I'll Have To Say It In A Song

This day has been  long and rough... but I don't want to stay at the office after six, (yes, not anymore!) so I had to leave! See how as if a whirlwind hit my table! Swear I didn't want it like that, I just can't help it.  I left it that way coz I was in a rush.

Everybody's out early today because tomorrow is a holiday.. yep, it was a bit creepy staying late there, about 20 meters below the ground! And this glass window that divides my department to my boss' is kinda scary, its as if someone would suddenly show up!! So I packed up and ran! (Exaggerated though).

Anyway, when I was on my way out,  one of my officemates was still there, her seat is a little far from mine that's  why I thought no one was there.. I'm a bit guilty leaving her there, I know how it feels to be just by yourself in that forsaken place (haha.. exaggerated nanaman ako sa forsaken!).. Anyway, I said goodbye to her, I think she's used to it.

Lets get back to me getting busy the whole day... like which is which first.. (madalas naman akong ganon.. haha).. but dont worry I'm learning to handle things well (almost well! Haha).. maybe its better that way... I would rather get myself busy than just do nothing.. That is such a pain in the head.. both does, but doing nothing is worst.

Honestly, I'm not that diligent too.. (ang tamad ko kaya!).. I just don't want to be irresponsible... I don't want to be workaholic either, I just need to get things done... I hate it when someone would tell me "ang sipag naman"! I'm just doing my job! And I'm not trying to impress my boss or anyone for doing so... I just wanna feel fine about myself capable of doing something..

Maybe sometimes I'm overdoing it... maybe.. but I'm not thinking about it too much... whatever it takes! I'm fine...

And despite my being busy.. there are still reasons that would make me pause and breath for a while in the middle of my messy  table! Music! Good thing its not prohibited in the office.. (though sometimes I couldn't hear my boss calling me because of my earphone.. he's not firing me yet. Haha)

Anyway this old song I've been playing all over again today.. its so light and corny! Haha.. But I found it relaxing..

I've no specific kind of music, I used to love alternative or songs that are not popular to anyone... but now I'm loving everything....as long it makes sense to me... (sign of aging ata! Haha)... indeed, music could touch our soul, could heal what is being broken, could express the things that are left unsaid... just like what these great men said:

that's all for tonight! (Yung title wala masyadong connection sa post ko.. hayaan nyo na).

4.6.14

What I like about being at other house is that you are treated nicely.. I had an overnight stay at my friend's new place...  medyo malayo nga lang...  and my appetite is good kapag nakikain sa ibang bahay haha.. and i enjoyed my breakfast today.. thanks sa host.

And for letting me borrow this clothes... pati na rin sa sobrang iksing shorts.. hahaha.. ( lam namang conservative ako e. Haha)

What's on your Instagram??

This is my Instagram account with 209 posts up to date..  I have few followers here and that makes me a bit confident to post anything goes... 

Just like my blogger account, I said a lot here though not thru words but more of pictures...  here are 25 random pictures out of that 209 posts that you'll see in my account.

1.) 60 weeks ago: my first post..  a tree at the nearby save more in my place.. 

2.) 49 weeks ago: stressed and relieved

3.) 49 weeks ago: Failed photography

4.) 49 weeks ago:  Enchanted

5.) 57 weeks ago: Escape 

       

                           6.)  49 weeks ago: Mad!

                      7.)  26 weeks ago: Memories

                 8.) 19 weeks ago: closer to the sky

9.) 49 weeks ago: Letting go of where you used to.

                            10.) 14 weeks ago: home

           11.) 20 weeks ago:  moon and the project

12.) 11 weeks ago: horror

13.) 41 weeks ago: Job

14.) 41 weeks ago: why o why can't I?

15.) 48 weeks ago: Runaway at not so far away

16.) 42 weeks ago:  When stupidity is beautiful

17.) 47 weeks ago: the best mom

18.) 49 weeks ago: scenery

19.) 33 weeks: simple pleasure

20.) 9 weeks ago: modesty and what should be.

