10.13.18

5:33p
I'm at Abreeza, at Bonchon, to be specific, waiting for my order.. I was thinking of watching Rowan Atkinson's movie, I need some laughing.. I feel so down at athe moment.. Blame this to Gon..  Remember me posting about him long time ago? anyway, basta nakakalungkot. I don't want to detail that.

Or baka malungkot din naman talaga ngayon, at antagal ng order ko nagugutom na ako. I wish I'm home at the moment to see my nieces and nephew.. that's one sure thing that would lighten up my day..

oct.10.18

It's supposed to be a good day but I don't feel really good. That feeling of "wanting" something so much (but not really needing), but you just can't have it. For that,  I  can't get agree with "if you want it, fight for it", because sometimes we just have to accept that it's not meant for us, it doesn't look good on us, like you want to see the sunset on the midnight.

But I'm fine..

Oct 8, 2018

Monday morning sickness hits me again.

I rarely write nowadays, have not much time for it.(and so uninspired too, and maybe not too lonely as well).

I had this dream, it seems so true... well, maybe too good to be true. I was with someone I can't even remember the face, on a comfortable bus ride overlooking the stars. Who could that be? Indeed I am dreaming. haha

So I woke up, feeling sad.. haha

Then scanning my FB page, a bad news saddened me, a death of someone I haven't met personally. He's one of my FaceBook friends, I don't even remember how.  Maybe those were the old days just adding/accepting people's friend request , but we have common friends and we lived on the same town. He used to flood my wall with his post/whereabouts/ words of wisdom... (that sometimes hit me) , that he is sick again -- he admits life is short but he wanted to live longer... Now he's gone. :( Life is unpredictable indeed. Inna lillahi wa inna ilayhi raji'un "We belong to God and to Him we shall return".

That Planning of Going to Indonesia

12: 45pm

Lunch break here in office. I'm currently looking for Airfares bound to Indonesia. Yes, Indonesia,  I'm a little reluctant whether I should go there because I've read that the place is just like my home country -Philippines, the traffic jam and the sort. Well, my mom wanted to, so she could purchase her addiction to Fabrics.

So I made my readings then found out that Jakarta is more than just draperies and stuff like that. Bandung which is just about 3 hours from Jakarta became so appealing to me as well. In fact as of the moment, I have draft the itinerary..  It's just that I have no ticket yet.. LOL. Blame this to my brother, I wanted him to join us, but he said he can't file Work Leave, (I hardly too.. duh?). I want to make use of the Nov 1 & 2 Holidays because, I just can't leave work that easy for more than 3 days. But my brother said, maybe we can go on the 3rd week of November. Sigh. That's kinda long waiting for me and it's gonna be rainy days there. Now, so confused, shall my Mom and I go there on the last days of October to early Novemeber (with holiday)? or just wait for my brother on the 3rd week. If he'll win, then that means I got to miss work for about 5 days?! and the rainy days.... urrrrr.. what should I do? Got to go back to work now.

Update 10.5.18
Still on a state of confusement when to book this flight. Yes, I still want to go, despite the dissapointed blogs of Westerners regarding Jakarta, due to Traffic jam, Pollution, scams, terrible transpotation options and blah blah blah. Why would I be terrified of that? I live in the neighboring country, Philippines and such complains are quite normal to us too, so I've got no reason not to handle that. haha..  And the natural disasters too...  I think I just have to pray that God would keep us safe as soon as we arrive there.


Update 10.29.18
Finally, booked our tickets, and caused me so much headache.. really. And my brother and I even had a fight because I exceeded on the days he permitted me to. He said, he might lose his job.. errrr.. haha.. whatever! 

I have so many random thoughts, I'm a budget traveler , and so far, this is expected to exceed my previous travel expenses. The tickets are not that "super promo"... Will it be worth it? Majority of the blogs and tripadvisor comments I've read said that we must skip Jakarta. (sigh).. plus it's wet season..  and my Davao to Manila to Jakarta are different airlines, and my plane anxiety! argggh!.. these negative thoughts I must not entertain. I'll just have to pray it's going to be a memorable trip.

4.06pm Just heard of the Lion Air's crash from Jakarta. I can feel my flight anxiety much more now. :( .. I know land accidents are much rampant than of Air but still it can happen. Surely the passengers didn't think of that to happen...I'm praying for the bereaved family, I know it's too painful.

 Hope and pray our flight will be safe.. 

This is kinda challenged to me to pursue on this trip.. Recently, (aside from this plane crash), Indonesia's bad fate all over the news-- for the Earthquake, Tsunami, Floods, Vulcanic Eruption.. 

Update: 11.14.18

It's going to be a week now before our flight to Indonesia. And honestly, despite of being excited, I am more anxious. Maybe because I am traveling with family I can't fail them , I'm pressured! I've travelled with family before, but I don't know why this one I can't get confident with. Maybe because Indonesia is not that "safe to travel'?" I guess? Not everyone in the Philippines include this in their bucket list, because it's more like our Country too? unsafe? nothing much to see? hahaha.. I wish to prove my self wrong.

