5/29/2012

7:30pm

I shouldn’t be doing this, not even turning my laptop on.. I should be resting right at this very moment , I just got home and my eyes so drained! Honestly I am physically, mentally and emotionally stressed!

But somehow this is my way of relieving my troubled thoughts.

Why mentally and physically? Its because of work, I’m so busy I don’t know what to do first, I love being busy but I hate being puzzled and rushed. At some point I would want to scream “ayoko na, sobra na to”!.. but I’m not a quitter, I’ve proven that on my first job where my subordinate quitted and I should have done same too, but I did not… I did not because I didn’t want my monster boss underestimate me..

But anyway this is different thing, I don’t have an iron hearted boss here (no,not really hehe), but I have wagonload task to do. And I’m not good at organizing things, I’m so indecisive as to which I should prioritize first especially when most of it is actually urgent! Wahhh, and its making me wonder if I’m being lousy, idle, slow and blah blah blah…. But swear I’m doing the best the I can do to get things done...   Anyway, “kaya ko to, kakayanin ko”!

Emotionally? My dear diary, you know the very reason why, surely you’re overloaded with it. Ahhh.. I feel really bad, I feel so used, mistreated and wronged …. Hahaha.. I sounded as if you need to report this to DSWD hah.. hehe “pasensya na OA lang talaga”

But no! yes no way, I should not tolerate this… I’m not giving anyone the consent to put me down.. even you EXJR… I’m so much fed up with my stupidity for you, you can get lost now! See what I’ve got here, pimples! I hate you soooooo much… your just so lucky to keep me go crazy over you…. I couldn’t even take that word – crazy for you!??!!! errrrr  hahaha

5/27/2012

I’m back to hating Mondays again, it’s been a while since the last time I’ve felt  that early Monday morning sickness, I was surprised actually. I didn’t even wanting Sundays to come, but today, I feel like I want this day to be extended (yah, its Sunday).

It’s lonely here right now, but I don’t want tomorrow to come. …

Argghhh… so where was I today?

Just here in my room talking to myself.. I woke up early, yah past 7am is already early at Sunday… I cleaned the room, I went to SM Manila, I had some shopping (as what my Mom told me to do.. haha).. Get myself a Starbucks treat, and then home again. Watched Adam’s Sandler Jack and Jill, I had a good laugh.. Fixed my closet. Read. And now facing my multiply site and will  make some drama, haha.. spare me this one.

So that’s it, kinda miss my Sunday Multiply moments…

Morning Sunday!

I literally just had a bad dream last night, that seemed so real... and just like what I've said on my facebook account, glad I am awake.

But theres something I really must get myself back to my senses... coz i'm being stupid again, im into something i know will only break me.... actually its already breaking me.. blame me I couldn't stop myself.. hehe

somebody wake up me from this nightmare! i hate being like this... i hate letting anyone hurt me without them knowing it..  no I can't let them... so somebody wake me up!!

but I must admit... this is such a beautiful disaster.... and disasters should end.

cut that crap! so early for me to do some drama.. hehehe

HAPPY SUNDAY ANYWAY!

**** I'll be fine.. i must..

Umeechos Nanaman ako!

UNTITLED

How many times shall I let you break my heart
And you don't even know that, I wish I could tell you

I can't believe I'm being stupid again for you
I wish I am numb

I'm just wondering why destiny would let us meet
When everything will end so soon, it didn't even start for us

I wish getting over you will be easy for me
But damn, everytime you smile at me, i could smile like crazy too!
I hope you don't notice!

chat chat chat

5/21/2012

Never beg for anyone's attention.. you couldn't force people to love you or love you back... they chose only those where they can benefit or anyone they like, and it could be not you..

You should be independent.... if they dont care about you, then why waste you time thinking why, coz life's like that, not all people would appreciate you... not everyone would make you especial... so don't depend on them, love yourself!

Don't prioritize those who dont give you worth, forget about them, they don't deserve any single minute of your time so better stop thinking why!

So, keep your head high now... to hell with them!

why I do love the rain

I love the rain when I don't have to leave home

I love it when my heart is breaking, its as if the sky also cry for me

but baby, i would love to walk into the rain with you if you'll ask me to.