31st of January

7:35 PM

After a long tiring day today.. I headed to my father's hotel room... I wish I could freeze the time because I don't want tomorrow comes... :(

30 Jan 16

I do believe that... (pang beauty queen lang ang intro. Haha)....that there are truly good about everyday.. kahit pa parang ang hirap ihakbang ng mga paa mo papunta kung saan ka man papunta.. I may sound not serious, pero seryoso ako! Haha...

This morning, I woke up early, as in really early na yung 5am saken, because I'm supposed to have a breakfast date with Dinah at NAIA3 before her flight to CDO.. She got only 4 hours layover from her connecting flight from Singapore.. kelangan ko rin kaseng makuha yung Australian currency I asked her as her pasalubong.. oo, pwede namang bumili non! But its the thought that counts... tsaka I wanna see her din naman, it's been so long since our last meet up..  unfortunately, her flight was delayed kaya di na nagtagpo yung oras namin... kaya ayun, antok na antok ako.. di rin kami nagkita.

Pero sabi ko nga , there are small things that could make us happy.. kahit saglit lang... example? While walking this morning on my way to work, a kitten was following a woman fondly... kala ko alaga nya, ang cute nya eh... parang ang saya nung miming... pero humiwalay din sya dun sa babae, tumakbo sya sa direction ko... ang cute nga nya, I wanted to touch it, at ilagay sa bag ko (lol) but somebody owns it maybe, kase my ribbon sya sa leeg.. that brief moment I saw it turned my heavy steps lighter.

Then nakasabay ko ulit si Mela sa bus.. ang saya kaya ng pakiramdam..  sa nakakastress na byahe, may kasabay ka, pati na rin sa pagtawid dun sa nakakamatay na tawiran.. ahaha

What else? This impulsive decision I'm making.. go na! Haha

antok nako. Good night!

29th of Jan

I think I failed today in so many ways, I think I've done what I can do but it wasn't good enough.. chos!

But I don't care!!

Good night still!

28 Jan 16

4:16pm
I'm in a stage of confusing myself.. haha!... and these random thoughts disturb me in the middle of my "I don't know which to do first"...   and that dream I had last night still haunts me... yeah, maybe "haunts" is really the right term... why do I have to dream of people who should be out my system anyway.... ??? Yung tipong, ginugulo na nga nila pag iisip ko sa totoong buhay, pati ba naman sa panaginip?? Haha...  bakit ba kase??? Errrr.. chos lang!

10:00pm
At the staffhouse...  I've been having overtime these past few days.. due to cost reports.. medyo madugo yung report dito... like we are doing 19 reports!! Because this project has 19 separate contracts...  tapos ang gulo pa.. lam mo yung magulo tapos nakikita mo yung mali.. I have to tell them what I know but not really pushing them, mas lalong not dictating what they should..  I don't wanna be someone doing things na di naman nila nakasanayan gawin.. basta... ayoko rin masyadong mainvolve dito.. dahil gusto ko ng umalis dito. Haha.. ayan nanaman ako..

10:10pm
Good night!

24 Jan 16

It's full moon and it looks bright but a little creepy too.. and I've mentioned this before that I had stopped staring at the moon for too long... but before I shut the window... I took these selfies..  haha.. sorry!

Have you noticed that too? The moon! Not my funny face haha... a friend noticed it too... after I post the picture above, I scrolled my fb account and saw this..

He posted that, "Marupayag a ulan ulan" means The moon is bright... and I commented "oway ba" it means yes it is... "Then he said " mapya pagiga sa rooftop besfren" -- it's nice to lie down at the rooftop  bestfriend (just looking up at the night sky)...

It feels great knowing some people is seeing what you're been seeing too..

Anyway, what else happened today.. ? nothing so adventurous or something like that.. I slept over at Margaux's place last night.. talked about this and that... laughed a lot about silly jokes with his brother and his wife... Had eaten my most favorite fried chicken in the world.. that's why I keep on coming back there.. hahaha..

