Five things I would want to say to five different people right now

1.       I don’t know whether I should feel overwhelmed or insulted with what you been acting.. Of course I know that you don’t intend to make me feel bad, you’re actually trying to lift my confidence up as you indirectly said so. Thank you, it’s just that at some corner of my mind, I am wondering if I am doing things so wrong that you need to push me up. You said, I’m doing great, you’re exaggerating it, that’s why I doubted it… but thank you though, I mean it!

 

2.       I was trying to make things even for us because you once outsmarted me. But at that point I had the chance to do so, my kindness overpowered me. Okay fine! Hands down…

 

3.       I’m sorry if I’m being so careless sometimes, I hope you understand that I am not perfect, that everybody commits mistakes too and I’m no exempted to that.

 

4.       Hey, I don’t want to, but I hate you I do. I’m sorry but I really really hate you right now. I wish I could slap those words to your face! You’re such a damn user, you’re an insensitive lousy fool! But despite everything you’ve done, I’m still on my way to forgiving you, even if you’re not asking for it…. But swear, I’ll never forget!

 

5.       You’ll be fine… never let anyone make you feel bad, no one has the right to do so unless you permits them.. Don’t be insecure, you are beautiful and that’s more than enough! You must not need anyone to cheer you up, you must be independent…. SMILE NOW!

My friend Jegs

This is my Friend since my childhood days, I call her Jegs. We’re neighbors, we went to same school in our elementary days, she was my best friend then. We had petty fights I could smile everytime I remember, we used to go home together after class, but one day we quarreled, I don’t even remember the reason why, she took the other side of the road and me on the other while walking home.. when I reached the gate of our house, she looked at me, we smiled at each and friends again.. haha..

I’m a bit shy as ever that I asked my younger sister or my brother to send my messages to her if have to ask or say something, I wrote them in a letter and she will reply too (dipa uso ang cellphone at internet non).. haha.. I could go along with my siblings but I’m so shy then, as if those people along the way would bite me, so I preferred those letters.

But in our secondary years, we enrolled to different school, swear that disheartened me!

We’re together again in college, dorm mates and room mates as well. But she graduated first, she took 4-year course and I’m in engineering.

She found new friends and so do I, but ofcourse our friendship didn't end there. Meeting new people doens't mean forgetting the old ones... especially those people-for-keeps.

Years after, we became room mates again in a place far away from our hometown, this time, because of our jobs, she worked in a call center industry and yours truly in a construction company. But after several months, she went home and proceed her study in a lawschool.

We had our picture tripping here yesterday and this morning before her flight back home. She had her 2 months internship here in Manila.

w/ our friendship bags as we call it

That’s it..

Primea's Xmas Party

we had our Xmas party todayand I had these gifts.

An Organizer/Planner and a headset, I received these in our office exchange Gift, Mang Frank, one of our worker, happened to pick Sarah Wayne Callies--that's my code!


Architect Anna gave me this shirt.


Engr. Waldo is the one responsible for this, a fake passport (Princess Passport), he said the moment he saw this one, he remembered me.. hahaha..so he bought it for me, its actually just a mini note book.. they actually calling me a princess there in the office, i dont know they're just tripping, I'm always telling them that I'm not a princess, they just wanna believe I am. haha


12/23/2011
A bench shirt from our Project Manager

And yes I dont celebrate Christmas... But I wanna say THANKS to them.

Jan. 2, 2012

I reached my table at office with these stuffs, Mam may and mam Leneth gave me those.

COMMERCIAL DEPARTMENT'S PIZZA PARTY

The Primea's  Commercial Department (maam May, maam leneth, Aimee and yours truly)

Our little Christmas tree and Maam May's Pizza treat

Shakeys's Angus Beef for me

Ofcourse i dont celebrate Christmas, this is just "pakikisama".. ;)

Good luck Jeny X Jeny

jeny’s leaving the  office, yeah just like Arleen, she’s resigning too. That actually lessens the reason why my present company is worth staying. I have no problem with the other people there, though I’m not really comfortable with all of them as well, but I can still handle it… it’s just that I’m so used to Jeny’s presence, I would be sad without her, she’s a good buddy.

