2:22pm
In the midst of me being busy with this and that...on my screen is this...
Working + Looking for a destination and a place to stay on the APEC holidays + YouTube + Blogger + Flights Check + these empty spaces in this office. ---- but I'm swearing I'm fine with it. I thought when most of my officemates will be transferred to other projects sites then I will be really lonely ... yes, I am, but I'm fine, I think I'm just alone but not really lonely.....and I love the freedom... but this will end soon, I will be transferred too... shouldn't I be happy? nah.. don't ask.
I've been thinking of what if I'm doing the things I truly love, if I wasn't a Cost Engineer now.. maybe I'm chasing my real passion... wow! now I know that? haha.. I think I knew it long time ago.. just didn't realize it.
I think I've said this before, I wanna be a TRAVEL BLOGGER!... I'm terrible in writing and the hesitance in traveling in a strange place is something I haven't overcome yet.....plus the fact that no matter how numerous flights I had, I'm still not used to it, I still fear taking the airplane... those flights from SG to Penang and KL to Phil are my worst and since then, my fear grew even more ... Ironic right????? so how will I be able to get through the wall that would welcome me into that world I'm wanting so much... how? when things are too late now...
Anyway... in my own way.. I'm writing.. and I'll be traveling.. maybe not professionally, not too far away, and not today... but somehow, I will... SO HELP ME GOD.
P.S. What's going on in Paris? I'd love to get there too... but for now, all we can do is to pray not only for Paris, but for the Earth to become a better place... with better people.., correct that.. with better people to have a better place... and if it gets better, then maybe travelling is less dramatic. (for me!)
Saturday, November 14, 2015
Thursday, November 12, 2015
13 Nov 15
I'm soooo pagod... and i'm so tired... parehas lang pala yun, im so pagod to edit... yaan mo na... ayoko sana mag inarte ngayon kaya lang natural na sa aken.. eto lang yung pampastress out ko.. kaya intidihin mo na.. hehe
Gusto ko sana magkwento.. gusto ko ikwento yung parang reunion namin kagabi during our surprise party to our area manager..nakakamiss sila... kakatuwa namang sama sama kami ulit... diko na madedetalye, pagod na e.
Anyway, my body aches a bit.. we decorated the venue yesterday afternoon (which not really my talent, but I volunteered.. para maiba naman).... magdidikit lang naman nung lobo.. sumakit na katawan ko.. ahaha..
Tapos, I was at PP3 today, my most hated place nowadays.. kaya lang kailangan eh. Buti na lang andun sina Mac, c Jay R, si Mela.... pati na rin sina Paulo, Glenda, Jardine, May at yung iba pa.... kaya lang ayoko pa rin talaga dun... dumudugo rin yung utak ko dun sa cutting list na ginagawa ko... na diko matapos tapos kase ang gulo ng files nila.. naiirita ako... haha... pero keribells!
Marami pa akong sasabihin.. kaya lang dina kaya ng powers ko.. antok na antok na ako..
Good night na!!
Gusto ko sana magkwento.. gusto ko ikwento yung parang reunion namin kagabi during our surprise party to our area manager..nakakamiss sila... kakatuwa namang sama sama kami ulit... diko na madedetalye, pagod na e.
Anyway, my body aches a bit.. we decorated the venue yesterday afternoon (which not really my talent, but I volunteered.. para maiba naman).... magdidikit lang naman nung lobo.. sumakit na katawan ko.. ahaha..
Tapos, I was at PP3 today, my most hated place nowadays.. kaya lang kailangan eh. Buti na lang andun sina Mac, c Jay R, si Mela.... pati na rin sina Paulo, Glenda, Jardine, May at yung iba pa.... kaya lang ayoko pa rin talaga dun... dumudugo rin yung utak ko dun sa cutting list na ginagawa ko... na diko matapos tapos kase ang gulo ng files nila.. naiirita ako... haha... pero keribells!
Marami pa akong sasabihin.. kaya lang dina kaya ng powers ko.. antok na antok na ako..
Good night na!!
Tuesday, November 10, 2015
di ko alam anong date ngayon
This wont take long...
At some point of our lives, we are being bombarded with random thoughts that brought us to anxiety... We look back on things that should have eradicated long time ago.. regrets could almost drove us to the brink of our wits... We wish that we could take back the words we've said, the actions we've made, the choices we took and even the people we've met.. but don't you think you could be the person you are now if you haven't tested by this life's bittersweets? I don't know either, sometimes I'm just feeling down... and I could be happy too by some small stuff... I could be bitter by not having the thing I wish I had... There are things that I don't really understand... sometimes I'm just being pointless, maybe right I'm not making any sense... i don't even know my point.. don't you? Sorry for wasting our time here...
GOOD NIGHT! SLEEP WELL..
