the old man i saw in the pharmacy

 

Yesterday, as I was buying the medicine my brother needed, I saw this old man asking for the price of Optein, it’s a sort of supplementary medicine for eyes. I saw the frustration in his face when he heard the price, around thirty pesos I guess, and with that amount, he was already dismayed. With his expression, I saw poverty, that it would be hard for him to afford it. Then he left the pharmacy. I pity him and realized that I should be thankful with my status of life. I suddenly felt angst to this men whose wasting a lot of money for no cause especially those corrupt people. I wonder why these other people still unsatisfied with their richness and wealth when scarcity is on the other side of the world,there are poor men living in a slum, also those unfortunate beings who would just wait for their sick loved ones pass away, these beggars and paupers sleeping in the streets and other form of scarcity. To those who have ability to help, do something.

 

survivor???

I lost the appetite watching Survivor Palau, the merge portion…. So Marvin was out?? Don’t get me wrong, I’m not a Marvin Fanatic but I admit he’s really doing a good job, I bet surviving in an isolated island would be possible for him…

The game goes this way, the participants would create an alliances and vote out their great competitor, yes I know very well that it’s a competition and not a friendship game or whatever, why would you let your big opponent outsmarted you, kick him out first before he’ll take that huge chance away from you.. This is also the scenario in the original version of Survivor…. It’s about alliances and desertion. 

But for those who watch the reality show (well I doubt if it’s not scripted),, we found it as not a fair play, it’s really not… if that’s the case then be a clever monkey first, your strength, speed, endurance and intelligence, which you really need to survive in an remote area, are not enough to win the game.

Well, to this deserving participant, your only chance to stay and prove yourself is to win the immunity necklace, or else you’re dead!

bad morning

8.22am and my day is ruined! I know I'm not good in housekeeping, yes maybe I'm not used to it or im just the laziest person in the whole wide world... was it laziness or am just not enjoying it..? there you go, i'm sure you will tell me that it doesn't matter whether youre enjoying it or not, if it's the right thing to do, then have it accomplished! okay fine! that's why I'm trying and I have no choice since we dont have a maid anymore and I am the only female here at home aside from my mom, so traditionally, damn household chores is my task! but for a person like me, would you expect a perfect work?! i dont ask for an appreciation coz i know well that I dont deserve it.... but my effort?? cant it be at least recognize a little? that i wasn't that useless?.... o, am I not useless?? i dont know, maybe my existence is to give the word useless a meaning...and anyway, Im no longer a civil engineer but a janitor... haha.. yes, todays janitors must attend school for about six years and pay tuition fees too..... take it from me.... and I cant even be the best janitor in town...

i noticed that writing an article is easy when the subject is disgusting!!!!

DELUBYO

           Kim Atienza’s show  Matanglawin featuring “Delubyo” showed how natural calamities can be so disastrous and terrifying. By this wrath of nature, your place might be eradicated in just split of seconds. Are you not afraid? Earthquake, tsunamis, flash floods, volcanic eruptions, landslides, hurricanes, typhoons, tornadoes and other catastrophe. Thousands die, your life seems useless, you can’t run, you can’t hide, you can never escape from this rage.

            Recently, Philippines is experiencing flashfloods and landslides due to the unstoppable storms and typhoons. Hundreds of lives were also washed away, billions worth of asset were also damaged and stamped out. If I’m not mistaken, Philippines is the most disastrous prone country in the world. So alarming, the pearl of the Orient seas might be eliminated in the world map… that’s not impossible, Global warming is on its way…

            So, what now?  Are we just let this thing happen without doing anything? I know we can’t stop it… but in this natural world, we are the only rational being……. I hope you know what I mean.

the adopted kitten and the mouse

my father found this poor kitty stuck in our shop, filled with mud... a survivor of the devastating flood caused by typhoon Ondoy.... we named this little soul ondoy...

the stupid doctor

Now I know why people said, if you want to die, then let the CC Regional Hospital serve you. I’ve been hearing about their poor services and now I proved it true. My brother was shot the other night and was rushed to that hospital by my other brothers. When my mom arrived, there were arguments and whatevers... the doctor in charged sucks! Who this doctor thinks she is... the lousiest doctor I’ve ever known. She kept insisting that my brother was no longer in danger and he can go home.. Damn her! After a little cleaning, x-ray and dressing, my brother still bleeding, and she wants us to go home believing there were no serious injuries and other blah blah blahs... in that condition? She sort of insulting my mom when my mom suggested some medical treatment... for her information, my mother is a midwife and working in a hospital too and my other brother is a nurse, so at least they have medical background too....they're not that ignorant! so fine, we have to leave that cursed hospital. We transferred in a private hospital.. my brother undergone an operation, he’s critical! I pray not... but there’s a nerve damaged.... I want to slap this result to that idiot doctor in  CCRC... now, my brother still under observation, I supposed joining the damaged nerve is still vague if it was successful, there’s also a possibility of infection, worst thing would happen is to cut off his leg… hope not..

 

Back to the stupid doctor who first treated my brother, it’s really sad to know such person exists. Poor and unfortunate people serve by her would just watch their patient die.. somebody teach this doctor some manners and maybe go back to school again…

 

starting to despise my profession

 

I’m starting to hate my profession… it’s making me feel the regret again… during college days, I used to doubt the course I chose, it’s as if it doesn’t suits me. I can still remember myself uttering that it wasn’t the right choice. But because I have no other option, I didn’t take risk to jump into another course until one day I found my self marching on the graduation day. One of my happiest days and twice the happiness when I passed the board exam. From that moment, I started to appreciate my profession, I became so proud because not everyone was blessed to passed the examination. But just this morning, I felt that my engineering world just shuttered. I inquired in POEA if they have job hiring or any job order for civil engineers, was not even finished asking when suddenly this guy in charged as if slapped me the words.. “civil engineer? Basta babae, walang hiring”, I’ve been aware of thoughts like this from the very start, but I don’t know why his words caused a real big impact to me… I don’t know if it’s the authoritative and affirmative way of declaring it to me or the fixed truth that female civil engineers cant make it?! So if this is the case, they should put up a new curriculum, civil engineering exclusively for men!! After all those years, I’d been to sacrifices and failures, only gone to waste. Darn it! I’m now filled with what if’s and regrets.. I hate the way I’m becoming bitter now, but I’m only trying to relieve my frustration. I still hope that I’ll be performing my profession someday, and I pray that isn’t a false hope.