Gloomy Sunday

Yes, its gloomy Sunday and so do I.. hehe…

Its been ages since the last time I did this.. Writing my Sunday’s whereabouts, my day off! Hehe.. yes, as if today was an extraordinary day, well its not..

As I’ve said, today is something just like the usual, woke up almost 10am, washed my uniform, wrote a letter to someone (not done yet), brought my other dirty clothes to the laundry shop and claimed what I have left there a week ago, tried to cook something but I did not—(well, at least I’ve tried), watched the rain drops, when it stopped I shopped a little, paid my credit card, met my father at SM Makati who just got here this afternoon , (he had a delayed flight, maybe because of the weather) they’re going to Indonesia for a meeting (I wish I could go too, hehe), and now I am writing this!

That’s all folks!

Bored!

There are moments I’m loving the scenario of just staying in my room doing nothing.. But today, it was an exception, I’m feeling so drop dead bored.

It started at office this morning.. I felt so pathetic and low, I don’t feel like working but I must work, I have tons of work to do in case you don’t know. Oh my diary you haven’t heard  enough of me this past few weeks , aside from being busy I found a friend whom I could talk about my sentiments, thoughts and etceteras, stuffs I used to tell you (sorry I forgot about you)… But maybe, you’re still my best friend, I will always go back to you, this friend I’m talking about is leaving me so soon.

Anyway, I must update my blog site…  I must change this corny dash board “letters to soulmate”. .. It’s kinda “ew!” hehe..

Where Am I? This is just one of my weaknesses in writing, I don’t stick to one topic, I always find myself getting away from what I really want to write about, (what’s so new, its anything goes right? I own you anyway.. haha)

So where am I again? Haha.. When I’m in office, I always want to get myself out of it.. But as soon as I reached home, like earlier tonight, I realized how boring my life is. Unwanted random thoughts are eating me up, only the four corners of my room is what I’m seeing, they’re like cloaking me away from my sanity. I have no one to talk to, that’s why I ended up talking to myself, to you my dear diary.. haha.. I feel so envious to my officemates, for sure they are having a good time with their family by now! Errr…

Haha… that’s all. I’ve said enough I guess.. I’m a bit fine now.

Its 11:15pm now, (I don’t know how to reset the time here in blogger, got no time to learn about it), shall I watch a movie now? Honestly I am so sleepy now, but I don’t feel like going to dreamland , not yet.

Mean People!

People are mean! Yes they are, and I’m not labeling myself as an exception, maybe that’s part of being rational..

Anyway never expect that everyone would go according to your standards, to your will, to how you want them to react. Some of them wouldn’t cease on pestering your mood, some would rather die in seeing you happy. Even if you are the most kind person in the world, there will always be someone who would put you down.

There are people who would never appreciate your ways, no matter how hard you’ll work, still they wouldn’t be contented of your performance, they wouldn’t see what you are going through, they’ll never care about you, they will only consider themselves.

 What happen to the world, don't they remember the golden rule? Did they forget how to be considerate? Would it be so hard to pause for a while and think if you’ll hurt someone’s feeling before making a move?

The only way we could survive from their browbeating presence is to stop thinking about them, not to worry about the sarcastic words they’ll throw you, by just laughing your heart out instead of frowning because they’ve insulted you. Answer them back if you want, and if you can’t because you are too kind to fight back, then forget about it! Don’t let them make you feel outsmarted.. Running away from them isn't a solution coz they are everywhere, you'll always end up meeting people with this behavior. Remember they’ll only win over you if you permit them. Just put it this way, these kind of people will help you become a stronger person. Life is too short to let them make you feel inferior.

Welcoming myself to Blogger!

I have this website so long time ago but I wasn't that active, not even so familiar with its features and mechanics because  I don't want to canoe on two rivers at the same time! haha, I was so into my multiply site then, but since its gone (my multiply blog and echoses-I'm going to miss it!), I shifted here..

I've imported some of my blog entries from multiply in here but it doesn't look the same, the pictures are gone.. it breaks my heart!! (that's why I still believe that journals and scrapbooking manually is still the best way in saving memories! haysst)

Anyway, today is my first day of figuring out  what am I suppose to do, I have 4 day break due to the Holy week, but I'm not home, I'm feeling guilty on that, I know overworking (literally) isn't an excuse for me forget to book a flight home... I must be eating my favorite dishes and have some bonding moments with my family by now (frowning!).

So, what am I suppose to do to beat this world weariness??? -- My answer is--- movie marathon, clean the room, candy crush, eat a lot, more of blogging....... and etcera.. (etcera means I don't know! haha)

Hey Ash, welcome to blogger! Your new drama starts now!

echos lang bago matulog!

yes, its like i couldn't sleep if I wouldn't write something in here.. though honestly, I really don't know what to say, I'm a bit upset,.... drop it! i think being upset is not unusual to me, i hate it and you may think that because I tolerate it, i couldn't get away from it...

see? i couldn't start it right! basta lang... gusto ko lang ilabas ang sama ng loob ko... kahit pa parang di ko naman alam ang dahilan... hahahha... nababaliw nanaman ako, ang arte arte ko, di naman bagay! as what one of friends told me.. hahahah.. tama nga naman sya... pero wala akong pakialam sa ngayon, mag-iinarte pa rin ako!!! hehe

naiinis ako!!! nakakainis kasi talaga yung ibang tao sa mundo... naiinis talaga ako... hahahhah

matutulog na ako.. yun na yun! ayos na ako!! bukas okay na ako, sana okay na ako...

Family Trip to Lake Sebu and Gumasa Beach

Sorry for the late post, this was last Dec. 29-30

Happy new year but I'm not really that Happy...

happy 2013! but i'm having world's one of the worst feeling, so nostalgic, I'm home right now but in few hours I'll be leaving again, my flight back to Manila 12.55pm.

It makes me wanna cry, I didn't know why I'll never used to this kind of situation.. I'm just so afraid that everything might not be at place when I get back, everything changes, everyone grows old, time moves fast and it doesn't wait nor care, I hope you know what I mean..

I slept late, witnessed the sound of the new year, the fireworks, anything that relates it--- though I'm just in my room waiting for my eyes to shut, we don't celebrate the new year...

And I should be still sleeping right now but I couldn't, I woke up at 4:30am and I couldn't sleep back.. i feel so melancholic and sad, I had this non stop random thoughts... The thoughts of not going back to Manila even crossed my mind, good thing I wasn't raised by parents to be irresponsible and leave my task without notice, you know me well my dear diary!

wahhhh... its been so long since I wrote here (yah a month is already long enough), but because I am so desperate to ease away my unwanted insanity (hehe i can't describe it), i need to this this, I need to shout it out here..

Anyway, I'm gonna be fine! I shouldn't let the bad vibes eat me up on my first day of 2013.. no.. no... no...

This year is going to be great for me, it should be my turning point! If I should have my new year's resolution, that would be me, being a better and righteous woman,in any way!

So dear God, Yah Allah, help me please!