ANG CHEKE... BOW!

 Your worrywart friend is here again to do some complaining and give you some shots of qualms, actually to normal people, it shouldn’t be something to worry about, it’s just a very small stuff, but since I’m such a worrier, then I am here! Hehe

It’s a job matter. I released the million pesos worth progress billing check of two of our subcontractor today, Architect Anna (architectural Site Coordinator) knew those checks were in my hands, since she was the one who actually instructed our utility yesterday to pick up the checks in JTKC (the owner).

She asked me this morning if I received it, I said yes and I thought I heard her saying “sabihan mo sila”. I interpreted that as – I should inform the nominated subcontractors that I have their checks so they could claim it and give me in return the Official receipts and I could forward  it to JTKC… I’ve done this before.

So I informed NSC’s, and I gave them the checks! I believe that I was responsible for that. But this afternoon, I told Architect Anna that I released the checks, then she said, did you inform PM (Project Manager) that you released the checks…? ( wahhh!! Oo nga naman) I thought everything was fine, I didn’t inform PM because I wasn’t thinking that he might object, I wasn’t thinking that he might not have any idea that I have those vouchers, I was assuming that since Maam Anna knew it, then PM did too. At sabi ko nga, kala ko pinaparelease na ni maam anna mga yun dahil wala naman syang sinabing wag muna..So I replied “hindi… bakit? Dapat bang ihold ko?”, sabi nya, “wala namang problema, pero sa susunod inform mo muna si Sir baka may mga instructions pa sya”.

Yun! Okay next time. Surely I’l inform PM naman kung hindi dumaan ke mam anna mga checke.

So the problem now is how would PM react when I’ll tell him this on Monday “Sir, kinuha na ni Kalayaan (KECI) at ICPW yung mga checke nila nung Saturday”.

a.      He will just look at me like what he used to do, no words, pero parang nagsasabibing, mali yung ginawa mo!!!...

b.      Or eto sasabihin nya. “Ahhh… bat dimo sinabi sa aken?!.. tsk tsk tsk”

c.       Or baka eto, “may cheke na ba? Bat diko alam, sa susunod  sasabihin mo sa aken”

d.      Or baka ganto lang “O yung OR?! Ibalik mo na sa JTKC yan.”

e.      Pero pano kung ganto? “Ano ba nman yan! Dapat ihohold yun, may problema pa sila ”… that’s the worst.

O ano sa tingin mo? At ano isasagot ko? Siguro ganto na lang “ eh kala ko po wala ng problema, for release na yun”… kung nasa mood sya, pwede kong idagdag to.. “wala ka na rin kasi nung hapon”.. hahahaha… bahala na!

I’l update this on Monday.

update April 2, 2012 monday

anong nangyari? none of the above.. haha! basta ok na/

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If only I was strong enough to face the real world

Then maybe I am on my peak of my dreams coming true now

If only I’ve realized what I truly wanted when I was 16

Then maybe I’m not here right now

If only I am not indecisive

Then maybe I am not stuck right now

If only the world is an easy place to be at

Then maybe I am fearless right now

If only I had tried to risk

Then maybe I am not asking myself “what if?” now

If only I am blessed with self confidence

Then maybe I am circumscribing the globe now

If only I knew the purpose of my existence

Then maybe I am not so damn confused now

If only I didn’t play safe in my life’s quest

Then maybe I’m a skilled person right now

If only I gave chance to things I ran away from

Then maybe I found what’s missing in my life

If only I had said the things I’m still hiding right now

Then maybe my heart ain’t broken still

If only I’m brave enough to fight my feelings for someone

Then maybe I’m not hopeless and waiting in vain till now

But If only I knew where I supposed to stand

Then maybe I tried fighting

And if only that someone knew it

Then maybe I’m not twisting my mind in wondering now

Finally, if only the world is faultless, then absolutely I’m not saying IF ONLY right now

…..but the world is truly PERFECTLY IMPERFECT.

OH, IF ONLY.

My Indecisiveness is driving me nuts!

I have fixed my mind right? That I’ll be resigning earlier next year, I’ll try my luck in abroad.. but why am I not booking a flight ticket now!

I thought I’m so much fed up with my uncertainties that at last I’ve made up mind... but  where the hell is my plane ticket now.

I’m doing fine with my present job, its an honor to be part of the construction of an high end 67^th storey condominium, got no problem with my officemates (not really), a salary that wouldn’t at least starve me.

But on the other hand, working here is making me far from my family, and I don’t think it would make a big difference if I’ll do it abroad, at least the salary is larger than I could get in here, I could afford more than anything I want, travel and so on… I could treat not only myself but my family.. They’re not asking anything from me, but I will feel good if I would be able to give them something.

But I heard life in abroad is not that easy as well. It’s actually a risk and unfortunately, I’m not a risk taker.

O my! I'm confused again! i'm not getting any younger and still concluding a decision is so hard for me. why o why??.. i think i'm crazy. haha

Somebody help me!!!!!!!!!! that's what wahhhhhhhhhhhh all about.

THE DECISION

No turning back, flight would be on Sunday, 3 days to go, I made a decision I’m not sure if it’s right, so I will list reasons why at least, it’s a good decision.

 

1. I’ll be able experience flying……….. with the plane
2. To prove my self for what I can do
3. To know my self better
4. To grow and gain confidence
5. Become independent
6. More opportunities out there
7. To prove these people that they were wrong for thinking that I can’t do it
8. A possibility of answers to my questions
9. Quest for good future
10. Learn

 

 

As I said, the decision is made, I’ll make it right, I know there’s always good on it and there I will hold on. I will do it for myself and for my family…. To God, I ask for help and guidance.