My Indecisiveness is driving me nuts!

I have fixed my mind right? That I’ll be resigning earlier next year, I’ll try my luck in abroad.. but why am I not booking a flight ticket now!

I thought I’m so much fed up with my uncertainties that at last I’ve made up mind... but  where the hell is my plane ticket now.

I’m doing fine with my present job, its an honor to be part of the construction of an high end 67^th storey condominium, got no problem with my officemates (not really), a salary that wouldn’t at least starve me.

But on the other hand, working here is making me far from my family, and I don’t think it would make a big difference if I’ll do it abroad, at least the salary is larger than I could get in here, I could afford more than anything I want, travel and so on… I could treat not only myself but my family.. They’re not asking anything from me, but I will feel good if I would be able to give them something.

But I heard life in abroad is not that easy as well. It’s actually a risk and unfortunately, I’m not a risk taker.

O my! I'm confused again! i'm not getting any younger and still concluding a decision is so hard for me. why o why??.. i think i'm crazy. haha

Somebody help me!!!!!!!!!! that's what wahhhhhhhhhhhh all about.

AT ANO NA ANG GAGAWIN KO SA BUHAY KO?

hindi ko alam, maraming oras na ang sinayang ko at nagsasayang pa....

wahhhhhhhhhhhhhhh!

hindi pa naman ako nababaliw..

haha

Everybody is getting married but not me...

i was facebooking, and saw three of my friends wedding pics.. ofcourse, its time to get married now... but  i'm a late bloomer and I can't imagine myself tying the knot so soon...

I never been a flower girl, not even anyone's bridesmaid (unlike my sister also my brothers as groomsmen), could that be a sign of singleness for life huh?

and yeah, my prince groom to be is lost till now, maybe forever...

anyway, i'll be fine alone.

COMMERCIAL DEPARTMENT'S PIZZA PARTY

The Primea's  Commercial Department (maam May, maam leneth, Aimee and yours truly)

Our little Christmas tree and Maam May's Pizza treat

Shakeys's Angus Beef for me

Ofcourse i dont celebrate Christmas, this is just "pakikisama".. ;)

keep words unsaid?

i feel disgusted with someone.. but i jus't couldn't tell him.

I STILL HATE YOU EXJR

Another letter for EXJR, of course I feel better now than before, there are just times like this that I’m being reminded of that anger I was trying to bury for quiet long now. And because blurting it out is not possible, this is the only way to keep the rage from spoiling inside me, write it.

"There were some moments I thought I have moved on, that I don’t care about you anymore. Maybe what I’ve felt for you before is about to subside, and that’s what I am wishing too, that your memories will fade. I know that’s hard since  I can still see you around. 

I wanted to tell you that I hated you, but I never did. And now it seems that you are free from my silent grudge,-- that what you did was fine, that it didn’t affect me a bit.

What else can I do? I am just afraid that I couldn’t defend my self if I’ll tell you that your presence disgusts me. Coz if I do, I might carry the shame if you’ll answer me back this, “what do we had then that gives you now the right to feel mad at me?”

I swear I wanted you to know how much you’ve hurt me. That’s why I don’t keep this message private so somehow you’ll read this even if it cost my humiliation. I wanted you to read my letters coz I couldn’t tell it to your face…

This can be wrong; I must not hate you… but I’m sorry, I hate you. “

My Cooking Talent

I don’t really cook on usual days… aside from, feeling tired after work, I’m such a lousy cook as well.. hehe

I know little about cooking, plain rice, fried egg, fish, chicken—stuffs as basic as that, that’s all I know, and sometimes I couldn’t even perfect it, I unintentionally overcooked them.

And because of that, I hardly save money because I tend to eat anywhere, different fast food chains and resto.. (but not those really expensive one, or else I’ll end up broke), I’ve got few choices as well for I am trying really hard to get rid of foods with pork related products.

Since yesterday was Sunday, I cooked ground beef with carrots, potatoes and other seasonings, what’d you call that recipe? I don’t know… The outcome? Too oily.. hahaha… but enjoyed it.

And today, (holiday), I made sweet and sour fish, I haven’t tasted it yet, I’m not hungry yet. And I don’t think I was doing a good job on that, I overcooked the fish (again)…

Picture? No way.. I’m being lazy doing that right now, and what for? I know I wouldn’t make a good presentation.. hehe

Got to eat my dinner now..