TODAY:
Been really sick since yesterday.. I don't know if this is just an ordinary dysmenorrhea or more than that.. its too painful, it's uneasy and I vomit a lot... I hope I'll be okay tomorrow... it would be not the right timing to go absent... My deadlines!.. anyway, if i
wont get any better tomorrow.. who cares to those deadlines.... I must care for my health.
I should have my haircut done today.. but how can I can when I'm totally wasted.
WORDS UNSPOKEN TO SOMEONE: I lie if i'll tell you to be happy, but i wish you get what you deserve.
Good night!
ECHOS LANG!
Sunday, November 30, 2014
Thursday, November 27, 2014
27Nov14
TODAY:
Been busy but I had lots of laugh..
Watched the movie "Teacher's diary", during my lunch break, it's a Thai movie.. and I enjoyed watching it.. I loved it..
Bonding moment with these people.
Thanks to Margaux's chocolates.... and had this funny conversation.
Marj: Kainin na natin yung isa.
Ako: Sige, kainin na natin yung sayo..
Marj: Wag, pasalubong ko kay Jayden.
Ako: Lee, yung sayo na lang, wala ka ng girlfriend..
Lee: At ikaw may boyfriend?
Ako:@&÷*(£&÷^*&#&*÷(/&^
Haha.. Anyway, I ended up sharing mine.
Finally, I got Marj's note to me, I've been waiting for it for quite so matagal na... ang ang dami raw nyang nasabi.. di naman masyado.. haha... but her message made me smile. Sana nga, her wish for me will come true.! Hehe
Good night!
Been busy but I had lots of laugh..
Watched the movie "Teacher's diary", during my lunch break, it's a Thai movie.. and I enjoyed watching it.. I loved it..
Bonding moment with these people.
Thanks to Margaux's chocolates.... and had this funny conversation.
Marj: Kainin na natin yung isa.
Ako: Sige, kainin na natin yung sayo..
Marj: Wag, pasalubong ko kay Jayden.
Ako: Lee, yung sayo na lang, wala ka ng girlfriend..
Lee: At ikaw may boyfriend?
Ako:@&÷*(£&÷^*&#&*÷(/&^
Haha.. Anyway, I ended up sharing mine.
Finally, I got Marj's note to me, I've been waiting for it for quite so matagal na... ang ang dami raw nyang nasabi.. di naman masyado.. haha... but her message made me smile. Sana nga, her wish for me will come true.! Hehe
Good night!
Tuesday, November 25, 2014
:(
WARNING! Whoever you are, don't read, I couldn't let anyone feel bad as how I feel bad at the moment... coz the following things I'm about to say are sad thoughts.
You know what's the saddest thing about life?
It's when you couldn't make the people you loved feel that you do love them, when you couldn't even make them smile.
It's when the person who said that he/she wants you to be happy is actually the reason why you are the loneliest.
It's when everybody is changing and you try to to do the same but you are left stuck.
It's when realizing your dreams is now too far away from you, or it slip to your hands and now its too late to get it back.
It's when you are being ignored by the few people whom you cared the most.
When you are trying not to give up, but they gave up on you.
It's when goodbyes are not said, not even explained, not even a farewell message, and you miss them... and you couldn't do anything about it..
It's when a very simple thing excites you, but they fail you.. it's like you wanna slap these words into their faces, "hey its the only thing I asked for, it's too easy, you said yes, I trusted you, I prepared my things, my speech.. then you'll tell me, sorry I changed my mind????!."
It's when waiting for something you knew all along ain't coming... but it's too good you couldn't let it go... and you're not letting go, when you should.
It's when you hated someone but you are not suppose to.... when your mind is thinking so well, but your heart is having tantrums.
When the person you love is breaking your heart in front of you... you wished you enrolled in acting classes, so your "pretend you're not affected" is effective.
So there it goes....you've reached this far? So I didn't stop you..
Anyway, if in case you've felt that way too then you're not alone, I been there too.. I don't intend to make myself feel sad by entertaining these thoughts... I know everyone has their own sorrows from within... maybe the only difference is they kept it in their hearts, and in my case, I write them... and it lightens my heavy heart...
Yes, now that I'm done pouring them here, it made me feel relieved.. sometimes, its not always driving away ourselves from what makes us lonely, we must be brave enough to face them too.. Knowing what could make us sad leads us to knowing what makes us happy... we need to know how it felt to be in darkness so we could appreciate the light..
Keep ourselves reminded... there will always be someone who would let us down....even the last person you thought could do it to you would do it... and we must be strong enough to handle it.
Now, I'm done with this, I am much better ... Good night!
You know what's the saddest thing about life?
It's when you couldn't make the people you loved feel that you do love them, when you couldn't even make them smile.
