Friday d 13th of March

Yes. I'm starting this post with my selfie.. pampawalang gana lang.. haha!

So how's your day today?? Ako? Ganon pa rin.. ramdam na ramdam ko ng nauubusan na ako ng mga friends... i mean, they're all far from me... sooner or later, I'll be forgotten.. maiintindihan ko naman... dahil nasa ibang projects or lugar na sila.. they'll meet new people... the tendency of them forgetting me is at its high risk.. hehe... its soo unfair!! Haha.. joke lang.. nagdadrama lang ako.. kayang kaya ko naman to.. ako pa.. sanay kaya akong maging independent...

Kase naman, it's friday... this used to be bonding time.. and no one's available to attend the friday group, kundi ako lang! Haha... Naku, I need to get my self used to this.. oo nga, ang arte ko naman.. eh homebody naman talaga ako ever since..

So after eating my dinner at landmark, I tried to window shop, Pay day ngayon! Kaso, I was impatient, anong bibilhin ko?? Diko alam, so I went home...  as early as 6:30pm, I'm home na..  watched videos on YouTube, tapos nung nabored ako, I looked at myself in the mirror, I talked to myself parang baliw...... hanggang sa eto, alas onse na pala.. oras na para matulog... at itigil na ang wala masyadong kwentang blog na to..

Ay teka lang pala, just wanna share this..

Because I love letters that are hand written, this caught my attention:

Nung una, di naman ako natatawa, nacocornihan ako...tsaka parang may nabasa na akong ganto dati... pero natawa na ako dun sa... "I'm fly away to many leaves"..haha

Sige, final na...Good night!

Lonely Monday??

7:30am

Done eating my breakfast, I prepared this myself since the utility men were nowhere to be found, and I don't wanna depend on them for preparing my breakfast...  I came in early on my usual daily arrival at office,  most of my officemates we're not around yet ... Mac and Jardine were surprised too  that I'm an early bird today..

Anyway this could be a lonely Monday... The Monday sickness is still on.. This is also the first day Lee won't be around... who would be the source of my laughter starting this day?? You know, he' kinda clown to me.. Hehe... Got to start working now.

6:25pm

I'm already home! Dropped by at SM Save More to buy  something to eat for tonight... wala munang dinner sa labas, wala na yung partner ko sa kainan ng dinner.. 

Been busy today.. feeling ko rin medyo tanga ako today.. , yung tipong hinayaan ko lang mag mukhang tanga.... or maybrme I'm just too paranoid. hahaha...  there were things na late reaction na ako. Hayst.. 

10:30pm

So was it really a lonely Monday? Well, it could be.. But I went so busy I forget about it.. i forgot to feel cheerful either.. so, it.was neutral... I was fine.

I just hope these friends would remain the same, they might meet new set of friends, but wont forget the old ones.

Goodnight!

Someone's Last Day at D.P

...So everyone is leaving me! Haha.. The current project I am now is probably our longest running project or at least one of the longest...  I was assigned at this project,  (The Discovery Primea) for almost 5 years now, I've seen people just "come and go", some resigned, some was transferred to other project... and If I wont resign now (was tired of saying that diko rin nagagawa haha), surely I'll be the last one standing....hehe.. no kidding, as the cost engineer of this project, got no choice but be responsible for the close out.. so the agony of being left alone is all up to me.. Ang haba ng intro ko, walang connection sa title.. hehe...

One of my close friend in this project will be transferred to other project, just like the others,  I'm sad as if it wasn't expected... eh malilipat naman lahat... I've explained the reason why I'm happy for him but sad for me in my previous blog,..

This blog is just to narrate how we spent our last day as work mates.

Started with picture taking at the office...

Had some sort of reminiscing the past.. Lee found this picture while he was fixing his stuffs, he was about to throw it, kaya sabi ko, akin na lang.

Picture taking outside office too.. We we're wearing  same brand of polo shirts we bought at SM Megamall yesterday.. trip lang.

Tambay at Glorietta... Dinner at Gerry's Grill..Dessert at Red Mango Greenbelt..

That would be all.. parang normal day lang naman.. dumdrama lang ako! Haha...

GOODNIGHT!

6March15

Yun lang. Gusto ko pa sana magkwento kaso antok na antok nako.

That Thing Called Mixed Emotions

Before I'll start my story today, look at me at the above picture... that's how someone been thru a lot of mixed emotions in just one day looked like.... yes, all sorts of emotion: sad, upset, happy, pressured, overwhelmed, tensed, impatient, felt like crying, smiling alone.. etc etc....

During our meeting today, it was announced the Lee will be transferred to other project. I was happy for him because it was something he wanted, but sad for me because it's already too lonely at site. I'll miss a lunch and dinner buddy.. yah, it's really making me sad, they are teasing me that I'm gonna cry.. of course I won't... but at some point, I really feel like crying. Lee is that kind of friend who you would hate sometimes, he annoys me a lot,  he even puts my self esteem to its lowest level, he would mock me several times, he would laugh at me and calls me ugly and baduy.. haha, and countless  are those days I've texted him that I hated him, that he disappoints me a lot... but no matter how I would avoid him, he always managed to win me back.. hey, don't take that romantically..haha.. I never really had a close male friend that I could share my deepest thoughts with... until that day I met him... but not beyond genuine friendship... just to make things clear. .. though most disliked him, I remained unaffected.. I always tell him "lee, hindi ka mabait, pero mabuti kang tao".. others just can't see that. When I'm upset, he could make me laugh.. when I'm confuse, he gave me advises that surprises me, sometimes I thought I knew everything about what I should do, but his points of view are sensible... kahit minsan ang arte arte lang ng paraan ng pagpapaliwanag nya.

