Nov 6. 2025 8pm
I feel really stupid today, so stupid that I need to write it coz I've got no one to talk to.... I mean, I should keep it to myself coz I should pretend that I'm fine.... Coz I need to be fine.... eerrrrr... basta naiinis ako.... My answer to our activity today is so nakakahiya... errrr.... Im so embarrassed .
Nov 7. 2025, 7:28am
Woke up still feeling ashamed.... I need to make bawi to prove that im not stupid.. hahahw.. eshhhh
9.19pm
Feeling a bit better, did something a bit better in our activity today ...
November 8, 2025,
In terms of the official activity, i feel better today coz presented twice with a positive remarks. But i feel bad again of that ice breaker where my age was revealed publicly, and still single at 41.... Errrrr... I'm in denial with other people, but I'm okay with being single at 41... If you'll see what's inside me, im really okay with that despite that sadness sometimes.... I can handle that .. but what i can't almost not handle is the judgement of the people when they make me feel that it isn't normal to be single at 41.... That's why, sometimes, I dont wanna be with some people .. i just wann be with my family,.. my nieces are one of my happy pills aside from travelling....
insha'Allah, I can handle this
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