Did I just say me not being comfortable with anyone? It’s a fact about me, that there are very few people I feel at ease with. People whom I’m being true to myself, I’m being jolly, loud, corny, I can be what I wanna be, I can share what’s really inside me. And I can be that way with people like Jeny. But don’t mistaken me of being fake to others, I was just saying that I am not comfortable enough to show off. I think I’m weird, and there are hardly any who will understand me.. hehe

I’m being dramatic, I’m pulling away myself from my main topic, sorry jen. Haha. Unlike Arleen, it didn’t take so long before I realize that she’s someone I know I can make friends with. She’s not intimidating. She’s true, she hated being plastic. She’s fun to be with.

What else would I remember of her? Umm, she’s always late! Haha, she’s a bit sensitive, but she can be impulsive too, sometimes she would surprise you by cracking a joke you wouldn’t imagine she would.

Okay, that’s it. I’m talking a lot, I might bore her if I let her read this. She once told me that she wanted to read my blogs, but not those lengthy..  so she’s a lazy head too sometimes.. hehe

Jeny, I’m gonna miss you. I understand your reason for leaving. I hope you’ll find what you’re looking for. I wish you’ll be able to catch a good job, I know you will, just minimize being late ha! Hehe

Good luck to your journey future architect!.. tnx for the friendship! Keep in touch!

'jeny and I' photos

BYE ARLEEN

So she finally bid goodbye to us.. She now no longer connected to our office, she resigned.

Arleen, an architect, graduate of UST, recently a TSG cad operator of Datem-Primea. She is someone I thought the last person I can get along with in our office.. Everybody described as "maldita". And I've seen that too, that's why at first I tried to distant myself on her. But still we became friends not because when i get to know her she transformed, actually she didn't, i just saw the good side of her.

I dont know, in some aspect, I could relate with her attitude, because we are both Leo... hehe. So that's it, I didn't drop her in my friends list even at her last moments in office, when some people there hated her.

I'll be missing her.. I will miss her everytime I'll go home in the afternoon, seeing PVP bus she used to hop into, Bubble gang's Che Che Bureche, she keeps on reminding me to watch, the sizzling squid in Glorietta's food court during our lunch out will make me remember her, the night outs.... and more.

Oh, she wrote this on my table.

'Arleen and I' Photos

HOT ISSUES

After doing the first impressions, now I’m going to be like Harriet the Spy again. But this time,  our victims are those I believe are in hot seats in office…. I hope no one would sue me for clandestinely observing this people… hehe.. Actually I’m just having my insight in here and still would tag this to people I’ll remember. No one’s really telling me to spy, I just wanted to.

First in line is of course the one with the highest rank, Sir Frizan- our project manager. If I wouldn’t listen to what people say about him, then I wouldn’t think he’s a bad guy (not exactly), though he kept on teasing me of whatevers, I thought he’s a good one. But these past few days, I’m starting to notice and realize his ways. But don’t get me wrong, I’m not saying that he’s some sort of a monster hiding in a gorgeous mask, may kapintasan lang. Maybe they’re right that he’s biased in evaluating his people. He wanted to create a harmonious working relationship with the Primea team, but it seems that social clique would still be around. Yun lang naman, but I’m not mad at him.

Engr. Waldo. Este Boss Waldo. Would it be necessary to become arrogant and bigheaded if you’ll get promoted? Look, no one really envies him, its just that nakakairita lang pagiging mayabang nya. He changed his ways so sudden, as in kagulat gulat. I know, maybe its his way to gain respect from his subordinates, but he must be careful, instead of respect baka sama ng loob lang abutin.

