7Sept14

I'm trying to sleep late so I wont be able to wake up at 4am... thats too early for me.. anyway, i've been really idle today... its like I just stayed in my bed the whole day... forgive me, spare me this day.. haha

Good night now... I wish I could sleep well. :)

Quotes of the Day

Reading a lot of blogs or quotes are my diversion when I'm upset or bored... it helps me realize that I'm not the only one.. Here are my favorites, random and might contradict each other.

Though I wanted this, someone will always pull you down. And i must not let them.

Yep! That's why I love the sky!

Sometimes, someone to talk to is enough. I thank my few good friends.

Sad! But I don't need to be saved. 

Maybe! 

Damn why???!

I told you it's okay..  when you couldn't stop yourself, just let it be... sometimes I was more mad at my self rather than the person involve because I couldn't control myself... anyway, you'll be tired before you know it.. 

So true!! I'm just fooling my self believing there has to be reason from their silence. I should have realized that long time ago... the truth is you don't  mean a thing to them, they're just too coward to tell you.. haha..does it hurts? bitter?! I know.. 

Fine...

Some things really takes time...  if you can't work it out... just wait patiently.

This one sucks but it hits me somehow.

Exactly... why can't others realize this.. or maybe I'm just deaf, yah I think, I wasn't listening.. haha

I wish I could.haha

Sorry for the f word.. but i'm just wondering why some people say things they don't mean... or maybe they were just joking, I'm just so slow to know.. haha... it makes me think if I'd  ever say things I didn't mean to anyone to deserve this.

Some say.. no regrets, just lessons. Honestly, I have so much regrets in my life but I don't really think about it... I would regret about the things I've said or I have not... but if things had made me happy for just a short moment in time, I never regret that.

This one just made me laugh.. reading the first two made me feel relieved but reading the 3rd one , it made me say like.. o, I'm more critical! Hahaha...

Revenge for what?

I love this.. lets just be grateful.

??????

Am I amazing??? Haha

You know how much I love the rain.

So I'm still strong

I think I was loved and have loved this way.

Never play with anyone's mind.

:)

I must absorb this.

I will.

So help me God. (Forgive me for the foul words).

6Sept14

2:03 pm

I'm soooo sleepy.. malalaglag na talaga mata ko... haha... I'm losing sleep...  Bat kase nagigising ako ng 4am.... late na nga ako nakakatulog.... sign og aging? Haha

Anyway ang simple lang naman ng gusto ko, dipa ako mapagbigyan.. ahaha... ang sama talaga ng pakiramdam ko... this feelings sucks! I hope someone's not feeling this way coz it truly deeply sucks! Tama ng ako lang makaramdam nito.  Hahaha..

8:45pm

Just got home from a date.. was that a date??? I would rather call it a friendly meet up. Haha.. Mr. "A"  has been texting me few years ago, pero on and off lang... I always turn down his meet up invitation...  now he's back, he's been calling me since yesterday but I'm not answering his call... but as I've said on my previous blog, i must make friends with other people... fine.. maybe he just needed a friend, so we met..  kesa naman sa tumunganga... haha.. but am I rude?? I answered him with "ayoko" when he asked me to watch a movie (inaantok kase ako), or if he can come by to my place tomorrow (mas ayoko), and accompany him to his friend's place (what??)... haha..

On the other hand.. I think I'm being unfair..  i just want someone to talk to kaya nakipagkita ako... hayst, am i not using him?? I must not... I'm not! Bakit kase parang ang hirap ng ihandle ang pagiging loner ko.. kayang kaya ko naman dati to.. ang arte ko! Kainis! Hehe

10:05 Pm

Why cant I download songs... nagloloko yung downloader ko... I'm addicted to lifehouse "Falling in" hahaha... di na ako nagsawa.

11:05pm
I'M SORRY, I think I'm being bad.... I don't wanna end things that way, not that way, I just can't help it... i'm breaking my heart... I'm sorry if seeing you is too much to ask.

Good night! Sleep well.

5Sept14

Tell yourself to go on with life as normal as possible

Though you're feeling broken, don't show the world, pretend if you can, smile and gradually you'll get enlighted from within

You'll be okay, everything we'll be in place

Not now maybe, but soon it will

Hold on to yourself, not to anyone

Don't trust too much,

Even promises are being broken

Not because you're the nicest person in the world, no one's gonna hurt you

Coz somebody will, even the person you loved the most could break your heart

You can be mean, you can tell them whatever you want to say

But never hate anyone, at least not too long, forgive, do it not for them but for yourself.

Life is never like your favorite movie, its only complicated, its confusing 

Sometimes you don't get your answers to your life's queries, you get what you don't deserve, and the world wont give a damn

But life must still go on, in time, you'll get what you never even asked for 

Don't worry about you deprived pride, everybody failed once in their lives

Remember, no one gets out of life alive

So what's the point of trying to perfect things. 

You might feeling a little lost, betrayed unwanted and unimportant, please don't think that way too much, everything happens for a reason, it doesn't matter if you don't know it yet, someday you'll understand. Be grateful and appreciate the things you have, don't wait for it to be gone before you'll realize it.. 

Don't be sorry for being foolish, for being mean, for being too good, for being vulnerable, for being moody and inconsistent,  for loving someone who doesn't love you back, for being dull and lame, hey,  its okay.... you're still amazing, trust me, you are!

You don't have to know everything.... you'll never will anyway, take things easy. Laugh at your mistakes, laugh out loud, cry if you must, its okay if your heart is breaking, everybody hurts, you're not exempted, make friends, stop hiding, value those people who show your worth, they maybe few but they are worth keeping.  

Keep your mind busy of things that would make you better. Do not question life's crisis and obstacles. Pray more and trust GOD..for the things that isn't clear to you, He knows well... 

I hope I've said so much you hard headed girl...I'm still here when you have no one.. so sleep well now... You'll be just fine...

3 Sept 14

5:26 am

My alarm sets on 5:30am but whats with 4:33am, I've been waking up at that time consistently these consecutive days.. creepy! Good morning anyway!

3:02pm
Have a break.. have a kit kat!!! Still listening to Lifehouse... I'm not getting sick of it yet.

7:35pm
Home! And I'm trying to understand the things that I don't understand.... shall I leave it that way?? Maybe.... maybe not... and its raining.

9:43pm
Obviously, I'm being bored.. I'm afraid, my headset is no longer functioning... so this one's owned by my bro and I cant take it anywhere... haha! I'm so vain! Hahaha...

I think this is good night!!! I HATE THAT PICTURE TOO BUT I'M POSTING IT STILL.

Note for Nobody's Girl's No one

I'm actually busy... I'm doing our monthly billing... kaso gusto kong sumulat ng kacornihan.. Hahaha....mahapdi na kase yung mata ko...  i'm just having a break.. kunwari may sinusulat.. eto pala yun..

Nakikiuso sa BER month!

How time flies that fast... diko pa ramdam ang 2014!!! Haha...

Ano??? Wala. I'm speechless... at around 6pm.. I'm already home... ayoko sanang umuwi ng maaga kase wala akong magawa... Ayoko ng mag-isip! Haha... I wanna go home late.. yung tipong bagsak agad sa bed tapos tulog na pagdating mo... I'm actually feeling sleepy kase aga kong nagising kanina, I can't sleep back... I was a bit disturbed, I don't know why, well, that's maybe my Monday morning sickness I guess.. haha

Speechless pala ha...... wala namang sense pinagsasabi ko.. haha..