the stupid girl is back

I’m trying to comfort the person who actually got no idea that he once hurt me so bad… he’s in the situation now where I was recently into…. I don’t know if I’m being a fool again … I could scold myself for that.. and I should be happy that I don’t have to make a move to make us even now that he’s been hurting too… but instead my heart breaks because he’s breaking his heart too..

 

 

what did i do with my 6days vacation home?

i never gone anywhere... just home, shop, at my sister's store and nowhere...

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QUESTION OF THE DAY

What will you do when you don't find happiness  in the place you are at now, you dreaded each day you wake up but you have no choice but to stay.... oh, stupid! surely you have the choice, you're just too coward in taking that risk, instead you just have to watch the clock runs so fast and tadan! another wasted time.....

Now tell me?????

Flight back to Manila later

... yap, im going back to manila (sigh)...

one of the worst feeling I'm always encountering--- leaving home.

and i don't know why I couldn't get used to it. i'm always fearful of things that I might miss, that if I leave home, everything wouldn't be the same when I get back.

O dear God, as always, I'm asking for Your guidance, shower me Your blessings, knowledge, wisdom, courage and confidence, and above all, Keep my family safe and healthy.

 

ANG CHEKE... BOW!

 Your worrywart friend is here again to do some complaining and give you some shots of qualms, actually to normal people, it shouldn’t be something to worry about, it’s just a very small stuff, but since I’m such a worrier, then I am here! Hehe

It’s a job matter. I released the million pesos worth progress billing check of two of our subcontractor today, Architect Anna (architectural Site Coordinator) knew those checks were in my hands, since she was the one who actually instructed our utility yesterday to pick up the checks in JTKC (the owner).

She asked me this morning if I received it, I said yes and I thought I heard her saying “sabihan mo sila”. I interpreted that as – I should inform the nominated subcontractors that I have their checks so they could claim it and give me in return the Official receipts and I could forward  it to JTKC… I’ve done this before.

So I informed NSC’s, and I gave them the checks! I believe that I was responsible for that. But this afternoon, I told Architect Anna that I released the checks, then she said, did you inform PM (Project Manager) that you released the checks…? ( wahhh!! Oo nga naman) I thought everything was fine, I didn’t inform PM because I wasn’t thinking that he might object, I wasn’t thinking that he might not have any idea that I have those vouchers, I was assuming that since Maam Anna knew it, then PM did too. At sabi ko nga, kala ko pinaparelease na ni maam anna mga yun dahil wala naman syang sinabing wag muna..So I replied “hindi… bakit? Dapat bang ihold ko?”, sabi nya, “wala namang problema, pero sa susunod inform mo muna si Sir baka may mga instructions pa sya”.

Yun! Okay next time. Surely I’l inform PM naman kung hindi dumaan ke mam anna mga checke.

So the problem now is how would PM react when I’ll tell him this on Monday “Sir, kinuha na ni Kalayaan (KECI) at ICPW yung mga checke nila nung Saturday”.

a.      He will just look at me like what he used to do, no words, pero parang nagsasabibing, mali yung ginawa mo!!!...

b.      Or eto sasabihin nya. “Ahhh… bat dimo sinabi sa aken?!.. tsk tsk tsk”

c.       Or baka eto, “may cheke na ba? Bat diko alam, sa susunod  sasabihin mo sa aken”

d.      Or baka ganto lang “O yung OR?! Ibalik mo na sa JTKC yan.”

e.      Pero pano kung ganto? “Ano ba nman yan! Dapat ihohold yun, may problema pa sila ”… that’s the worst.

O ano sa tingin mo? At ano isasagot ko? Siguro ganto na lang “ eh kala ko po wala ng problema, for release na yun”… kung nasa mood sya, pwede kong idagdag to.. “wala ka na rin kasi nung hapon”.. hahahaha… bahala na!

I’l update this on Monday.

update April 2, 2012 monday

anong nangyari? none of the above.. haha! basta ok na/

3/18/2012

Another boring Sunday.. and I don’t know why I always can’t wait for every Sunday to come.  Could it be because it’s time to rest and I’m at least few kilometers away from work?? Or.. I don’t know.. I’m not even doing something exciting.. hehe

I’m actually watching a horror movie a while ago , The Woman in Black, and unfortunately I wasn’t able to reach the end, my laptop misbehaved again! The disc wasn’t even working on our portable DVD player so I tried here on my old laptop but it stopped playing.

Speaking of movies, I went so tired of making my reviews. I’d love to blog about it but I just can’t… the least I can do is to give you the roll.

I’ve watched Terminator, from the latest part to oldest, that’s way back 1984 right? I had a quick glance of those movies before like in HBO maybe or somewhere else, but I was so minor then I couldn’t even understand the story. And now I was amazed as how they maintain the quality of that movie… from 1984-2009!

I’ve watched “The Last Castle “ too, nice movie.

“Mr. Popper’s Penguins”.. cute

And another love story movie “Something Borrowed”… I found fun in it, I love the story.

anyway, i've watched those movies (except for Woman In Black) in the office, ofcourse during lunch break.

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If only I was strong enough to face the real world

Then maybe I am on my peak of my dreams coming true now

If only I’ve realized what I truly wanted when I was 16

Then maybe I’m not here right now

If only I am not indecisive

Then maybe I am not stuck right now

If only the world is an easy place to be at

Then maybe I am fearless right now

If only I had tried to risk

Then maybe I am not asking myself “what if?” now

If only I am blessed with self confidence

Then maybe I am circumscribing the globe now

If only I knew the purpose of my existence

Then maybe I am not so damn confused now

If only I didn’t play safe in my life’s quest

Then maybe I’m a skilled person right now

If only I gave chance to things I ran away from

Then maybe I found what’s missing in my life

If only I had said the things I’m still hiding right now

Then maybe my heart ain’t broken still

If only I’m brave enough to fight my feelings for someone

Then maybe I’m not hopeless and waiting in vain till now

But If only I knew where I supposed to stand

Then maybe I tried fighting

And if only that someone knew it

Then maybe I’m not twisting my mind in wondering now

Finally, if only the world is faultless, then absolutely I’m not saying IF ONLY right now

…..but the world is truly PERFECTLY IMPERFECT.

OH, IF ONLY.