Typical Rainy Sunday!

Hey I'm so sorry for the drama this morning.....  I'm just emotional..  but everything is under control... worry not about me, ako pa?! I'm handling things well.... as if naman nagwoworry ka... you're emotionless haha!... I'm not crazy... mukha lang..  just a little unwell (salamat matchbox 20).

So my typical Sunday went like this.. gusto mo pa bang malaman? Ayun, I cooked for brunch, wag mo ng itanong kung ano kase beef loaf lang naman...

Then I was thinking of going somewhere... kaso its so makulimlim... then the rain poured heavily, so I slept back.. when I woke up... I went to Save More.. wala ng laman yung ref, didn't have the time to buy groceries.. so I had this.

But I forgot to buy some chocolates.. pampakalma.. pampatonsilitis! Haha

At nakuha ko pang magselfie.. pampairita.. haha

Hayst, pasensya na talaga kong madrama ako minsan.. napopollute ko tuloy yung blogger.. haha! Oo nga naman, ang iksi lang ng buhay para sa mga drama... I'm so focused on what is right and what is not.. di bale na... gagawin ko na lang kung ano magpapagaan ng loob ko.. kahit ano... kahit maubos pa ang pride ko... haha.. anong koneksyon ng pride? As far as I'm concern.. wala naman ako non...

Salamat blogger! Salamat sa pakikinig... sa walang reklamo mong pagtanggap sa mga sulat ko... Mahal kita! Haha

Random Thoughts on 31st of August

So this is the last day of August, I guess my birth month is both my most loved and hated month...

When I say random thoughts, that would mean drama.. hayst, I swear I hate drama... but I think it runs to my blood... I think everybody is having that moment in their lives, they just don't entertain it unlike me I have all the time in the world to write them, that's how I cope... and whether I'll write those thoughts or not, they will still disturb my mind.. they will bother me... it wont give me peace.... but in writing them, I think I feel a little relieved...

When people don't care, don't even bother about my sentiments, don't even give a damn to listen when all you want to happen is for them to listen, to say what suffocates and breaking you, to set free what is being locked and blurry but they don't listen..... all i have to do is just write them...

Sometimes, I don't say what I feel because I don't want them to see how vulnerable I am, how insensible I am, how nonsense the words coming out from me or sometimes I just don't say a thing because they're making me feel that they don't wanna hear anything from me.

Some people are selfish.. or most of them...  telling them your life's issues could only annoy them... being miserable is contagious... so better talk to your self.. you may looked insane but its totally okay..

Everybody is facing life crisis.. mine is actually nothing compares to others... I know I'm just making things too complicated... I'm just thinking too much.. I wonder how others doing it that easy?? What's the secret?? How do they endure and act as if everything is okay? Was it really that "nothing" to them? They could just let things pass without complaining, without explaining, without ranting, without saying a thing even it kills them inside.... I both admire and despise them... I thought I'm good at pretending, maybe I'm really not... they are much good in handling it... I'm not..   I wish I'm also like them...

So what's the point here?? Nothing to be exact, this is just random... and after saying things like that... I'm feeling fine... I hope I didn't sound not normal here... I knew I'm not the only one... everybody felt this.... this is just my way of accepting things...

And I'm totally okay... yes I am..  when you aren't doing anything, surely these thoughts will cross your mind too... I love Sunday, but because I'm a loner and nobody really loves a loner.... I have to write this... and if doing this is not right, I don't really mind... writing makes me feel alright...  I just hope nobody really reads this... I couldn't let anyone gets confused because I'm such an unpredictable witch! Hahaha... I'm really like this... but I'm not forgetting to be thankful for actually making my life not the worst in the world.. surely its not... I maybe at the wrong place but I'm still hoping, dreaming and praying for more good things ahead.. and I'm sorry for being bad sometimes.

Rise and shine now drama princess!!!! The world is still beautiful... I know!

Last Saturday of August

7:05am

Here at office, I'm early today.. I took a taxi because its gloomy and drizzling outside.. So my birth month is truly rainy huh... kaya emotera ako!

7:35am
Breakfast with my messy table.. I don't feel like working today.. tinatamad talaga ako... sana hapon na, gusto ko ng mapanuod si Kenshin baby!! Haha..

8:31am

Thank you Lifehouse! I've been listening to them since yesterday, their songs make me feel that I am not the only one in the world feeling that way... I'm referring to the thoughts of most of their songs.