It's when the person who said that he/she wants you to be happy is actually the reason why you are the loneliest.
It's when everybody is changing and you try to to do the same but you are left stuck.
It's when realizing your dreams is now too far away from you, or it slip to your hands and now its too late to get it back.
It's when you are being ignored by the few people whom you cared the most.
When you are trying not to give up, but they gave up on you.
It's when goodbyes are not said, not even explained, not even a farewell message, and you miss them... and you couldn't do anything about it..
It's when a very simple thing excites you, but they fail you.. it's like you wanna slap these words into their faces, "hey its the only thing I asked for, it's too easy, you said yes, I trusted you, I prepared my things, my speech.. then you'll tell me, sorry I changed my mind????!."
It's when waiting for something you knew all along ain't coming... but it's too good you couldn't let it go... and you're not letting go, when you should.
It's when you hated someone but you are not suppose to.... when your mind is thinking so well, but your heart is having tantrums.
When the person you love is breaking your heart in front of you... you wished you enrolled in acting classes, so your "pretend you're not affected" is effective.
So there it goes....you've reached this far? So I didn't stop you..
Anyway, if in case you've felt that way too then you're not alone, I been there too.. I don't intend to make myself feel sad by entertaining these thoughts... I know everyone has their own sorrows from within... maybe the only difference is they kept it in their hearts, and in my case, I write them... and it lightens my heavy heart...
Yes, now that I'm done pouring them here, it made me feel relieved.. sometimes, its not always driving away ourselves from what makes us lonely, we must be brave enough to face them too.. Knowing what could make us sad leads us to knowing what makes us happy... we need to know how it felt to be in darkness so we could appreciate the light..
Keep ourselves reminded... there will always be someone who would let us down....even the last person you thought could do it to you would do it... and we must be strong enough to handle it.
Now, I'm done with this, I am much better ... Good night!
Monday, November 24, 2014
I think I'm Crazy.Tonight
Did I scare you with this photo?? Hahaha... I'm not supposed to blog, but this photo made me... I was so sleepy a while ago... I was lying flat on my bed but I needed to get up....I need to go wash my face and brush my teeth... so I got up, stuck for a while standing in front of this mirror... I was staring at myself for quite long, realizing, wondering.. how I looked like... honestly, I really don't know.. I saw my hair, I'm gonna cut it soon... and its like they're begging not to...
I was looking at the mirror still, while one of my favorite artist is playing on spotify.... the rhythm switch into a livelier mode... so i turned off the light.. from that lousy face I was having... something changed.... I danced! Haha.. all by myself... like I'm a fool.. I turned off the light coz I couldn't even look at myself... haha.. I just felt my hair swaying and bouncing from here and there... I knew I looked awful and funny... I must be crazy... but I loved doing that.. hahaha..
Good night!
Sunday, November 23, 2014
Random Thoughts on 23 of November
TODAY:
8:30pm
There's nothing so unusual... just woke up a little late, cooked for brunch.. chicken flakes nanaman.. hehe...washed my uniform.. had my grocery... sent my other laundry to my ever favorite laundromat and picked up the one I left there last Sunday.. and its already my routine to donate a penny on that beggar sa kanto, an old man... naawa kase talaga ako sa kanya.. sana kahit sa ganong paraan e matulungan ko sya... Asan kaya pamilya nya?? Seeing him, makes me thankful for having the things I have...maybe, that's his purpose.. to help people reflect and be reminded to get contented.. kase yung iba walang wala pero kelangan nilang mabuhay... tas ako minsan nagrereklamo pa...
Anyway, speaking of people.. my friend told me that whenever she's mad or nagtatampo to someone, sinasabi raw nya para makabawas... sabi ko naman, it depends on the person you're to confront....kase minsan, yung ibang tao wala naman talagang pakialam, they don't even wanna hear anything from you, some will only listen to what they wanna hear.. yun lang..
Or baka masyado din naman akong nagcoconclude agad agad.. everyone had different struggles, di natin alam yung mga dahilan nila... how will we able to know anyway??? Or does it matter to know it? Masyado ko lang siguro kinocomplicate mga bagay bagay.. hehe...
anyway, I made a fruit salad and mango float.. and cooked fishball for dinner.. pinilit kong wag muna kumain sa labas, maliban sa binili kong choco crumble zagu, nagtitipid kase ako.. hahaha...
10:09 pm
I told my friend that "its okay" on her instagram...
I know I said a lot of "its okay" "you'll be fine" to my friends.. I dont know if it works for them.. someone told me it does.... someone also told me that I'm good at giving this kind of uplifting words... pero pag sarili ko, hindi masyado... though I keep on telling myself these things too... maybe the truth is , its not really the word itself but the thought of ---someone is just right there for you when you are not okay...
