26 Nov 17

wala naman akong sasabihin.. naantok na rin kase.. done with 3 movies... 1. Mulan 2.Ninja Turle 3. The Holiday... at lahat nun iniyakan ko.. waahaha.. bumababaw na luha ko... Ninja Turtle, naiyak ako??? haha

Sige good night!

That 50 QUESTIONS!

Not really bored, I just missed the old ways of blogging or just merely pondering.. so I when saw these questions on somewhere the World Wide Web, I decided to answer them...

50 good questions to ask yourself and others

1. What are your nicknames? What do you prefer to be called?   Ash, Noni, Aira, Kaeds, Pabs, Nons, Call me whatever you like.  

2. What books on your shelf are begging to be read? - I love reading but I don't have any book on my current rented room (which don't even have shelf) right now! I left my books in Manila!

3. How often do you doodle? What do your doodles look like? --Hmmm, a girl with big eyes? a floor plan? house elevations?... I actually don't do a lot of doodling recently.

4. What do you do if you can’t sleep at night? Do you count sheep? Toss and Turn? Try to get up and do something productive? --I tried counting sheep, but I don't remember it worked out (or baka nakatulugan ko rin). Toss and turn maybe.. just closing my eyes or stared at the ceiling .. hold a pasbi (Islamic Bids or Rosary for Christians).

5. How many days could you last in solitary confinement? How would you do it? - Huh? I don't know. But I can stay in my room the  whole day without talking to anyone.

6. Do you save old greeting cards and letters? Throw them away? - I kept them, I don't throw stuff like that.. but I only misplaced them..  or keeping them somewhere that someday I can't find. haha Especially when I keep on transferring places.

7. Who is the biggest pack rat you know? - What's pack rat? :)......... I need to research on that, and if it means this "a person who saves unnecessary objects or hoards things.".... then the answer is ME, MYSELF AND I.

8. When making an entrance in to a party, do you make your presence known? Do you slip in and look for someone you know? Do you sneak in quietly and find a safe spot to roost? - I don't even want to be in a party! But to answer the question, it's to sneak in quietly and find someone I know! Them probably find reason to exit.

9. What is your strongest sense? If you had to give one up, which would it be? -my sense of Feelings? haha.. Sense of sight, taste, hearing, taste, smell .......... I think I would give up the smell! if I really have to.

10. How many times a day do you look at yourself in the mirror? - I don't actually really look at the mirror especially when pimples are being so inlove with me haha...  but I bought a mirror and put it on my office desk... so I can't count how many times.

11. What is the strangest thing you believed as a child?- I won't grow old! Maybe I was 5 years old when I asked my Grandmother, will I be like her someday with those white hair... Coz I thought I'll be forever a child.

12. What is one guilty pleasure you enjoy too much to give up? - travels! but I don't that's something to feel guilty about. I

13. Who performs the most random acts of kindness out of everyone you know?- I think that girl I call Margaux, she's being so selfless sometimes and I both love and hate that. 

14. How often do you read the newspaper? Which paper? Which sections?- I don't remember when was the last time I read the newspaper, I have no favorite section, it depends on the title of an article.. So, yes I judge the title! 

15. Which animals scare you most? Why? - stray dogs. and lizard too, but is lizard an animal?  haha.. 

16. Are you more likely to avoid conflict or engage it head-on? - Avoid.

17. What was the most recent compliment you’ve received and savoured? - I don't received much compliments, but recently someone told me I looked better now, maybe because I gained weight.. but I don't really believe that.. haha.. I know we're not suppose to dispute flattering words, but sometimes it's hard to believe.

18. What is something about yourself that you hope will change, but probably never will? - Gosh! this question just made me frown coz I have so much to say. I'm indecisive, no guts at all, unconfident, an introvert, bad posture, SCARED OF PLANE RIDES........ I just hope I can change them.

19. Are you a creature of habit? Explain. - I'm a creature I can't explain!

20. Are you high maintenance? Explain. - Absolutely not. I'm so frustratingly too contented of "some things." masaya na nga ako sa arrozcaldo.

21. When was the last time you really pushed yourself to your physical limits? - Ang hirap hirap naman ng  tanong na 'to! because I think I haven't, I 'm so physically lame at whatsoever physically.. ano raw?

22. Do you have a whole lot of acquaintances or just a few very close friends? Why? - Few friends.. Because I think I'm not normal. I don't open up first. Someone told me , I am so intimidating.  I think I hate me too because I don't appear  friendly, so i ended up having few friends... but I'm okay with that.