9:02am
I've said something to mac yesterday... I was just kidding whatever that is.. dinamdam pala nya... oh, i'm so mean! Di ako sanay na may nagdaramdam saken... ako kase yung maramdamin.... hehe.. I wonder how many people I've offended, I just didn't know... I'm sorry...

9:31am

It isn't clear to me yet anong meron sa October 12 , Datem's staff are invited to Enchanted Kingdom, pwede magpasama ng isa... pero mas natawa ako sa note.... 1 boyfriend???? Haha.. parang meron talagang may maraming boyfriend ha! 

12:06 pm
Back to watching movie on my lunch break... its Non Stop --- and its nice!

2:53pm
Updating my Resume... I've been hearing myself saying I'm quitting my job ever since I started working.. haha... but I never done anything concrete to seek for a greener pasture ... maybe this is a good start.. just this...

 I'm supposed to be busy working but as I've said, tinatamad talaga ako. Ahaha... pero may accomplished na rin naman ako... I'm not sorry. Hehe

4:53pm

Finally I'll be able to watch Rurouni Kenshin 2...I wanna watch it with a friend but seems uninterested... di wag! kaya ko naman manuod mag-isa! Haha... This is not Margaux or Marj's kind of movie, baka tulugan lang ako.. while lee, it would be late for him... uuwi pa kase sya.

5:21pm
Selfie at Starbucks!!! Ang tagal pa kase ng hihintayin ko.. thanks lee for accompanying me kahit dimo na ako masamahan sa movie...

10:07pm
Just got home! Hayst... I can't wait for September for part 3.... I had a great time dating myself, and Kenshin, sana nag eexist ka na lang sa totoong buhay.. haha... Its just that I looked like a fool smiling alone (Take note, I smiled a lot here.. haha), laughed a little loud and got thrilled ofcourse all by myself.... kaya ayoko ng may katabi sa movie na diko naman kilala, baka isiping baliw ako... haha

10:52pm
That's how I spent my last Saturday of August... Good night!

If boredom could kill.....

I'm just sooooooo bored!! Haha where are my friends??? .. it started a while ago... nasan nga ba sila?

Where are they when I needed them most? Echos lang... kumakanta lang ako.....

No Friday bonding today, its just me and marj for a quick dinner... margaux is up to something and lee is nowhere to be found....

And now, its like me, the world and the raindrops.... and you my blogger account, you're so nice not to complain about my blah blah blah... arte arte ko kase, pasensya na...

Good night!

How come she doesn't care

Source: tumblr

Busog Much!!!

Yah.. I needed this.. to get really stuffed... I've been eating less since yesterday  or should I say since my birthday??? Hahah... is this a sign of aging or am I depressed??? Or ang arte ko nanaman tlaga?... No, seriously...  I thought I really need to eat a lot this afternoon,  been  tired, been so disturbed and a little heavy hearted.... arte nga! Haha ... So I asked  Lee to eat somewhere not our typical dining place.. Gusto kong kumain ng marami!!!

Alhamdullillah.... I'm busog much..

Good night!

26August14

I woke up this morning feeling not so well, I had a slight lower back pain.... could it be because of our long and tiring trip last Sunday or because I walked into the rain nanaman kagabi, may baha pa! Wasn't able to bring my umbrella again...anyway anong connection nun sa back pain? wala naman, gusto ko lang sabihin.... ayun nga, I woke up feeling that way, tapos umuulan pa.. kaya di ako pumasok.. i mean naghalf day lang ako...

I had my lunch at Landmark... and I saw my friend May there.... She's one of my officemates in my previous job.. and though we been together for just 3 months lang ata, I knew then that she's a nice person, kaya medyo naging close kami... we're so gulat na gulat pa nung nagkita kami... I missed her.. really... nung nagkita kami on the spot, I realized that I truly miss her...

Ayun lang, tapos work work na...

Good night!

The Unplanned Trip To Anawangin Cove, Zambales

Sometimes when things are unplanned, that's when it's being pursued and surprisingly it will work just fine..

I told my friend few days ago that I just want to escape out of Metro Manila even just for while...  I said anywhere, lets  take a bus, get lost and feel free. We actually had options like Tagaytay, Batangas, Laguna, Enchanted Kingdom....or it doesn't matter where, we could even take a bus going anywhere then go back....

Then she suggested Anawangin Cove, Zambales.. I knew the place is beautiful but its a bit far  from Manila and a day tour might not be possible, that's what I thought.. I had read about the place, I've seen in pictures that its remarkably breathtaking.. I was hesitant because if we'll get stranded there at night, that would mean, we must sleep on a tent (if somebody could provide us), without electricity, without food and water... but we are not  considering to stay overnight.