Anyway, I was reading a book a while ago... and this line had hit me .. "I wont give up without a fight", I heard of it for countless times kaso ngayon ko lang naisip, minsan nga ba sa buhay ko, I gave up without a fight??? .... maybe or maybe its not worth the fight... well, whatever that is, it should be worth fighting for.
LESSON FOR TODAY:
Chicken Soup story 71:
" Do something tiny, something silly, something dumb, something relaxing, something pointless, most importantly, do something everyday that makes you smile".
This line just made me smile.
HAPPIEST MOMENT OF THE DAY: I'm sorry if I keep on skipping answering this everyday... I couldn't think of any... maybe this blog... yes, it is.
LETTER TO SOULMATE:
Hey! There got to be you... you're just somewhere out there I know... someone with the same thoughts as mine.. someone who understands why I am doing this, someone who doesn't really mind if I am foolish... I'm not sure... but there should be you... and I thank you.
Good night!
8:30pm
There's nothing so unusual... just woke up a little late, cooked for brunch.. chicken flakes nanaman.. hehe...washed my uniform.. had my grocery... sent my other laundry to my ever favorite laundromat and picked up the one I left there last Sunday.. and its already my routine to donate a penny on that beggar sa kanto, an old man... naawa kase talaga ako sa kanya.. sana kahit sa ganong paraan e matulungan ko sya... Asan kaya pamilya nya?? Seeing him, makes me thankful for having the things I have...maybe, that's his purpose.. to help people reflect and be reminded to get contented.. kase yung iba walang wala pero kelangan nilang mabuhay... tas ako minsan nagrereklamo pa...
Anyway, speaking of people.. my friend told me that whenever she's mad or nagtatampo to someone, sinasabi raw nya para makabawas... sabi ko naman, it depends on the person you're to confront....kase minsan, yung ibang tao wala naman talagang pakialam, they don't even wanna hear anything from you, some will only listen to what they wanna hear.. yun lang..
Or baka masyado din naman akong nagcoconclude agad agad.. everyone had different struggles, di natin alam yung mga dahilan nila... how will we able to know anyway??? Or does it matter to know it? Masyado ko lang siguro kinocomplicate mga bagay bagay.. hehe...
anyway, I made a fruit salad and mango float.. and cooked fishball for dinner.. pinilit kong wag muna kumain sa labas, maliban sa binili kong choco crumble zagu, nagtitipid kase ako.. hahaha...
10:09 pm
I told my friend that "its okay" on her instagram...
I know I said a lot of "its okay" "you'll be fine" to my friends.. I dont know if it works for them.. someone told me it does.... someone also told me that I'm good at giving this kind of uplifting words... pero pag sarili ko, hindi masyado... though I keep on telling myself these things too... maybe the truth is , its not really the word itself but the thought of ---someone is just right there for you when you are not okay...
Anyway, I was reading a book a while ago... and this line had hit me .. "I wont give up without a fight", I heard of it for countless times kaso ngayon ko lang naisip, minsan nga ba sa buhay ko, I gave up without a fight??? .... maybe or maybe its not worth the fight... well, whatever that is, it should be worth fighting for.
LESSON FOR TODAY:
Chicken Soup story 71:
" Do something tiny, something silly, something dumb, something relaxing, something pointless, most importantly, do something everyday that makes you smile".
This line just made me smile.
HAPPIEST MOMENT OF THE DAY: I'm sorry if I keep on skipping answering this everyday... I couldn't think of any... maybe this blog... yes, it is.
LETTER TO SOULMATE:
Hey! There got to be you... you're just somewhere out there I know... someone with the same thoughts as mine.. someone who understands why I am doing this, someone who doesn't really mind if I am foolish... I'm not sure... but there should be you... and I thank you.
Good night!
Saturday, November 22, 2014
22Nov14
Today: work.... work.. work..
Dinner with Lee and Margaux.
Went straight at Ayala Triangle Garden to witness this....
Yes, because it would be a shame if I'll miss it when I work just few meters away from here...
Yes.. I work there...
Now too tired to say a lot!..so here's my goodnight!
Friday, November 21, 2014
isang extra ordinaryong blog
Ang blog na to ay para sa nag-iisang fan ko..para sayo to.. alam mo na kung sino ka kase ikaw lang naman ang nagbabasa ng blog ko sa pagkakaalam ko.. ahaha... diko alam bat natutuwa kang magbasa... kahit sabihin kong wag mong binabasa kapag diko pinapublish sa facebook.. sabi ko kase pag pinopost ko sa facebook, R-13 yun, pwedeng basahin ng lahat ng magkakamaling mapindot yung link.... the rest kase e rated X ahahaha.. kase madalas puro kaartehan lang naman yung laman nito.. minsan sama ng loob ko at bitterness ko... pero masaya naman pag naisusulat ko.. ahaha... walang pakialamanan.. kaya sayo dakilang tagahanga ko.. maraming salamat.. di mo ba ako bibigyan ng award?? Hehe...
