DULL SUNDAY

...6:38 May 23, 2010

This was really a dull day, unlike those previous sundays that every minute of it counted!.. obviously, because tomorrow is not a working day to me anymore..

Anyway, buong araw akong nakatanga dito sa room ko..., kausap ang wala.. Lumabas dn pala this morning, when I had my breakfast at about 10:30am, brunch na pala yun.. I bought manila bullettin, at nascan ko na rin yun and even submitted application online... Mahapdi na rn mga daliri ko sa kakasurf ng internet, palibhasa sira ang mouse ko kya sa touch pad na lang umaasa... touch pad??? hahaha... where did i get that term? not that techie, so I dont really know the specific name ng mga parts ng kung anu ano...

Eish.. i'm so bored........... nakakainis at nagugutom na ako, tinatamad bumaba!!!

GUeSs wHo iS oN mY DeSktOp

.....c",)

you are my shooting star, you gave me light but gone so fast,..unlike other stars, you are not to make my wish come true, how could you..when you are actually the wish I wished....

LIFE IS BEAUTIFUL

My night maybe dark right now and my star is cloaked with nimbus. Witches and goblins mock me and telling me I can’t make it. But I wont listen, I won be stopped. I love my life though I cursed it sometimes. It’s a life given to me, so it’s mine. Hazy and uncertain, I know it’s wonderful. I cried ocean of tears, broke my wings and fall, life is still beautiful. I may not be as pretty as those princesses in an enchanting castle, but I am fine. My prince, he might be lost, but I’ll be waiting, if he wont come, then that won't  cease me from smiling.

Life is not only about winning, it’s all about living. It can be meaningless if we let it be. No matter how complicated and mysterious it can be, it goes on… So why live it melancholic when you have the option not to…?

Perfectly imperfect it maybe, but life is still worth living. Today might not be what I want it to be, but  I won’t stop believing, someday, everything will be alright…

People I'm gonna miss

WHY DO I GO CRAZY OVER KIM NAM GIL as BIDAM?

To make this clear, I am in love with Bi Dam and not to Kim Nam Gil.

I can’t really explain why I feel this being thrown to the evergreen every time I see Bi Dam. Despite his untidy and muddled looks, seeing him is breathtaking. Today he’ll laugh and play around, after a while you’ll see rage from his face, absurd but real, cynical but sympathetic, mysterious. He’s actually a man between evilness and kindness. At the very young age, he had killed many lives.. And still killing…(of course with reason). This is so ironic, I hate blood, but why does he looks more enchanting with those bloods almost covering his face every time he fights… And those eyes, those eyes you can never read… he’s a paradox..

Now, why??? Crazy fool!

SA MGA NAG-UUMAPAW ANG CONFIDENCE JAN, PAHINGI NAMAN! haha

BRIDA AND MARKY'S REMEMBRANCE

That book Brida by Paulo Coelho (na di ko matapos tapos basahin) is where I inserted this piece of paper Marky gave to me, yan daw remembrance nya, that’s actually a standard and factors of safety in estimating construction materials, same book where I place in my resignation letter, so it wont be crumpled in my bag….

 

Anyway, this was Marky’s idea, di ko naman to lalagay sa multiply, I’m just giving justice to what Marky had said…”hmm, lam ko na, pipiktyuran nanaman nya yan at ilalagay sa diary nya” !!!

 

Marky, eto na nga yun!!!!!

MY LAST DAY MOMENT AT MDCC

A “good luck” from  Engineer Manny (our new CVE head) and this line from Architect Romy(Design Head)   “Ash, last day mo na pala today?? So ganon na lang yun???”

 

A not so tight embrace, (for formality sake only) with the supervisor, Engr. Yhanie.

 

A “no comment”, “no pansinan”, “no looking at each other” reaction with Engr. Kent, (x-head of CVE, nag resigned na daw sya, but still doing some works and whatevers there sa office… (mey ganon???)

 

A “not final goodbye” to my CVE team mates, Engr. Ryan, Engr. Marky, Engr. JR and Ice…. Magkikita pa nman tayo, I’ll be there to your new office last day of May , para lang sa employment certificate and last pay???? Wish ko lang…

 

And would this be my last moment of waiting for a jeepney at this site???

LAST DAY

(4:31pm May, 20, 2010 in my computer)

hihirit pa ng huling post gamit computer ko dito office.... ayun last day ko na today...

but kainis naman, i cant get my certificate of employment pa, need to get back pa sa katapusan...

and i hate it, kelangan ko pang puntahan dun sa paranaque since dun kami, sila na lang pala itatrasfer...

yes na lang...

MUST DO THIS

yes, I will do this resignation thing.. no one can stop me.. today I will submit my resignation letter.. I know this is the best thing to do, and what important is I'm happy doing it, I can feel it. I will find another job.. and this job, I am with now is not worth keeping... i have nothing to lose.. see, i cant save a single penny here. Working with that kind of "supervisor" is not healthy, as well as working to that new office we're supposed to be transferred, that's not accessible, not even safe.. I might not eat well there.. and with this big bosses who dont keep their promises, not even considering our conditions... transferring to that office whether we like it or not?????? NO WAY!!!

