It's been more than a week now since I've been feeling really sad. This is about family member health issues. All i can do is just pray really hard that everything gets well, that someone I loved so dearly will get through this. I know things like this will happen, I wasn't prepared, I guess I'll never be prepared. But this is how life is.
I'm just hoping, the Almighty will give me strength to whatever will happen. I pray that things will get better now or the soonest..
I used to be alone and I'm comfortable with it (as long as I know my loved ones are just one call away).. but these days it seems like I'm being suffocated, hard to breath. I don't wanna bother anyone for feeling this way. My family is having a hard time too, I can't add to that instead I must be strong, at least I need to pretend I am even if it's hard.
I know my trust in the Almighty must be stronger than my worries. He's all knowing, I believe this comes with a purpose.
One of the things I learned about this experience is to value the things we already have. I stopped demanding and complaining for other things that I don't have. I'm learning to accept my life status. Ive realized that I shouldn't worry about petty things coz there's more about life that we should focus on. My connection to the Almighty is stronger now.
Tomorrow I entrust to the Almighty Allah the result of this thing I am too afraid to face.. Insha Allah, everything will be okay.
Update: Dec 22, 2019
Alhamdulillah. Everything is okay now. Still praying and grateful. I've learned so much with this experience.
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