Just a Post Before May Ends

"I don't wanna go home yet" -- it's a line I kept on saying these days.. ofcourse not to our real home (that is 1 and 45 hours by plane), I'm referring to my new  apartment. I don't feel comfortable there, and I tend to think so many unwanted thoughts when I'm there... so I stayed late in the office or anywhere outside.. forced my friends to meet me so I couldn't go home early.

I'm a home buddy ever since I was born but lately I don't wanna stay in our apartment..

Yesterday, I decided to fetch Margaux in her workplace.. just to make a difference and experience  a not so far getaway... add also the "effort" this friend is asking me (oo nga naman, ang tamad ko, lumayo layo naman ako sa comfort zone ko).. hehe

It's my first time to get there.. I took a bus from Ayala, went down at Robinson Galleria.. took another bus going to Ever Gotesco... I  love being on a bus...it would be okay for me to take a bus for an hour or two going anywhere then get back. But when a crowd is forming on the bus aisle, is different thing.. and a scenario like that happened yesterday, so I had a hard time getting out of the bus.. so as soon as I reached Ever Gotesco, I told myself, yey! I succeed. 

Food tripped, Videoke, movie at Gateway Mall... then it's past 11pm when we're done.. I overstayed outdoor I think.. so I slept over at Margaux's place... and had some pancakes in the morning.

On my way home, I didn't know which bus to take, so I ended up on a non-aircon bus.. it was fine, I didn't mind my hair covering my face due to the  air.. 

You know what I love doing this kind of adventure? You see different people.

I saw a man struggling to find a bus going to wherever he is going, his eagerness to go home is obvious, and  he's been waiting there like forever.

 I sat next to a less average looking woman with her daughter.. I heard the child requesting to her mom to eat at a certain resto that seems so expensive for them.. her mom says yes. Can they?

The vendor went in on the bus.. no one bought his stuff... rough day on his face.

and a lot of faces I saw.... different struggles in life maybe.. so what about this? Well, It keeps on reminding me to be grateful for everything I have.. and that everyone is facing various obstacles too...  like this saying.

That's it.

I still didn't wanna go home yet.. but I have a laundry to pick.. and send another batch.. I need to wash my uniform too.. I need to fix my closet too (which I did.. partly)... grocery too.. and.sleep!... So no matter how I hated being home nowadays, I still have to..

And one more, why I hated being in the apartment? I'm drawn to take a selfie.. and that's horrible right? Haha.. sorry for this.. (nahihiya naman akong magpost ng selfie, pero pinopost ko pa rin.haha)

 Good night!

25May15

5:37am

I'm afraid I'm being hit by my Monday Morning Sickness again... i woke up before my alarm could wake me up.. this is it.

"God, please take this odd feeling away from me, help me feel better and get through this day with self confidence, courage and with sense of purpose. Please remove this feeling that is not meant to torture me, coz I shouldn't be feeling it.."

9:55pm
It was't really perfect day .... but I thank God for this day.

Goodnight!

to whom it may concern

To the life of my life:

Yah, it's too corny of me to write stuff about you.. sorry for hating you the other day.. sometimes I think I just want someone kakampi to stand for me, though kaya ko naman! Umeechos lang ako. Hehe..

Hey, though I don't  have any idea how you looked like right now or kung nasaan ka man... this song is for you... keep on hearing it on spotify...

Now, I hope and I pray you're okay.. and you are somehow real..   Good night! Sleep well.

P.S. Para akong baliw! I know.. hehe.. tayo lang naman nakakaalam, keep my secrets with you. Haha.. I'm not making a realistic blog these days.. but I meant every words I say, minsan mukhang echos lang, bahala kana.. :)

12 Midnight!

12 midnight! I'm actually sleepy and tired too.... wala lang napagtripan ko lang yung picture ko... haha

I hope it will rain tonight!.. I just missed the rain.

Good night!

21May15

Today was supposed to be a a-bit-of-a-good-day , but someone almost ruined it... indeed it's true, words are weightless, but its impact  could bring weight to our hearts.. like when some people would assume or accuse you of something you are not or maybe you are... but you don't wanna talk about it. ..They would even speak up for you of things you don't even want to be as if they know what you really feel. But you couldn't tell them because you don't wanna appear like you're overacting....because you're not supposed to.

It was past five when I'm on my way home.. I don't wanna go home yet... my friends and I don't have plans either of meeting up... but I didn't really feel like going home yet.. I was upset... so I called and messaged them.. haha.. 

Though Marj didn't make it.. I still feel like I won it... Lee and Margaux came... haha... though they are a little late... actually so late I had finished a blog (the previous blog) while waiting for them, which I didn't have the right to complain because I've asked them out with short notice... and I should be thankful of their effort... they are always the one who came in to my place.. they have to travel a bit and experience the traffic jam and the crowd at the transport locations while I am just waiting.... they told me once, that sometimes I much exert an effort too, that I should be the one to visit them sometimes.. haha... but I refused too.. I don't wanna take the mrt at the rush hour.