There's no turning back, Im gonna do this.......

RESIGNATION FOR THE SECOND TIME AROUND

Yes, I am resigning from my second job! As a matter of fact, I just finished typing my resignation letter. It wasn’t an impetuous decision, I’ve thought of this many times. The relocation of our office gave me the final shot! We will be transferred to a not so accessible place from my boarding house.. I can’t risk that… and I wouldn’t be comfortable there I know.

 

Of course, I wasn’t sure that this is a good decision, but I am certain that this isn’t wrong as well. Actually I feel good about it. I have not much to lose, only those new good friends I’ve met there… I’ll be missing them..

 

So that’s it!!!!

MAIKLING KWENTO

Araw ng sabado at tinatamad akong pumasok sa trabaho, pero wala namang dahilan para di pumasok.

Naglalakad papasok sa opisina, para maaliw, panakaw ko na lang kinunan ng litrato ang mga natatanaw ko sa pamamagitan ng cellphone ko... wala lng, trip ko lang!

Sa di inaasahang pagkakataon ay nagkita kami ng kapatid ko mula sa kanyang night shift work, at  ang larawang nasa baba ay nakunan ko bago ko pa sya nakita..

Patuloy pa rin sa paglalakad at pagpipicture taking...

At eto na, malapit na ako sa aking pinagtatrabahuan

Sa aking pagtawid... At ang mga sumunod na pangyayari... trabaho.. trabaho.. trabaho...

At di pa natatapos sa opisina ang pagpipicture taking, ang isang eto ay kuha ko pagkatapos ng trabaho... sasakay na ako sa jeep na to.

....At dito na nagtatapos ang maikling kwentong eto...Paalam!

birthday and despedida party!

'"What: ur invited for bday party of ace and despedida of queen where: top grille at jupiter st. makati tym:after work pls pay 100 contribution,remaining,it's up to us.ok ba yun ah?cve dept only.mga 1-2hrs lang tyu,need to be home eh!pls confirm ur attendance (sana may sweldo if wala,hmmmf sowee)."

a message from my officemate ryan thru yahoo mail, I just want to save this... nakakalungkot namang aalis na si kwin, ako kaya, kelan??? hmmmm..

SUPERSURF50 sucks!

....senya na, iritable lang... my sister wants to chat with me maya maya, so I decided to register to SUPERSURF50 of globe tattoo and it's so SUPERSLOW... nakakairita na nga!! ala talaga kwenta... hindi ata nila alam ang ibig sabihin ng "fastest" (ganon daw service nila)...

ZZZzzzzzzzZZZZZZzzzzzzzzzzzzzzz....

may 12, 2010, 8:50am

Yesterday, one of our officemates informed us that she was hired as project coordinator in other company, so that means, she'll be leaving very soon... Nakakalungkot naman, the reason why I'm still staying is that yung mga kasabayan kng nahire dito, ok silang lahat, but syempre, we wont stop her since she was offered with a good benefits there..

Anyway, I must leave this company as soon as possible, I was the one who keeps on saying that I'll be resigning, e anong nangyayari, nauunahan na ako ng lahat.. lol..

Sige, enough for this, I'm in the office, I'm supposed to be busy on quantifying and costing two projects, Herrera Residence and Renovation of Luneta Hotel..

it's not gonna bring me down

... still in the office and I despise it... a person here wants to make me feel bad, but i wont let it happen, and I dont care.......... becoz i told my self this morning that no one's gonna bring me down!!

WALA LANG

..wala lang means a lot.... it's "so much" that i'll only end up to "wala lang"

writing is also been my outlet for my whatevers, as in kahit ano lang...

gaya ngayon, I had so much in mind kanina, but as I open my laptop, they all vanished...

wala lang...

HAPPY MOTHER's DAY!!

...Happy mother's day to my mom, my umi...... you might not know it,....but for me, You're the best mom in the world!!!!

GIRL IN A MIRROR

Then again, I saw this girl, in front of a mirror, wondering, hurting, confused... she thinks that the world is being cruel to her.. but I want to tell her that the world wont give a damn no matter how she'll grumble and break herself into pieces..  I feel so bad  that she thinks that her existence was a mistake, I want her to realize, that was never a mistake.. maybe she's blinded by her fears... I want to give her courage, but she wouldn't accept me, she wouldn't hear me.. I want her to be strong, I want her to face the world with confidence, I want her to see the beauty of the world... but she always has her reasons, her stupid reasons! she must stop putting her self into a melancholic mode, she's actually making her life miserable.... I pity her for not knowing and recognizing her real self... now, the least I can do is just hope and pray..... hope for her to bravely realize what she's been missing and what she must suppose to do...

........

there was this girl I knew and I want to tell her to cheer up. I want to tell her that it's not world whose making her life miserable, that it was actually her choice. But I dont think she would believe me.. She must stop hurting or else she wont be able to see the beauty of life as well as the world.