"(teh, I know you'll get to read this at magtatampo ka nanaman at sasabihing mas namimiss ko yung fried chicken mo kesa sayo.. haha.. ano pa nga ba?? Joke lang)... syempre I'm enjoying your company... nakakatuwa sina kuya tats... natatawa ako ng bongga sa kanila.. at tsaka napaparami ako ng kain.. at tsaka okay lang maging baliw pag kasama kayo... kung pwede lang sanang jan na lang din ako eh, para masaya! Haha salamat ulit sa fried chicken at sa spaghetti.. sa uulitin)"

GOOD NIGHT!

22Jan16

Some of the worst thing could happen is receiving a call from someone informing you that something bad happened to your love ones.. and this morning while I'm busy working when I received a call from unknown number... it was my brother's officemate... she told me that my brother was rushed to Makati Medical Center due to extreme vomiting and stomach pain... So without second thoughts, I went out of the office and headed to the said hospital...

He was confined there and was under observation for couple of hours.. and later on, was also discharged later this afternoon...

Because I had to do my elder sister role, I missed meetings today (which honestly, I didn't wanna attend) and received lots of calls and messages regarding this and that...

and now I'm tired. GOOD NIGHT!

18th of January

Though my heart bleeds as I woke up this morning (chos!).. I had forced my self to rise from bed, took a shower, ironed my uniform, and almost prepared to work... but I really didn't wanna go to work.. I guess my Monday morning sickness outsmarted me.. so I changed my mind... I went back to my bed with my hair still wet.. I tried to sleep back texted my boss that I'm suffering from dysmenorrhea (it's a bit true but still bearable.. so, not so true, sorry for lying)... isn't Monday morning sickness enough reason??

But later this afternoon, I went out and meet my friends...

I hope tomorrow will be a good day for me.... and I will be able to wake up lightheartedly.. so help me God...

 GOODNIGHT!

17th of January

What's up today???

I went to Divisoria all by myself this afternoon to look for something but wasn't able to find it...

Part of the plan was also to visit a travel agency for an inquiry.. but I lost the effort I didn't go... and I'm disappointed..

Yesterday, I went to SM Megamall to meet a friend.. while waiting for her, I checked two travel agencies... if I'll get a package, it would be my first time... I used to make my own itineraries in my previous trips, para maiba naman.. but unfortunately.. my prospect travel buddies couldn't make it.. so I guess I really have to travel alone.. I consulted my mom, but as usual she won't let me  travel alone overseas.. I know I'm old and she couldn't do anything about it if I insist but I don't want to disobey her as well... and the decision is still on me... now I'm confused.. it makes me sad! Haha... In making friends,  I go for quality than quantity... I'm okay with that set up.. but now I'm realizing the disadvantage... almost all of those few friends I got couldn't make it with me due to different reasons.., bakit ganon???? it makes me sad again...

Anyway, let me go back to my last night whereabouts... as I've said, I met an old friend... natutuwa akong natutuwa sya sa mga kwento ko... She's one my close friends since college days, yung tipong she knows everything about my deepest thoughts..  and I can go crazy when I'm with her.. she's Che Che Bureche.. that's what I call her...  she used to be my no. 1 fan in my multiply blogsite...  until she stopped being part of the social networking sites... I told her I still blog via blogger.. then she said, I could have written a book.. sabi ko naman puros kaartehan lang naman post ko.. walang magbabasa non, kundi sya lang

Anyway, balik tayo today.. after strolling there at divisoria, I headed to Robinson, I wanted to watch movie... kaya lang wala naman masyadong magandang palabas... but still nanunod pa rin ako... and what I watched?? It's #walangforever... with my popcorn and my iced tea! Haha.. okay lang naman saken manuod ng movie mag-isa pero this kind of movie?? Medyo awkward panuorin mag isa.. haha! Parang I'm  proving na wala talagang forever! Haha..

That movie, sabi nila nakakaiyak.. at oo naiyak ako, pero hindi dahil nakakaiyak nga yung movie.. it's because I just felt sad.. haha.. good thing  no one's sitting next  to me kase nag eemote ako haha..   cut your reading here because the next things are the sad thoughts... kasalanan ng #walang forever na yan. Haha.. some of these lines are not directly delivered on that movie, yun lang naiisip ko while watching.

"Which is much painful, to hurt someone  you love? Or get hurt by someone you love?  Or to hurt someone who loves you? Or to hurt by someone you thought who loves you????".... ewan, lahat, it hurts.. haha

"When you found out the thing that could make you happy but you can't have it...when you're able to do something but you just can't".

