Sunday's Just Nothing

When was the last time I did this? Me, recording my Sunday’s whereabouts, as if my Sunday’s are extraordinary---- when the truth is, its dull and boring, but I’m not sad about that! Haha… 

So what did I do today?

Woke up late as always! Don’t give me that look coz I just need need a break… hehe

Watched Serendipity! I’ve heard so much of that movie but I just watched it this morning, loser huh?!... hehe… and it was a nice one as everybody did say.  Well, is there really such this as that? Maybe, I’m a fool too, I once believed that soulmates are real, maybe really not, I just want to believe they do exist, loser again?! Haha..  What can I do, I’m a hopeless romantic, nyahaha.. (ew that, I don’t care! Hehe)… and, maybe soulmates  do exist, but it doesn’t mean that you are meant to be together…  so there I go again with my sentiments, cut it Ash! Hehe

So, after watching that, I decided to do something with sense, washed my uniform and brought my other dirty clothes to the nearby laundry shop. Then went straight to Robinson , (I broke my fast for a girl thing reason, yes I have my period!) , then I tried window shopping, but its not really my type, I rather go home, I got bored roaming around, so I went to the grocery to buy some stuffs  and something to cook for dinner (para maiba naman!) hehe…  Buttered shrimp (nanaman!) hehe, just one of the few dishes I knew how to cook almost perfectly.. (Something to be proud of !)

Then had a quick chat over the phone with my mom and my sister.

What else?, this is what I am doing now… watched the series “Once Upon a time”, Facebooking and obviously Blogging!

 

I miss posting  pictures!.. when I imported my blog entries from multiply to Blogger, I lost the pictures! Out of more that  500 entries, more than half of it  are with pictures and they are all gone, I might  upload them back again.

That’s all for today!

"Saying something and wishing you had not, or saying nothing and wishing you had. Hearts are often broken by words left unspoken"

“Have you ever wondered which hurts the most: saying something and wishing you had nor, or saying nothing and wishing you had. Hearts are often broken by words left unspoken”.

I just read the quote above and it made me wonder as well. But if you are to ask me which is which, honestly, I really couldn’t tell, I wish I know the answer and I will be able to apply it in real life. I have so much of those words left unspoken too (obviously, the reason why I have this website), and as what as I’m expecting, it brought me to the edge of my resentment. Regrets are actually my friend already (laugh, but I’m okay). But who knows, if I did the other way around, it might got worst. 

Anyway, why would I rather keep my words unrevealed? I got my reasons -- because I don’t wanna hurt anyone, I know that would be inevitable, but at least I’m trying. And I don’t wanna hurt my self too, I know not saying what you want hurts too, but sometimes because you don’t wanna hear the answer, you just have to seal your lips. Like, when you care for someone, and you felt they don’t feel the same, what’s the point of telling them? In the very first place, why would you care for someone who doesn’t feel the same way? Guess, that’s part of the world cruelness.  

But I’m not completely against of not saying the things you’re supposed to say, coz I’ve done that already too. I had stopped my self coz I might not handle the consequence., but I failed. I’m breaking some of my rules too.

I had a confession to someone, until now I wasn’t sure if I did the right thing… Or maybe it wasn’t the right thing, but honestly, it made me breath well! For a brief moment, I didn’t care how things would change when I did that, all I know is, I want that person know what I truly feel. I felt good right after, it’s like I’ve been carrying a load in my heart and for that sudden moment, I’m relieved. If only you knew what I went trough before doing that.  And that thing I’ve said to someone is something that would never have a good ending coz this life I have is never like the fairy tales, but I’m still brave enough to tell. I didn’t expect for an answer anyway (though I really want to know). Yes, in saying what you feel, be brave enough not to expect anything in return. 

So that’s it. I wasn’t able to answer which is which. All I know is, this world is not an easy place to be. Every single thing depends on your choice, nothing is really right nor wrong.  Everybody hurts anyway.

I hate that I am missing you

I wanted to tell you I miss you so bad

But I’m so much done of trying

Yes, I had tried, but I think you didn’t

I’ve swallowed my pride when I told you what I really feel

I thought you feel the same

But now I think you really not

I’ve even broke some rules, but you left me hanging

I’m giving up, I’m so tired of holding on.

You never fail to break my heart

But could you just let me know why??

hayyysstt...

so long for stuffs like this, me bursting out my frustrations and the like... 

Today, i had a surprised interrogation from someone so professional and with a higher position, and I felt blunt and disappointed with my answer... arrggggg.. never mind..

Not just that, I had made a report, and had realized I made a mistake when I had no chance to correct it, I submitted it already and tomorrow my boss would report it, sana hindi mahalata, sampung milyon din yun! hahahah... bahala na!

Yun lang, masama lang yung loob ko at walang mapagkkwentuhan... its past 11pm and I'm still thinking about work, tsk! 

I'm gonna be fine... Nobody's perfect.

I must sleep now.

;(

The hardest part of missing someone is knowing you might not see each other again. You're uncertain whether you'll wait or you will just forget, both hurts, but not knowing which to do is much tragic.

You wish you could forget, though its not really what you want to do, how can you try to erase the thought of someone whose making your dull and lonely world not so miserable. 

But at the same time, how can you hold on to something you know at the very start will never have a happy ending.

So, in this case, what's the point of waiting or holding on??