Loaded with uncertain itinerary, we left my friend's place at past 4am and reached Pasay bus terminal at almost 5am... Bus tickets for 5am schedule were sold out, so we even thought of taking a bus going to Baguio but we've decided to stick on Zambales... So we were left with no choice but to stand on the middle of the bus for about 1 hour!!! But we made it, and took our seat when some passengers went down at Pampanga.

We reached San Antonio, Zambales at 10am, we took a tricycle going to Pundaquit. Glad the driver knew someone whom we could rent a boat.. since we didn't pack foods,  we ate first at one of the beach resort at Pundaquit (forgot the name).

We were a bit dismayed with the weather at that moment, the sky was gloomy, sometimes it would rain too.. 11:30am when we're done eating and headed to our rented boat.

Yes, I wasn't prepared, who's going to a beach wearing maong jeans? haha... we didn't actually think of swimming..

On board. Though the sea isn't that calm (could make us scream a little when big waves would hit our boat), it didn't steal my time to appreciate this scenery.

About 45 minutes, we reached Anawangin Cove proper. It's truly beautiful but the surrounding is a little not well maintained nor developed... but the water is crystal clear.. its so inviting but as I've told you, swimming isn't even part of the plan... the mountain and the forest from behind is so majestic.

and we couldn't do anything but to take pictures and more pictures....

We stayed there for more than an hour only.. When we head back to the mainland in the afternoon, the sky got much bluer,  the sea went serene and calm.

We took a bus going back to Olongapo at 3pm..  and we reached Olangapo terminal at past 4pm, we took another bus going to Pasay.

We were drop dead tired when we reached Ayala Makati at past 9pm.

But we had a great time! It feels good to know that things work just right too even not well planned sometimes....

Thanks!

10:00pm
Just got home.. feels like Monday today, maybe because yesterday was a holiday... A bit of a busy day but I didn't feel it that much...Today was my Project Manager's cost report, it was a bit late when I found out a slight mistake but I'm too lazy to correct it.. hahaha... I hope they didn't notice...

Anyway, had a great time with my friends... and I got these from Allen...

Did I forget to say thanks to him in person??? Maybe I hadn't  said it, but I hope he sensed it that I'm thankful and I'm sorry if I'm a little..... I don't know.... and I was only half joking about the Qatar  Riyals and yet he gave me still...  I'm glad to see him again. :)

Good night!

21Aug2014

10:17 am
It's holiday and I dont know what to do...  If only I'm home, it would be totally just fine...but I'm not. I'm planning to watch my kenshin baby! :) (Samurai X) pero baka marami pang tao...

I'm so proud of myself, I've done washing my uniform and other clothes that I don't include to those I bring to laundry shop.. speaking, need to pick up what I brought there last Sunday.

Chat.. chat.. chat... na lang..

11:11am

Ang lungkot lungkot ng di mo alam ang gagawin! Haha.. pero meron naman, I could clean the room, fix my closet, cook for lunch, maybe watch a movie, or kahit ano na lang.. hahaha.. this is the irony of being not with your family, (my brother is here, but he's doing his own thing).. you tend to miss them, sana nagfofood trip kami, sana nagstostrolling kung saan... yung tipong dimo mamamalayan ang oras at kulang pa.. pero minsan pag nandun ka naman, gusto mo mapag isa, gusto mo papahinga ka lang sa kwarto mo... ganon ba talaga? Or ako lang talaga to. Haha...  I could have talk to my friends but they are having their own business to attend to, enjoying their bonding moments with their family.. diko na si aabalahin baka madedma lang ako.. haha.. pero naiingit ako! Haha...

1:32 pm

It's raining! You're just one of the sweetest thing I have now.. (chos!).. Thanks for the rain.

4:28pm

Just woke up.. I thought I'm gonna watch movie on Showbox, my new application.. I don't know why it's not working, nakatulog na lang ako sa paghihintay magloading..

6:33pm

Having foot spa and pedicure... and it tickles... natatawa talaga ako... haha.. parang tanga.

8:50pm

Music tripping and I'm hungry.

11:28pm

I'm still awake!!! I must sleep now.. Here's my goodnight! I wish I could sleep well...

Dear Pimples!

