30th of Nov

I have so much to say (a while ago).... but now all I can say is GOOD NIGHT!

wala!

Yeah.. obviously I'm playing with my pic.. haha.. it's 1:25am and I'm supposed to blog something.. bukas na lang. Inaantok nako.

GOOD NIGHT!

27Nov15

Tiring day as always! But glad to know Glenn was alive.. yey!

GOOD NIGHT!

Worst Day

Nakakaiyak ang araw na to.. pag minamalas ba, it pours din?? Ang sama sa pakiramdam.. gusto kong sumakay ng rollercoaster dahil gusto kong sumigaw....

Pero hindi pa rin ako iiyak.... kahit pa di ko alam kung may ginawa ba akong kalokohan to deserve this???

I still thank God, I'm still breathing well... I know someone, somewhere is struggling doubled or even tripled as mine... kaya wag na akong maarte... naiintindihan ko namang naninibago at nag aadjust pa ako... alam ko di ako sanay gumising ng maaga, maglakad ng malayo, bumyahe ng masyadong matagal papunta sa work at pauwi ng bahay, makipagsiksikan, pakisamahan ang mga taong di pa ako komportable at ang muling mag overtime.. at kung anu ano pang reklamo  ko..... maliit na pagsasacrifice lang siguro to... wag na akong maarte....

Matulog na lang tayo. Good night..

23rd of November

5:40am

This is just one the days I didn't want to come but eventually it will come... its now right in front of me.. but worry not, because I'm gonna get through this... Though I'm not really that type of person but I'm gonna face it with courage and confidence... There's more about life to be feared about, and this is just one small thing... so it must not affect me... face the world, take it light, never mind about the people who would dislike me, there will always be more of them... so help me God

Exploring The Ilocandia!

"YOU DON'T ALWAYS NEED A  PLAN. SOMETIMES YOU JUST NEED TO BREATH, TRUST, LET GO AND SEE WHAT HAPPENS"

Maybe I was just inspired by the quote above in deciding that I should get out  of my comfort zone for a while, to forget my busy dull world and yes, just breath!.. If you may know--my so called "comfort zone" is something I am doubtful if its truly comforting.. (chos, who cares?! haha)..

Anyway, few days before the APEC Summit holidays, I thought that I must not waste my time just counting sheep in my room knowing that the means of transportation around Metro will be terrible, so I texted my friend asking her that maybe we could go to Ilocos, "just go there and bahala na".

I read just a little about the place for our possible itineraries, but not too focused on it.. I was busy at work and I hadn't enough time to book room accommodation online... as I've said, come what may... Vigan, I'm coming... ready or not.

Tuesday. 4pm sharp when I left the office.. I went back home to pick up my things. I headed to Cubao to meet my friends there at around 6pm, and as expected, had a hard time going there. Just in time when we reached the bus terminal. We chose VIP Dominion Bus.. you'll have your comfortable seat with toilet inside.. Anyway, we left at 8:30pm and reached Vigan at 3:40am. There were pedicab drivers who will offer you a ride at the bus terminal, just trust your instinct in choosing the trusted one..  and we chose one.

He brought us to one of the Inn there (sorry, I forgot the name)... The room was just okay, surely it wasn't the best one but we are too tired to be picky. The price is right, they didn't charge us for the early check in.

Wednesday. The same driver who took us around Vigan. We started the tour at 8am. Our first photo for that day, outside our Inn.

Pottery.

Crisologo Museum

Loom Weaving

Hidden Garden

We had our lunch there at the Hidden Garden. - Lilong and Lilang Resto.

We went back to our Inn after lunch because aside from the unbearable scorching heat of the sun, we're kinda feeling sleepy.. I know that wasn't the right time to sleep... but we slept... we asked our driver slash our tour guide to fetch us at 4pm and continued with our adventure.

Baluarte

Bantay Bell... This tower that stands still between the greener part and Urban area of Vigan had witnessed the history of this place. It was refreshing being there.

Vigan city!

Vigan National Museum. But to our dismay, it was already closed when we got there.. our fault, we slept kase  (wag tutularan, alam ng limited yung time).

The famous Calle Crisologo.. The sound of the Kalesa passing by with these kind of structures, it feels like you are part of the history.. The architectural touch of the place is still intact but I think I have to read back all about Vigan..

