December in Primea

It's been the 5th time I am observing December in Discovery Primea Project... maybe it would be the last.. I hope it will.. kinda overstaying and extending too much... as mentioned in our poster during our site christmas party  yesterday "last na to".

Our Company Year End Party at SMEX MOA last Sunday.. Our first time to celebrate it in SemiFormal Attire (Filipiniana), maybe because it's our 30th Anniversary.

And my first time not to join the group presentation.. I'm too old for that.

Throwback! Here are the recap of my previous December in my current company: (top picture: Site  Office / bottom: Company)

2010

2011

2012

2013

That's it. Anyway, there's no Christmas in our religion... my participation is just for camaraderie sake.

I feel a little nostalgic.. this is also my first December that I'm not going home because I chose to be somewhere else...

Anyway, Happy Holidays everyone!

21Dec14

Today:  Had our Company Year End Party... you know that feeling when you thought you looked just fine the whole day but you're actually not??? Hahaha... you feel like you want to restart the day again but you just can't... I'm not really a "make up person".. sometimes I feel like more terrible looking when I put make up on.. or because I don't know how... look at my pictures above with my friend.. I think I lost my eye brows!! Haha

Anyway, if I looked awful today, damaged has been done...I couldn't do anything about it.. so get over it, move on and wait for my brows to grow again...hehe

Good night! Tired much.

17Dec14

TODAY: Done with my cost report.. started doing Monthly billing... yes, I'm tired! Booked some hotels for our tour next week .. I hope it will be smooth sailing.. and the picture above, I'm still working when these two kept on disturbing me.. they can be so annoying sometimes ahaha.

A bit upset with someone too. 

WORDS LEFT UNSPOKEN TO SOMEONE: It's not always what you see is what you get... sometimes, my actions are not truly what's in my heart, but its something you made me feel that I should do...

REMINDER TO.SELF: Don't be so hard on yourself understanding different people's behavior... you're not even a psychiatrist. Some people are truly bad, narrow minded, selfish and inconsiderate.. that's natural, that's who they are and you couldn't stop it..  but you can control your temper and emotion towards them. Don't let anyone ruin your self esteem.

Good night!

12.13.14

TODAY: Yung totoo, wala ako sa mood magblog kaso sayang yung title.. its 12.13.14 pala ngayon.. haha.. Bago ko sana simulan ang blog na to eh makakain sana.. nagugutom ako!! Kaso, my ref is almost empty... haha... naggrocery naman ako kanina.. pero puro chips at chocolates naman binili ko... I had early dinner sa landmark, sabi ko magluluto na lang ako.. kaso sinumpong nanaman ako ng katamaran.... pagod lang ako! Sensya na kung natatamad ako.. hehe... so eto, kelangan magselfie kasama ang personal ref na to.. haha

Nabusy ako sa paggawa ng cost report.. natapos naman kaso wala yung magchecheck... kaya diko pa rin naipasa.. tapos, ano pa ba??? Wala na.. haha.. susulatan ko na nga lang yung soulmate ko.. wahaha

LETTER TO SOULMATE:

Alam mo ikaw! Nakakainis kana minsan, sana taga Pilipinas ka lang kase magtatagalog muna ako.. ahahah.. oo, nakakainis ka... kase sa kaibuturan ng aking puso eh ramdam kong di ka naman nag eexist... wala naman talagang ikaw! Wala namang soulmate soulmate... para lang yan sa mga hopeless romantic, para sa mga tanga.. ahaha! At yun ang nakakainis, nagiging tanga ako.. gusto ko pa ring maniwalang anjan ka lang.. 30 years na nga yung sinasayang ko sa pag aakalang merong ikaw.. pero sana nga anjan ka lang, hinihintay kita... pero ang hirap ko ring hanapin, lam mo ba yun?? Nasa maling lugar ata ako e.. wala ka naman dito e.. wala ka talaga ano? Hehe... yung totoo kase naniniwala ako na kahit di kita hanapin, eh magkikita pa rin tayo dahil yun ang tadhana natin... o diba? Ang tanga ko ulit? Haha.. ayos lang.. kesa naman mapunta ako sa walang kwentang tao.... minsan, feeling ko wala rin naman akong kwenta, kaya dapat may kwenta ka..hahahaha... joke lang... seryoso, di naman mataas ang standard ko gaya ng iniisip ng iba, din rin ako choosy, sino ba naman ako para magset ng standard?? Isa lang akong pangkaraniwang nilalang, walang super powers, ni hindi ako marunong mag ayos ng buhok or mag-make up.. maglipstick nga lang ako e, nagkakagulo na sila... walag sanay na makita akong nag-iinarte.. hehe.. maarte ako, pero hindi physically.. di rin ako marunong makitungo sa ibang tao.. di rin ako mahilig mamansin or magpapansin...  ayaw ko rin ng nililigawan ako.. ahaha... or baka kase ayaw ko rin dun sa mga nagtangka..kaya hindi ko na pinapatagal, pinaparamdam ko na lang or sinasabi ko ng deretso na ayaw ko.. arte noh? Gusto ko kase ikaw at ikaw lang talaga.. haha... Feeling ko kase pag dumating ka, alam ko na agad na ikaw yun.... ang haba pala ng nasulat ko sayo.... makakarating ba sayo to? Or pag nagkita tayo papabasa ko na lang yung mga sulat ko sayo kaso eh, baka wala naman talagang ikaw.. pero hayaan mo na ako maniniwala pa rin ako...  good night na sayo!

