18March16

I didn't know I could be this crazy.. haha.. this too shall pass.

Good night!

17March16

Here at staff house... nasasanay na akong di umuuwi hanggang friday.. diba?? Kung kelan aalis na ako. Haha... Mac said baka masanay na akong tuluyan at di na ako umalis... I replied, I'm just cherishing the moment.. :)

Honestly... yung moment na nasabi ko sa mga boss ko na magreresign na ako was one of happiest days , ang hirap kaya magpaalam, try mo.. hehe..

Pero ngayong nalalapit na yung time na yun eh nalulungkot ako... mamimiss ko nga sila.. mamimiss ko sya.... diko pa rin alam ano itatawag ko sa kanya.. magpapapigil naman ako eh pag sya pumigil saken.. haha! I'd stay if he'll ask me to.. if only I'll see an effort from him.. chos! Seryoso ako.. oo, kase alam ko ring di nya gagawin... hahaha.. okay na rin.. haha..

Sige good night! Good night sa kanya.... good night sayo!

13 March 16

Today, we went to Malolos Bulacan to attend the advance birthday celebration of this little cute baby Martheena ..

And I was tired.. but still manage to take a selfie to end this day... 

And tomorrow is another day at work.. I pray that no matter how I don't  want to involve my self there anymore, still, it would be a productive day..

Good night!

12 March 16

7:52am
Here at the office, not in the mood to work though I have so much to do... I woke up heavy hearted and I don't know why.. I feel hungry.. I don't know what to eat.. I've been losing my appetite and even food choices these past few days... I feel so malnourished now... sad.

6:33pm
Waiting for my order here at Shakeys... mojos and that 3 pc chicken.. one cup of rice and a seafood marina pasta to go. I'm trying to revitalize my taste buds because I have no gana to eat these days.. kaya kung may maisipan akong kainin.. go lang... time to eat... here's my order.

10:30pm
Eating that Pasta I took out with cold coke while watching Dead Pool.. This movie makes me laugh.. but I think it's a stupid one.

11:55pm
I'm this sleepy but I'm still finishing another movie.. "Heart of the Sea".

That looks in my face reminds me of something annoying haha...  but it's my face anyway.. why would I be annoyed with my own self? Aren't you? Haha

1:15am
Wahhhh! Yess... it's 1:15 am and I'm not sleeping yet.. I thought I was sleepy a while ago.. yes, I was!.. kaya lang.. it seems like I'm obliged to write sa mahiwagang notebook! Hahahah! So this pathetic thing again before I'll sleep...write.. music.. selfie?!  pagtapos nito, matutulog na ako.

Good night!!

8th of March

It's been a rough day for me.. my guilt has been eating me up.. I have to do something that is against my will but I have to. I could swear that my intentions aren't that bad.. it's just that, the process isn't legal.. and I don't wanna be part of it. It kills me! Forgive me.. I'm not being productive nor confident in doing some tasks because I know part of me is lying.. Forgive me... This is indeed one of the reasons why I'm about to resign..

Despite this, I have to thank my friends for somehow helped me divert my attention... Mela.. and my consistent chat mates.. Lee, Margaux and Marj.. Thanks for not changing... ;)

And to my notebook! :) haha

And to whom it may concern "You might not know it but I'm thankful that I'm seeing you around.. I thought I'll frown all day here, but I found myself broke a smile because of you.. sagabal ka man sa mga plano ko..  :( "

Good night!

7th of March

4:40pm
Ordered Chicken Pesto Spaghetti while waiting for my 5:30pm appointment at Globe store for my plan recontracting..  I'm actually downgrading my plan.. I'm paying too much I think not to mention I'll be resigning soon.. I don't know why am I considering the thought of not working at all.. haha.. I wanna tell myself that.. "hey! You're just having a break.. you have to work again!!".. yah,  I should!.. how am  I gonna be able to pay my plan and my insurance if I'll forever stop working?? Haha...I'm way too old to ask for financial assistance from my parents...

Anyway, I've been to National Bookstore.. bought Pens, Post It, correction pen and a notebook!! Again.. notebook! You know how I love collecting notebooks even I couldn't even find time writing on them... I was intending that notebook for someone or something.. some sort of moments and counting my 90 days of stalking.. haha.. I mean, my last days on my present company... oh wait, here's my order.. have to eat first.

5:15pm
Done eating! Pero bat ganon? That was used to be my favorite pasta here at Ravioli, but now it doesn't taste that good.. or maybe because I was eating it alone.. what's the relevance? Haha.. my friends and I eat here a lot, sharing that.. and now I'm eating all alone... well, its Sunday nga pala.

11:30pm
Watched too many movies since last night... Attack on Titan 3 (?), but the subtitle was wrong, Thai Fighter, Alvin & the Chipmunks 4, KungFu Panda 4, 400 Days and Chronicles of Sha#@&#**×&&#.. I forgot the title! Haha...

So much to say, I'm already sleepy. GOOD NIGHT!

2 March 16

Things didn't really fall into place today.. something that ruined my mood happened... and it disturbs me still.. I think I didn't do well today.. but this post isn't about that or to tolerate myself to feel worst about myself... it's the other way around...

I'm telling myself to get over it... what now if I didn't do well?? I must not let anyone  made me feel that I'm not good enough! I know not everyone would believe in me.... I must not care! So I'm gonna sleep now...

Good night!! And I still have reason to be thankful today... that dinner and good laugh with my friends...

And that glance from the one I stalk.. haha.. what should I name him??? :)