Kalesa Experience

We had dinner at one of the Resto there.

The Magical Dancing Fountain.. How come this attraction is for free??? FYI, there are no entrance fees to most of their attractions, you just have to drop as much as you want donations.

Back to our hotel.. But before this part of my blog ends, I had reviewed the history of Vigan. Nakakahiya naman, pablog blog pa ako, diko naman alam ang kwento. Haha

Vigan is one the country's most unique and extensive town that had survived from way back 16th Century Spanish Colonial Period. It played an important role in coastal trading long before the Spanish Galleon trade. Chinese merchants sailing from South China sea came to barter different kinds of goods... and the rest is history! (Kayo na, research nyo rin :) )..

Recently, Vigan city is recognized as of the New7Wonders Cities in the world... amazing huh??  

That's it for Vigan.

Thursday. 7am Checked out and we're heading to Laoag... going there is actually not part of our scheme... I thought it would be impossible, dalawang araw lang kase yung holiday, ubos na vacation leave ko haha! But we made it.

2 hours after, welcome to Ilocos Norte!

Ferdinand Marcos Presidential Center. Unfortunately, there was power interruption that day that we were not allowed to get in... Tough lucks really happen though. So all I can do is to take a selfie from the outside.

The Paoay Church.. 

The Paoay Lake. Breathtaking scenery! At the other side, The Malacanang of the North is overlooking.

Ilocos Norte Sand Dune. Our time was too limited to take the 4 x 4 ride.. maybe next time, if given the chance to return..

Fort Ilocandia. Beautiful Place. It felt like you're in other country. The garden area reminds me of that cartoon Mary and The Secret Garden.. The reddish bricks that walled the the place adds its sophistication and serene at the same time. Fort Ilocandia is the only luxury hotel at the Northern part of the Philippines but nice to know that roaming around there is allowed.

Malacanang of The North.. Another fortress of the Marcos.

Laoag City's The Sinking Tower.. yes, it's in the Laoag City Center and its literally sinking.. 

That's all! our tour ended at 1:30PM.. We took the Partas Bus at 2PM. I know, you might be expecting, what about Pagudpud??? I would love to see the Bangui Wind Mills too but we hadn't had enough time.. 

We reached Cubao at around 2:30 in the morning. That was long ride I know... Glad I'm enjoying the bus rides too.. Back to work in the afternoon...absent sa morning, di kaya ng powers!

Indeed it's true that "Life is like a book, if you do not travel, you only read one page" -- St. Augustine..

Short Ghost Story

Hey.. :)

I can feel my eyes running dry again because I haven't  had a real sleep these past 3 consecutive days... I've spent those days in exploring the Ilocos.. and it was tiring... worth tiring.. I'll blog about it on my next post...

Since we arrived at around 3 this morning so I decided to spend my day working just in the afternoon (so half day lang ang peg ko)...

Anyway here's my ghost story:

In our Inn at Vigan last Wednesday.. I was taking a selfie when a ghost appeared on my picture... I was terrified really!! Knowing this historical place Vigan, maybe ghost stories are accompanied by it too... so that picture seems really real!! I was still calm when I showed it to my friends, they got scared too... it took minutes before I realized I accidentally set the application of my camera to "ghost mode" hahaha!.. i wanted to show you the picture but I deleted it because it scared me honestly! I heard about the application but haven't seen it until that time.. para kase talagang totoo yung kuha.. yung feeling ko nung time na yun, sabi ko totoo pala talaga yung mga ganon... naisip ko pa ngang lumipat na lang kami ng room.... Natatawa pa rin ako pag naalala ko yun... at least I found out how would I react sa mga ganong pagkakataon, kalma pa rin kahit takot takot na.. haha!

Ayun lang...  my ghost story turns out to be comedic.. haha!

Good night!