Aimee.. Our new employee, na para daw may dalang sumpa.. hahaha… hmp, I don’t  want to say anything against her that’s why I must not keep this long, sa utak ko na lang. Honestly, I don’t really like her, so bad we are in the same department…. But I'm open to the possibility that my first impression to her would change too.

Architect Arleen. Actually I thought she’s the last person I would get along with. If you have read my first impression to her, I stated there that I’m irritated with her ways. But you know what, she’s one of my close friends in office now, she didn’t transform into someone but I saw the good side of her. Kaya kahit may tantrums sya, I still don’t drop her into my friends list. And there’s something in her manner that somehow I’m a bit of too. Kaya minsan naiintidihan ko sya, kahit pasaway sya minsan.

Maam May, my direct supervisor.  I’m a bit alarmed in how we approach each other. It’s been almost a year but still I’m not comfortable with her. Honestly, I’m intimidated in her. I was so glad then that I’ll be in her department, but it seems that 1 year is my first week yet. We rarely talk to each other, usually in connection to work only. Mas maingay pa nga ako sa ibang department e. I really can’t figure out why, mabait naman sya.

All I can say, nobody is really perfect. Wherever our journey take us, we’ll meet different people—those we’ll hate or like.

How about me? How these people see me kaya?                                                                                                            

SERYOSONG SUPLADONG KENGKOY

I hesitated before doing this, I mean doing a record of something foolish, that a 26 year old should be mature enough not to waste her time on this.

But since this is my diary, then whatever entry is accepted… especially the person involve here just gave me a smile this morning! ;)

This is about my office mate I called SERYOSONG SUPLADONG KENGKOY (SSK).. He seemed to be so arrogant the first time I saw him.. And looked so serious too sometimes, then suddenly will crack a joke …  so clueless. He’s an electrical engineer anyway.. and maybe I had a slight crush on him.. haha

So this is a just about the best moment we had (may ganon?). It happened during the graduation of our 8-session Project Management seminar. It was held at one of the Bars there in Quezon City. He was there too.

After the main program, party had started. Some of my officemates danced and got drunk. And you could crown Mr. SSK for his active participation. Yeah, he was so cooperative though he looked so serious at first.

 Most of my friends were having fan there on the dance floor, and me, getting sleepy, “kill joy” as you call it, is sitting alone on one corner there. I was so surprised when he approached me and made me danced with him.. haha.. got no choice but to cooperate, it wasn’t a sweet dance anyway.. hahaha.. After a short while, he grabbed my hands pulling me towards the group of my friends.. Yun, tapos na! I had a great time naman.

Maybe he was so drunk that night the next morning we are as if strangers again. But he makes pansin of me naman everytime we cross roads! …….

…anyway he’s a married man, and I can see his loyalty even they have this long relationship status…. Wag na akong umasa! haha

Story ends.. His name? don’t bother ask, but I’ll give you pictures..

updated 9:36pm 6/26/2011: correction, he's not loyal!

JEANNETTE MOORE

Maybe I should start posting here about those people for me are worth remembering, those good people who deserve a record on my diary.

 

And to pioneer the first slot, ARCHITECT JEANNETTE MOORE is here. What would come into your mind first if you’re to describe a pretty half American girl? Over Liberated? maarte? Mayabang? Choosy?... Actually, she’s none of those. She’s so talented and pretty but her feet still on the ground. Were not that super close naman but I can sense it, that she’s not just beautiful outside but inside too..She’s sometimes so boyish nga. Everyone in our office loves her because she’s just so easy to get along with. And surely, we’ll miss her for she resigned. She’s planning to go to States and study and maybe work too.

She choreographed our dance in our Christmas party presentation. I saw her patience since most of us don’t know how to dance. She still managed to crack a joke in times of pressures.

You might also think that she is so liberated, maybe, but you know what, she had her first boyfriend at 22. And if I am not mistaken they are getting stronger after almost two years now..

Anyway, Good luck to you Net.. And thanks to that simple gift you gave me! You’ll always be remembered.

People I'm gonna miss