?????

 

The stars remind me of you

I can only see you but never feel you

Your presence calms my wholeness

But you disturb the silence of my heart

And if only in my world you exist

I will wait for you, even if takes ocean to dry

I agree that those who believe in great love are fool

But I’m willing to be one, if it goes for you

I thought you’ll be out of my mind by now

But I was wrong, I’m still not recovering myself from falling for you

I saw someone today that jogs my memory of your ways

It made me miss you

It made me smile

But its breaking my heart

You’re my illusion, you can never be real

I maybe crazy, but I am wishing

That someday, someone like you will find my way.

 

KABADUYAN 101 part II

Still remember BIDAM of Queen Seon Deok? The one I was so deadly hooked to.. haha... just watched the short videos I posted here (those I got from YouTube) and it made my eyes teary again for the countless times na, obviously I'm still captivated and not moving on.. hehe..

So, I'm still inlove with the character of Bidam, he made me realized what I am missing for being loveless.. whew.. I thought I dont really care if my stupid knight in shining armor wont come. I hate you Bidam coz you are still disturbing my seems to be anesthetized emotion (towards love ew)..

 

KABADUYAN 101

Just spare me this one.. this immature old school trip… This is supposed to be out of my depth, and I’m not crazy yet… I am just inlove… laugh if you want, mock at once, coz I am as well, but it doesn’t matter, being out of sanity for a while is fine as long as it can bring you smiles…. Coz this is the only way I can get near him… surely this will pass….

IM INLOVE WITH MY DREAM...;)

Going crazy over anime and korean tv series characters is already my habit... I dont know... but they just come and go... but this one BIDAM of QSD, I think I'm truly inlove with him.... hahahaha... errr...

.....c",)

you are my shooting star, you gave me light but gone so fast,..unlike other stars, you are not to make my wish come true, how could you..when you are actually the wish I wished....

WHY DO I GO CRAZY OVER KIM NAM GIL as BIDAM?

To make this clear, I am in love with Bi Dam and not to Kim Nam Gil.

I can’t really explain why I feel this being thrown to the evergreen every time I see Bi Dam. Despite his untidy and muddled looks, seeing him is breathtaking. Today he’ll laugh and play around, after a while you’ll see rage from his face, absurd but real, cynical but sympathetic, mysterious. He’s actually a man between evilness and kindness. At the very young age, he had killed many lives.. And still killing…(of course with reason). This is so ironic, I hate blood, but why does he looks more enchanting with those bloods almost covering his face every time he fights… And those eyes, those eyes you can never read… he’s a paradox..

Now, why??? Crazy fool!

ONLY FOOLS CAN SAY

here i am again, watching you

and i'll never get tired of it

i know I will never be with you, not even touch your hands

not even you eyes

You are not real, I want to tell my self,and I want to believe it

But I see you, and it breaks my heart so bad

I love you, I hope I'm not

I want to let you go, but how

you never been mine

 

 

bi dam my love

 

Yah,  I know, I have no right to call you mine… you wouldn’t know it anyway… But I like you a lot, corny it may sound, but now I know how human melts with your looks… well, I know it will pass, just like those old crazy feelings I’ve felt for Vic Zou, Jun Pyo and even to the anime characters, Dennis and Rukawa.. Aint that stupid?!

 

Anyway, what’s truly stupid is I’m 25, old enough not to act this way… But, every time I see you, truly, it’s like I’m being thrown up and away to the evergreen… lol… see, how absurd the words I am uttering now..

 

You’re my ideal and my dream. You’re the kind of person I always wish to meet, yes your role as Bi Dam, you will be my prince charming though you’re not a prince. You will be my rescuer, my knight in shining armor. You’re eyes, just seeing them gives me strength, and makes me weak as well… but I know, you don’t really exist… I mean, you Bi Dam… Kim Nam Gil does exists…. But million miles from me…

 

Confuse, whose taking my breath away?... the most unreal, my Bi dam… But since, Kim Nam Gil is playing his role, I like him as well…

 

So, what now?.. I don’t know…

 

 

NO WAY TO YOUR HEART

 

Hey Kim Nam Gil, I had no idea of you but your role as Bi Dam in Queen Seon Deok , and you are taking my breath away every time I see you. There are many things I want to tell you, but how???  You’re a star, and I’m just a dust here on Earth, and that breaks my heart… but I’ll be very satisfied if you’ll be able to read this, but I know you still cant, the least I can do is to whisper it to the wind and to the stars.

 

I sleep late every night to watch your show, and it melts my heart every time you appear, at the same time it hurts me so bad that I can never reach you. I can only watch you and you will never have a single glimpse or even an idea of my existence…

 

Sound may selfish, but I hate it when people go crazy over you, it’s making the distance between us more impossible… I know I shouldn’t, I don’t owe you and you would never ever recognize me.

 

I was so loveless, and I thought I don’t care, I am contented, but when I got to see you,  it seems that, I’m losing something that I really can’t explain.

 

There is something in you that I’d like to see forever, and I’m crazy, can you be my soulmate?

 

You’re my ideal and my dream. You’re the kind of person I always wish to meet, yes your role as Bi Dam, you will be my prince charming though you’re not a prince. You will be my rescuer, my knight in shining armor. You’re eyes, just seeing them gives me strength, and makes me weak as well… but I know, you don’t really exist… I mean, you Bi Dam… Kim Nam Gil does exists…. But million miles from me…

 

I have your picture on my laptop, and I stare at you right now… and it only breaks my heart….I want to be different, so you might feel me, but I’m not. I struggle for words that might impress you in case a genie would grant my wish you’ll read this… I don’t wish for you to be here, I know very well the meaning of impossible… I don’t hope you’ll even wonder if someone like me exists, if a falling star would make my wishes come true, then the sky might be cleared, all the stars should fall first, so you’ll hear them… I am so far from being perfect, only few people appreciate my ways, and no guy had ever made me feel that love is beautiful and I don’t hope for it, not until I saw you..

 

Crazy me must stop this…. Anyway, I hope your doing fine, I hope you’re happy… be happy…

My KIM NAM GIL

Yah,  I know, I have no right to call you mine… you wouldn’t know it anyway… But I like you a lot, corny it may sound, but now I know how human melts with your looks… well, I know it will pass, just like those old crazy feelings I’ve felt for Vic Zou, Jun Pyo and even to the anime characters, Dennis and Rukawa.. Aint that stupid?!

Anyway, what’s truly stupid is I’m 25, old enough not to act this way… But, every time I see you, truly, it’s like I’m being thrown up and away to the evergreen… lol… see, how absurd the words I am uttering now..

So, what now?.. I don’t know…