When was my last selfie here my dear diary??.... here's my selfie tonight.. and my message to my pimples... haha

Dear pimples,

Ano pinaglalaban nyo at nagrarally nanaman kayo sa face ko??? Anong problema nyo?! ... wala na akong mukhang ihaharap sa mundo, occupied nyo ng lahat! Haha... kelangan ba talaga magsabay sabay kayo? Diba pwedeng paisa isa lang? Dati rati one at a time lang kayo ah, bat ngayon excited kayong lahat?? Bakit ngayon pa? When it rains, it pours.. yun ba drama nyo?? Hahaha... sige na nga, diko na kayo papansinin, manatili lang kayo jan hanggat gusto nyo... tsaka, medyo sensored tong susunod na sasabihin ko, naisip lang to nung kaibigan ko, ayoko sanang sabihin kaso natatawa talaga ako pag naaalala ko... sabi ni lee, wag daw kasi akong maglights off pag natutulog, kase nagsesex daw kayo kaya dumarami!! Hahaha.. sori ha... totoo ba yun? Di pa naman ako nakakatulog na nakasindi ang ilaw... o cge, good night na sa inyo!! Lights off nako.. gawin nyo na gusto nyo.. haha!...

Nagmamahal,

A

17Aug14

I woke up this morning seeing my face in the mirror, my pimples are coming out again, ayaw na akong tantanan, haha.. sige kung masaya kayo jan sa face ko, stay lang kayo.. haha.. hmp, my friends have something to count nanaman. Haha

I visited my friend Jegs in her place, she's reviewing for the bar exam, I hope she'll make it.. I know she will... She got a lot of stories about her complicated love story too and I hope it wouldn't negatively affects her...

I picked up my laundry a while ago and when I returned home, bumuhos ang ulan! I haven't brought my umbrella with me and I wanna be home, so I literally walked into the heavy rain... I secretly acting like Oh My ( oo, maarte)! pero yung totoo, I've enjoyed it. Haha.. okay lang naman sa akin magpaulan basta pauwi na wag lang papuntang office... at sana di ako magkasakit.

And now I'm hungry! Alas nueve na pala..

I'm 30!!!!

Because I'm officially 30, here's 30 things about myself, a sort of self reflection, my way of getting to know myself better.. you might have read this in my previous blog..  I'm writing them again.

1. I'm a late bloomer and when I started learning that I am, I felt like I'm aging so fast simultaneously. And I'm denial and a drama princess! Haha

2. I love blue and green, I love the sea, I love the sky and I love the sight of an enchanted forest... I'm a nature lover, though I'm amazed with big cities but I prefer simple living when I grow older.

3. I love to travel and I wish I could do it often.. I would love to do it with friends or family, but because no one really is available or with same interest as mine, I wish I could have that courage to do it alone. I'd like to know what's life out there.. and to do soul searching as well (corny, and yes I am corny).

4. Simple things like just watching the stars at night, taking a bus somewhere, the rain when I just have to stay home, sitting on the seashores  or beaches and feeling the air touching my skin are already pleasures to me.

5. I don't easily forget what people told or promised me, sometimes they'll forget or just pretended they forgotten, but I don't... and its not so me to remind them... maybe they've changed their minds or they have reasons and I don't wanna bother them.. Honestly, it frustrates me, but their decisions are not mine to manipulate. I'm a little forgetful on things that only affects my mind but not what strikes my heart (chos!).

6.  I hate loud people, I'm not so judgmental, I'm trying to be fair but there are instances I get to feel annoyed with people by just standing in front of me, I don't know.. And because I looked so serious as others define me, I loved people with good sense of humor, someone could make me laugh..

7. When my friends would tell me about other people, I'm being open minded and I'm trying not to be critical.

8. I may not be good at giving advice but I'm a good listener.  I can keep secrets if you want me to.. and I mean what I say, I hate being given with false hope, so I keep my words for as much as I can..

9. I'm not an attention seeker, I'm fine with just being a wallflower, it's okay if I wont get noticed... but when it comes to people who means to me, I hate being ignored.

10. Asking favor to other people is such a hard task for me, I always try to do things on my own unless I have no choice.. Sometimes, I hate asking..

11. I always consider what people would feel in every move or words I'll tell them.. what if I am in their position? I easily feel pity with less fortunate people, sometimes when I feel ungrateful, I would think of them.

12. I used to think I am kind, but I now maybe I'm really not.. I curse too.. I get mad too... Sometimes i looked snob too. I'm easily getting irritated but I always try to keep myself calm as much as possible....