Kumusta naman yung araw mo?? Pasensya na di muna ako mag eenglish ngayon kase baka dimo maintindihan.. ahaha.. joke lang.. mas magaling ka pa nga mag english saken e.. ako stock knowledge lang nung english 1, 2, 3 and 4 ko.. alam mo namang nakakabobo sa english yung engineering, or baka ako lang... haha..
Nakakapagod yung araw na to... ang haggard ko na nga.. para nmang minsan hindi.. so ayun nga busy ako... kaya yun yung sagot ko sa tanong mo bakit di masyado ako nakakapagblog recently, di katulad nung dati kahit oras ng trabaho e nakakapagblog ako, kaya nga siguro nagresign yung dating QS ko.. haha.... pero dahil request mo to.. kahit antok na ako at tired much na, ginawa ko pa rin to.. para matuwa ka naman.. ahahaha!.. natutuwa ka ba??? Kahit sa gantong paraan man lang e mapangiti kita.. kaso yung susunod dito e maiirita ka kase ipopost ko tong selfie ko ngayon ngayon lang, sorry.. kaso kelangan lang isingit to kase balak ko ng magpagupit ng hair (yung maiksing maiksi.. haha) kaya napagtripan ko yung buhok ko ngayon... haha.. remembrance kapag sumablay nanaman yung hair cut ko..
Naku... ang tagal naupload yung picture.. nakapaghilamos na ako, nakapagtoothbrush, nakakailang kanta na rin sa playlist ko.. dipa uploaded.. baka hindi lang tinatatanggap ng system.. akala siguro virus yung pagmumukha ko.. kanina pa sana tapos yung blog na to. Ahaha... isn't that annoying?? Haha... at some corner of my deepest soul eh annoyed din sa kaseselfie ko, akala ko siguro maganda tingnan.. ahaha... pero may kagandahang dulot din naman yan e... after 20 years, for sure we don't look the same.. at least you have something to tell or show the younger generation how you looked like when you're at their age... yun ay kung may blogger pa o kung uso pa fb that time, at kung buhay pa tayo.. hahaha.. kaya nga mahilig ako magdevelop ng pictures eh.. kahit old school na.
sige kelangan ko na matulog kase maaga pa ako bukas.. balak ko sana mag pa-late.. kaso tinext ako ng boss na agahan ko yung pasok kase may tatanong sya sa cost report namin! Nakakainis noh?? Haha.. kase naman di chinicheck ng maigi.. masyadong nagtiwala saken.. ahahah..
Muli.. maraming salamat sa pagtangkilik.. hehe.. sana lang dimo na pinagtutuunan ng pansin yung mga malulungkot at nakakasama ng damdamin na post ko.. para dika na mahawa... pero di pa rin kita pipigilan.. tibayan mo lang yung loob mo.. baka minsan mabasa mo na isa ka sa dahilan bakit masama ang loob ko.. ahahahahha... joke lang.. pero look at the brighter side of it, when someone made me feel bad, ibig sabihin you mean to me.. kase kung.hindi.. walang impact sa aken! Hahaha.. basta wag lang dalasan, baka mapagod ako... haha.. pero take note, di ako madaling mapagod, di nga ako napapagod mapagod e.. kahit durog na yung damdamin ko, (ang o.a ko talaga) hahaha... nga pala, maldita nga ba ako? Di naman diba?? Tama naman sila, may attitude problem din ako... pero mabait naman ako.. wahahaha... agree or agree?
anong oras na.. kelangan na matulog.. good night!
Kumusta naman yung araw mo?? Pasensya na di muna ako mag eenglish ngayon kase baka dimo maintindihan.. ahaha.. joke lang.. mas magaling ka pa nga mag english saken e.. ako stock knowledge lang nung english 1, 2, 3 and 4 ko.. alam mo namang nakakabobo sa english yung engineering, or baka ako lang... haha..
Nakakapagod yung araw na to... ang haggard ko na nga.. para nmang minsan hindi.. so ayun nga busy ako... kaya yun yung sagot ko sa tanong mo bakit di masyado ako nakakapagblog recently, di katulad nung dati kahit oras ng trabaho e nakakapagblog ako, kaya nga siguro nagresign yung dating QS ko.. haha.... pero dahil request mo to.. kahit antok na ako at tired much na, ginawa ko pa rin to.. para matuwa ka naman.. ahahaha!.. natutuwa ka ba??? Kahit sa gantong paraan man lang e mapangiti kita.. kaso yung susunod dito e maiirita ka kase ipopost ko tong selfie ko ngayon ngayon lang, sorry.. kaso kelangan lang isingit to kase balak ko ng magpagupit ng hair (yung maiksing maiksi.. haha) kaya napagtripan ko yung buhok ko ngayon... haha.. remembrance kapag sumablay nanaman yung hair cut ko..