16 November 15

12:22pm

I know this week, the APEC Summit will cause a major traffic jam but I don't really mind (medyo lang), because I didn't want this week to end.... because it's going to be my official last week in D.Primea (though I'll be coming here time to time  for sorts of reconciliation of charges and etc)... kaya lang mamimiss ko dito, mamimiss kong mag-isa! haha.. I can't believe na di ako nalulungkot sa pagkakataong dapat malungkot, chos! gets mo what I mean?? hehe.. I miss my friends kaya lang, yung pagka ayaw ko sa kabilang project is overpowering it.. ganon! I thought that I was so fed up being in here pero pag anjan na pala yung time na aalis ka... nakakamixed emotions lang.. hehe

Anyway, I'm saving my "lates" for the next few days but unfortunately I was two minutes late this morning... hindi sana yun, but because I left my phone in our boarding house this morning, I had to go back from around 100meters already.. di na ba talaga tayo mabubuhay ng walang phone nowadays?? hehe... in my case, okay lang naman, but I'll be needing it kase... work related, syempre personal din..

7:35pm
Mas nakakainis kapag hindi man lang alam nung taong kinaiinisan mo na nakakainis sya noh?? Haha.. pero iintidihan ko na lang.. chill lang ako..  inhale exhale na lang.. tapos ayos na! :)

Anyway, glad I'm home right now.. kala ko mga hating gabi na ako makakauwi dahil sa mga road closures... buti naman  nakauwi na.

Pero nakapag time out ba ako??? Di ko talaga maalala!

10:46pm
I don't want yet.. but I have to sleep now...  good night!

15Nov15

Noted.

Good night! Sleep well...

PAST 2PM MULTI TASKING AND I WANNA BE A WRITER!

2:22pm

In the midst of me being busy with this and that...on my screen is this...

Working + Looking for a destination and a place to stay on the APEC holidays + YouTube + Blogger + Flights Check + these empty spaces in this office. ---- but I'm swearing I'm fine with it. I thought when most of my officemates will be transferred to other projects sites then I will be really lonely ... yes, I am, but I'm fine, I think I'm just alone but not really lonely.....and I love the freedom... but this will end soon, I will be transferred too... shouldn't I be happy? nah.. don't ask.

I've been thinking of what if I'm doing the things I truly love, if I wasn't a Cost Engineer now.. maybe I'm chasing my real passion... wow! now I know that? haha.. I think I knew it long time ago.. just didn't realize it.

I think I've said this before, I wanna be a TRAVEL BLOGGER!... I'm terrible in writing and the hesitance in traveling in a strange place is something I haven't overcome yet.....plus the fact that no matter how numerous flights I had, I'm still not used to it, I still fear taking the airplane... those flights from SG to Penang and KL to Phil are my worst and since then, my fear grew even more ... Ironic right????? so how will I be able to get through the wall that would welcome me into that world I'm wanting so much...  how? when things are too late now...

Anyway... in my own way.. I'm writing.. and I'll be traveling.. maybe not professionally, not  too far away, and not today... but somehow, I will... SO HELP ME GOD.

P.S. What's going on in Paris? I'd love to get there too... but for now, all we can do is to pray not only for Paris, but for the Earth to become a better place... with better people.., correct that.. with better people to have a better place... and if it gets better, then maybe travelling is less dramatic. (for me!)

13 Nov 15

I'm soooo pagod... and i'm so tired... parehas lang pala yun, im so pagod to edit... yaan mo na...  ayoko sana mag inarte ngayon kaya lang natural na sa aken.. eto lang yung pampastress out ko.. kaya intidihin mo na.. hehe

Gusto ko sana magkwento.. gusto ko ikwento yung parang reunion namin kagabi during  our surprise party to our area manager..nakakamiss sila... kakatuwa namang sama sama kami ulit...  diko na madedetalye, pagod na e.

Anyway, my body aches a bit.. we decorated the venue yesterday afternoon (which not really my talent, but I volunteered.. para maiba naman).... magdidikit lang naman nung lobo.. sumakit na katawan ko.. ahaha..

Tapos, I was at PP3 today, my most hated place nowadays.. kaya lang kailangan eh. Buti na lang andun sina Mac, c Jay R, si Mela.... pati na rin sina Paulo, Glenda, Jardine, May at yung iba pa.... kaya lang ayoko pa rin talaga dun...  dumudugo rin yung utak ko dun sa cutting list na ginagawa ko... na diko matapos tapos kase ang gulo ng files nila.. naiirita ako... haha... pero keribells!

Marami pa akong sasabihin.. kaya lang dina kaya ng powers ko.. antok na antok na ako..

Good night na!!

di ko alam anong date ngayon

This wont take long...