13. I've been inlove and I'm still inlove with the thought of being inlove, people just dont know that. I'm a hopeless romantic and I got hurt too.. I'm so ideal about love, and I would tend to believe that someone out there is waiting for me no matter what... and because I believed in that, I'll be forever single hahaha!

14. I am officially an old maid! Unsure if it is by chance or by choice... maybe both...

15. I love kittens. It could melt my heart.. sad to know I couldn't adopt one in our boarding house.. I hate lizards and stray dogs too.

16. I'm an amateur pretender.. I hide my feelings when I thought its the right thing to do.. sometimes I could hurt my self by choosing what I knew should be rather than what my heart could feel.

17. I love to write... i'm not a good one, I misspelled words, I used wrong grammars, I write what's in my head and it humiliates me sometimes but its my only way to release what bothers me. I used to write short stories when I was small, wrote poetry in highschool, had a bunch of diaries in college, started online blogging in 2009... but no one really reads it but me or just few people..., except those short stories in my elementary days that were written in intermediate papers and my classmates would read them... isn't that cute?? Haha!

18. I'm that timid , shy and silent type... that's what people's first impression to me but what they don't know is, when I talk a lot, crack so many corny jokes, laugh out loud and tease you a lot... that's when you got me! I'm comfortable with few.. I've got few real friends.

19. I used to believe that you are weak when you cry, but I guess its really not, people got hurt and maybe they are ironically so coward to express it..
Watching sad movies could make me cry but I don't let anyone see and it hurts my throat.. haha.. but when I'm alone... I don't really mind if I would cry a river.

20. I'm not sure if I'm really independent and strong, but I pretended to be one.

21. I'm a dork! I'm a weirdo. I'm boring..I'am conservative..I'm an introvert... I'm not a happy go lucky person (but I am easy going).. I'm a kill joy...  I'm indecisive.. I consider lots of things.. I got my head banging.. I made my nose bleed...I think too much (but sometimes I don't at all) Am I turning you off now? Haha...  but I want to try do things that I don't usually do... I do crazy things too.. and sometimes I think I'm insane.

22. I wanna be beautiful, who doesn't want to??  But I don't make much effort to be one... I'm actually a little insecure. I have this a-little-not-so-right belief that once you are born ugly, you'll be forever be.. haha.. I'm not confident and I'm fed up hearing people telling me to take care and fix myself, but I do! maybe just not right... Would it make any difference? Anyway Am I that ugly?? I think so... but I also believe that beauty is in the eye of the beholder.

23. I'm a civil engineer but I'm poor in numbers... I didn't dream to be one, it just happened. I thought it wasn't for me.. my lowest grades in highschool are subjects involve numbers... and in college, I failed many times.. haha

24. I love eating.. but there's so many foods that I don't eat, of course, aside from the forbidden pork, I hate vegetables, selected kind of fish etc. But once I love the food, I'm so "matakaw".

25. I love to read, I just dont have time.. i love reading other people's blog... I'm interested in other people stories.

26. I love listening to music.. i love watching movies... i watch movie sometimes alone...

27. I'm not that kind of person who demands a lot.. but when people give me something, especially those you didn't expect to give you anything, I appreciate it a lot. I'm good keeper.

28. Expect me to treat you well when you you're nice to me.. but sometimes I hated it when people are nice to me because i would thought I owe them something.

29. I easily forgive but not forgetful. I'm sensitive so I hate it when one is being insensitive! But I think I'm unpredictable.

30. I don't easily give up on friendship, but I don't push myself to people who don't want me in their lives, if they want me out then I wouldn't wait for them to make me feel unwanted.. On the other hand, I don't make friends with people because of reasons that I need them.. like I don't befriend my boss! Haha.. I know its a little awkward, I just don't want to.

That's it! That's a long one.. For sure it made you feel sleepy, I'm lucky if you made this far, I mean reading all 30.. haha... That's how I see myself, I just don't know how others describe me, maybe I am I thought I'm not, or the other way around....  Now love me or hate me...

13August14

Traffic jam was terrible awhile ago, had a hard time going home wished I should have stayed a bit longer in Glorietta and maybe just watch a movie... 

Because I was too exhausted when I reached home, I needed something to calm my irritated senses... so I watched this Koren movie -- Daisy... I love the casting but I hated how it made my eyes dried with tears and now its swollen, yap, it made me cried a lot and broke my already aching heart! Haha... why do love stories could be that complicated, why it has to get things cleared when its almost too late?? Why o why??