At some point of our lives, we are being bombarded with random thoughts that brought us to anxiety... We look back on things that should have eradicated long time ago.. regrets could almost drove us to the brink of our wits... We wish that we could take back the words we've said, the actions we've made, the choices we took and even the people we've met.. but don't you think you could be the person you are now if you haven't tested by this life's bittersweets? I don't know either, sometimes I'm just feeling down... and I could be happy too by some small stuff... I could be bitter by not having the thing I wish I had... There are things that I don't really understand... sometimes I'm just being pointless, maybe right I'm not making any sense... i don't even know my point.. don't you? Sorry for wasting our time here...
GOOD NIGHT! SLEEP WELL..
Sunday, November 8, 2015
The Anonymous Hopeless Romantic
_____________________________________
Will You Hate Me?
Will You Hate Me?
If I'll hate you, will you hate me too?
Will you throw away the things that remind you of me?
Will I still be that someone you will always remember even when our worlds revolve at different sky?
Will you hate me when I'll hate you?
When the night sky runs out of falling stars, will you still wish to see me?
Will you still smile when you see someone as crazy as me?
Or as the sun sets, will I also fade?
Will you miss me when the rain breaks your heart ?
Will you still be amused with my weirdness or you'll finally curse it?
Will you remember me when the moon is bright? Or when it's creepy? Or when it's blue?
Will you hate me when I'll stop hating you?? Even if it means, not hating you is not loving you?
Will you hate me?
________________________________________
And You Don't Know
How did I know I love you?
I didn't know until one day, everything was a mess. I felt like giving up. Everyone was out, it was late. Feeling so alone, then you stood there, you smiled at me.. then just like that, everything turns well...
But you didn't even know that.
________________________________________
To Someone I Haven't Met Yet
________________________________________
And You Don't Know
How did I know I love you?
I didn't know until one day, everything was a mess. I felt like giving up. Everyone was out, it was late. Feeling so alone, then you stood there, you smiled at me.. then just like that, everything turns well...
But you didn't even know that.
________________________________________
To Someone I Haven't Met Yet
I haven't met you yet
But I missed you
And I'm still waiting
You maybe so far away now
But someday we will meet
I'll tell you my stories and you'll tell me yours
No matter how long the years we've missed
We'll get ourselves anywhere in this world
Just get lost, meet new people, write their stories
And write ours
We'd talk about our favorite movies
Our childhood mistakes, our dreams, crazy thoughts
Anything under the sun
Actually, I don't really mind what we talk about
Even by just sitting next to you in silence would mean to me
I don't want us to be perfect, I want us to be true
And if God won't permits us to be together in this lifetime
I'm still waiting even in another life
Coz I don't mind being alone rather than being with the wrong one..
Though it would mean,
I'll be missing you forever...
________________________________________
Meet Me At The Central Park
I know you're leaving the town
So I called you to meet me at Central Park
It's the best place in New York I wanna be... with you.
I wont stop you from leaving
Just meet me once at the Central Park
Finally I had the courage to ask you out
I'm sorry if I'm doing it before you leave the "City That Never Sleeps"
I just wanna tell you that I'll be missing you
Things wouldn't be easy now not having you around.
Would you mind if I'll tell you I've been inlove with you all this time?
I'm sorry if I'm telling you just now
You will always be that one person I will always love but I will never have
So, now that you're leaving this city, please remember someone in New York City keeps you in her heart
So please meet me at the Central Park
But now I'm writing this
In case you'll never meet me in the Central Park.
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Amazing You!
How can I ever convince you that you are amazing.
The way you look at me, I couldn't look back too long, you're taking my breath away.
You are beautiful even your hair is tangled.
Even when you dressed so old school.
You are beautiful when you smile, when you laugh like you don't care even you would look like a fool.
You said, you say a lot of nonsense, but to me, everything you say means a lot, even when you're not saying anything.
You are beautiful when you seem so innocent and childish, yes you are!
Your eyes -- the most expressive I've ever seen, it doesn't lie, you can fake that smile but never those eyes.
You're just so amazing when you don't even know you are.
But I want you to know, you deserve to know, take it from me, from the one who sees not only your outside but what's deep within you.
_____________________________
I Know You Love Me
You don't have to lie
Say your farewell as you may go
If goodbye is the only thing you can try
I know what you are going through
I know it's hard
You don't have to say a word
It wont make me feel bad
I understand if you really cant be bold
Even if you couldn't say a thing
Your lips maybe sealed but in your eyes I see
What your heart can't sing
Be it, but I know you love me.
__________________________________________
You've Got a Friend
I know I'm not someone you would remember when your world is shattered
I wasn't as strong as anyone
I haven't done so much that would be worth remembering
I can't even say words that would inspire you
But I'll be just right here when you have no one..