Naku... ang tagal naupload yung picture.. nakapaghilamos na ako, nakapagtoothbrush, nakakailang kanta na rin sa playlist ko.. dipa uploaded.. baka hindi lang tinatatanggap ng system.. akala siguro virus yung pagmumukha ko.. kanina pa sana tapos yung blog na to. Ahaha... isn't that annoying?? Haha... at some corner of my deepest soul eh annoyed din sa kaseselfie ko, akala ko siguro maganda tingnan.. ahaha... pero may kagandahang dulot din naman yan e... after 20 years, for sure we don't look the same.. at least you have something to tell or show the younger generation how you looked like when you're at their age... yun ay kung may blogger pa o kung uso pa fb that time, at kung buhay pa tayo.. hahaha.. kaya nga mahilig ako magdevelop ng pictures eh.. kahit old school na.
sige kelangan ko na matulog kase maaga pa ako bukas.. balak ko sana mag pa-late.. kaso tinext ako ng boss na agahan ko yung pasok kase may tatanong sya sa cost report namin! Nakakainis noh?? Haha.. kase naman di chinicheck ng maigi.. masyadong nagtiwala saken.. ahahah..
Muli.. maraming salamat sa pagtangkilik.. hehe.. sana lang dimo na pinagtutuunan ng pansin yung mga malulungkot at nakakasama ng damdamin na post ko.. para dika na mahawa... pero di pa rin kita pipigilan.. tibayan mo lang yung loob mo.. baka minsan mabasa mo na isa ka sa dahilan bakit masama ang loob ko.. ahahahahha... joke lang.. pero look at the brighter side of it, when someone made me feel bad, ibig sabihin you mean to me.. kase kung.hindi.. walang impact sa aken! Hahaha.. basta wag lang dalasan, baka mapagod ako... haha.. pero take note, di ako madaling mapagod, di nga ako napapagod mapagod e.. kahit durog na yung damdamin ko, (ang o.a ko talaga) hahaha... nga pala, maldita nga ba ako? Di naman diba?? Tama naman sila, may attitude problem din ako... pero mabait naman ako.. wahahaha... agree or agree?
anong oras na.. kelangan na matulog.. good night!
Sunday, November 16, 2014
18 Nov 14
Goodnight!
Saturday, November 15, 2014
Thursday, November 13, 2014
13Nov14
TODAY: I'm so exhausted!!!!! Wahhhhh... where's the justice there?? Haha.. I'm being forgetful, maybe because I think too much nanaman kase!! Hayst... sobrang busy ko nanaman ulit!
Afterwork. Met marj.. I looked so haggard here.. right??
Now despite of my haggard looks, my pimples, my funny face, my tangled hair (that I am planning to cut).... nakuha ko pa rin magselfie.. sorry! Haha... I'm music tripping... to ease my stresses away! Can't you find the big dipper in the sky? They're right here...in my face... haha
REMINDER TO SELF:
I DON'T CARE!!! Hehe... ofcourse I care... basta... this is something I wanna be, yung walang pakialam... yung deadma lang sa lahat... para di masyado madurog yung puso ko! Chos! Haha.. pano ba naging reminder to self to?? Maybe, I'm reminding my self not to overthink... yung wag masyadong damdamin mga bagay bagay... lagi ko naman nireremind yung sarili ko.. matigas lang yung ulo ko. Haha
HAPPIEST MOMENT OF THE DAY:
Ano nga ba? Maybe that email from someone.. he honestly made me smile, nice to know I'm remembered.. hehe
Or this moment... music tripping lang.. papaantok.. malungkutin nga ako pero mababaw lang din ang kaligayahan ko. Wahahaha...
Sige good night na!
Monday, November 10, 2014
Stressed na stressed na ako!!!
Today:
Can somebody tell me that im gonna be okay.... ? na kaya ko to, okay lang ako, wag akong mapagod, chill lang, cheer up!!! Yung nga ganon... pagod na talaga ako.. pero diko alam bat di ako napapagod mapagod.. hahaha! Normal paba to?
