13Nov14

TODAY: I'm so exhausted!!!!! Wahhhhh... where's the justice there?? Haha.. I'm being forgetful, maybe because I think too much nanaman kase!! Hayst...  sobrang busy ko nanaman ulit! 

Afterwork. Met marj.. I looked so haggard here.. right??

Now despite of my haggard looks, my pimples, my funny face, my tangled hair (that I am planning to cut).... nakuha ko pa rin magselfie.. sorry! Haha... I'm music tripping... to ease my stresses away! Can't you find the big dipper in the sky? They're right here...in my face... haha

REMINDER TO SELF: 

I DON'T CARE!!!  Hehe... ofcourse I care... basta... this is something I wanna be, yung walang pakialam... yung deadma lang sa lahat... para di masyado madurog yung puso ko! Chos! Haha.. pano ba naging reminder to self to?? Maybe, I'm reminding my self not to overthink... yung wag masyadong damdamin mga bagay bagay... lagi ko naman nireremind yung sarili ko.. matigas lang yung ulo ko. Haha

HAPPIEST MOMENT OF THE DAY:

Ano nga ba? Maybe that email from someone.. he honestly made me smile, nice to know I'm remembered.. hehe

Or this moment... music tripping lang.. papaantok..  malungkutin nga ako pero mababaw lang din ang kaligayahan ko. Wahahaha... 

Sige good night na!

Stressed na stressed na ako!!!

Today:

Can somebody tell me that im gonna be okay.... ? na  kaya ko to, okay lang ako, wag akong mapagod, chill lang, cheer up!!! Yung nga ganon... pagod na talaga ako.. pero diko alam bat di ako napapagod mapagod.. hahaha! Normal paba to?

Sabi nila, be with.people who would lift you higher especially when your.down...yung kapag upset ka mararamdaman nila yun.. maiintindihan ka nila.. kahit.di na sila makatulong, tama ng maintindihan ka lang.. pero bakit yung mga kaibigan ko, inaasar pa ako.. naiinis na nga ako.. di naman ako galit... pero naasar talaga ako.. di naman ako nagrereklamo, pasalamat pa rin ako na may mga kaibigan ako... minsan lang talaga ay nakakainis,  pero okay lang, kaya ko naman to.. kaibigan ko pa rin sila.. ganon lang siguro talaga sila.. kailangan tanggapin hindi talaga perfect ang lahat.

Yung bagong QS ko, its not that I dont like him, pero  he arrived at  the wrong time... kelangan ko ng kasama pero he seems to be the wrong person.. or mali lang yung timing.. okay lang naman sya, but I have this feeling na di nya nagugustuhan yung ginagawa nya, di sya tatagal! Haha.. I needed someone who already had a background in what it would be in a commercial department.. at ramdam kong di sya para dun.. namimiss ko tuloy yung dating QS ko.. hehe... hindi naman ako madamot magturo, its one of the nicest feeling to teach someone else ... kaso masyado pa akong busy para magturo... kaya feeling ko tuloy, instead na makabawas ng trabaho e, nadadagdagan pa.. mali lang talaga yung timing... ayan stressed na stressed na tuloy ako.. sorry if i sounded selfish here... kaso pano pa ako makakapagresign nyan? Hehe... anong gagawin ko???????...

Reminder to Self:
Sino pa nga ba magreremind sayo kundi ako ulit?? Ang arte arte mo naman kase.. haha..
lagi na lang kitang nireremind na dimo kelangan maging tama palagi.. ok lang magkamali.. tsaka, u dont have to be a perfect supervisor.. yung mga boss mo at naging supervisors mo, tama ba sila palagi? Di naman diba.. kaya ayos lang yan.. wag mo na masyadong iniisip..

yung bagong q.s mo, dimo na problema kung di nya magugustuhan yung trabaho nya... kung ayaw nya ng ginagawa nya, e d pwede naman sya magquit anytime.. di ba nga parang di rin sya yung kelangan mo.. tsaka wag mo na syang kinokompara dun sa dati mong q.s. magkaiba sila... things change.. di forever ganyan... sabi nila, if good things end, ganon din yung mga di magaganda.. tanggapin mo na lang na nagbabago tlaga ang mga bagay bagay...

yung mga kaibigan.mong inaasar ka.. hayaan mo lang..  hindi mo lang alam.. minsan sila naasar din sayo.. kaya quits lang yan...dimo naman kelangan pakinggan ko ano paniniwala nila.. iba iba kase yung tao.. di naman pwedeng kung pano nila tingnan yung mga bagay bagay ay dapat ganon ka rin. Dun ka lang sa kung san ka komportable at tingin mo e dapat na gawin mo.. iba kase sila, iba ka rin..wag ka na masyadong magtatampo sa kanila..ayos lang yan..  ang importante e kung ano tingin mo sa sarili mo.

