its october 1!!!

And I've done a good job today! yey! but i bleed my head first before finding that out, that was actually simple, but we found it complicated along the way in solving that matter! haha.. and i when i learned it, what I could just say is "ganon lang pala yun??"...

anyway, i can add that to the list saying that I'm not that stupid! not at all... hahaha

that was in the morning... in the afternoon I had another maze to solve.. and i thought I was the doing the right thing in telling a certain person that's he's not doing it right... I know i got my point but it so hard for me to correct people or to tell them "this" and "that", "do this again", "no. not like that" and stuffs like that...i don't know why I would feel that way, I just don't want anyone feel wronged because of me .. if i put my shoes on them, its okay for me to be corrected, but i hate it when somebody would think that i am bragging, that i am "nagmamarunong".... Coz, honestly I am not someone who would blow her own horns just to get credits, I must admit, i hate commiting mistakes..... that's why I rarely take risks, not good I know..

Its not that I don't have a sense of authority, (actually I dont have.. haha) but I just dont want anyone hates me....  you dont have to say it, we cant please everybody! i know well.... hehe

oh my! when will I be confident???!!

so much for this..

Why am I smiling alone???

They said, when you smile alone, you really mean it!...  or it could be the other way around, you're going crazy! haha

Anyway why am smiling alone? Could it be the movie series I was watching awhile ago??, no, surely it wasn't, that was nice but a bit bloody and tragic! (bitin nga e kasi kulang yung kopya ko, i thought I wouldn't enjoy it).....

Or could it be the blog of someone I am now reading.... He's doing his post cute and sweet... (corny ng description ko! haha)

Maybe the pouring rain outside!

Or the music I'm listening to at the moment...

or maybe the "memories"....

or maybe you're right, I know what you think.... maybe because I'm  inlove! (ew that! hehe)... I'm actually broken hearted.. haha..

maybe I should sleep now.....

Good night!

Just Goodnight and Some Thoughts before I sleep.. ;)

it feels really bad when you’re feeling so mad at someone but you couldn’t yell at that person, you couldn’t do a thing instead you just let those feelings rot inside you. And why you can’t? It’s because of two reasons.

 First, you have no right to hate that person, even if he was so unkind and insensitive to you, even if he was intentionally hurting you (or not) – because he never promised you anything. Indeed, action speaks louder than words, but still words will win through, though lies are also born in the course of words.

Second, you wouldn’t tell your feelings to those concern, those who caused you pain because you don’t wanna make them feel overwhelmed and be delighted when they’ll know there presence lacerates you…. (Unless, if that someone cares about you even a bit, but I doubt that… haha)

Cut! This is supposed to be a-not-so-serious post, but I spoiled it, I was so dramatic above there… haha, that’s why I stopped myself, I know.. I know! Its not good to hate someone, and posting stuff like this is not a good idea as well, the public will mock me for sure, though I hid it to some, but customizing settings is a sort of laborious matter, so still, this I set to public because I wanted someone would read this--- there I gamble my humility.. haha.. (Nobody would read this anyway, I bet).

I said too that I would stop doing this nonsense for like a hundred times already, but still, these thoughts are like mushrooms that keep on coming no matter what..  I couldn’t stop them, so I write them down… and it works! (yeah, at least) doing this is like throwing  stones into the sea, throwing away my heartaches! (ew! Haha).

Time to shift thoughts , how bout good things now?? (gah….. I couldn’t think of any)… I want to say, My life is a mess! But I must not (though I said it already.. haha)…

Anyway, behind that bitterness, I am grateful of so many things in my life… I’m loving myself to this I’m about to say…( probably, if in case someone, somehow is reading this, for sure he/she would stop already, I’m making it too lengthy now.. hehe..)…

I’m thankful for having the best parents in the world. I just loved them so much…

I’m thankful that I have a job, for my profession and for earning my own money.

I must be thankful that I wasn’t born a beggar.

I’m thankful I’m not impaired nor crippled.

I’m thankful for my freedom.. for the choices I could make (though its only making me more confuse haha)

I’m thankful for those few people who understand me….those true good friends.

I'm thankful that no matter how my heart was broken for countless times, its still working..

I’m thankful for the things I knew… for the knowledge I’ve learned.

I’m thankful to my multiply site… for listening without complaining.

