal nya.

But I think, Bidam contributed to Mishil’s decision of putting an end to her life, to her battle against Seon Deok. She even controlled her self from wanting to embrace her son the last moment they talked before that death scene.

Actually, Deok Man is the person Mishil wanted to have her last words with, but unfortunately, the princess didn’t make it on time. Inabutan na lang ni nya ang maganda ngunit wala ng buhay na tagapag-ingat with Bidam crying at her side. Nasabi na lang nya sa sarili habang di mapigilan ang umaagos nyang luha, “salamat Mishil, kung hindi dahil sayo, hindi ko mararating ang ganito”. I’m just wondering kung ano sana ang sasabihin ni Mishil sa kanyang mahigpit na katunggali.

Finally, Deok Man knew the truth. She forced Bidam to tell her who was really Mishil to his life. And why did he lie to her. According to Bidam, how can he say publicly that Mishil is his mother when she’s not even acknowledging him as her son?

Bidam explained that he didn’t want Seon deok to lose her trust to him…

Anyway, inaantok na ako…