Sunday, June 3, 2012

My friend Jegs

This is my Friend since my childhood days, I call her Jegs. We’re neighbors, we went to same school in our elementary days, she was my best friend then. We had petty fights I could smile everytime I remember, we used to go home together after class, but one day we quarreled, I don’t even remember the reason why, she took the other side of the road and me on the other while walking home.. when I reached the gate of our house, she looked at me, we smiled at each and friends again.. haha..

I’m a bit shy as ever that I asked my younger sister or my brother to send my messages to her if have to ask or say something, I wrote them in a letter and she will reply too (dipa uso ang cellphone at internet non).. haha.. I could go along with my siblings but I’m so shy then, as if those people along the way would bite me, so I preferred those letters.

But in our secondary years, we enrolled to different school, swear that disheartened me!

We’re together again in college, dorm mates and room mates as well. But she graduated first, she took 4-year course and I’m in engineering.

She found new friends and so do I, but ofcourse our friendship didn't end there. Meeting new people doens't mean forgetting the old ones... especially those people-for-keeps.

Years after, we became room mates again in a place far away from our hometown, this time, because of our jobs, she worked in a call center industry and yours truly in a construction company. But after several months, she went home and proceed her study in a lawschool.

We had our picture tripping here yesterday and this morning before her flight back home. She had her 2 months internship here in Manila.

w/ our friendship bags as we call it

That’s it..

TOXIC!

This previous week and this coming week I declare the busiest of all. I have so much work to do, maloloka na ako! Ahaha.. what’s disappointing is I couldn’t do it well due to limited time. I couldn’t balance the petty cash replenishment, because I wasn’t able to monitor it cautiously since I’m doing something else, I was having quantity reconciliation with our project owner’s quantity surveyor. And I need to update my quantities right after the recon according to the reconciled one, as well as the keyplans. The SUT’s are piling up.. The other items to be estimated, I haven’t done it yet, I’m afraid I forgot some. I hope I haven’t missed  to log and record the necessary documents.

I was even given another item to estimate, an urgent matter. But how in the world will I be able to do that when I actually have on queue schedules for another reconciliation, I haven’t even reviewed those items, damn, I don’t wanna look stupid by not knowing the things I have done.. My superiors committed that we must finish the items for reconciliation even if it take overtime (without asking me kung kaya ko!)… ofcorse kaya ko naman, but how bout my usual task?.. I swear I’m speeding up and extending time as well…even if my mind is actually not working well due to exhaustion … I love being busy but this I guess its too much it would kill me… haha

I’m not complaining, I don’t wanna complain! Should I?

Tuesday, May 29, 2012

5/29/2012

7:30pm

I shouldn’t be doing this, not even turning my laptop on.. I should be resting right at this very moment , I just got home and my eyes so drained! Honestly I am physically, mentally and emotionally stressed!

But somehow this is my way of relieving my troubled thoughts.

Why mentally and physically? Its because of work, I’m so busy I don’t know what to do first, I love being busy but I hate being puzzled and rushed. At some point I would want to scream “ayoko na, sobra na to”!.. but I’m not a quitter, I’ve proven that on my first job where my subordinate quitted and I should have done same too, but I did not… I did not because I didn’t want my monster boss underestimate me..

But anyway this is different thing, I don’t have an iron hearted boss here (no,not really hehe), but I have wagonload task to do. And I’m not good at organizing things, I’m so indecisive as to which I should prioritize first especially when most of it is actually urgent! Wahhh, and its making me wonder if I’m being lousy, idle, slow and blah blah blah…. But swear I’m doing the best the I can do to get things done...   Anyway, “kaya ko to, kakayanin ko”!

Emotionally? My dear diary, you know the very reason why, surely you’re overloaded with it. Ahhh.. I feel really bad, I feel so used, mistreated and wronged …. Hahaha.. I sounded as if you need to report this to DSWD hah.. hehe “pasensya na OA lang talaga”

But no! yes no way, I should not tolerate this… I’m not giving anyone the consent to put me down.. even you EXJR… I’m so much fed up with my stupidity for you, you can get lost now! See what I’ve got here, pimples! I hate you soooooo much… your just so lucky to keep me go crazy over you…. I couldn’t even take that word – crazy for you!??!!! errrrr  hahaha

Sunday, May 27, 2012

5/27/2012

I’m back to hating Mondays again, it’s been a while since the last time I’ve felt  that early Monday morning sickness, I was surprised actually. I didn’t even wanting Sundays to come, but today, I feel like I want this day to be extended (yah, its Sunday).

It’s lonely here right now, but I don’t want tomorrow to come. …

Argghhh… so where was I today?

Just here in my room talking to myself.. I woke up early, yah past 7am is already early at Sunday… I cleaned the room, I went to SM Manila, I had some shopping (as what my Mom told me to do.. haha).. Get myself a Starbucks treat, and then home again. Watched Adam’s Sandler Jack and Jill, I had a good laugh.. Fixed my closet. Read. And now facing my multiply site and will  make some drama, haha.. spare me this one.

So that’s it, kinda miss my Sunday Multiply moments…

Morning Sunday!

I literally just had a bad dream last night, that seemed so real... and just like what I've said on my facebook account, glad I am awake.

But theres something I really must get myself back to my senses... coz i'm being stupid again, im into something i know will only break me.... actually its already breaking me.. blame me I couldn't stop myself.. hehe

somebody wake up me from this nightmare! i hate being like this... i hate letting anyone hurt me without them knowing it..  no I can't let them... so somebody wake me up!!

but I must admit... this is such a beautiful disaster.... and disasters should end.

cut that crap! so early for me to do some drama.. hehehe

HAPPY SUNDAY ANYWAY!

**** I'll be fine.. i must..

Friday, May 25, 2012

Umeechos Nanaman ako!

UNTITLED

How many times shall I let you break my heart
And you don't even know that, I wish I could tell you

I can't believe I'm being stupid again for you
I wish I am numb

I'm just wondering why destiny would let us meet
When everything will end so soon, it didn't even start for us

I wish getting over you will be easy for me
But damn, everytime you smile at me, i could smile like crazy too!
I hope you don't notice!