"Its just so ironic... when we feel depressed, though we tried to get thru it alone, we still want someone to help us cope... but when you are too happy, you don't really care about someone else' depression"

"Yung bigla na lang mawawala ng di man lang magpapaalam, you can't even make peace with your own self  dahil  di mo alam kung may kasalanan ka."

"Yung ang sama sama na ng loob mo pero nananatili ka pa rin, ewan mo bakit".

" Yung magsisinungaling ka na lang.. kase di mo mapanindigan yung totoong nararamdaman mo".

"Yung akala mo lang meron pero wala pala talaga".. haha... tapos ayaw mong tanggapin na wala talaga.

" Yung wala naman palang forever.." wala naman talaga.. haha..

"Yung past 11 na pala tapos kelangan ko ng matulog kase kelangan kong gumising ng maaga.. at kahit may susulat pa ako.. puputulin ko na lang dito kase matutulog na ako."... dapat lang.. ang corny naman kase ng nga hugot na to . Haha..

Isa nanamang Mirror Selfie. Lol!

Sorry.

15th of January

I never thought that friends and sometimes enemies like us could get this corny... well, maybe we just missed one another that much...

Anyway, sorry for I had lied today... I'm not supposed to go home today, I should have stayed at the staffhouse... but due to some personal reasons.. I had changed my mind, and I feel bad for making stories for my excuses.. basta.. that's because I didn't want someone to feel bad.. basta ulet. Hehe..

Anyway, good night!

14th of January 2016

Gusto ko sana magblog.. kaya lang wala akong masabi.. ano ba naman to?? I'm losing my thoughts na rin.. eto na lang.. what happened today??

1. Made follow up letters for the pending payables for Primea Project

2. Headed to DCC for a meeting

3. Hinabol ako ng taxi driver kase kulang yung bayad ko! Haha... I thought I wasn't the one he was calling when I got off the taxi, nagmamadali ako kase sobrang late na ako na ako sa meeting... he even went out of the taxi.. tapos un! Kulang daw yung bayad ko.. haha.. I thought I gave him 260.. yun pala 160 lang.. nakakahiya. Haha!

4. Ayun.. late nga ako.. kumanta raw ako kase late ako.. hmmp! Deadma. Haha

5. Lagi daw late yung cost report ni PP3... ang daming issues... the original cost engineer for PP3 couldn't make it to the meeting kaya pasan ko ang mundo.... sa isip ko, "kasalanan ko ba??? Bago lang naman ako dun?????"!.. haha

5. Balik site.. medyo may mga taong nakakainis..."ang galing mo a"!.. e d ikaw na" maging sino ka man... hehe

6. Talked to a supplier who mistaken me to be someone else...

7. Walked home with Mela... sabi ko, it's the perfect time for me to resign....  so ano pang ginagawa ko??. Utang na loob.. patnubayan nyo po pag iisip ko.. ang o.a ko na.

8. At globe store... inquired for my recontracting..

9. Home.. T.V. chat my friend regarding our planned trip.. sana matuloy... Pangarap ko to.. tulungan nyo naman ako maging masaya.. lol... pero seryoso.. HELP ME GOD... tsaka pwede magrequest din... kung masyadong kalabisan ng hingin ko yung lovelife(lol).. friend/s na lang.. yung same interest with my mine.. yung makakasundo ako, maiintindihan yung abnormality ko.. yun na lang po..  lumiliit at lumalayo na yung mga original circle of friends ko... kaya pahingi naman po jan.. pero kung kalabisan pa rin po.. pwede na yung peace of mind at contentment..  :)

10. Late na.. sabi ko.. I would love to have a long sleep.. kaya lang anong oras na,???

Ayun! Nakarami rin ako ng sasabihin.. Good night!

1.11.16

Because I couldn't get over her...

Anyway, here at staffhouse.. tawa much while chatting with my friends..