I don't know...

Just read that somewhere.. and whoever wrote that, here's from me to you... "I don't really know mine either, so you're not alone... and maybe its alright, we don't really have to try too hard to know...all we have to do when life knocks us with uncertainty is to breathe, let go, trust, carefree, take a break, stop thinking for a while, inhale exhale and smile away those unwanted thoughts"... and I'm trying too...

anyway.... TODAY:  Yap, I was busy but I still had the time to participate in this  funny conversation.. I'm not joining our Christmas Presentation this year... but during our meeting this morning, my boss told me to participate because our team is lacking with participants... but no way, I'm not joining still.. haha.. I can't!.. I won't.... and my so called friends are teasing me....

That's it! Haha... see? I didn't join the practice.. kasabay pa rin nila ako! Ahaha

 Ayun lang.. alang kwenta yung post ko.. haha

Good night!

10 Dec 14

TODAY: I'm trying to make each day different so I could write something new at the end of the day... but I always end up with same old stories... like how busy I was during work, my typical dinner with my friends after work, like how my heart keeps on breaking for the things I can't get...(because I'm not doing anything about it) hahaha.. but good to know my heart still manages to work and I still breath.. Thank God.

Anyway.. here's my picture for today.. haha who cares about my picture??? I do.. haha

The one at left, a photo of me at the male's quarter while waiting for lee.. wahahaha... keep that a secret.. I'm not supposed to be there... blame Lee.. he kept me waiting outside so I went in...

The other one, just now.. so pissed off with my pimples... grrrr... why o why can't they leave my face? It's making me more ugly!!! Hahaha...  oh, I'm sorry if I keep on saying that.. I love myself..


WHAT'S THE HAPPIEST THING HAPPENED TODAY:
I can't remember.. but this conversation made me laugh out loud all by myself.. haha

REMINDER TO SELF:
You're not just nobody...haha.. you are amazing! Chos!

LETTER TO SOULMATE:
I maybe crazy for I keep on writing you. I miss you ( even though I'm not sure who you you really are).. sorry for being so corny...I hope you're okay..

Goodnight!

9Dec14

REMINDER TO.SELF: Remind your.self that its okay to lose something... even if you don't deserve it, just let it be.. everybody loses something they value and cared about... ask anyone, I bet no one would answer that they haven't lose anything in their entire life. So its okay, let it go... stop growling, it will only make you more disturbed and it wont give you peace.... don't complicate things, just let it go!... things really do come and go....

TODAY:
Good night!

First Sunday Of December

TODAY:
Woke up late..  bawi bawi rin ng tulog pag may time..  watched another Asian Movie, The New Perfect Two... it's more of father and son relationship.. and its too cute but there were moments it made me cry.. grabe napakaiyakin ko na!!! Haha... sign of aging din ba to.... masyado ng mababaw ang luha ko... its highly recommended... nung una ayaw ko sana panuorin.. pero  natapos ko rin..

I finally had a haircut.. it wasn't really short though I really want it above my shoulder.. but my friends didn't want to cut my hair.. di raw bagay saken yung maiksi... di raw nila ako papansinin.. ahahaha..

My short hair... di nga ba talaga bagay saken to??? Hahaha.. or wala naman talagang bagay saken?

Anyway, grocery at Robinson... watched short videos on the YouTube, read chicken soup... now who wants some hersheys???

GOODNIGHT MY BITTER SWEET DECEMBER!

P.S. 11:08 pm.. I'm done writing my thoughts on that notebook but I didn't realize that today is 7th and not 8th... I really do have problems with date. Good night again.

6dec14

TODAY:

With rose and margaux..

Randomly scanning youtube asian movies.. and I landed to this... A Moment of Love...
It' s now one of my new favorite... I love it because, it was Vic Zhou... my first asianobela crush!... haha.. remember Hua zei Lei of Meteor Garden?? Oo, sya yung first crush ko... I've even composed a lot of poems for him... 

Aside from seeing him again, I love the movie because its about traveling and meeting different people along the way... it says that in traveling, it's not only what's out there that you are learning, but something about yourself.

And I love the girl's job... I wanna be like her.. 

And mostly the touching part, that love that never dies despite the absence of one another..

Parang ang gulo ng pinagsusulat ko. Antok na kase ako. Goodnight!