Okay kana ha... ayos lang yun.... itulog na yan.

The Moon so Bright

Tonight, the moon isn't full.. but its too bright and it has a shade of  green when I saw it a while ago.

My friend sent me this, I don't know the green color turned to orange???...  beautiful anyway!

Today: I'm tired to the highest level.. I wanna say much but I just couldn't, I'm too drained...  just read my eyes.. hehe

..so all i have is music and my bed!!! My comfort zone...


Today's Happiest moment:

 At past 3pm, i felt happy. Reason? I i dont know. Or too tired to know! Maybe I've accomplished something.

Goodnight!

5Nov14

TODAY:

Yun lang. Hehe

Call it The Slambook

TODAY: still busy and feeling crazy. Haha

HAPPIEST MOMENT OF THE DAY: My new "kacornihan" maybe is a waste of time to some but for me, its one of the sweetest thing.. I don't really mind if it makes me so old fashioned and childish. 

Mac and Jeny called it slambook... Marj told me this, "why are you doing this? Are you going somewhere? " Haha.. yah, I'm sorry if I looked like as if I missed so much of my highschool days.

So I am  forcing them to write a note or reminder to me.. hehe.. I received jeny's message when I woke up this morning, I don't feel like rising from my bed but her message awakened my senses... I was so enlightened with her message, maybe she wrote it midnight.. I appreciate her effort too much.

Then later this afternoon, I got Lee's.  His message made me smile and we were caught by our boss when he handed it to me.. haha.. 

That's it.. for me, this isn't a waste of time... my job almost consumed everything of my whole day, it sucked my energy to its almost zero level, but I got them back when I read my friend's messages.. its nice to know, I mean something to them... I'm reminded that I am someone to them... I keep on telling myself that I must acknowledge my worth without needing anyone's confirmation of it... but hearing it from the people whom you consider your.good friends are truly heartwarming. 

So I guess the saying right:  Everyday may not be good, but there is always something good about everyday...

Good night!

3Nov14

TODAY:

Late at work.
Busy much.
Dinner date with marj.

HAPPIEST MOMENT TODAY:
Downloaded Walking Dead or this conversation.

GOODNIGHT!

2Nov14

Today:

9:58am
Still at my bed counting my face worst enemies, my pimples.. ahaha.. but I think they're loving each others company.. grrr.. i know its making me more ugly duckling! Haha.. I don't know why they're coming out too many, sometimes I totally don't have any.

I feel sick.. I'm having a flu and tonsillitis...could it be because of too many sweets I have taken yesterday at Rose son's birthday? And I have more sweets on my refrigerator now... I dont know what to eat. Here's our picture yesterday.

10:45pm
I don't want to sleep yet.. I think I have so much to do..  anyway, I went out this afternoon.. walked around at Robinson Mall, ate Arrozcaldo (feel na feel kong may sakit ako.. haha), had some ice cream despite of my colds, merienda at burger king, bought too many fruits...

and now that I'm about to sleep.. music tripping first to relax my senses.

Good night!

LESSON FOR THE DAY:
If someone did something extraordinary or if they look great, tell them.. be sincere in giving compliments, mean what you say.. you don't know who you make feel good about themselves because of what you've said.. some people need to hear it from others.... once again, be sincere, otherwise don't say anything.

WHAT'S THE HAPPIEST THING HAPPENED TODAY: This is something I should answer everyday but I always miss it.. for today, maybe the ice cream?? Haha..

LETTER TO SOULMATE:
Hey, here I am again, writing to you.. still wondering how are you doing? Where could you possibly be... ? am I gonna see you? I didn't pray for your arrival not until recently when everybody was asking me why am I still single... I couldn't really answer them, I thought it was my choice... or my choice to wait for you... but the chance of meeting you is too low.. I think I'm at the wrong place.. you're not here.. I could feel that, but I am so stuck in here...

Because you can't find me, I'm trying to find you, I'm busy so I asked my friend to apply me jobs for abroad but I'm not receiving progress yet, I had a possible employment in Dubai but they're expecting me to be already there so I didn't take it seriously. Are you somewhere out there? Or were you just around? I'm just being terrible and intimidating?  I tried to change myself, maybe I am too despicable and too bad you wouldn't like me.... but I always ended up being myself..

 But you know what, I don't really mind being single for good rather than be with the wrong person because I was pressured or because I want to forget some people, or maybe yes. I'm sorry. .. i didn't want to use anyone just to make myself feel worth it or feel better without considering them, I wanna be with someone because they make me happy and we deserve each other... now I pray to God for us to meet at the right time... sooner or later, it's okay if that's what meant us to be... but if in case He wont give you to me, I'll accept that, everything happens for a reason... maybe I am better alone, (i still have my friends and family)..just remember that you always had a space in my heart...

REMINDER TO SELF:

With or without someone to hold on to.. you can carry on.. you should..you must... be independent!