I’m thankful that I am skinny-- should I be thankful to that after wishing I could gain weight??.. yes I should, after realizing that some girls dreamed to be one, and I could EAT ALL I CAN!

I’m thankful that I’m not ugly.. (am I not or I’m just fooling my self?.. haha), my siblings told me I am ugly, I told them they are ugly too! (Though I don’t really mean it, I’m sure my brothers and my sister are not ugly, but me??? I don’t know.. haha)… anyway, I love them though they are such a headache-causing-people!

I’m thankful that you are reading this…. (not everyone would waste their time on this, maybe just you..hehe)

And most of all I THANK GOD…..and I’m sorry for being morbid sometimes.

that's all! Time for a Goodnight now.......

How could the rain be so mean to me?????

Just got home, caught in the middle of the heavy rain while on my way.....and my shoes are so messed and was soaked on the flood.. i might enjoy the rain if  only its not so polluted in here.... beware of leptospirosis too.. haha

and i looked so exhausted as this too..


Goodnight anyway!

5 things I would like to tell 5 people right now 9.10.2012

1.      Thank you so much.. you’re truly a good friend! If it wasn’t for your help then I maybe lost somewhere.. hehe

2.      I was hesitant in meeting you because I’m still a bit disappointed.. but because “getting even” is not really my kind, and I don’t wanna do the same thing as you did, so I showed up…indeed, our friendship surfaced.. when we talked just like the old days, my “tampo” has fade (a bit-hehe)

3.      I regret that I liked you.. but if only I could stop this stupidity over you, then no second thoughts, I will. Or maybe I have moved on already, its just that I couldn’t think of anything—but you.. can you just get lost?

4.      You can’t fool me! I can be good to you as long as you’re not doing anything against me. I’m not being plastic anyway, coz when I dislike people, I rather stay away.

5.      Are you tired of calling me? I’m sorry I couldn’t answer it. Now, I’m wondering what you were thinking. Are you disappointed in me or you just realized what I’m trying to imply. Take care anyway!

9th of 9th of 2012

Hey… its Sunday and its about to end, I hate Mondays as always..

Anyway, so what we got here today?? Nothing so fascinating as always too but I love Sunday, you know that!

I woke up past 10am, I know that’s kinda late but you’ll forgive me if I’ll tell you that I rise from bed at 5:30 am Monday-Saturday..

I had this picture tripping, no breakfast yet, not even washed and brushed my hair, my teeth as well… hehe.. just wanna show the world how I looked messed up in the morning.. that my brother would tell me this when he saw the pictures.. “ew! Walang ligo, mukhang ang baho mo”.. hahaha

Anyway, so I ate breakfast, oh that’s “brunch” to be specific… then browsed the internet, chat with my sister and my friends, watched online the remaining episodes of walking dead season2 that I haven’t watched.

I just loved Glen!

Later this afternoon, I had a slight headache, so I decided to see the sun for awhile, the sunset coz that's already 5pm when i left my room.. I took my dirty clothes to the nearest laundry shop, bought some fruits and groceries at Save More, just few meters away from us.

And at the moment I’m back to watching the Walking Dead, it’s just a bit annoying the player is loading so sluggish, that’s why I’m doing this blog while waiting…. (sigh).

August 8, 2012

today is the last day of being this age .... tomorrow I'll be so old again.. wahhhhh.. i feel like I'm still on my early twenties... what a late bloomer!

So, what I had today? nothing, just a feeling of guilt coz I didn't report to work today..  blame the bad weather! no typhoon, not even in a low pressure area, its just the "hanging habagat", but the rain is doing it continuously that resulted floods to 90percent of Metro Manila.. Classes to all school levels, government offices and even private sectors were declared suspended yesterday.. but not today, just the schools and selected government agencies..

I was prepared this morning to report for work but the rain poured heavily, means of transportation was tough so I decided not to go..

My neighbor and I had our groceries to the nearby supermarket when the gloomy sky poured its tears to us this afternoon and we make "lusong to the baha"....

Yun lang... tinatamad na ako magkwento ng kung anu ano... heheheh


Good night!

