ECHOS LANG!
"Dear _______,
I’m sorry if I haven’t made you feel that I was into you. I haven’t said a single thing about how much I liked you, I did keep everything a secret because I was afraid I might hurt you someday for I am someone who can’t fight her love, especially in our case, we are living in different world.
You heard me right, I did it because I don’t want you to suffer and itI doesn’t matter even if it seems that it’s me who is actually hurting right now.
Love,
Ms. Stupid"
I feel stupid, really. That if I wouldn’t breathe out my disturbing thoughts here then I might miss a good night sleep.
I couldn’t give you the technicalities of what’s really bothering me, it’s about my work .. I think I’m being a cause of a delay or at least being part of that delay.
and this feeling: its like, you’re in a debate, and you pick the side that you don’t really agree with, but you have to prove you do.. get my point?
I’m dealing with a certain person, she’s defending herself and I actually agree with what she’s saying, but I couldn’t say yes because I was told by a superior not to…. Instead, I could just shut my mouth because I don’t know what to say. I don’t wanna lie either.
Errrr. It disturbs me.
I have fixed my mind right? That I’ll be resigning earlier next year, I’ll try my luck in abroad.. but why am I not booking a flight ticket now!
I thought I’m so much fed up with my uncertainties that at last I’ve made up mind... but where the hell is my plane ticket now.
I’m doing fine with my present job, its an honor to be part of the construction of an high end 67th storey condominium, got no problem with my officemates (not really), a salary that wouldn’t at least starve me.
But on the other hand, working here is making me far from my family, and I don’t think it would make a big difference if I’ll do it abroad, at least the salary is larger than I could get in here, I could afford more than anything I want, travel and so on… I could treat not only myself but my family.. They’re not asking anything from me, but I will feel good if I would be able to give them something.
But I heard life in abroad is not that easy as well. It’s actually a risk and unfortunately, I’m not a risk taker.
O my! I'm confused again! i'm not getting any younger and still concluding a decision is so hard for me. why o why??.. i think i'm crazy. haha
Somebody help me!!!!!!!!!! that's what wahhhhhhhhhhhh all about.