Before anything else, I'm not predicting things here, I am actually praying that these thoughts bothering me wont happen. So, I pray the following won't happen, or at least we'll get through it.

1. Fight from Davao to Manila via 8.15 PM ia Cebu Pacific will be delayed or worst cancelled. Our Jakarta from Manila flight via PAL the next morning 9.15AM. a lot of cancelled flight nowdays due to sort air navigation improvement.  - update: Thank God, it didn't happen, though there's a little delay.

2. So much Air Turbulence on my upcoming 4 flights. You know, my flight anxiety, it could kill me. - update: average turbulence on the international flights

3. My brother won't make it due to his work.  - update: he made it!

4. Issues at Immigration. My first at T2 while I'm so used at T3. and it's my aunt's first out of the Country travel (except that one due to work). - update: it was fine, though there are lot of questioning for my aunt, but went through well.

5. Flood. I know it's rainy season in Jakarta and Bandung. - update: it rained after we reached the hotel, but no floods encountered.

6. Food poison? or whatever kind of sickness - update. just spicy food, but we handled it.

7. Accidents. Terrible Traffic Jam - update: yep, terrible traffic on the first day.

8. Other natural disaster where Indonesia is so prone to (Vulcanic Eruptions/Earthquake/Tsunamis/Landslide). - update: none occurred


I'll keep you updated on this list. I'll pray we'll go home safe and sound. Coz that moment at 1am in my bedroom on the 28th of November, safe, could be the happiest time of that trip.

11.20.18
I'm so tensed now..  Tomorrow evening will be our flight to Manila..  Cebu pacific notifications startled me that it might be a cancellation or delay..  I don't know what to do if that would happen.  What's keeping me paranoid here is because of the on going typhoon Samuel. . It won't directly affect the take off and landing point of our flight but still it's making me crazy.  Crossing over the typhoon might invite turbulence as well.  I was delighted this morning that the sun is visible compared to yesterday though the typhoon will landfall tonight at Visayas and northern part of Mindanao .. I hope tomorrow will be much better 

5:20am 11.23.18
Alhamdudillah,  we had reached Jakarta yesterday on Time and safe.  But due to bad weather and traffic Jam,  we're not able to do something else. I just hope today and tomorrow in Bandung will be just fine 


1:00am 11.28.18
 Alhamdulillah. Home already. This is the time I've been praying for. I'll update things soon. Good mornight!

inis

medyo naiinis ako... actually naiinis talaga.. nakakainis naman kase pero hindi ako dapat mainis.. sayo nga naiinis rin ako eh.. haha.. kase wala kang magawa.. pero narealized ko, di ako sayo dapat mainis.. sumbungan nga kita eh. thanks ah...

okay na.. di na ako naiinis.

Remember me Every 9th of August

Remember me Every 9th Of August

I guess you're not learning

It's already 10th of August now

Haven't heard anything from you yesterday

I stayed almost midnight before 9th ends

I waited for you, And yet you didn't show up

It's 10th of August now, still no sign of you

How many times should you break my heart?

I wasn't asking for forever, only fools believe in that

But I'm asking you to meet me every 9th of August

But where were you? Did I cause you so much heartaches too not to see me on the 9th of August?

I'm asking for just one out of the three hundred sixty five days

Aren't you too selfish?

I think I'm not asking for too much...

Maybe you we're asking for more than I can give

That's why you might hate me so much, aren't you?

Or am I stealing one minute of your life because I'm asking you to call me on the 9th of August?

If only I could cast a spell that would make you feel how  sad it can be to forget me on the 9th of August

But I won't, you must be happy.

 --to be continued

my 9th of August 2018

Woke up today realizing it's my birthday.. at first, I felt like just wanting to stay in my room the whole day. But I need to work.

I arrived at office with my boss and our stock clerk waiting for me at the entrance handing me this flower.. It made me feel important.

My table. Sitting there made feel like those balloons would fly me away.. haha.. corny.. lakas maka "Up"

I dont want them to exert much effort, medyo nahihiya ako.. haha... but my officemates made me feel especial today.

I thank everyone who greeted me, my officemates , Waldo, Glenda, Krysta, Gayle, Joma, Paulo, Cedie, John, Aingel, Bayoy, Lionel, Ate Jen & LP, FBB, maam Anna, Maam Karen, Jonna, Rose, my old good friends, Mac, Lee Jeny, Mela, Marj, Teh, Belle , Amelia, Sajs, ate Bems, jegs,  my sister. ..at sa LAHAT NG NAKAALALA.

Getting old and an expiring professional license w/o CPD points yet may not be a happy thing.... but making me feel valued today is something I'll forever treasure.

Sa walang pakialam kung birthday ko man ngayon at piniling kalimutan ako AYOS LANG. :)

I set my B-Day private to my FB page then I realized,  no one really remembers me pag di sila niremind ni FB hehe  ..  Pero sabi ko nga ayos Lang.  :) 

I thank God for this gift of Life. :)

and this post just now.. made me smile...