WRONG MOVE??

i think I'm humiliating myself, I've been posting so personal things about myself on the web, I should be keeping them for myself only but I chose to expose it.. Sorry Self, anyway, no one really cares I guess, I'm just being paranoid...so i must stop bothering.

 its just that i want to extend my messages to a specific person or to whom it may concern, i couldn't tell them straight, so I wanna puzzle their minds... nyahaha, as if! why not? somehow, right?

but the side effect is, i might put down myself in the eyes of the other people who are actually not involve..

i better tell my self this  "Hey, nobody really cares!! they don't even care about your existence, so cut that crap now, okay?? got that? stop being paranoid, witch!, so do as what you please to do, if that's your way to transmit your whatevers to somebody (who might not even care) then be it!... if it lighten up your mood, then just let it be... to hell with what people say.."

 

hahaha.... (nababaliw na ba ako at kasusap ko sarili ko?)... I'm NOT!!

Good night anyaway!

 

RANDOM THOUGHTS ON A SUNDAY EVE!

Its already 8pm right now and I’m in another random thoughts.

I think I’m going to have a tonsillitis, I’ve felt it already last night. And today, I just had so many sweets, a starbucks choco chip Frap and a pack of Brownies Unlimited, I just can’t help it, I love em.

I went out today to look for something, a gift maybe for someone. But so unfortunately fortunate that I found myself shopping! Blame that on the On-going sale in SM Manila. Anyway, that’s fine, there’s nothing wrong in giving myself a treat sometimes, right?.. yeah, right.

Anyway, Ramadhan is about to come, I need to calm myself, I need to be fine. I know, it would be hard especially I’m expecting to get hurt—that I should not, actually I’m already hurting, but the worst is about to come… I have a feeling it will, I don’t want it to come, but I need to prepare myself, I must get myself in place… hahaha… (drama nanaman ako, hehe).. enough!!!!

Hey dear diary, I have something I’m not telling you yet, yah I know I should be telling you, in time you’ll know.. hehe, I hope that one will come into reality…. I hope and pray for that.

What else? Maybe that’s all for now. ;)

Here's yours truly at this very moment..

 

                                                                           

ZZZZZZzzzzzzzzzzz....

I have so much to say, but I think I'll end up with a "good night!" once again... 

july 12, 2012

Today is exactly my second year in this company.. yap, I’ve reached this far.. i thought I would only stay here for three months, then six months… I’ve changed my mind to one year, and I thought I would resign last January, then I rescheduled it today! Oh my, I don’t even have a resignation letter yet…. Sigh!

I’m happy and sad as well..

Cooking Mode

Sometimes I regret why i didn't learn how to cook, especially in times like this.. I'm so much fed up with the choices of food i take almost everyday here.... so I tried to cook my own crab dish today, its my first time to do this... Crab is just one of my fave dish, and its so ironic that I don't know how to cook them..... so I needed to call and text my mom for her assistance, it makes me miss her so much, she's the best... hehe




sa bahay lang kasi ako nakakakain neto!! so, as I've said, aside from not knowing  how to cook it, crabs are so expensive here! hehe

So hows my first ever crab dish???? hmmmmmm... pwede na!! yes, pwede na for someone who had a very meager talent in cooking! nyahahhaha..

lots of laugh today!

I had a good laugh today... thursday is supposed to be one my worst, but not today, coz i  found myself laughing out loud the whole day!.. i wasn't faking it, of course I'm not!

so, could it mean that when you laugh out loud, then you are happy??? maybe. maybe not.

anyway, I have so much in mind when i was on my way home a while ago.... well, that wasn't surprising, I'm really like that--- thinking whatever I can think, with sense or with not. And I thought of writing them down here but I forgot already, Kenshin Himura surfaced in my oceans of thought. hahaha... I'm not done yet watching the Samurai X series, I couldn't get enough of it, I had a copy of it so I could watch it here... and I wish he's existing... I want him!!! His philosophy about life is so great I would want him give me some lifting words of wisdom. hehe

Anyway... back to me laughing out loud today! actually it scares me sometimes that jolly moments awaits a crying time .. hahahah.. I hope not, especially that I am expecting a bad tomorrow.....

I'll keep you in touch my diary! good night anyway!