At some point of our lives, we are being bombarded with random thoughts that brought us to anxiety... We look back on things that should have eradicated long time ago.. regrets could almost drove us to the brink of our wits... We wish that we could take back the words we've said, the actions we've made, the  choices we took and even the people we've met.. but don't you think you could be the person you are now if you haven't tested by this life's bittersweets? I don't know either, sometimes I'm just feeling down... and I could be happy too by some small stuff... I could be bitter by not having the thing I wish I had... There are things that I don't really understand... sometimes I'm just being pointless,  maybe right I'm not making any sense... i don't even know my point.. don't you? Sorry for wasting our time here...

GOOD NIGHT! SLEEP WELL..

The Anonymous Hopeless Romantic

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Will You Hate Me?

If I'll hate you, will you hate me too? 

Will you throw away the things that remind you of me? 

Will I still be that someone you will always remember even when our worlds revolve at different sky? 

Will you hate me when I'll hate you?  

When the night sky runs out of falling stars, will you still wish to see me? 

Will you still smile when you see someone as crazy as me? 

Or as the sun sets, will I also fade? 

Will you miss me when the rain breaks your heart ?

Will you still be amused with my weirdness or you'll finally curse it? 

Will you remember me when the moon is bright? Or when it's creepy? Or when it's blue?

  

Will you hate me when I'll stop hating you?? Even if it means, not hating you is not loving you?

Will you hate me?
________________________________________

And You Don't Know

How did I know I love you?
I didn't know until one day, everything was a mess. I felt like giving up. Everyone was out, it was late. Feeling so alone, then you stood there, you smiled at me.. then just like that, everything turns well...
But you didn't even know that.

________________________________________

To Someone I Haven't Met Yet

I haven't met you yet

But I missed you

And I'm still waiting

You maybe so far away now

But someday we will meet

I'll tell you my stories and you'll tell me yours

No matter how long the years we've missed

We'll get ourselves anywhere in this world

Just get lost, meet new people, write their stories

And write ours

We'd talk about our favorite movies

Our childhood mistakes, our dreams, crazy thoughts

Anything under the sun

Actually, I don't really mind what we talk about

Even by just sitting next to you in silence would mean to me

I don't want us to be perfect, I want us to be true

And if God won't permits us to be together in this lifetime

I'm still waiting even in another life

Coz I don't mind being alone rather than being with the wrong one..

Though it would mean, 

I'll be missing you forever...
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Meet Me At The Central Park

I know you're leaving the town
So I called you to meet me at Central Park
It's the best place in New York I wanna be... with you.
I wont stop you from leaving
Just meet me once at the Central Park
Finally I had the courage to ask you out
I'm sorry if I'm doing it before you leave the "City That Never Sleeps"
I just wanna tell you that I'll be missing you
Things wouldn't be easy now not having you around.
Would you mind if I'll tell you I've been inlove with you all this time? 
I'm sorry if I'm telling you just now
You will always be that one person I will always love but I will never have
So, now that you're leaving this city, please remember someone in New York City keeps you in her heart
So please meet me at the Central Park

But now I'm writing this
In case you'll never meet me in the Central Park.
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Amazing You!

How can I ever convince you that you are amazing.
The way you look at me, I couldn't look back too long, you're taking my breath away.
You are beautiful even your hair is tangled.
Even when you dressed so old school.
You are beautiful when you smile, when you laugh like you don't care even you would look like a fool.
You said, you say a lot of nonsense, but to me, everything you say means a lot, even when you're not saying anything.
You are beautiful when you seem so innocent and childish, yes you are!
Your eyes -- the most expressive I've ever seen, it doesn't lie, you can fake that smile but never those eyes.
You're just so amazing when you don't even know you are.
But I want you to know, you deserve to know, take it from me, from the one who sees not only your outside but what's deep within you.

_____________________________

I Know You Love Me

You don't have to lie
Say your farewell as you may go
If goodbye is the only thing you can try
I know what you are going through

I know it's hard
You don't have to say a word
It wont make me feel bad
I understand if you really cant be bold

Even if you couldn't say a thing
Your lips maybe sealed but in your eyes I see
What your heart can't sing
Be it, but I know you love me.

__________________________________________

You've Got a Friend

I know I'm not someone you would remember when your world is shattered
I wasn't as strong as anyone
I haven't done so much that would be worth remembering
I can't even say words that would inspire you
But I'll be just right here when you have no one..