Sabi nila, be with.people who would lift you higher especially when your.down...yung kapag upset ka mararamdaman nila yun.. maiintindihan ka nila.. kahit.di na sila makatulong, tama ng maintindihan ka lang.. pero bakit yung mga kaibigan ko, inaasar pa ako.. naiinis na nga ako.. di naman ako galit... pero naasar talaga ako.. di naman ako nagrereklamo, pasalamat pa rin ako na may mga kaibigan ako... minsan lang talaga ay nakakainis, pero okay lang, kaya ko naman to.. kaibigan ko pa rin sila.. ganon lang siguro talaga sila.. kailangan tanggapin hindi talaga perfect ang lahat.
Yung bagong QS ko, its not that I dont like him, pero he arrived at the wrong time... kelangan ko ng kasama pero he seems to be the wrong person.. or mali lang yung timing.. okay lang naman sya, but I have this feeling na di nya nagugustuhan yung ginagawa nya, di sya tatagal! Haha.. I needed someone who already had a background in what it would be in a commercial department.. at ramdam kong di sya para dun.. namimiss ko tuloy yung dating QS ko.. hehe... hindi naman ako madamot magturo, its one of the nicest feeling to teach someone else ... kaso masyado pa akong busy para magturo... kaya feeling ko tuloy, instead na makabawas ng trabaho e, nadadagdagan pa.. mali lang talaga yung timing... ayan stressed na stressed na tuloy ako.. sorry if i sounded selfish here... kaso pano pa ako makakapagresign nyan? Hehe... anong gagawin ko???????...
Reminder to Self:
Sino pa nga ba magreremind sayo kundi ako ulit?? Ang arte arte mo naman kase.. haha..
lagi na lang kitang nireremind na dimo kelangan maging tama palagi.. ok lang magkamali.. tsaka, u dont have to be a perfect supervisor.. yung mga boss mo at naging supervisors mo, tama ba sila palagi? Di naman diba.. kaya ayos lang yan.. wag mo na masyadong iniisip..
yung bagong q.s mo, dimo na problema kung di nya magugustuhan yung trabaho nya... kung ayaw nya ng ginagawa nya, e d pwede naman sya magquit anytime.. di ba nga parang di rin sya yung kelangan mo.. tsaka wag mo na syang kinokompara dun sa dati mong q.s. magkaiba sila... things change.. di forever ganyan... sabi nila, if good things end, ganon din yung mga di magaganda.. tanggapin mo na lang na nagbabago tlaga ang mga bagay bagay...
yung mga kaibigan.mong inaasar ka.. hayaan mo lang.. hindi mo lang alam.. minsan sila naasar din sayo.. kaya quits lang yan...dimo naman kelangan pakinggan ko ano paniniwala nila.. iba iba kase yung tao.. di naman pwedeng kung pano nila tingnan yung mga bagay bagay ay dapat ganon ka rin. Dun ka lang sa kung san ka komportable at tingin mo e dapat na gawin mo.. iba kase sila, iba ka rin..wag ka na masyadong magtatampo sa kanila..ayos lang yan.. ang importante e kung ano tingin mo sa sarili mo.
Okay kana ha... ayos lang yun.... itulog na yan.
Can somebody tell me that im gonna be okay.... ? na kaya ko to, okay lang ako, wag akong mapagod, chill lang, cheer up!!! Yung nga ganon... pagod na talaga ako.. pero diko alam bat di ako napapagod mapagod.. hahaha! Normal paba to?
Sabi nila, be with.people who would lift you higher especially when your.down...yung kapag upset ka mararamdaman nila yun.. maiintindihan ka nila.. kahit.di na sila makatulong, tama ng maintindihan ka lang.. pero bakit yung mga kaibigan ko, inaasar pa ako.. naiinis na nga ako.. di naman ako galit... pero naasar talaga ako.. di naman ako nagrereklamo, pasalamat pa rin ako na may mga kaibigan ako... minsan lang talaga ay nakakainis, pero okay lang, kaya ko naman to.. kaibigan ko pa rin sila.. ganon lang siguro talaga sila.. kailangan tanggapin hindi talaga perfect ang lahat.
Yung bagong QS ko, its not that I dont like him, pero he arrived at the wrong time... kelangan ko ng kasama pero he seems to be the wrong person.. or mali lang yung timing.. okay lang naman sya, but I have this feeling na di nya nagugustuhan yung ginagawa nya, di sya tatagal! Haha.. I needed someone who already had a background in what it would be in a commercial department.. at ramdam kong di sya para dun.. namimiss ko tuloy yung dating QS ko.. hehe... hindi naman ako madamot magturo, its one of the nicest feeling to teach someone else ... kaso masyado pa akong busy para magturo... kaya feeling ko tuloy, instead na makabawas ng trabaho e, nadadagdagan pa.. mali lang talaga yung timing... ayan stressed na stressed na tuloy ako.. sorry if i sounded selfish here... kaso pano pa ako makakapagresign nyan? Hehe... anong gagawin ko???????...
