wondering?

wondering?

who do you think would get the trophy when the strongest man that could free himself from any form of captivity is trapped in a cage that is designed no one could ever escape????  well im just wondering........

how would it feel lying in a bed......... a flying  soft bed, down there is a beautiful lake, surrounded by the green forest, you can hear the chirping birds, feel the touch of the cool breeze.............

one day, you'll find a mysterious door... and when you open it..... a different world welcomes you...you'll find out that their long lost princess they've been searching for is nobody but you!... cool

Stranded in an elevator with your favorite star..

When you go around the world for free......... no limitations... sky is the limit... really great!

when do I hate my self

i know i shouldn't be saying this, but I hate my self for many reasons.. I try to conquer it but it seems that the only good part of me is captivated...I always find my self uttering words that are against my will.. I hate my self for hurting the few people I loved.. I hate my self for being insecure... for having no confidence... I hate it when courage is runnning away from me... my being ignorant of many things, I hate the way I approached life.... my idleness! my being impatient!.. i hate it when i dont trust my self....I'm so much feeling guilty of having doubts in my faith.. I cursed my self for saying yes when I really dont want to...  I despise it when I keep on grumbling on things that I can no longer do something  about it... Regrets are normal, but moving on is the key.... but  I dont, I let my failures overpower me.. in the middle of the crowd, I cant stand tall, people swarming around disgusts me.. I dont take risk...my fears are swallowing me... my weaknesses are drowning me... the world hates... anyway, why am I writing this down? I dont know, maybe because I can write more on reason why I loathed my very own self rather than reason why I love it... ofcourse, I hate that too... but that's reality.. I hope one day, I'll be erasing those reasons one by one... I hope someday, I will be able to overcome them... I dream... I wish.... I hope.... I must pray...

what do I live for

My time so wasted, doing nothing, afraid of taking risk, I’m so stuck. 25 long years, still my existence vague to me.. I don’t know what am I still doing here, being a burden to anyone, useless.. I used to think that my family is the only reason I can see for my living….. but if I only cause them these troubles, then I rather disappear.. these miseries, blame on me… I know its all my fault… Maybe that’s my purpose here, to cause pain.. I know, I’m making it complicated… but I just can’t help it… I guess that’s really who I am.. Most of my actions are contradicting to what I really fee… so damn hate it..

10 Situations That Irritate Me

1. When somebody insisted me to do the things I had already refused to….when I say NO, I mean it.
2. When watching a movie and someone who already watched the movie keep on talking about what will happen next.
3. When I am being forced to wear an outfit that I’m not comfortable with.
4. When I’m in the middle of my explanation and I am being interrupted.
5. When I speak and no one would listen….I rarely talk, so why can’t listen just once
6. When I’m in a bad mood and I am being annoyed.
7. When I am unjustly criticized… criticism is fine, just don’t make it vulgar.
8. When somebody outsmarted me in the way that they would act superior as if I know nothing, don’t brag, I might not say a word but I know a thing too.
9. When somebody is being so insensitive, but too much sensitivity too can be so irritating sometime.
10. When I am being approached sarcastically..

TOP3 favorite whatevers

Movies

1. Twilight
2. A Walk to Remember
3. Yesterday’s Children

Korean Movies

1. Windstruck
2. A Moment to remember
3. Sassy Girl

Horror Movies

1.      Shutter (Asian Version)

2.      Drag me to Hell

3.      The Eye

Series

1.      Prison Break

2.      Alias

3.      Ghost Whisperer

Reality Shows

1.      Survivor

2.      America’s Next Top Model

3.      Fear Factor

Anime Series

1.      Slam Dunk

2.      Ghost Fighter

3.      Rave

Fairy Tales

1.      Cinderella

2.      Pinocchio

3.      Snow White and the Seven Dwarfs

Singer

1.      Jewel

2.      Lene Marlin

3.      Michelle Branch

Band

1.      The Corrs

2.      Cranberries

3.      Beatles

Food Chain

1.      Jollibee

2.      McDonalds

3.      KFC

GREATEST in my life

Achievement:

            I haven’t achieve it yet… but atleast passing the board exam is already an achievement.

 

Goal:

            Reach the stars!! Haha… im only an ordinary person with complicated thoughts, that made it hard for me to reach my goal… in the very first place, I don’t know what really my goal is…. But since this is question to be answered… I just want a stable life, enjoyable job, I don’t know, I just want fulfillment…. And I guess that’s my goal now, to realize that fulfillment.

 

 Dreams:

            I have this greatest dream of circumscribing the world! And that what makes it a dream literally…. Do dreams come true? I hope so..

 

Fear:

            Losing loved ones..

 

Asset:

            My family…

 

Secret:

            No way to tell you!

 

Embarrassment:

            I have so much of it…. Maybe the greatest, the one during graduation day… when I stepped down on the center stage instead at the side…. I can still remember those people yelled at me… haha

 

Worst Moment:

            Our Group report in one of my subjects on my last semester…. It wasn’t only worst but really shameful and disgusting… Do you know the feeling of answering the questions of everyone trial and error, because some of the questions are not supposed to be mine but have to answer it because your group mates wont do a damn thing to help you.. Don’t want to elaborate… must get through it…

 

Regret:

            I used to regret my being an engineering student then… I always thought it wasn’t meant for me… I had worst moments, not even enjoying it… but I have it now… but, don’t get me wrong… knowing that I passed the board exam was one of the best days of my life.

 

Illusion:

            I am CINDERELLA…. Hahaha…

 

Crush:

            Is this category not out of place?… the real one? I have many…. But the greatest WAS Bsfrn J….. haha..

 

Lie:

            I haven’t done the greatest.. I used to be honest… yes!

 

Weakness:

            Decision making!... it took me centuries before I can came into a decision… exaggerated though but I think not only twice nor thrice but ten times! Haha… I don’t know it, but I guess I only complicate things sometimes.

 

Strength:

            Do I have it? I’ll think of it…. Tell you later… I’m having a hard time to determine what my greatest strength is.