I know when you're bored, I'm not the right person to run to
But if you wanna be bored with me, you can call me
If your heart is broken, you can approach me, I'm not a heart fixer, mine got broke too
So, at least you're not alone.

I know I can be harsh sometimes
I'm not aware I'm being mean
You can slap my face if I do, it's  okay.
But expect me to slap back :)

When you want your secret safe
Pour it with me, you can trust me
If you want someone to listen 
You've got a friend here...

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7th of November

5:27am
I thought it's Sunday, I would want to sleep back but I can't ... Rise from bed now! -- I'm telling myself. It's been a rough week!

Good morning! Seize the day!

3:03pm
Just having a break... ang dami namang nag iinarte sa mundo.. nakakainis din pala... ang dami na namin ahaha... buti na lang ikaw lang nakakalam.. at least di ka pwede magreact... baka nasaktan mo na rin ako..haha.. sige back to work.. isang oras na lang.. uwian na..

4:03pm
So much to do but I stopped working... but I'm still resting on my seat... because I don't wanna go home yet.

10:08pm

Done with one movie "No Escape"... it was nice... so cheers to my next movie "Fury"....

12:32am
Fury -- okay rin, umaaction movie lang peg ko ngayon.. Lets call it a day..

Good night!

2nd Day of November

7:15am
I don't wanna entertain the thought that this maybe my last happy day in Primea... but I just can't help it.. I think I'm just too occupied with my anticipated upcoming changes in my environment and working habit as well... I don't wanna be harsh with myself but what can I do? I was born a worrywart! Haha

It's not full time yet, I'll still have to spend time in Primea and at PP3 both in a week... I'll start with twice or thrice a week in the other project... everything will be okay..

Just let me start my day with my Spaghetti I cooked last night... not bad!

12:05pm
Had this for lunch.

2.38pm
This silence is deafening... but I'm okay with it.. I'm happy being like this... I wish time would freeze, I would love to stay like this.. chos! ayaoko pang dumating ang bukas... narealized ko, mahal pala talaga kita!...
Primea! haha..

4:30pm
Pausing and thinking I wish I could get there too! (ow, am I inconsistent? just a while ago, I was saying that I loved it like this.. haha)... hindi naman yun, I'm referring to other place... I wish I could get there too... somebody help me!!! I'm so stuck... I wanna get "there" and "there" and "there" too ... lol!


7:00pm
Home! And this is so cute.....

Lets switch to more serious topic now... Since this picture below went viral today... allow me to  share my thoughts too...

When I saw this, the first thing came into my mind was... "why are they wearing that as Halloween costume??  What's with it that has something to do with Halloween? ".. I wasn't really disappointed or what... maybe I am too naive to think that at least they are recognizing it,, but why on this kind of occasion?.. as I've said, I'm not mad or insulted (as others), I just want to know their intention... as long as they don't mean to be disrespectful then maybe it's okay...  I'm not that someone who knows too much about our religion, I admit, I have so much to learn about... but I know for sure that mocking and disrespecting one another is again'st the teaching any kind of religion.

And what's saddening too is reading harsh comments from different people, aren't they aware that they are just complicating things?? I know I said a lot of bad words too.. but as much as possible, I couldn't put my comments-- those unreasonable comments on the social network, when I know deep down that I am no saint too.

And with regards to asking Joey de Leon and Tito Sotto to apologize, I won't be desperate about it, anyone could say sorry just for the sake of apologizing even they don't mean it... What's the point? I know somehow we want it, so no one could look down on us, the misconception thing... its hard to stop.. minsan, kelangan IpagpaDyos na lang.... what matters is what's in our heart and soul...

9:36pm

Anyway, look, dahil naiingit ako.. souvenir na lang saken. Haha!

10:32pm
Good night! Got to set my alarm earlier... sleep well..

why o why??

Why time moves so fast when I don't want it to?

Why I can't stop caring when I shouldn't? Or the other way around?

Why is it hard for me to stop worrying about things that ain't coming yet?why??

Why can't I stop thinking and wondering about things that has been over already??

Why I feel so sleepy right now but I just can't sleep?

Why? Why oh why???

...and if I won't stop asking why now... then surely I can't sleep.

Oh.. my good night!! Sleep well