21.) 45 weeks ago: discovery and I think it tastes alcohol 

22.) 25 weeks ago: My everyday

23.) 32 weeks ago: sweet thing

24.) 49 weeks ago: One and only sister

25.) 16 weeks ago: I love the rain

Ang pasalubong!

Welcome back margaux!!  You dont have to do this... hehehe... but since you did it, thank u so much.. we are so overwhelmed.. kelangang nakapost sa instagram!  Haha

By jay r

By lee

Mine

Yun lang yun...

Wait.. here's a pahabol picture for the day... sabi ni margaux, mukha akong haggard, sabi ni lee, mukhang katatapos ko lang maglaba... what a nice friends I'm having here but still popost ko pa rin to hahahaha....

I think I'm crazy!!

I've mentioned this on one of my past blogs, that when you find your self smiling alone.... you must really mean it.. it could be the truest smile of all....  or worst, you must be crazy... So maybe I am! Haha

Have you ever experienced that moment you are riding in a public  jeepney and you'll remember something that could make you smile... then you'll caught your self smiling in front of the other passengers! Then you'll hear yourself say.. "ui, para kang tanga!" Yah, I'm stupid! Hahaha

Or when you're in a middle of busy office mode, you'll have a break and pause... then behind that exhaustion you could break a smile! So there are still reasons for me to smile.. I'm glad.

Anyway, as of the moment, i have lots of smile today.. I don't know... there are just moments like this.. you feel lively and cheerful.. whatever the reason is or if there is no reason at all... I thank God for this day.

What do you write about?

I don't know what I'm about to write or if the title would fit in... this would going to be just so random... and maybe another drama... what would you expect? I'm a drama princess!

I've been writing all my life.. From that childish short stories I wrote when I was at my elementary days, the corny poems I started doing in my highschool up to that countless diaries I had in college... I wonder where are those.. the last time I went home, its no longer there where I left them.. maybe my sister burned them after reading and criticized them-- that I assumed.. Then I have my multiply blogsite that unfortunately got eradicated.. and this one, my blogger..  sometimes I would be long gone.. then get active then get lost again..

I let few trusted people read my works. And my blogger, I don't think somebody's really reading this.. some  would think, this is just a nonsense link, that's why I don't really bother if I humiliate myself sometimes.. hehe

I'm not a good writer.. I just write whatever comes out.. I had so much of wrong grammars, misspelled words, absurd topics and insignificant thoughts.. who would enjoy reading such works?! Haha.. and its easier for me to write if I'm feeling sad and I have no one to talk to.. I used to play with words, but then I realized that what matters is whats in my heart.. when I'm down, writing is like pouring my assorted thoughts into the ocean and let the waves take them to where it should be... breath out! And as what I've read somewhere, tears need to be written and that's what  I do most of the times..

I write not because I have something to show.. I have something to endorse, something to be arrogant about, I actually have nothing, I even downgrade myself sometimes. 

Many people write for countless reasons.. and mine is too personal.. but it makes me feel fine.

I write because its my only way to speak out my unvoiced words.. there are few people who would understand that .. or maybe there's really no one!

That's it! And I'm okay.. maybe you'll think I'm crazy again.. maybe I am.. but doing this is comforting... like you talk a lot your blah blah blah and  no one complains!

^__^

April Fool's!!!

"And I think I'm dying and I love you so!!! And if every thought of you could kill me then I must be dead long time ago... "

Well, that's because its April Fool's Day, spare me that one! ^__^.. maybe its safe to be foolish today.

Anyway, how time flies so fast.. its April!!! I haven't felt so much of January, February and March...

2014 is the year that I didn't want to move that fast... but unfortunately , its not moving according to my will...  so time is gold huh?!

I should get myself  somewhere this month but sad to know that I'm not going anywhere..  I'm not losing hope yet, its 1st of April and I still have 29 days more to go... So somebody support me please! Hehe

What else? Maybe I don't really feel like blogging today, I just want a post for the April Fools!!!