Thanks to Pitch Perfect 2.... I had a good laugh.

Good night!

I hate you today my love of my life

To the Love of my Life,

I hate you now really... why there got to be you?? Or actually because there's no such thing as you.?Maybe it should be you who could calm my senses when I am mad.... but its you who actually makes me feel mad at the moment.... I'm contented with  being alone.. or being inlove with that thought that somehow I'm gonna meet you, that you're worth the wait ... despite the big chance of your fake existence..

But you know what, I don't need you.. I can live even without you.. of course I can. I didn't even think about you until these people keep on asking me stupid questions about my singleness.. I don't just pick anyone and tell them "hey, don't worry about me i found the one" .. just because I want them to stop asking me, I definitely don't wanna use anyone to cover up my unfortunate love story... I don't just say yes to anyone because I wanna forget the world being so selfish to me when it comes to my lovelife.. well, maybe I've tried once or twice?? (Getting to know other people stuff) But it didn't help. Damn that lovelife anyway! See? I don't even take effort to find you.. You're not even here  at the place where I am at now, I don't feel you here, you aren't even coming here.. but I let my self  get stuck at the wrong place because I don't really care if I couldn't find you or you couldn't find me..  so don't you ever think that because you are the love of my life (who ever you are, you fool!) then I couldn't live perfectly. Yes, you're supposed to be the one who would make me smile when the world gives me all the reasons to frown... but no thanks, I can handle this.

 I hate you more when these people think as if they know what I feel, as if they know what I should do, those people who remind me that life sucks without you. Errr.. maybe it sucks! But I'm fine with it... Those people, trying to pressure me, who instead of joining me accept what I am trying to accept, but they're not... yes, them!.. I'm blaming you for that... seriously?? No, I'm just kidding.

Don't get me wrong, don't get mad at me because I'm mad at you right now.. I'm still inlove with the thought of you somehow, in its smallest possible way, I hope you do exist (but in its realistic way, I know you're really not).... It's a fair play anyway, I'm hating myself too for doing so, I'm being so pathetic.. shame!

Some people are just too cruel to remind me that its too lonely being alone.. it's actually not, right? Could you punch their  faces for me?? Ofcourse you can't. So, for now, I'll do it my way.. and I'll tell you all about it someday, when we'll get the chance to meet.... that's after I slap your face too".

Love.

19May 15

6:38pm
At KFC glorietta.. waiting for Lee... errrr... I've been waiting for almost an hour now.. I shouldn't went out of the office if only I knew he was still at their site office while I'm on my way to Glorietta..

6:50pm
National bookstore!
My favorite part of the bookstore aside from the pen and notebook section is the kids story books or the fairy tales section.. haha.. yeah, at my age?? .. I find things cute there.. like this book that seems so adorable.

Anyway.. I bought a world map.... and a playing cards too.. haha.. what was I thinking..?  just because I think I needed to purchase something... so I picked them. When I reached the counter, the cashier asked me if I want to buy a set of school stuff that will be donated to less fortunate ... I said yes, I could afford to buy a playing card that I don't even know why I'm buying it, so why can't I buy the school supplies....?? Someone needs it, who knows, that someone will succeed in the future...

The playing cards?? Well, I bought it too.. it might save me from boredom.. haha.. I just hope I still know how to play the solitaire. Haha

7:33Pm

Finally, Lee is here.. I'm drop dead hungry.. Back to KFC!

9:30pm

Home..

10:50pm

There goes the world map in my wall.. I used to have this kind of world map too in my wall at office when I was a newbie but I removed it later on.. I'm always fond of it... I'm so much interested in different countries.. World history didn't bore me during my elementary days.. I'm good at knowing different countries' capital.. but not anymore... hehe.. that was 20 years ago, don't ask me now! 

So, who says I can't be anywhere in the world??? It's right here in my wall.. hehe

Good night!

Unplanned Road Trip Again..

Yes, its Tagaytay for the Nth time... I just wanted a bus ride, a road trip for about an hour or two..  I didn't feel like staying at our new apartment for my day off..  I wanted to get away even for a just a day... 

We're supposed to get to Sky Ranch.. but we arrived too early. The local driver said, it was still closed at that point of time.. sabi nya, sa gabi lang daw maganda dun (naniwala naman kami... haha) so we cancelled it.. he suggested boat riding but we're unprepared for that, maybe next time...  kaya ganyan ganyan lang sa mga pictures... 

And to my travel buddy, thanks for accompanying me, for tolerating my "kaartehan"  sa biglaang trip ko... it was just yesterday when I told you that I wanted a road trip.. haha.. you're such a good friend... despite my being "super mean" minsan, anjan kapa rin... haha.. when you get married too, dimo na rin ako masasamahan.. haha. By then, I might learn to travel alone.. hehe..

That would be all...