I know when you're bored, I'm not the right person to run to
But if you wanna be bored with me, you can call me
If your heart is broken, you can approach me, I'm not a heart fixer, mine got broke too
So, at least you're not alone.
I know I can be harsh sometimes
I'm not aware I'm being mean
You can slap my face if I do, it's okay.
But expect me to slap back :)
When you want your secret safe
Pour it with me, you can trust me
If you want someone to listen
You've got a friend here...
______________________________________
________________________________________
Meet Me At The Central Park
I know you're leaving the town
So I called you to meet me at Central Park
It's the best place in New York I wanna be... with you.
I wont stop you from leaving
Just meet me once at the Central Park
Finally I had the courage to ask you out
I'm sorry if I'm doing it before you leave the "City That Never Sleeps"
I just wanna tell you that I'll be missing you
Things wouldn't be easy now not having you around.
Would you mind if I'll tell you I've been inlove with you all this time?
I'm sorry if I'm telling you just now
You will always be that one person I will always love but I will never have
So, now that you're leaving this city, please remember someone in New York City keeps you in her heart
So please meet me at the Central Park
But now I'm writing this
In case you'll never meet me in the Central Park.
________________________________
Amazing You!
How can I ever convince you that you are amazing.
The way you look at me, I couldn't look back too long, you're taking my breath away.
You are beautiful even your hair is tangled.
Even when you dressed so old school.
You are beautiful when you smile, when you laugh like you don't care even you would look like a fool.
You said, you say a lot of nonsense, but to me, everything you say means a lot, even when you're not saying anything.
You are beautiful when you seem so innocent and childish, yes you are!
Your eyes -- the most expressive I've ever seen, it doesn't lie, you can fake that smile but never those eyes.
You're just so amazing when you don't even know you are.
But I want you to know, you deserve to know, take it from me, from the one who sees not only your outside but what's deep within you.
_____________________________
I Know You Love Me
You don't have to lie
Say your farewell as you may go
If goodbye is the only thing you can try
I know what you are going through
I know it's hard
You don't have to say a word
It wont make me feel bad
I understand if you really cant be bold
Even if you couldn't say a thing
Your lips maybe sealed but in your eyes I see
What your heart can't sing
Be it, but I know you love me.
__________________________________________
You've Got a Friend
I know I'm not someone you would remember when your world is shattered
I wasn't as strong as anyone
I haven't done so much that would be worth remembering
I can't even say words that would inspire you
But I'll be just right here when you have no one..
I know when you're bored, I'm not the right person to run to
But if you wanna be bored with me, you can call me
If your heart is broken, you can approach me, I'm not a heart fixer, mine got broke too
So, at least you're not alone.
I know I can be harsh sometimes
I'm not aware I'm being mean
You can slap my face if I do, it's okay.
But expect me to slap back :)
When you want your secret safe
Pour it with me, you can trust me
If you want someone to listen
You've got a friend here...
______________________________________
Saturday, November 7, 2015
7th of November
5:27am
I thought it's Sunday, I would want to sleep back but I can't ... Rise from bed now! -- I'm telling myself. It's been a rough week!
Good morning! Seize the day!
3:03pm
Just having a break... ang dami namang nag iinarte sa mundo.. nakakainis din pala... ang dami na namin ahaha... buti na lang ikaw lang nakakalam.. at least di ka pwede magreact... baka nasaktan mo na rin ako..haha.. sige back to work.. isang oras na lang.. uwian na..
4:03pm
So much to do but I stopped working... but I'm still resting on my seat... because I don't wanna go home yet.
10:08pm
Done with one movie "No Escape"... it was nice... so cheers to my next movie "Fury"....
12:32am
Fury -- okay rin, umaaction movie lang peg ko ngayon.. Lets call it a day..
Good night!
I thought it's Sunday, I would want to sleep back but I can't ... Rise from bed now! -- I'm telling myself. It's been a rough week!
Good morning! Seize the day!
3:03pm
Just having a break... ang dami namang nag iinarte sa mundo.. nakakainis din pala... ang dami na namin ahaha... buti na lang ikaw lang nakakalam.. at least di ka pwede magreact... baka nasaktan mo na rin ako..haha.. sige back to work.. isang oras na lang.. uwian na..
4:03pm
So much to do but I stopped working... but I'm still resting on my seat... because I don't wanna go home yet.
10:08pm
Done with one movie "No Escape"... it was nice... so cheers to my next movie "Fury"....
12:32am
Fury -- okay rin, umaaction movie lang peg ko ngayon.. Lets call it a day..
Good night!
Monday, November 2, 2015
2nd Day of November
7:15am
I don't wanna entertain the thought that this maybe my last happy day in Primea... but I just can't help it.. I think I'm just too occupied with my anticipated upcoming changes in my environment and working habit as well... I don't wanna be harsh with myself but what can I do? I was born a worrywart! Haha
It's not full time yet, I'll still have to spend time in Primea and at PP3 both in a week... I'll start with twice or thrice a week in the other project... everything will be okay..
