28th of May (pero na 29 na ngayon)

The OJT's  (On the Job Training Students) were taking a lot of pictures today...  so this was kinda nahagip lang ako..  anyway, di naman ako yung issue but my messy table... last two days ko na sa present company ko pero ganto pa rin kagulo yung table ko?? Hayst... mukhang maeextend talaga ako till the whole week next week( and that's unpaid!)... I have a reconciliation with accounting on Wednesday and turn over maybe Friday..hayst... yes na.. And I'm fixing the other files para di mahirapan yung iiwanan ko.. Naks! Ang dakila noh?? Ako na yung may "Malasakit" Haha... hindi naman sa ganon...ayoko lang maging irresponsible.. I hate it when people are being irresponsible.. bat ko naman gagawin yung mga bagay na alam kong pag sa aken ginawa eh maiinis ako... masyado rin kase akong naging busy kaya diko masyado natutukan ang turn over.. kelan ba akon hindi naging busy?

This was last night.. Because I'm counting the days...

Good night!

My Last 7 Days!

30th of May would be my last day at work and still at this very moment I'm a bit unsure if not extending was a right decision.... or maybe I'm just not used to refuse at some people's request.... but at some point, I'm proud of myself too... napanindigan ko desisyon ko.. Yey! :)

I'm gonna miss these people... that's the only thing that made this so tough for me... I used to think that I don't really worth anything that much, but knowing they wanted me to stay... that I matter  somehow... that they wanna be with me a bit longer are just the thoughts that make me think -- I do exist.. THANKS... So, though leaving breaks my heart, I can still feel that smile in my face somehow.. indeed my six years aren't that wasted... I have to go now.

By the way,  how I'd spend my last few days in Manila? Honestly, I'm still really busy, I don't wanna leave my task messed up... So there goes my proper turn over...

Explore Metro Manila??? I'm being attentive these few weeks..it's whether on a taxi, train, bus or jeepney... I looked at the window like I'm memorizing every details of the view..  and when it comes to people, I talked to them as if I won't be seeing them anymore, dramatic I know.. but shouldn't we be spending our everyday as if  it's our last??? ( a part of me is saying.. wag ka nga masyadong magdrama.. di ka pa madedeads! Haha.. but who knows??? Anong pinagsasabi ko??).

There were times in our lives where we put reservations, yung tipong akala mo may pagkakataon pa so you won't give your best shot, you missed to say the things you wished to say believing there are more chances... or you put aside the things you love kala mo may time pa... yun pala wala na, last mo na yun! .. hugot ba ito?? Basta..

I'm just facing a new chapter of my life, medyo doubtful and emotional lang... kaya medyo maarte..  pasensya na.

Tomorrow is my exit interview nga pala..  just wish me luck.. I may say the right words to say..

And G.O.T... that Hodor stuff as in (Hold the Door), I'm affected much! Hehe

GOOD NIGHT!

22 May 2016

My day started with this selfie while waiting for my turn to take a bath.. yeah its filtered  para di masyadong halata yung nangingintab kong pagmumukha dahil kagigising ko lang.. haha!

So obviously, I slept over at Margaux's place because I so missed her fried chicken.. (thanks teh!)

Then at lunch,  I met an old friend belle at Ali Mall... while waiting for her, I decided to sing all by self at Timezone... annoying lang, may naglalampungang magjowa sa kabilang room (haha..bitter??).. di kase ako makapagconcentrate kumanta.. destructive sila.. haha... what's most annoying are those people na muntik ng pumasok sa cubicle ko kase akala walang tao... gusto kong sabihang,, "may tao oh.. mag isa nga lang ako, ano naman?? Kaya kong kumanta mag-isa.. pwede naman yun diba??!!!!". Haha.. just a little praning.. natatawa lang ako.. awkward ba talagang nag ta timezone mag isa?? Keber!! Pero nahiya din ako bigla.. so I went out, and had stayed at foodcourt, drafted that floor/elevation plan my father is requesting me to do long time ago na.. pasaway e.

So, there came Belle with her family.. we had chit chat... explained to her my reason for my resignation... blah blah blah tapos uwi na....

Tapos, inaantok na ako ngayon kaya kahit gusto ko pa magblog.. tatapusin ko na...

GOOD NIGHT!

20 ba ngayon?? or 21?

Bonding moment with these two because I've got few days left ..... then I don't know when will I see them again...

Anyway, I'm home.. minsan mabait din pala saken ang tadhana, the rain poured heavily when I got home.. wala kase akong dalang payong!!

Okay lang namang maulanan kung pauwi naman ako kaso I brought my things with me...

GOOD NIGHT!

18th of May :(

Hey... wala lang.. I think there's just a need for me to express how I've been feeling today..  Our Area Manager just had a closed door "talk" with me this morning... asking me seriously to extend my stay for about two months... It's been an  issue weeks ago but I just didn't take it seriously.. and at some corner of my mind... I was thinking of staying a bit longer... dahil gusto ko pa nga sila makasama sa konting panahon.. kase tingin ko, pag umaalis na ako.. baka di ko na sila makita pa ever.. chos! Pero oo nga.

Mabalik tayo sa usapan namin... honestly, as I entered his office, wala pa akong fixed na desisyon non... pero parang may nagsasabing panindigan ko na yung desisyon ko... and that's it.. I told him na kakayanin na naman siguro ng department ko na wala ako... na may mga bagay na di ko gustong gawin or labag sa kalooban ko kahit kelangang kelangan kaya aalis ako lalo nat magraramadan na... and blah blah blah... there... everything I've said implied that I can't stay anymore and he accepted that.. diko alam pero parang may mali... biglang doubtful ako sa desisyon ko... though the words came out from my lips had made the decision pero bakit naiiyak ako after that conversation??? !! Arte ko ah. Haha

Basta... ipapaDyos ko na lang to.. diko man alam ano plano ko.. bahala na Sya. May He blessed me with wisdom kung ano nararapat na gawin. Papaubaya ko na to sa Kanya..

I have to let go of what's bothering me the whole day.

GOOD NIGHT!

Venice Grand Canal

Today, Margaux and I went to Venice Grand Canal.. it was not planned.. it just hit me this morning when I realized that I may not able have the time to visit it.

 

The place was nice.. though most of the stores are closed yet..

Then next stop: singing!! I missed singing.. haha

good night

14th Of May

Bored!! And this explains this! Haha.. sorrey!!

When I got home this afternoon...  yung tanong mo sa sarili.. what now??  Nalulungkot pa rin ako.. haha.. kelan matatapos na to?? Sanay na sanay naman akong mag isa bat ngayon ang hirap na??? Darn that!! Yeah I'm being emotional this past few weeks... In few weeks, I'll be gone! I mean I'll bid good bye to the things I'm so used to... ang hirap pala talaga ng transition period... chos!