Today, my boss pressured me to do something .. but I didn't do that.. at least I know how to say I can't when its truly not doable... and I was really busy working on my billing today.

Today.. I've been upset too with my QS... instead of improving, he's actually deteriorating... what have I done wrong?? Or something is really wrong with him..

Today.. I'm overwhelmed that my previous QS is really quick in answering my queries thru emails... I'm no longer his supervisor, but just like before, he makes me feel that he didn't want to make things hard for me.. I don't know, I don't even think that I've been a good boss to him.. pinababayaan ko nga sya. Hehe.

Today, I've finally spoken to my area manager, also with my project manager, regarding the performance of my Q.S because I couldn't take it anymore! I've been really patient about him, I'm not that kind of "reklamdora" too...okay lang na paulit ulit lang ako.. but I see no effort in him, it's unhealthy na raw kase... I took it too long but finally I broke my silence...

In that moment, I  was hesitant,  a little guilty and unsure, Mac came in. I feel glad that he was there at that time... I know Mac cares for me, not romantically again huh??? Hehe.. he was one of my batchmate who entered Primea.. we became friends.. I remembered last valentines day when he told me he loves me, and i told him i love you too...  haha... walang malisya! Friends lang kami... he's just a sweet guy friend that I don't mind saying I love him. Hahaha.. ulit, walang malisya! Haha

Before, the day ends.. Margaux, Lee, Mela and I had a delicious dinner at Greenbelt..   nagutom ako sa araw na to... Glad margaux came, because I meant it when I told her, I'm needing a friend today..

And I went home smiling alone kahit tired pa ako.. okay na ako.

Sleepy now..

Good night.. tomorrow is another day.

3March15

7:28am
The first thing that made me smile genuinely today is this picture.... (after frowning  like the whole day yesterday.. haha.. someone's really getting into my nerves). This was a post from a celebrity I followed on I.G. Isn't this thing cute???

12:40pm
Lunch break.. done watching The Walking Dead S5E12.. a little boring episode... but it keeps me wondering what could be the obstacle this time... There should be something about Alexandria.. if there's none, then the series could end there... and Rick's new look, like he was 10 years younger.

5:51pm

Just read that on my facebook feeds....  ako?? I think di ako nagkakamali.. though I really wish I am.. hehe... or the other way around.

5:59pm
Waiting for our food to be served here at ravioli.

9:10pm
I don't know how does it feel when people who care about you decide for you and your future,  believing it's the best for you, not really considering if it could make you happy... just saying...

9:45pm
About to sleep.. let's remind ourselves of the saying that "You can't change how people treat you or what they say about you. All you can do is to change how you react to it".

Good night!

The First Day of March

I feel like  I've invade the Metro today.. It's my day off but I've been really tired getting here and there.. Since I slept over at my father's hotel last night, I think I hadn't had enough sleep. Woke up early to send him off to the airport at around 6am..  We   took a taxi going there but when my brother and I went home, we tried the shuttle bus--lrt--jeepney, to explore new things, we had not much to carry too, also we're not in a hurry anyway...

My father had a quick reminiscing our childhood days this morning.. he said he's glad that I have overcome my shyness... ( I'm still shy! Just trying hard not to.. hehe)... he remembered those days when I was a little girl, I don't want to go to school alone... should I say, I don't get along with my classmates because I'm the timid and anti social one.. well, I think that little girl is still inside me..  anyway, he gave me a hug and a kiss on the cheek this morning... yes, he's sweeter than I could be.. He always do that every time he or me leaves.  Yes he does and I don't ahaha... I think I've grown too old for that... I'm such a ________... just fill in the blank.

When I reached home, I had a quick nap , I even had a weird dream..

At past 12 pm, I need to get back to the airport to pick up a relative using my new discovered route, ( I'm always taking the taxi before, but since I want to explore the city as if I'm a newbie... and its cheaper too), jeepney-lrt-shuttle bus... at first I thought I accidentally alighted at the wrong station, but it was actually the right station! Haha muntik pa akong sumakay ulit ... Then I accompany my guest to Quezon Avenue... there she will be met by another relative.

Sometimes, I just want to get myself a lift on a train, go anywhere, randomly alight at any unfamiliar station too... kaso di naman pwedeng nasa MRT or LRT lang.. anong feeling ko nasa Europe?? Haha.. sana nga... This is LRT Pedro Gil Station.

Stole a photo of the EDSA while I'm alone crossing  the overpass of MRT Quezon Avenue Station.

Appreciated being in front of the train...

Details of simple things are actually a good scenery.. I don't know, maybe for me it is, sometimes, I am too free of thinking about the world chaotic things, kaya may time lang akong iappreciate yung mga ganto...  Maybe I am blessed at anyhow for having a space on my mind to see and appreciate things that others don't even got that moment to see what I've been seeing.... I mean, they were there too, or baka mas maganda pa yung view nila, di lang nila makita.

Before going home, had to treat myself with footspa, manicure, pedicure as well... and a little shaving of my eyebrows... haha..I can't do it alone kase.. I hope my boss wont notice, he keeps on teasing me....

More pictures for today..

Sorry if I'm overloaded with my selfie! I keep on repeating my reason naman diba? Hehe

Words left unspoken for someone:

Hey there, nice picture. I'm glad to see what  you've been seeing.. feels like I was there too.. its just that, I hate you. :)

 I think I had enough today.. So, Good night now!