But I just love the idea that the guy was secretly watching over the girl,  built a bridge for her and sent her daisies everyday, that's so sweet of him... But he hid himself and only showed up when the girl got lonely and brokenhearted by someone she thought was him... anyway, I'm too sleepy to detail everything here... it's my time to sleep.

Good night!

(P.S. This only happens in movies, kaya diko dapat masyadong damdamin.. haha)

Birthday Extension!

I thought I didn't wanna do anything on my birthday... because what's so good about being officially old??? Haha... but I thought I must not treat it as ordinary...

Because I knew I'd be late going home yesterday so I decided to sleep over at my friend's place.. Food tripping and cooking something is already part of the plan or should I say the only certain on my plan.. I requested my friend to cook spaghetti and beef steak for me (I loved her beef steak kahit sunog! Haha)...and as she requested too so long time ago, I cooked this chicken flakes chorvanes( we call it pastil in our home town).. I'm not good at cooking but she is (pero wala akong pakialam.. haha).. So here's our bruch!!

Selfie at 30!! Haha, sorry but I must post this.

Sing and eat!

Roam around... my first time at SM Aura (parang DH lang, nag de day off..).

That would be all.. good night!

Happy Birthday To Me!!!

8:57 am

I started my birthday being late at work... its my 4th late for this month, 3 more and ill be warned for suspension.. haha... but its okay, I must experienced being warned sometimes.. hehe

And look what welcomed me in my table... thanks lee!! Im sooo touched.. hehe

11:55am
Thanks to Mac (na dinamay pa si Jon) for this... Act of being thoughtful kahit ganto lang kasimple is much appreciated.

1:35pm
This one's from Sheena.. it's so overwhelming when someone you didn't expect to give you anything gives you something.

4:35pm
Merienda!

5:35pm
Took a bus going to somewhere we didn't know at first...basta gusto ko lang kase sumakay ng bus, buti na lang pinagbigyan nila ako sa kababawan kong ito...Honestly, it feels good..

8:00pm
Just take pictures! (At mandamay pa ng iba)...

9:45pm
Thanks Margaux!

10:11pm
So that's how an introvert, with few friends, with no lovelife, far from home, a dork, boring girl celebrates her birthday!...and it was just fine though honestly this is the birthday that I didn't want to arrive that fast... but it happened just so fast... i didn't have a choice but to face it.. hahaha...

To all my relatives, friends and officemates who remembered and greeted me... thank you so much!!!... it made me feel that birthdays should be a happy day despite me hating it to come (ang tanda ko na pala!).. haha.... and ofcourse, I thank God I've come this far..

Good night!

Team Building 2014

I'm honestly feeling really exhausted right now... my body really aches, my arms, my legs, my back, my tummy... this is due to our team building yesterday held at Gratchi's Farm Tagaytay... I'm not used to physical activities, I'm so lampa... buti nga di ako bumagsak sa PE...hehe..

No preparation at all, no jogging or whatsoever, then all of a sudden, I've got no choice but to involve myself to our activities...  I had ran a lot, the military crawl, at kung anu ano pang farm race,  mind games and my weakness, the trust fall!!! I thought I really couldn't do that, I don't have trust issues but I just can't let myself fall! to me that was suicidal, O.A noh? Haha.. but I did it, I couldn't fail my team....

Buti na lang not all of us have to do this (picture below).. pero tingin ko mas kaya ko pang gawin yan kesa sa trust fall...feeling ko lang naman. haha

Photo credit: Maam Anna

At first, I didn't wanna join... ayoko na ng outing... as I've said, di naman ako sanay sa mga ganong activities, sa payat kong to,haha.. I might weaken my team, and I don't want that to happen.. but I was glad that they didn't make me feel that I'm an outcast despite me being so lampa, and I did what I can do.... though we ranked second, we had so much fun, at least we're not the last para wala ng mudslide! Hehe.. here's more pictures  (that I don't own).

                            Photo Credit: FBB

Photo Credit: Lee

Photo Credit: FBB

That's all! I'm so drop dead tired!!! Here's my goodnight!

yes, I'm gonna be okay

The saddest part of having a vacation home is the time you have to leave again ... its really making me feel sad.. as always, If only I know going back there is really worth sacrificing my time here, then it wouldn't be that hard.. I don't even know why I have to go back there! Haha!

Stop it Ash!.. Your job is waiting for you there, I know its sad, its sucks being in a place you're not even sure why, buy that's not the attitude...Stop puzzling your mind a lot, its gonna be okay.... you always do.