August 14, 2020
Today’s the end of my 14 day self quarantine. Nobody told me to do so but I’m being just extra cautious as I came from a high risk City. I went home after I resigned from my job and now I feel like I don’t know what to do next. I’m just wondering had I not put myself on this isolation, maybe I’ll still do the same thing—that “doing nothing, just movies, sleep, eat and plant”. That maybe I used Covid-19 as my valid excuse so I can’t be productive, and now that the 14 day is over, I’m still not going to do anything substantial, guilty! And I’m pressured!
No explaining here why I quit my job, but I’m waiting for job interviews. If this Government of ours will be fair enough in the hiring process then I vouch myself, I know I deserve a position --- But on the frustrating note, no one will back me up “inside”! I hope you know what I mean, I got myself only on this fight! I believe in myself, I don’t think they will, coz they don’t know me! Haha.. cut this, I smell bitterness already. But I’m hopeful that I’m not receiving a call yet because of the slowing down on almost everything due to Covid-19 and not because they have forgotten about me… errr
Anyway, I was also thinking of putting up a business, but I don’t know what suits me. If I let this procrastination keep going, then I might lose my savings. Everyone is practicing online selling, but duh??!! What and to whom I’m gonna sell stuffs. There’s nothing wrong in online selling, but knowing me, who don’t have connections, no guts, not even too many friends,-- this trade won’t work for me.
I was thinking of writing, nah! I just loved writing but I’m not good at it… I tried submitting an article to a certain website, but they refused to publish it. I’m just trying to appease myself that what I submitted to them was really unacceptable , I wrote it in a span of one hour early morning inspired by that dream I had, not even checking my grammar.
Habitually, my articles are for my eyes only, and for one or two persons, I’m fine with that but now that I wanted to have an extra income, I signed up for an AD, but I realized I can’t even post my blog on my other social media account, so who would see those ads? Haha
The trend now is Vlogging, but I don’t even want to see my face nor hear my voice on videos. haha
I got addicted to planting during the quarantine, I purchased seeds online. I was thinking I could establish a small garden shop if I can grow those seeds. I succeeded germinating them, but unfortunately, they died!
Wahh… I’m not good anything! What shall I do??? Lol
Enough for this crabby, I just want to mention those things so I’ll feel better.
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