23. Are you more inclined to “build your own empire” or unleash the potential of others? - Build my own empire

24. What’s a strange occurrence you’ve experienced but have never (or rarely) shared with anyone? - Why would I say so when I can't even share it to anyone? I'm not answering this.

25. What do you think about more than anything else? - I'm just rolling my eyes here and says what?? hehe... I think.... family, my nephew & my niece, travel, and that kitten I'm hearing "meowing' right now. 

26. What’s something that amazes you? - simple things amazes me.

27. Do you prefer that people shoot straight with you or temper their words? Why? - Shoot straight... I know how it feels to be controlling your temper.. although this depends on the case.. we should know when to control our tempers too.

28. Where’s your favourite place to take an out-of-town guest? - anywhere! anywhere I've never been.

29. What’s one thing you’d rather pay someone to do than do yourself? Why? - hmmmm...let me think. the laundry?

30. Do you have a catchphrase? - yes, but too many... but recently, I posted this "Don't get worked up over things you can't change, people you can't change. It's not worth the anger build up or the headache. Control only what you can. Let go."

31. What’s your reaction towards people who are outspoken about their beliefs? What conditions cause you to dislike or, conversely, enjoy talking with them? -I'm okay with outspoken people but I dislike it when they are overdoing it. I know it's good to be frank but we must be careful also. 

32. How and where do you prefer to study? - I graduated already! haha.. medyo nakakatamad sagutin ang tanong na yan. Ayoko ng mag-aral pa.

33. What position do you sleep in? - sideways.. usually fetus style. haha

34. What’s your all-time favourite town or city? Why? - my hometown, no matter how chaotic it is there.

35. What are the top three qualities that draw you to someone new? - Funny, kindhearted & softspoken, loves to travel who's not afraid of air turbulence haha// 

36. How has your birth order/characteristics of siblings affected you? - I'm 3rd out of 7.. I think I'm one of the favorite my siblings get jealous of.. haha.. hindi ko ata sinasagot yung tanong.

37. If you could eliminate one weakness or limitation in your life, what would it be? - Negative thinker!!!

38. If you could restore one broken relationship, which would it be? - Nothing.

39. If you had to change your first name, what would you change it to? - I'm not changing it.

40. Do you believe ignorance is bliss? Why or why not? - Both! Knowing too much leads us to crave for things we'll never get satisfied, while ignorance? simple lang ang buhay! Pero para saken, wisdom is a bliss... 

41. What do you consider unforgivable? - lies.

42. Have you forgiven yourself for past personal failures? Why or why not? - ofcourse, I always forgive myself.

43. How difficult is it for you to forgive someone who refuses to apologize? - Ofcourse it's too difficult especially when they don't even know they're suppose to say sorry. But as much as I can, I don't keep grudges, and I'm trying to accept that people don't think the way how I see things, that they couldn't care about me at all... and I don't have the right to question that, because that's who they are.. I can't change them!

44.Do you hold any convictions that you would be willing to die for? - Ofcourse. Buti na lang walang "what and why" 'to.

45. To what extent do you trust people? Explain. - Nakakainis naman yung mga tanong na may "Explain", it reminds me of my Values Education subject hehe. But here'e my answer, I trust people, but I trust myself even more... I don't really depend on them, I mean, relative to my answer at number 43., we can't control the minds of other people. Sometimes, the people you expect to betray you the least, will betray you. pero okay lang, choice nila yun... or baka may dahilan din naman sila/

46. In what area of your life are you immature? - hard to admit it but I think I'm being immature most of my life.

47. What was the best news you ever received? - I passed the board exam. yun lang naiisip ko. haha...  ah, alam ko na, nung pinanganak yung mga pamangkin ko!

48. How difficult is it for you to be honest, even when your words may be hurtful or unpopular? - It's not difficult for me because I'm always honest... charot!... what's challenging is , how to say those things.. so, oo, very difficult sya.

49. When did you immediately click with someone you just met? Why? What was the long term result? Conversely, are you close with anyone now that you really disliked at first? - I remember a colleague where in we click the first moment I spoke with her, and now we're still friends for about 14 years.  And for that someone whom I disliked first,  I couldn't think of anyone, because as I said, I'm an introvert, so how would you expect me to start a conversation with someone I disliked.. sorry.

50. When do you find yourself singing? - when I'm alone and happy... when I walk in the rain with my umbrella and no one's around... 

Amazing Works

PHOTOS NOT MINE.. 

Just loved the way someone made these:

 I feel her!