5 Dec 14

TODAY:

I really don't know how to deal with people, especially with the opposite sex, particularly the strangers.This morning, a group of men greeted me while on my way to office, mga workers sa site, they're not familiar to me, kaya diko masyado pinapansin....  there are thousand workers in our project, how could I recognize them, I don't even look at their faces... ako siguro pamilyar sa kanila, pero ako hindi.. We took same jeepney, nilibre pa ako ng pamasahe nung isa.. he was talking to me... I've answered him with so tipid na yes or no lang.. maybe they we're thinking na ang suplada ko naman.. haha! When we went down of the jeepney, I told them to go ahead, mabagal kase ako maglakad.. then I thank him sa libreng pamasahe... buti na lang di ako nalate sa sobrang bagal ko maglakad para wag lang sila makasabay.... I'm so rude! Ahaha..

WORK MODE..... #^#**¥÷&;*$*&×&*=*/&&÷*$

Lee was suspended kaya medyo tahimik mundo ko... Lunch time with jay r and miko.

WORK MODE ULIT.....

Again, Lee was suspended kaya  parang walang magulo, honestly, kahit madalas ako mairita kay lee, he's already someone I can call a friend, my life would be too dull without him in my life...oo, friends lang! Wag kang malisyoso.. haha..I was calling marj if she will meet me.. she can't ,umuwi pala sya.. so I asked Mac na sabay na kami lumabas,   natawa ako sa kanya.. sabi nya panakip butas lang pala sya.. ahahaha.... we went out of office together .. had dinner and parted ways.. Masyado pang maaga non, I don't wanna go home yet.. so what I did was window shopped... play dress thing... haha! I don't know what gotten to my mind to fit this girly dress.. ahahaha... its not so me to wear such, I'm just curious how I'd looked like, so this is how.. haha... syempre, diko naman binili yan..

Then went home.. ang traffic!

While walking, the moon catches my attention, its different.. parang kulay green nanaman.. dahil jan, magkakaron ako ng entry sa letters to soulmate.. eto na yun.. lets get baduy!

LETTER TO SOULMATE:

Hey, I don't know why you always cross my mind everytime the moon is looking differently than its usual.. Its like though you are far away somewhere I don't know, the moon connects us.. it revolves the Earth, so it pass by to where you are... I guess we're not too far... unless you're an alien! Haha.. we may never get the chance to see each other, I may feel like you're too close in my heart yet you're too far, I'm just right here, your soulmate.. so, if in its smallest possible way you get to read this... I hope the moon is right up there too... can you look at it for me?? Can you just at least smile and think of me too?? Your soulmate here is sending you my sweetest hi! Sorry if it's the least that I can do to get near you... I hope you're fine. Good night!

4 Dec 14

That's all!... wait.. this mirror selfie... can I audition in a horror film? Haha

GOODNIGHT! :)

3Dec14

TODAY:
Staring blankly... parang obligado akong magsulat kahit wala akong masulat... haha.. I was feeling inlove kanina.. oo kanina lang.. haha.. would you believe me pag sinabi kong nafefeel ko lang na inlove ako kahit hindi ako sigurado kanino or basta yung feeling lang?? Haha.. weirdo! Pero oo nga..

Tapos walang katapusang work mode.. too many phone calls.. call center agent lang ang peg ko.. yung billing ko napabayaan ko tuloy. Haha

Badtrip pa rin ako kase dapat losen up lang yung December, dapat walang cost report.. pero meron meron meron!! Grr.....I was targeting to fix my messy table before the year ends.. kase sobrang makalat at ang daming papel, it wont be surprising if you'll find a dead body there.. hahaha!

Errr...wala ng kasense sense yung blog ko.. parang basta may masabi lang.. hahaha...

Nga pala.. may blog akong ang pamagat 31Nov14... e wala naman 31 sa November! Hahaha... hanggang ngayon diko pa rin kabisado yung dates.. Dec 3 na, ngayon ko lang napansin yun... shame on me!!! Haha.. naedit ko na...

Sige good night na...

The Walking Dead MidSeason Finale Made Me Cry

Walking Dead Season 5 Episode 8 or the Midseason Finale made me cry!! Haha.. yah, it did.. I know... who would cry in a post- apocalyptic horror television series??!!.. well, me!... who would not??? Look at their faces here when Beth died....

Who won't be moved????... That look from Daryll... it broke my heart...knowing Daryll??? The tough guy, but he wasn't able to hold his emotion.. (ako pa kaya? Ang dakilang o.a.. haha)

And I never stopped my tears from falling when Beth's sister Maggie (who thought her sister must be dead all this time) was so excited to see her again... yes, indeed,  she saw her again.. lifeless.. darn it.

So asking me why I am so hooked with watching this kind of series when everybody would thought, its nonsense, its gruesome? ... maybe it is... but for me, its not totally nonsense... they're showing the art of survival, to live when you have almost no reason to live, to keep their humanity in tact despite being surrounded with the chaotic world full of zombies not to mention the  other groups with hostile and brute means of surviving, to hold on to those few people you care about and protect each other for as long as they can, to appreciate the things you have because it means a lot when you lose them...... and when you lose them, all you've got are good memories...

See you in February WD!