1.10.16

It's Sunday and waking up early is kinda hard to do.. I slept late because I watched t.v, even watched "Walang Tulugan's Special"... German Moreno passed away, at di naman kami close or di naman masyadong fan but while watching last night, I was teary eyed, actually naiyak na nga ako.. babaw talaga luha ko pagdating sa mga ganon... he seems to be soo loved by many and knowing that they'll never ever see him again is heartbreaking, pero ganon talaga.. :(

So that's the reason why I'm losing sleep again but I had to rise early because Marj invited us to attend his son's birthday celebration and be a ninang of her daughter...yey,  may inaanak na ako! Haha

Anyway, I met Mela and Margaux to Trinoma so we can go together to Malolos Bulacan... but because I'm no Christian Catholic, I had to go straight to the reception, but had to take my brunch somewhere Malolos Bulacan, sa Jollibee lang pala! Haha.. then the rest ---refer to the pictures.

Marj, Husband and cute baby girl.

Mela, me and Margaux.

Me and this adorable little man.

Us again.

Us again with Sir Jhoooo..

Marj, may inaanak and me!

Arrived home around 8pm.. and I missed to do many things.. like sleep.. to send my dirty clothes to the laundry shop...at kung anu ano pa...

Anyway, nadudurog nanaman yung damdamin ko.. ayoko ng pumasok bukas! Ayoko ng magtrabaho!! Ayoko  na sa kanila!! CHos!! Kaw, ayaw mo na rin ba saken?? Dahil ang o.a ko at ang nega ko??!! Chos lang ulit... Kaya kong harapin ang bukas.. haharapin ko ng buo ang loob.. chos ulit!! Haha.. pero ayaw ko man, I must not tolerate this attitude..  right??

Magseselfie muna ako bago mag good night! Hehe

Good night!

Good Night na Lang

Gusto ko sanang may sabihin... pero wag na lang. Kaya Good Night na lang. :)

5th of January 2016

3:45pm
At NAIA airport.. falling in line on the taxi lane... I can see the PP3 project in front of me... and I hate it...  can I just go back home???

Still I'm the saddest... and I feel her.

4:21pm
Can you believe that? I'm still here on the taxi lane..

8:45pm
My sadness turns to this!

Eh kase naman.. around 1.5hours lang yung flight ko from Cotabato City to Manila pero yung NAIA to Sta. Ana Manila, almost 5hours!!!!!! From pila ng taxi to mismong byahe plus my 500 worth taxi fare.. my highest so far! Kaloka!

10:24pm

Good night! I pray that tomorrow wont be that heart breaking.

First Monday Morning Sickness for 2016!!

Feeling worst is something I'm not tolerating... It may not be obvious that I'm not tolerating it because you'll see the necessity of me writing it down... well, doing it lessens the burden I am feeling.... and whether I'll write or not, I would still feel it.... I'm just completely being honest with myself... so just let me pour it here.

So, although I'm still home, my Monday morning sickness didn't spare me... I woke up early this morning feeling terrible... I'm missing home already.. tomorrow is my flight back to Manila... and it's probably not new to you that I hate being there anymore...or I'm just exaggerating... maybe I'm just being tired of being there... or that moment I am leaving home is the worst of all... The only good reason I can think of why I'm still staying is my easy access to my travels...

So what did I do today?? Just had a bonding moment with my mom then later this afternoon, I met my friends Jegs and bestfriend Jun...

Then took a selfie.. lol!

And despite this funny face of mine.. I'm still the saddest... I hope tonight would be a long night..

PLEASE HELP ME GOD...

3rd of January

And I haven't seen the night sky filled with too many stars until tonight.. and it't too beautiful.

Mati, Davao Oriental -- a trip to end 2015!

Since I took the flight to Davao City for my vacation, I told my parents to fetch me at Davao City Airport, which is 4 hours drive from our home. We took the opportunity to visit Mati, Davao Oriental, another 4 hour drive from Davao City!

Here we come!

We stayed at Botona Beach Resort

The beach.. The water is crystal clear.. with big waves too.. unfortunately, I can't go deeper because I don't know how to swim.. haha.. but the resort needs improvement and maintenance.. though the water is crystal clear, natural waste are everywhere too like the dead weeds, coconuts and other tree tree trunks... must be careful too in walking into the shore because it's a bit rocky.

Stopped by at this spot.. the scenery is breathtaking. 

The Subangan, Davao Oriental  Museum.