Just let me start my day with my Spaghetti I cooked last night... not bad!
12:05pm
Had this for lunch.
2.38pm
This silence is deafening... but I'm okay with it.. I'm happy being like this... I wish time would freeze, I would love to stay like this.. chos! ayaoko pang dumating ang bukas... narealized ko, mahal pala talaga kita!...
Primea! haha..
4:30pm
Pausing and thinking I wish I could get there too! (ow, am I inconsistent? just a while ago, I was saying that I loved it like this.. haha)... hindi naman yun, I'm referring to other place... I wish I could get there too... somebody help me!!! I'm so stuck... I wanna get "there" and "there" and "there" too ... lol!
7:00pm
Home! And this is so cute.....
Lets switch to more serious topic now... Since this picture below went viral today... allow me to share my thoughts too...
When I saw this, the first thing came into my mind was... "why are they wearing that as Halloween costume?? What's with it that has something to do with Halloween? ".. I wasn't really disappointed or what... maybe I am too naive to think that at least they are recognizing it,, but why on this kind of occasion?.. as I've said, I'm not mad or insulted (as others), I just want to know their intention... as long as they don't mean to be disrespectful then maybe it's okay... I'm not that someone who knows too much about our religion, I admit, I have so much to learn about... but I know for sure that mocking and disrespecting one another is again'st the teaching any kind of religion.
10:32pm
Good night! Got to set my alarm earlier... sleep well..
I don't wanna entertain the thought that this maybe my last happy day in Primea... but I just can't help it.. I think I'm just too occupied with my anticipated upcoming changes in my environment and working habit as well... I don't wanna be harsh with myself but what can I do? I was born a worrywart! Haha
It's not full time yet, I'll still have to spend time in Primea and at PP3 both in a week... I'll start with twice or thrice a week in the other project... everything will be okay..
Just let me start my day with my Spaghetti I cooked last night... not bad!
12:05pm
Had this for lunch.
2.38pm
This silence is deafening... but I'm okay with it.. I'm happy being like this... I wish time would freeze, I would love to stay like this.. chos! ayaoko pang dumating ang bukas... narealized ko, mahal pala talaga kita!...
Primea! haha..
4:30pm
Pausing and thinking I wish I could get there too! (ow, am I inconsistent? just a while ago, I was saying that I loved it like this.. haha)... hindi naman yun, I'm referring to other place... I wish I could get there too... somebody help me!!! I'm so stuck... I wanna get "there" and "there" and "there" too ... lol!
7:00pm
Home! And this is so cute.....
When I saw this, the first thing came into my mind was... "why are they wearing that as Halloween costume?? What's with it that has something to do with Halloween? ".. I wasn't really disappointed or what... maybe I am too naive to think that at least they are recognizing it,, but why on this kind of occasion?.. as I've said, I'm not mad or insulted (as others), I just want to know their intention... as long as they don't mean to be disrespectful then maybe it's okay... I'm not that someone who knows too much about our religion, I admit, I have so much to learn about... but I know for sure that mocking and disrespecting one another is again'st the teaching any kind of religion.
And what's saddening too is reading harsh comments from different people, aren't they aware that they are just complicating things?? I know I said a lot of bad words too.. but as much as possible, I couldn't put my comments-- those unreasonable comments on the social network, when I know deep down that I am no saint too.
And with regards to asking Joey de Leon and Tito Sotto to apologize, I won't be desperate about it, anyone could say sorry just for the sake of apologizing even they don't mean it... What's the point? I know somehow we want it, so no one could look down on us, the misconception thing... its hard to stop.. minsan, kelangan IpagpaDyos na lang.... what matters is what's in our heart and soul...
9:36pm
Anyway, look, dahil naiingit ako.. souvenir na lang saken. Haha!
Good night! Got to set my alarm earlier... sleep well..
Sunday, November 1, 2015
why o why??
Why time moves so fast when I don't want it to?
Why I can't stop caring when I shouldn't? Or the other way around?
Why is it hard for me to stop worrying about things that ain't coming yet?why??
Why can't I stop thinking and wondering about things that has been over already??
Why I feel so sleepy right now but I just can't sleep?
Why? Why oh why???
...and if I won't stop asking why now... then surely I can't sleep.
Oh.. my good night!! Sleep well
Why I can't stop caring when I shouldn't? Or the other way around?
Why is it hard for me to stop worrying about things that ain't coming yet?why??
Why can't I stop thinking and wondering about things that has been over already??
Why I feel so sleepy right now but I just can't sleep?
Why? Why oh why???
...and if I won't stop asking why now... then surely I can't sleep.
Oh.. my good night!! Sleep well
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