^__^ -- at 1st day of July

 July 1! I don’t know why I’m being baffled with this day, could it be because it’s nearing August?? And that’s my birth month…. Whatever! Maybe I should look for Peter Pan and ask him to take me to Neverlands… and I do believe in fairies… hehe

So, where was I today? Well, I spent the whole morning in my room… I had a Samurai X marathon, I just loved it! I love Kenjin Himura…

and in the afternoon, my brother and I went to Glorietta to watch the Spiderman… Honestly, I was bored with it, so many dull moments.. I still go for Tobey Maguire!

And I’ve met an old friend too, Rohannie.

This is how yours truly looked like today..

And this my brother asking me to take his picture at this very spot—Makati Ave., in front of Ayala Museum.

So, that’s it..

Good night for now!

hello July!

What???! It’s july and I’m still stuck…

Bakit ganon? Oras lang yung mabilis, hindi ang mga pangyayari…  I’m not supposed to be here right now..

Hello July anyway!

1st minute of july

i was smiling and I'm not really certain why...

Could it be because of Kenjin? yah, I'm having a samurai X marathon here...

Or because finally I've heard my soulmate's voice today when we crossed path again.. hehhe.. he was talking to someone..

or because of EXJR--- oops, I'm not suppose to comment about that person anymore, yah I'm not, that's why i'll be sleeping now..

 Good night! hehe

6/23/2012

what?
i don't know, i feel like blogging, but i can't start it right,, not even the title nor the topic...
i want to say something but it wouldn't come out, i just  felt it.
its late and i should be sleeping but instead i'm here with my nonsense.
do i sound like a fool in here... how could I ask the obvious? hehe
i'm sorry dear self if i'm humiliating you, i could have keep it private but i chose not to
i want the world know that my existence is existing
that someone like me is not impossible.. haha
whoah! and as if the world cares!! somehow..
what am i saying? this is absolutely so random, so "anything goes"
what now?
whats in my mind? what's in there? what are you doing? im thinking of you..
hahaha... who could that be? damn, dont ask! just let me say so...
i'm sorry...
why am saying sorry? hahaha... i must be crazy! hahaha.. whatever...
signing off!

Good night!

HAPPY ^__^

see? i'm not really that morbid... i'm being happy too sometimes.. though I'm a bit disgusted earlier this day..... but I'm happy right now.. I can smile alone (yah, like crazy!.. haha)..

I'm exhausted, I'm sooo drop dead tired but I'm fine...

Good night!

GOOD NIGHT! ;)

I WISH THE STARS WOULD FALL FOR ME TONIGHT TO GRANT THE WISHES I AM WISHING....

I WISH SOMEONE WOULD REALIZE AND FEEL WHAT I TRULY WANNA SAY COZ I JUST COULDN'T VOICE IT OUT.

I WISH RIGHT NOW IS NOT YET 10:43PM COZ I DON'T WANNA SLEEP YET...

I WISH I WOULD SEE YOU IN MY DREAM

I WISH I COULD BE FORGIVEN FOR THE MEAN THING I JUST DID TODAY. I'M SORRY.

I WISH  SOMEDAY I COULD BE THERE..

I WISH TOMMOROW WOULD BE A WONDERFUL DAY....

I WISH THIS WOULD GOING TO BE A GOODNIGHT FOR YOU AND ME..

WANTED!

Laugh at me, I’m acting like I’m a decade younger than my real age. Haha… am I highschool again? Haha when the anti stalking law be approved, I might find myself in jail.. hahaha..

I started calling this person my soul mate when we make salubong almost everyday at the same spot, at the same time…I’m on my way to our project site, and my Mr. Soulmate to his project site too, I think he’s an architect….  but suddenly something changed, I don’t know, maybe he changed path or schedule, hindi na kami nagsasalubong, baka natakot sa akin, I was obvious, I knew it.. haha..

he works there and I work at the place where this photo was taken

I haven’t seeing him for months, I thought he resigned or something, but then I saw him again. Madalas ko na ulet syang nakikita, but this time after work na… past 6pm mon-fri, and past 4pm on Saturday… wahahhaha

Hahahaha… do I sound like a real stalker here?? Whatever! D’on’t get me wrong, but I’M NOT DESPERATE TO KNOW HIM. I DON’T WANNA KNOW HIM ACTUALLY. I’m just putting meaning to coincidental things, masalubong mo lang araw araw sa isang lugar, sa parehong oras, soulmate na! haha

this is just a post for nothing!