Reminder to Self:
Sino pa nga ba magreremind sayo kundi ako ulit?? Ang arte arte mo naman kase.. haha..
lagi na lang kitang nireremind na dimo kelangan maging tama palagi.. ok lang magkamali.. tsaka, u dont have to be a perfect supervisor.. yung mga boss mo at naging supervisors mo, tama ba sila palagi? Di naman diba.. kaya ayos lang yan.. wag mo na masyadong iniisip..
yung bagong q.s mo, dimo na problema kung di nya magugustuhan yung trabaho nya... kung ayaw nya ng ginagawa nya, e d pwede naman sya magquit anytime.. di ba nga parang di rin sya yung kelangan mo.. tsaka wag mo na syang kinokompara dun sa dati mong q.s. magkaiba sila... things change.. di forever ganyan... sabi nila, if good things end, ganon din yung mga di magaganda.. tanggapin mo na lang na nagbabago tlaga ang mga bagay bagay...
yung mga kaibigan.mong inaasar ka.. hayaan mo lang.. hindi mo lang alam.. minsan sila naasar din sayo.. kaya quits lang yan...dimo naman kelangan pakinggan ko ano paniniwala nila.. iba iba kase yung tao.. di naman pwedeng kung pano nila tingnan yung mga bagay bagay ay dapat ganon ka rin. Dun ka lang sa kung san ka komportable at tingin mo e dapat na gawin mo.. iba kase sila, iba ka rin..wag ka na masyadong magtatampo sa kanila..ayos lang yan.. ang importante e kung ano tingin mo sa sarili mo.
Okay kana ha... ayos lang yun.... itulog na yan.
Thursday, November 6, 2014
The Moon so Bright
Tonight, the moon isn't full.. but its too bright and it has a shade of green when I saw it a while ago.
My friend sent me this, I don't know the green color turned to orange???... beautiful anyway!
Today: I'm tired to the highest level.. I wanna say much but I just couldn't, I'm too drained... just read my eyes.. hehe
..so all i have is music and my bed!!! My comfort zone...
Today's Happiest moment:
At past 3pm, i felt happy. Reason? I i dont know. Or too tired to know! Maybe I've accomplished something.
Goodnight!
Wednesday, November 5, 2014
Tuesday, November 4, 2014
Call it The Slambook
TODAY: still busy and feeling crazy. Haha
HAPPIEST MOMENT OF THE DAY: My new "kacornihan" maybe is a waste of time to some but for me, its one of the sweetest thing.. I don't really mind if it makes me so old fashioned and childish.
Mac and Jeny called it slambook... Marj told me this, "why are you doing this? Are you going somewhere? " Haha.. yah, I'm sorry if I looked like as if I missed so much of my highschool days.
So I am forcing them to write a note or reminder to me.. hehe.. I received jeny's message when I woke up this morning, I don't feel like rising from my bed but her message awakened my senses... I was so enlightened with her message, maybe she wrote it midnight.. I appreciate her effort too much.
Then later this afternoon, I got Lee's. His message made me smile and we were caught by our boss when he handed it to me.. haha..
That's it.. for me, this isn't a waste of time... my job almost consumed everything of my whole day, it sucked my energy to its almost zero level, but I got them back when I read my friend's messages.. its nice to know, I mean something to them... I'm reminded that I am someone to them... I keep on telling myself that I must acknowledge my worth without needing anyone's confirmation of it... but hearing it from the people whom you consider your.good friends are truly heartwarming.
So I guess the saying right: Everyday may not be good, but there is always something good about everyday...
Good night!
Monday, November 3, 2014
3Nov14
TODAY:
Late at work.
Busy much.
Dinner date with marj.
HAPPIEST MOMENT TODAY:
Downloaded Walking Dead or this conversation.
GOODNIGHT!
Late at work.
Busy much.
Dinner date with marj.
HAPPIEST MOMENT TODAY:
Downloaded Walking Dead or this conversation.
GOODNIGHT!
Sunday, November 2, 2014
2Nov14
Today:
9:58am
Still at my bed counting my face worst enemies, my pimples.. ahaha.. but I think they're loving each others company.. grrr.. i know its making me more ugly duckling! Haha.. I don't know why they're coming out too many, sometimes I totally don't have any.
I feel sick.. I'm having a flu and tonsillitis...could it be because of too many sweets I have taken yesterday at Rose son's birthday? And I have more sweets on my refrigerator now... I dont know what to eat. Here's our picture yesterday.
10:45pm
I don't want to sleep yet.. I think I have so much to do.. anyway, I went out this afternoon.. walked around at Robinson Mall, ate Arrozcaldo (feel na feel kong may sakit ako.. haha), had some ice cream despite of my colds, merienda at burger king, bought too many fruits...
and now that I'm about to sleep.. music tripping first to relax my senses.