P.S. the bus ride??? Diko masyado nafeel.. kulang ako sa tulog these past few days kaya nakatulogan ko...

15May15

Hi! I had a lighter day.. I was two minute late at work.. but it was okay.. Submitted my cost report pero kelangan ko pa rin gawin yng presentation... anyway, must leave work matters at office... anong pinagsasabi ko?? Haha

..at nakalimang Ice candy ako today! Haha.. I bought two, at nakalibre ng tatlo pa kina mac, jay r at navallo.. I think I'm getting takaw much these days...

Went out with Mac, nilibre nga nya ako ng ice candy... pero nagpalibre naman sya ng burger meal.. haha.. yes na,! He told me na malapit na raw sya mainis sa akin kase I was so masungit daw these past few days.. ngayon lang daw ako nangiti.. what??? I didn't know it.. or maybe I know.. I mean..  I feel a little not so good this week but I didn't intend to become masungit at anyone...

Anyway, eto nakakainis.. I was feeling impatient waiting for a jeepney.. tapos nung nakasakay na ako, late ko na narealized I took the wrong one.. papuntang SM pala yun...

Yun lang. Good night from my horror inspired selfie. Haha

14May15

Too tired to say anything..  the  picture says it all. Good night!

My sister-the bride... and I. :)

So finally, my one and only sister just got married yesterday.. here's some pictures taken that day.

Morning before the ceremony started... my sister and I did this.. we may never do this often in the future, the picture tripping thing.

The Preparation

The bride, my sister with our cousins.

Waiting for the entourage to commence.

 So there it goes, finally they tied the not after being in a relationship for around 6 years... Ofcourse I am happy for her but part of it is making think about this.. "some things will change now"... we may never do those old stuff we used to do, surely we wont be room mates anymore. 

Best wishes to them.. 

Our first pic together as her status   changed to married.

That's all..

Forgive me for the following pictures..  haha.. just doing the selfie-ing after the ceremony.

It's not everyday that I wear make up, I don't even know how to put them on.. so just let me post them. Vain? I know.. hehe

That's all again.

8May15

10:15am

My brother and I in the airport.. had a hard time finding a taxi... so I thought we're not gonna make it.., we arrived at the airport an hour before our departure.. last call counter na nga kami... Thank God, we made it...

1:05pm

Landed home safely. Alhamdullilah

3:30pm

Bonding  with my sister.

10:30pm

The last picture with  my sister  na single pa sya. 

yun lang.

7May15

To sum up my day... started with this beautiful sunrise and ended with this bright moon.

Good Night!

5May15

I've been really busy today..  as in!! ... ayun lang. Diko na alam ano sasabihin..

tapos tinamaan pa ako ng saying na to:

So, ayun nga busy ako.. but I'm too thankful that my new QS is a way much better than the previous one..

anyway, I think the only time I had a break and a good laugh was with these too.. and I should be thankful that they still manage to meet me at Glorietta in favor of me.. tapos minsan nag iinarte pa ako sa kanila.. hahahah.. oo nga noh? Ang sama ko... haha.. (oi, teh.. baka mabasa mo nanaman to at samantalahin mo yung medyo pagiging guilty ko... haha.., sorry but I'm not changing my ways.. nyahaha)..

and since I don't know what gift I'll give Lee on his birthday, I gave him chocolates and a note. I hope he likes it.. its the thought that counts naman diba? Ehehe..

Sige. Good night!

4May15

To The Love of my Life,

So its the moon again.. so it's like I'm going crazy if it appears that way.. I wish you see it too. Maybe this is the good thing of being here in our new place... I get to see the sky from our window.. even when I lie down in my bed.. so more reminders of you huh?? Haha..  So I hope you had good day.

Good night!

You're still our champion Manny!

Yeah, indeed, "Mayweather won the game, but Pacquiao won the hearts of many".

I'm supposed to watch the game at home, even if it's not the live one.. but someone gave me a call and invited me to watch it with him at City of Dreams, my first time to get there..

That would be all. Good night!

2nd of May

I don't feel like blogging but I couldn't sleep as well... it's too noisy outside, fiesta pala dito.. so, magkwewento na lang ako ng kung anu ano..

Busy much sa work.. there's too much to do... and I made a cost proposal na may error.. but I don't wanna think about it much.. di na ikalulugi ng company namin yun, nirarush kase nila ako.. yan tuloy.. hehe.. hmp, okay lang yun..

Then after work, I don't feel like going home.. so I watched Avengers: Age of Ultron,  all by myself... and its.... cute. Haha.. corny ng description.. it made me laugh a lot.

Yun lang. Good night.

1May15

Its labor day! And how did you spend the holiday...?

Mine started by fixing a our new room... bought some stuffs at SM Save More.. then had a stroll around at SM north Edsa with Mela and Margaux.. we had body massage which I think I deserved the most.. this week is really a tiring one..

Anyway. That would be all. Good night!