How Would You Heal Someone's Broken Heart

5:45Pm

Someone just called me awhile ago because I was asking for some work related concern but just when I want to put my phone down... he raised other issues, he's sorry for being moody few days back because he is broken hearted.. I laughed at him first! Then I realized he's serious... He sounded O.A but I absolutely felt that he needed someone to talk to..

So what did he expect from me? aside from I'm hesistant in giving comment because it's office hours everyone could hear me, I'm not good at giving advice!! I want to cut our conversation but I stayed when he said... "just this time, pagbigyan mo na ako, kelangan ko lang ng may makikinig".. so I let him be, I know someone who's just willing to listen is already enough.. so I let him poured his sentiments, his broken heart... It's not usual to me, but it's overwhelming...

10.30..

Signing off!  I hope I had helped someone lighten up his heart a little though I'm healing mine as well...

;)

Good night!

17 Nov 17

DEAR SELF,

KEEP YOUR SENSES AT EASE.... I KNOW YOU FEEL BAD AND EXHAUSTED AT THE MOMENT. YOU FEEL ANNOYED AT PEOPLE YOU THINK DON'T DESERVE TO GIVE YOU INSTRUCTIONS BECAUSE THEY DONT EVEN KNOW WHAT YOU BEEN GOING THROUGH... PEOLE WHO THOUGHT YOU'RE WORKING LESS THEY KEEP ON TELLING YOU DO THIS AND DO THAT PETTY THINGS... YOU HATE HOW THINGS GET SO UNFAIR... YOU HATE IT BECAUSE SOMEONE WHO ASKS YOU TO DO SOMETHING KNOWS NOTHING ABOUT THAT THING OR HOW HARD THAT IS......WHEN YOU ARE TOO BUSY RIGHT NOW BUT HE JUST WATCH THAT GAME.... I KNOW ITS NOT COOL BUT I WANT YOU TO CALM DOWN... DON'T MIND IT... DO WHAT YOU CAN DO BUT DON'T MARRY IT.

6 Nov 17

12.50PM
I said I'm gonna sneak some time today to blog about random things I've been wanting to write since last night.. But I'm being so busy here at work since this morning, I wasn't able to do so.. until right now before the break time ends... Anyway, its some sort of drama which tells me now to keep myself busy to forget about it... and it's working!.. hahahaha.... but I still miss to cry out my dramas thru writing... so later.. maybe sometime... just need to get back to work!

10:30pm

ano raw? ang gulo ah.. sariling sulat ko diko nagets.. hahaha... saka na nga lang ako magdadrama.. good night!

My Sweet Nightmare

Why am I keep on having dreams about you lately?

You've been gone for so long

It's been ages since you gave up on me 

I've let you go without goodbyes

I've ceased on whispering your name into the wind

I've stopped writing the words left unspoken

The garden of memories of you have fade

And the rivers of tears have run dry

But suddenly in my sleep you came by

Why? It's not haunted, it's bitter sweet, it's heart tearing

You're breaking me twice, maybe a thousand times

Why? 

Are you happy?

I'm supposed to put those spell on you

I'm supposed to curse you

But you are the one whose making me cry now

Are you happy?

Stop showing up on my dreams

I know I'll never get to see you again

Never will I hear  your voice again

But I don't want you to fool me in my dreams either

Get lost, I'm missing you so much... but please get lost.

Good morning Cebu!

9.15am

GOOD MORNING CEBU!!! This is my third day here and I'll have my flight back to Davao this evening, there's a typhoon.. so I'm already terrified now.. haha.. kahit naman walang bagyo, plane rides never fail to make me feel tense.. haha..diko alam diko na ata maoovercome to.. pano na pangarap kung magtravel pa. Anyway, obviously, I had this annoying selfies... just kiling the time before we'll check out

I woke up feeling a little upset... diko alam kung dahil ba dun sa panaginip ko or dahil lilipad nanaman ako mamaya.. hayst... sige have to eat our breakfast.

7:15pm

Hi again! Taking that mirror selfie here in Mactan Cebu Airport... And as always,praying for may safe flight! Isang oras lang naman to.. kaya lang may bagyo pa... :(

9:55PM
Home already. Thank God for the safe flight...

anyway, that taxi driver pissed me off... pero wala naman siguro syang kasalanan.. pero nakakainis pa rin sya... but I'm letting this go..

Good night!

2Nov17

"Woke up heavy hearted... you were in my dreams for the two consecutive nights, and they're seem so good to be true, that's why I opened my eyes yesterday with a smile on my face..but this morning, my heart is broken despite how sweet those words you told me in my dreams.... Why? Because I realized I'll never get to see you again, maybe only in y dreams.. I think I'm missing you as always".