Good night!
LESSON FOR THE DAY:
If someone did something extraordinary or if they look great, tell them.. be sincere in giving compliments, mean what you say.. you don't know who you make feel good about themselves because of what you've said.. some people need to hear it from others.... once again, be sincere, otherwise don't say anything.
WHAT'S THE HAPPIEST THING HAPPENED TODAY: This is something I should answer everyday but I always miss it.. for today, maybe the ice cream?? Haha..
LETTER TO SOULMATE:
Hey, here I am again, writing to you.. still wondering how are you doing? Where could you possibly be... ? am I gonna see you? I didn't pray for your arrival not until recently when everybody was asking me why am I still single... I couldn't really answer them, I thought it was my choice... or my choice to wait for you... but the chance of meeting you is too low.. I think I'm at the wrong place.. you're not here.. I could feel that, but I am so stuck in here...
Because you can't find me, I'm trying to find you, I'm busy so I asked my friend to apply me jobs for abroad but I'm not receiving progress yet, I had a possible employment in Dubai but they're expecting me to be already there so I didn't take it seriously. Are you somewhere out there? Or were you just around? I'm just being terrible and intimidating? I tried to change myself, maybe I am too despicable and too bad you wouldn't like me.... but I always ended up being myself..
But you know what, I don't really mind being single for good rather than be with the wrong person because I was pressured or because I want to forget some people, or maybe yes. I'm sorry. .. i didn't want to use anyone just to make myself feel worth it or feel better without considering them, I wanna be with someone because they make me happy and we deserve each other... now I pray to God for us to meet at the right time... sooner or later, it's okay if that's what meant us to be... but if in case He wont give you to me, I'll accept that, everything happens for a reason... maybe I am better alone, (i still have my friends and family)..just remember that you always had a space in my heart...
REMINDER TO SELF:
With or without someone to hold on to.. you can carry on.. you should..you must... be independent!
Still at my bed counting my face worst enemies, my pimples.. ahaha.. but I think they're loving each others company.. grrr.. i know its making me more ugly duckling! Haha.. I don't know why they're coming out too many, sometimes I totally don't have any.
I feel sick.. I'm having a flu and tonsillitis...could it be because of too many sweets I have taken yesterday at Rose son's birthday? And I have more sweets on my refrigerator now... I dont know what to eat. Here's our picture yesterday.
10:45pm
I don't want to sleep yet.. I think I have so much to do.. anyway, I went out this afternoon.. walked around at Robinson Mall, ate Arrozcaldo (feel na feel kong may sakit ako.. haha), had some ice cream despite of my colds, merienda at burger king, bought too many fruits...
and now that I'm about to sleep.. music tripping first to relax my senses.
Good night!
LESSON FOR THE DAY:
If someone did something extraordinary or if they look great, tell them.. be sincere in giving compliments, mean what you say.. you don't know who you make feel good about themselves because of what you've said.. some people need to hear it from others.... once again, be sincere, otherwise don't say anything.
WHAT'S THE HAPPIEST THING HAPPENED TODAY: This is something I should answer everyday but I always miss it.. for today, maybe the ice cream?? Haha..
LETTER TO SOULMATE:
Hey, here I am again, writing to you.. still wondering how are you doing? Where could you possibly be... ? am I gonna see you? I didn't pray for your arrival not until recently when everybody was asking me why am I still single... I couldn't really answer them, I thought it was my choice... or my choice to wait for you... but the chance of meeting you is too low.. I think I'm at the wrong place.. you're not here.. I could feel that, but I am so stuck in here...
Because you can't find me, I'm trying to find you, I'm busy so I asked my friend to apply me jobs for abroad but I'm not receiving progress yet, I had a possible employment in Dubai but they're expecting me to be already there so I didn't take it seriously. Are you somewhere out there? Or were you just around? I'm just being terrible and intimidating? I tried to change myself, maybe I am too despicable and too bad you wouldn't like me.... but I always ended up being myself..
But you know what, I don't really mind being single for good rather than be with the wrong person because I was pressured or because I want to forget some people, or maybe yes. I'm sorry. .. i didn't want to use anyone just to make myself feel worth it or feel better without considering them, I wanna be with someone because they make me happy and we deserve each other... now I pray to God for us to meet at the right time... sooner or later, it's okay if that's what meant us to be... but if in case He wont give you to me, I'll accept that, everything happens for a reason... maybe I am better alone, (i still have my friends and family)..just remember that you always had a space in my heart...
REMINDER TO SELF:
With or without someone to hold on to.. you can carry on.. you should..you must... be independent!
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